GIOYC

I’m sorry I abandoned her, but do your best to care for her like I couldn’t.

Also does she still have a thing for baked potatoes?

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Writing a song is hard...

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You are lucky you piss me off enough to dignify you any response at all, you dog. Keep her out of your head. It is no concern to you.

I can't stop thinking about buttfucking my wife. She wanted to try anal recently, and we both enjoyed it, but now I am a little bit obsessed. There's no one else I can say this to, so I wanted to say it here.

On Ho trading cards it seems like? Is this some Baseball card for whores shit?

I'm horny and lonely
I'm at a point where if anyone says a nice word to me and asks for sex I'll dick their brains out. I can't even jack off.
It only makes things worse.
Going to go fast and do hard stimulants for the next few days.
Will kill libido and erection.
Wish me luck.

Damn I'm insane as fuck. Literally screaming my head off insane. I'll never recover from this.

Hey, don't knock it. One Airwrecka is worth about 10 LaQuishas. A Sofia could probably get me 3 LaQuishas and maybe a Cynthia if I really tried to sell it.

I just want to be held. I dreamed about being held and cared about and it reinforced that I'm so lonely. I want to be there for someone and have them be there for me. I want someone to make a home with

How am I supposed to be able to allow women into my life if them trying to come in sets off automatic psychological responses which tell me my life is potentially in danger and they're gone my by time I'm done freaking out?

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holy shit. last night a girl i really liked for years and known pretty much all my life was over my house and we kissed deeply and cuddled while listening to some really great music together. i still cannot process it. i can't think straight. i feel like i'm on some sort of drug that holds me in a state of dumbfoundedness, confusion and mixed emotions. fucked up thing is me and her have to leave to uni in a few weeks so we cannot even be together if we wanted. it's hard to think about it.

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try alternate tunings for guitar!

You already did once. She'll never forget it and has been setting up revenge since.

In real life I don't have the little clippy thingy for my guitar capo thingies but right now I'm using my synthesizers.
I might overlay me playing guitar on the finished product though... maybe... if it sounds good.

I just wrote a diary entry for the first time in my life and holy shit I feel so much better about everything.

Sorry I'm half awake. It's in two different keys, I like writing melodies a lot.

keep at it soldier. writing songs is like a wall you just gotta keep going through it and trying to kick it in and then suddenly it just caves right in with the slightest move. be focused, i believe in u

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It's supposed to be 39 °C (102 °F) the next three days. I can't take this shit anymore. I already can't sleep as it is, I don't need to have the night heat added on top.
Fuck summer.

Do asians see color differently than normal people?

Yes they only see black and white

No, I meant more if they have crow vision since they all have black hair.

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I once got caught in a surface current. I dived underneath and anchored my feet to the sand. When I felt my hair move forward, I swam upward to catch the wave. It's nerve-wrecking seeing the shore move away when you're trying to stay still.

are you being literal or allegorical? i find this post beautiful

No it happened last week. Apparently I couldn't hear the life guard telling people to stay away from where I was because there was a current.

good you're safe then. be very careful please. any tips to remember in case i ever get stuck in one?

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Umm, I don't know. The best option tends to be anchoring yourself (people do this if they're rowing and get caught). You could always go with the current until it stops pulling and then swim back to shore but if you're not in open waters like in a man-made body of water or a lake that drains, that's dangerous because you could get pulled under and drown. The safest thing you could do is have a lifejacket on, I guess, or hold onto something that can float and pull your weight.

I want you so bad

I don’t tho

I understand what you mean by how we should have never happened. There were good parts but the signs that things would become this way was obvious from the start.
I wish I can become a better man someday and be a good friend to you. I still think about calling you years from now, but it's a silly idea. I'd probably hurt you even more for bringing up bad memories you're trying to forget.

I see on social media that you're trying to take better care of yourself. I'm glad to see that. I'll try to do the same.
And someday I'll be able to move on like everyone's telling me to. Like you did.
For now I'm going to go to sleep in hopes that you'll show up in my dreams.

V, have a good night and sweet dreams.

WHAT THE EVERLOVING FUCKING FUCKITY FUCK FUCK FUCK DO YOU SEE IN HIM FOR FUCKING CHRIST'S FUCKING SAKE?

Like, fuck.

Fuck.

Seriously it's baffling to the point of madness the way you let him just do what he wants and fucking barge in on you and just generally subtly control the situation even though you pretend you're in control when you're not, and it makes me want to fucking violently murder his face, and you know exactly what the fuck I'm talking about, and you can't fucking explain it either except for your need to be dominated by someone, and I guess my trying to help you not need to be dominated by anyone is some sort of bitch move that makes me a cuck, and I'm really fucking pissed about it, but this asshole went ahead and just took advantage of the situation he saw and he's just living it up because I guess he can, because there is no justice, order, or any reasonable semblance of god in the universe that might give a fuck about those with nothing but love in their hearts.

Why do I keep waking up in this bullshit sham universe of false promises?

Lemme just larp into this and make it a threesome with my fuuucccccccc noooo ::::-----dddDddDdD

>Why do I keep waking up in this bullshit sham universe of false promises?

Why do I keep waking up in this bullshit sham universe of false promises?

There were supposed to be clap emojis between those words. I guess copying and pasting is just another false promise.

Figures.

>nerve-wrecking

*wracking*

I dont know if you did it on purpose. I knoe you meant it literally, but it sounds like a fucking poem and I thought man this is some deep shit

You ever think the literal universe literally wants you to literally fucking kill yourself, and it's just fucking with you to the point where it's waiting for you to muster the means to do so?

You have to wonder sometimes. It would be a really mean universe, but it's one you might be in, and I think it might actually explain a lot.

Maybe there is a god, and it just decided that you should be tortured to the point where you end your own life because it became too much, and it's just getting off on dialing in that limit.

Maybe god is just a sadistic psychopath who wants to watch you die by your own hand.

Good times, tho, amirite?

Ha; what a crazy place this is.

Never once did I do such a thing nor will I ever. Nice try though, bitter one.

Cuck

I don't know what to do with studying Korean. I originally did it for my gf but she broke up with me four months ago. It's fun to learn but everything still reminds me of her (especially the phrases she taught me) and I don't have a motivation to study it anymore. God knows I won't be able to afford to go on vacation for a long time. I feel like the only thing that keeps my interest is some kind of "sunk cost fallacy".

Post something good at least.
youtube.com/watch?v=xz9XhIxxwNg

Yes, that is a word that was used.

Very good, user. You may have a cheerio.

The realization that I will never experience a normal loving relationship is killing me. I'll never meet a normal girl that will actually desire me and think about me and want to do good things for me. It's always going to be a short-term relationship with me doing my best to woo her and her just realizing it ain't it. And in all this I will never really feel like I can commit, despite wanting it so much.

And on the other hand I've lived in loneliness for so long that I don't even need a woman in my life. I can do everything myself, and in fact, I barely have time to fit a normal relationship. For people my age it only works if you're living with the girl already but dating and all that shit is just too time consuming. I mean what would I even do with that girl? I don't go to the cinema and don't enjoy that. I don't go to cafes, I don't go to restaurants, I don't really go anywhere. I don't have time for that shit. Even if I go on a date with a girl I just choose to go on a walk or maybe a drink at best but nothing more "comitted".

Also my meds are not working too well anymore which is why I seem to have these thoughts in the first place. When they worked, they did a decent job at suppressing those feelings and thoughts.

Do you think you control me? Do you not think that the moment I am able to buy my way out of whatever kind of spiritual slavery I'm involved in, that I won't fucking run away into the wilds, where you'll never see me again?

Starting over again would be a fucking dream for me.

I have nothing left because you've fucking hamstrung me. I'm basically possessed. You've managed to find a way to essentially control what I do, and you know it.

But you have, with the power of your words, convinced me that I am hopeless in my endeavors, so now I only hope I can either find a way out or just gracefully die.

Maybe next time I won't be so stupid, right?

Fuck you O and fat bitch at work. Keep dumping your work on me and I will fucking trash the place. Do not forget who has the key.

I think I might die from regret.

That is, if it were possible to do so, I would have done so.

I basically fucked up.

I want to die and fix it.

Life shows you everything you want, but then it fucking rapes you in terms of what you're allowed to have.

I'm fucking sick of it.

It's gross, and it's only in pools of the maroon regret of the dead past that you see what options might have been there for you, and you mourn them.

Coulda. Woulda. Shoulda.

I'd give anything to have done tho.

That's regret.

That's what makes you want to just blow your fucking brains out.

That's what makes you want to spill all your blood.

Regret.

You could have done something you didn't.

And now there's never, ever, ever going to be a chance for you to do it.

do not wear a makeup like this, it turns you into "may I talk to a manager" lady

Message me.

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You're too good for me. You don't really need me. I wish you a good match with some lovely girl. I'll be just fine.

I just recently learned from a friend that an ex of mine is pretending to be me online.

Not to catfish or anything.

Just because? Idk why.

You right baby you dat ass and dem tiddies are just fine.

I have an extremely important and difficult exam coming up. I've already failed it once and honestly I'm so depressed I have zero motivation to actually study for it. I feel I'll fuck it up again, despite comitting time toward studying.

I need your advice and I’m afraid you know what matter I’d like to talk on =_=

I can't wait until state enforcement puts the pressure on you. That'll be enjoyable to me. I swear your still like a little child stubbornly refusing to do what you've been ordered to do. That's right. Piss off the judge.

I’m upset honestly.

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FUCKING SSRIS AREN'T WORKING FUUUUCK

i have to confess that i hate these threads 1

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You think I'm being abusive holding you accountable because you've never been held accountable for anything in your entire life.
I'm hoping years down the line when mommy is no longer alive and you don't have that toxic influence, you might actually look back and be grateful for the lessons. But that's highly doubtful. After all you can't raise a grown man. She fucked you up pretty good mate. You can't even get your shit together for him. Thais the saddest of all. You let him down man. Just like your dad did to you.

Don’t be a bitch, it doesn’t suit you. You know how I tell your posts apart from others? I just suggest that you would never said such a thing because you actually a person of better quality. I feel like I just lied to myself.

What I said about you was very rude, I am sorry

You are a bitch and and I'm probably never talking to you ever again. You are poison you cannot be trusted and i pity whoever else you are dating right now, because your relationships always end the same fucking way. You are broken and you are not interested on being fixed, you rather be a hurricane for the ones that try their hardest to help you. You gave me some happy memories but not nearly enough to make this whole thing anything but a complete waste of time, patience and mental health. I'm really glad i finally cut you off, you never gave a shit anyway.

I regret nothing. Truth hurts.

Good

You never tried to help me. You used me and abused me. I'm so happy we will never speak again. That was why I did what I did and cut you off and out of my life.

Just think of them as your best friend or if you don't have those think of them as your mother that you need to do an effort for before she passes away. Bring her to someplace fun and memorable but relaxed since it seems like you're that kin of guy

You took advantage of my kindness, but I only have myself to blame for letting you.

I don't really have a best friend. I'm the type of guy that never calls anyone or texts anyone on his own. I don't really maintan much of a relation with any of my friends, bar talking to them sometimes and going out for a drink. I don't even take my mom or dad to places, even though I wish I could (but that's mostly because I have no time or money).

I used to have this one girl that was kind of like a gf for me. I genuinely cared for her and pursued her and spent time with her and all... But it was back when I had more time and could afford directing my mind to a girl.

Ideally a gf I'd want would contact me every few days and we'd hang out and then not talk for the next few days at all. But that's absolutely unrealistic. Especially since entire initiative would be on me.

I did although it was pretty hard since you’ve ignored like 2/3 texts of mine.

You are definitely abusive. You sound like a horrible person from what I've seen around here. I get you're hurt but you also sound plain evil. You made a shit decision getting pregnant with some guy that doesn't love you, leave it at that.

Just move in together you'll see eachother at the end of the day everyday. Take advantage of the mere-exposure effect.

Oh yes your opinion is of the same caliber as the ex. We didn't love each other. But there is still the responsibility of a child who is the only innocent one entirely. He wants to be in his life and play dad? He's going to take on the full responsibility which includes financial obligation. Wah wah wah. I'm so abusive.

Why is the larping so bad on here? Do people really come into this thread thinking that every negative post is about them?

You do realize that it would require me to first get a gf and get her to be involved with me enough to move in with me?

I'm going to pretend this is from him because I can't live without him and there is too much pain. I have no one else.

You're not abusive because you want child support, you're verbally abusive because of the things you write and I'm sure, say.

kek

Give me an example.

GET OUT OF MY HEAD AHHHHH

Visitation and child support are two different things and 2 different court visits. Even if he doesn't pay child support, his visitation won't get taken away

You're always demeaning the dad on here, calling him names, and assuming he is writing you death threats. You sound extremely bitter and delusional.

None? No examples? Are you sure the posts you claim are mine actually are? Yeah, thought so.

I forgot to mention....narcissistic and in denial as well.

I want to have sex with an alien.

I offered supervised visitation. He refused. Can't miss him that much? Tbh I don't even think he cares that much about our child. (Obviously by what he's done) it's really his mother pushing for it.

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I think you're amusing.

I'm a different user just trying to help. If you push for child support, then the courts will grant visitation, most likely unsupervised unless he has proven history of abuse or something.
DO try to get legal documentation to get sole legal custody though, if he's as passive as you say, then you need to make sure you're there to make school/religious/medical decisions and don't have to hunt him down for permission