Apologies Jow Forums, I need to vent until AI and VR advance enough for losers like me to escape reality with an e-woman.
I stopped watching anime about 10 years ago because seeing constant depictions of women going into sexual/romantic situations with the male protagonists really depressed me as it's something that I've never experienced, and lately that same feeling of missing out on a bunch of shit has been kicking me in the balls more and more frequently in real life situations.
A 31yo adult male shouldn't have to work his hardest to not burst into tears while riding a bus back home after a hard day of office crap, specially if the reason why he's about to cry is due to a pretty girl incidentally entering his social circle a few weeks ago and innocently joking about the fact that she knows he's attracted to her, despite her being already with another member of the aforementioned social circle.
Am I that good of an actor that nobody knows that shit hurts me in ways I can't even explain? I understand this sounds like she's a mean spirited bitch doing it to fuck with my head or for the attention but as I've experienced that before with different females in different scenarios, I'd venture to say that's not the case here. In this clusterfuck of feelings I have, I actually get angry at myself for liking her so much.
Just seeing her pretty face smile at me reminds me of all that shit I've never lived even as I involuntarily smile back, and in turn makes me super sad like when I was going through high school, so I come home feeling like absolute shit and I can't bother anyone with my angst because they have serious shit to deal with and I end up browsing whore sites for hours at a time trying to find a prostitute that's willing to have a conversation with me for a non-outrageous amount of money, until I give up after they all tell me to go fuck myself and end up jacking off to increasingly more fucked up porn while still having thoughts of how desperately lonely I am.
Get her fired or start some rumor she hates Mexicans not whatever to ruin her life in minecraft
Sebastian Peterson
lol?
Why would I though, the real problem here is that I find her very attractive and I wish I didn't, because it makes me incredibly anxious.
Adam Kelly
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Jacob Young
Certainly don't throw acid on her then just find a way to make her fat
Gabriel Robinson
>21124621 That's all fine and dandy to jack off, but nut-busting is not the main concern here.
I'm kinda looking for the normie experience, hand-holding, conversations, and whatever else couples do besides fucking. At this point I'd say outta curiosity more than anything else, but instinct is probably a major player in this bullshit too.
Caleb Powell
>A 31yo adult male shouldn't have to work his hardest to not burst into tears while riding a bus back home after a hard day of office crap, specially if the reason why he's about to cry is due to a pretty girl incidentally entering his social circle a few weeks ago and innocently joking about the fact that she knows he's attracted to her, despite her being already with another member of the aforementioned social circle.
You are not a man. You are a pathetic cuckold without a spine.
Logan Flores
lol
Ryan Johnson
>cuckold
p. sure you're not using this word right
Justin Kelly
Nancyboy, simp, faggot, girlyman, pussy etc etc. Less than a man. Grow up
Ian Watson
¯\_(ツ)_/¯
also, you seem very upset
Nathan Wilson
You are in a self-perpetrating cycle of unrealistic self-set expectations leaving you lonely. She is trying to get you out of it.
Remember: none of that shit is real. She is. Talk to her. Be her friend, remembering she is a PERSON and nothing you have seen of women so far is real. Give her a chance.
Juan Johnson
that's remarkably wise and dare I say even accurate; now onto moving from mild infatuation into friendship...
Have a heart-felt thank you.
Robert Bailey
No problem. Hang in there. There's a real world out there calling to you. Reach out and take it.
Jace Green
You can't be friends with someone you're attracted to.
Christian Butler
Friends is the first step of Girlfriend. You need to get to know each other for love to really grow. Also, he's new at being around people so friends is a good step in general.
Adam Perry
But the girl is already dating another guy. Don't get the poor fucks hopes up.
Oliver Adams
Try to be happy your friend scored, and do your damndest to look on her as nothing but another friend as well.
Cooper Nelson
worth a try though, I legitimately like her as a person, which is part of the reason why I'm attracted to her, and I realize I don't realistically have a shot with her even if she weren't with our mutual acquaintance so a friendship of some sort would be A-OK by me. Plus, not feeling so fucking anxious around attractive women would be an invaluable asset to me.
Jordan Martin
You can't be friends with someone you're attracted to.
Get a new hobby or join a club to meet new people.
Jason Edwards
>a friendship of some sort would be A-OK by me. Plus, not feeling so fucking anxious around attractive women would be an invaluable asset to me.
These are good starts! She's great practice for being around pretty women. Maybe you will eventually meet her pretty friends or find someone as your social circle grows?
Robert Murphy
Middle of the stairs bro all the good shit comes with the pain of another person
>Scratch my ass, get yelled at for shaking the bed >Leave the room in a hurry to piss, needs to know where I'm going >Cook for myself, why didn't I make her any >Cook for us, doesn't want any >Can't eat where I want, order same food at inflated price >Start new show together, our schedules conflict >Finish show by myself, can't rewatch together >Wait to finish show, she finished months ago >Talk about shared interests, can't do it again >Talk about new interests, that's boring too >Have an idea, that's stupid here's why
It's not a unique situation, others have it worse. Constantly arguing over nothing, cheating resulting disease or pregnancy, surprise addiction, etc.
Shit I still get so lonely right next to her.
Middle of the stairs bro
Dominic Bennett
oh I'm fully aware of all this, having been born and raised in a family of nothing but failed marriages that all ended terribly, but I feel really curious about the pleasant aspects of it since they're complete mysteries to me
