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I don't know why you would want to see me.
I'd rather not see you. I'll have to think about it another time.

> BPD/Bipolar GF sabotaging own recovery
> Also starting to realize she may have done some bad shit
> Basically forcing me to go NC for essentially days
> Therapy was apparently intense and we need to talk about it
> She's probably expecting me to engage in her drama
> I'm going to be nonchalant about most of it and attempt to explain my emotions in the most neutral ways possible so she can't play victim

So far being nice and not giving a fuck is working but I'm still secretly crying and having suicidal ideation (not gonna do it desu, just would be easier than dealing with it.) at home. Gonna see a friend tomorrow and catch up, though. Seeing some good art will clear the head.

I never thought I'd actually want to see a dick pic but yours took the cake. Hey, how much to get on that ride? Do want.

Rape isn't that big of a problem in the west

I just found out that a friend I met online has died. Talk to her for years too.

Damn.

>inb4 "she" is lying

Free.

No condom.

You actually want a kid. Don't you.

Kill all NIGGERS!

I'm getting those thoughts again. I'm just thinking about slapping you right now.

Lol. Not you JX. I'm pretty sure you're not the hung nerd I was talking about. You are an engineer, mine is a programmer. Also I've been fixed- no kids ever. Hooray!

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Not an engineer anymore. Not for now at least.

I'm recovering from PTSD following childhood abuse.
I don't like it. I should really see a psychiatrist.

Sexism = Racism

I think my 4 year relationship is coming to an end.

She recently (by recently I mean a few months ago) has wanted to have the possibility of having kids in the future, and I had a vasectomy with no hesitation a year ago.

We've both graduated college together, and have had this serious talk about whether or not this should continue because of it.

It hurts so fucking bad because I love her, and she loves me, but this is something that might end the relationship for good.

I don't know what to do. Any serious advice would be greatly appreciated

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I'm thinking of you.
Today in particular, no reason.
Every time you're about to do the show, you have this positive excitement that's rather spreading to others - electrically concentrated on the operation at hand, on arranging, on how perfect all should be. You invest yourself fully, sometimes I'm afraid you can forget about everything else.
And every time I feel how much of yourself you give for that moment.
Those last days were another sort of busy for you though.

Sometimes I ask myself whether your feelings are so powerful that anybody could emphasize with your passion (yes I think it's that, being passionate for what you do)...
Anyways, today I think of you.
I have your sperfume's smell around me, it's sweeter than the last time I could smell it.
I am on holidays, repairing things in the house, arranging things... I'm the only one in the family who can use a drilling machine.
One last thing. Mimosa Pudica.
Est-ce que je suis comme une mimosa ? Le même genre de pudeur ? Ou est-ce que c'est toi qui es comme ça ? Ou est-ce qu'on est tous des Mimosa Pudica ?

I hope I fall in love again

Never have kids because she wants them. You'll grow to resent yourself, the relationship, and the kid. If a baby is more important to her than you are, she is not lifetime wife material. It will hurt, but you must move on. Talk to her but be prepared to see who she truly loves: you or her hormones.

I'm going back to the neighborhood I grew up in to help a friend move on Sunday. Should I ask some of the people who knew both me and the woman who molested me about her? I'm honestly kinda scared to do so.

I agree with you completely. I just never thought it would come to this. She didn't raise her concerns before I had the vasectomy.

It's ripping my heart into pieces because she told me that she still loves me, cried into my arms, and fell asleep, but before was calm and detached about us ending the relationship because of us going separate ways. I don't know why her mind had to change about this, and I have no ideas if it was the hormones or something else. I'm fucking confused and hurt.

It's most likely hormones. Also try talking to her about why a kid is so important that she'd throw you away. A lot of the time the hormones make women want kids for foolish small reasons. You may be able to talk some sense into her.

Magsitulog na kayo umaga na! z z z z z
Matulog na kayo!!!

I found a "too good to be true"
My golden rule has always been "if its too good to be true, it often is", but I don't care much anymore. I like this person too much, and they like me, all I care about is fucking it up from my side.

Don't let me fuck this one up.

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I don't know what to do. Just generally. About anything. I was abused by my family my whole life so I went no contact. But I have no romantic partner because the last two have cheated on me and beat me and I'm scared of getting hurt. I'm scared I annoy my friends. So I don't talk to anyone. I just go to work and go home to my dog.

Everyone else at least has family. I have no one. I talk to no one anymore. I live paycheck to paycheck in an old, broken down house I rent. I'm hurting so bad and it's worse every day. I cut and burn myself because it hurts less and distracts me from the real pain.

I'm 30. I stopped cutting when I was 17. I hate that I was born. This isn't a life. And no one wants to be with a person without a family.

Who's the golden lady(or boy)?

Me too! I never thought I'd find someone with so much in common with me, such a similar personality, who actually likes me for me. Even crazier, they check all my "hottie" checkboxes. I have been skeptical that it's all a trap somehow. Nothing ever goes this right. After two months they have proven to be nothing but honest, good and kind to me. Yet here I am, also trying to ignore my irrational fear that I'll fuck it all up as I try damned hard not to fuck it all up on my side.

Hang in there. You can do it! Let's both be happy for once!

Please don't let either of us fuck it up.

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She says its because she'd make a great mother and I'd make a great father, and how it's adding more versions of us into the world and of her dad. She wants a family, and I'm not going to criticize her for wanting that. It isn't hormones; it's the fact that I made an adamant decision about what I did not want out of my life and she wants to keep options open. It's made our relationship un-romantic despite me trying hard.

My position is that bringing a kid into this world isn't right for me, and I couldn't handle emotionally seeing it go through shit like the people that post on here do. Being unlovable, low-functioning, etc.

I should press about that would she throw me away for the possibility of having a kid. Fuck this fucking shit.

> We'd make great parents, more versions (...) of her dad
Unresolved father issues ahoy.

> Wants to keep options open, wants a kid
Does not compute. Kids close a lot more options than they open. Also, she isn't mature enough to know what she wants in life. Bad mother material.

> Having a kid isn't right for me
Good on you for knowing yourself enough to recognize that and being mature and strong enough to act on it!

> Fuck this fucking shit
Totally agreed. She has serious issues and you are getting hurt here over them. It's bullshit. If she refuses to recognize her problems and fix them, you deserve better as a mature, intelligent man.

This is my daily struggle. The past haunts the viewer, exit stage right.

Yeah, my past is unironically cringy. time to delete browser history.

Everyone has a cringy past. We can only try to have a less cringy future. Thank god you can change your screen name and email address.

thanks friend

I'm afraid I'm falling out of love with her.

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Thank god for that :)
You're right, it's best to forget it and move on.

I hurt her badly. Even after all these years she still can't talk to me and breaks down when she hears of me. It pains me to the very core what i did and that I can't make up for it. If you're seeing this by any chance I'm sorry, very much so.

Haha what's the surprise this time ?
À demain. ..

I don't like this city. I used to love ir because it was all I knew as a kid, but after living in another country for a while I now see why my mom decided to move out of here. The quality of life is terrible. I can't stay here and I won't. I'd rather go back to my third world country ,where I know how things work, than live here. Fuck this place

P, goddamn it why must you be so cute?
You know I can't do shit around you.

You too sweetheart

Diagnosed with PCOS 2 years ago and have made no progress at all. Still growing stubble, still 40 pounds overweight, still covered in acne. I can see my hair thinning.
I wish I knew there was something wrong with me earlier. It's going to keep getting worse. The realization I'm going to die alone is starting to sink in.

How do I stop masturbating?
I do it daily and when I'm not doing it, I just want to do something with my dick.

I want to come to terms with the fact that I'm never going to be loved, because there's really not a chance in hell that it'll ever happen.

I just want to be okay with it. I don't want to be told to look on the bright side, I don't want to be told there's "someone out there" for me, I'm sick of this. I'm tired. I'm almost 30, it's humiliating at this point. I just want peace.

just leave her
she won't get better, just drag you down and then discard you once you've got nothing more to give

I think I blew it again.
No I know I blew it.
I just wanted to be with her.

Vous êtes stupide et vous devez réaliser que je ne suis pas intéressé à être plus que des connaissances.
We had a good run. I run with another now.

We didn't have any run since we never met. I certainly agree to this : it'd bring me satisfaction to at least be acquainted.

When two people don't speak about something...

It either means nothing to them, or it means everything.

Holy shit i've finally come to the realization that girls really do only like assholes like its not a meme dude and i'm kind of freaking out right now and am disgusted with myself man you should see my last text to my ex
i was such a bitch thinking girls actually liked you if you cared about them what a fucking joke she's all over some chad cock right now who won't give her the light of day fuck i'm just so angry with myself don't ever show your true feelings to anyone it will bite you in the ass fuck people. And im not saying nice guys finish last or follow that ideology if you call your self a nice guy you're a cuck now im just jaded i guess this was going to happen sooner or later i had a fucked up perspective of what love is.

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You dont have to see people for them to care.
Sometimes people just dont know what to say or how to be there.

You'll see it in their eyes when they look at you, even if they can't (for whatever reason, and we all have them) speak to you or make time for your personal company.

Sometimes that has to be enough.

I blame the modern media.

They tell young men they must respect women.
They also tell young women "You're young, go after the bad boys if you want".

How'd they think the next generation would end up, holy shit?

Then I take a closer look at the media and suddenly I'm a nazi.

If a girl likes bad boys, let her have 'em. You don't need that trash. Let the assholes have each other.

I don't want to be with a girl that likes assholes because that would mean I'm a fucking asshole.

Why all the alien 3D porn tends to have this pussy ripping thing, so they basically fuck the girls gut through the hole and somehow she stays conscious, sometimes even aroused. WTF give them normal sized dicks.

Things are not binary.
It's never either black or white.
It's never either everything or nothing.
It's never either noise or silence.
As much as we want to convince ourselves, it's never the way we say it is.

It's none of my business.

Chill

Dude if she wants children thats it. There will be no talking her out of this. Even if you managed to do it, its only temporary until it eats at her and she snaps. If you absolutely can not see yourself having children this relationship is fucking dead. She is the type who will feel empty if she never has children. If you are the type who can not stand the thought of it because something may go wrong with their development this is not going to end in a healthy compromise for eother of you. This is not shitty of her, this is not shitty of you. You both want totally different things ands its a good thing you both realized it 4 years in instead of 8. Be thankful for this, now you can both find more suitable partners.

I CAN'T GET ANYTHING DONE
I'M STUCK IN LIMBO
I CAN'T ANYTHING FUCKING DONE
FUCK
FUCK
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AAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHH

AAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

I TRIED CONSUMING LOTS OF CAFFEINE, RHODIOLA, ELEUTHERO, BUT IT JUST MAKES THE PARALYSIS MORE COMFORTABLE. I'M SITTING HERE PRACTICALLY MOTIONLESS BUT OSCILLATING RAPIDLY INSIDE.

IT'S 5:46AM.

I'D RATHER GET OUT THE ROPE THAN NOT GET ANYTHING DONE FOR ANOTHER DAY.

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I feel like self harming again.

FIND SOME OTHER WAY TO FEEL IN CONTROL.
FIND SOME OTHER PROOF THAT YOU'RE ALIVE.
REDIRECT YOUR PAIN TO AN OUTLET THAT GENERATES MEANINGFUL RESULTS.

EVERYTHING IS ABOUT CONTROL. TAKE CONTROL. REAL CONTROL.

I’m in control, man (unlike someone hehe) I just feel kinda bad and nothing helps to relieve as much

Dude, who the fuck do you think you are ?

>I should press about that would she throw me away for the possibility of having a kid.
Shit not to be mean but I would. Children are important to most women, sorry user. Even if you guys seem perfect for each other that alone proves that you are not and this relationship is dying, especially on her end. Eventually if you keep going and she caves to your childless desires she will only resent you for wasting her fertile years and feel huge regret when her fertility is timed. Most women have a strong biological programming to want children. Its as natural as them breathing air. And when most women love a man, really love him, we REALLY want to have his children too. Its just how it is.

Go ahead and dig the flesh, dig it so good until you reach the bone, and when you reach the bone break it and eat it, eat yourself up until you vanish like a black hole that absorbs itself to never be born again.

The law of conservation of mass or principle of mass conservation states that for any system closed to all transfers of matter and energy, the mass of the system must remain constant over time, as system's mass cannot change, so quantity can neither be added nor be removed.
en.m.wikipedia.org/wiki/Conservation_of_mass

???

Can’t wait to be dead so my troubles and concerns don’t matter anymore.

How long is this gonna repeat? im tired of this bullshit.

The mind has limitless possibilities that with time become science.

Larper intruder

Same, more or less. Death is my reward for enduring this place.

I'll just try to leave it better than I found it.

We're not meant to be.

Are you sure that you want me to leave? I don't want to leave you as a dry corpse.

I never went to go out for a drink but I was invited and I said yes.
Was never much into alcohol so I don't know what to even get. What the hell do you even do in a bar? Or wear for it?
This shit is stressing me out more than it should.

Chemtrails are safe and effective.

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Force yourself to stop. Develop self control. Start reading. Get a job, a girl friend, spend time in other ways. Sounds like an addiction. You need to break it.

I get having a change of plan but at least have the decency to send a fucking message considering you asked to meet up in the first place

Who is this for?

I won't what this topic is.

I can't tell the truth from lies anymore.
someone make it stop.

I just want to be close to you.

I can’t cry like this anymore. It hurts so much. I’m afraid to say goodbye but I know I have to. I love you.

>The mind has limitless possibilities that with time become science.
What?

Just tell me the truth, why is it so difficult to be honest?

About what?

What do you want to hear from me? What matter we are talking about?

Used females have no value except as cum recepticles

On some level I wish I could go back to being a drunken individual, but my stomach is messed up. If it was possible I wonder what I would ultimately do.

I don't know who you really are and what you want from me.

Am I nothing but a replaceable merchandise? it's so unfair, I never treated you like that, I would never replace you so why are you doing this? why are you like this?

what about females used by other females?

That's fine as long as they are virgins

What did they do?

Lol, virginity is not a thing anymore, you’ve been lied all the way.

I'm talking to a woman ive known and have had a crush on for 5 years and last night I fucked my ex, who still lives with me. Do I tell her? Do I just live with the guilt? Its eating me up. I've improved everything after breaking up with my exgf (learning to be a family man, quiting wow, reading books, learning to cook, working overtime etc.) I dont want the first time I say "I love you" to have a "But I did xxxx" at the end.