I've been on here for about ten hours now. Haven't really taken a break. I just bounce between 8/pol/, Jow Forums...

genuine question if you're serious, how do you enjoy porn? Watching another dude fuck a girl is weird, so close to cuckoldry. Like I'd understand if you watch a girl solo or something but watching a guy fuck a girl? would you watch a guy fuck a girl in reality?

See, I consider myself a Christian, and I'm pretty informed about my doctrine. I mostly post about Christianity on here and Jow Forums. My existence epitomizes the parable about the guy with a beam in his eye. Worst part is that I'm supposed to be joining a church in a couple weeks, but I can't even partake in communion with a clean conscience.

Funny you mention it. I quit Adderall about a year ago because it was making me too anxious. Took it from age 14-18. And I really haven't had any motivation since. I think I may be permanently fucked up from taking it consistently when I was so young.

I understand completely.

The absurdity of it is apparent, but I've been doing this since I was 10. I found Pornhub when I was 12. It's just natural to me now. I had a girlfriend from 14-17, and I could never reach climax with her unless I imagined someone else fucking her. I've never really committed to quitting, though. Longest I've gone without porn is like a month. Maybe less than that.

My days are always the same now. I usually don't even get dressed because I only go outside to smoke. I haven't exercised in months. I'm 6' and 135 lbs. I go to class twice a week. I started the semester with four classes, but I dropped two because I just didn't want to deal with the coursework. One was a sociology class, and I didn't realize that I was stepping knee-deep into Marxian theory. I failed calculus twice because I didn't study, so I switched my major because I couldn't complete the program without calc. Took statistics this semester and didn't pay attention at all. Now I have that exam tomorrow and it's basically too late to do anything about it. I guess I'm going to switch my program again. Looking at doing an AAS degree in networking.

My only friend is bipolar, and I can't really have a conversation with him anymore because he stopped taking his mood stabilizers, and he can barely speak coherently anymore.

There's a faggot in my stats class that has a crush on me, and I got drunk with him one night just because he had a bottle of vodka and offered it to me. He doesn't talk to me anymore because I refused his advances.

Spending so much time on Jow Forums has made me hyper-conscious of race issues, and I can now say that I genuinely despise non-whites, although I can tolerate non-whites that integrate into white culture. My bipolar friend is a spic and he thinks I'm evil now. I don't really know how to reconcile racism with my religious beliefs.

I really can't find the motivation to pray anymore. My lack of willpower is so profound that I've mostly given up on the prospect of bettering myself and tackling my sins. I'm fully controlled by the dopamine rewards of video games and porn, and real life feels plastic in comparison.

Anyone else feel this way?

And they say lefty memes are bad, yeesh I can't even read that garbage, the text is way too small.

You are weak, and letting the internet control you. The internet allows you to fall into regression. Big internet companies push you into what you "like", so you never see other perspectives. Go to the gym, go to class, talk to people, travel.

It's a bigger redpill than anything the internet can give you.

Just squint. It's a good one.

You're right. I guess I just need to stop using the Internet so much.

I've always hated non-whites except asians. I've worked in restaurants for about a decade you'll definitely learn to hate niggers and spics who can't speak English. The spics are so bad that they either point to what they want or have their 14 year old kid order from the menu.
Niggers are everything you'd expect. Monkeys that shouldn't be out in public, picky as can be, complain about literally anything, dine and dash (never happened to me but I've seen it), throw you 5 cents after you had to babysit them for an hour. Really eye opening.
I rage quit my last job because I was sick of dealing with the niggers and management. Now I've been a neet for about a year and I've laid in bed for the past 5 days desu.

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Because you're a manchild.

I hope you're shitposting, cuz that is truly the definition of "weak will".

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I absolutely understand where you're coming from. I live in a town that's (not exaggerating) 50% black, and after working at Chick-fil-A and Marshalls for about a year and a half each, I am done working with the public. Might apply for a job with UPS or maybe pick up a paper route.

Yeah, I think this is rock bottom. I'm not kidding.

Cause you don't give a fuck?

I honestly still can't understand, at 26, how there are men who can jack off so much in one day. I can barely manage 2 sessions without my dick breaking

I do give a fuck. Otherwise my inner monologue wouldn't be constantly berating me, right?

People who jerk off three times a day, even though I jerk off three times a day, that's fuckin' crazy. 'Cause even when I was young and figuring out what jerkin' off was all about, I don't think I jerked off any- I did jerk off- I jerked off five times a day. Scratch that, I'm calmin' down.

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If you can't study, go to sleep or just take a fucking break from "taking a break."

Alright, I'm getting off. Night, everybody. Thanks for listening.

this thread was almost as depressing as waking up and looking out the window and in the mirror, thanks

Bah, who am I kidding? I'm still here and probably will be for a while. Tell me about your life, user.

I also took adderall from 10 to 15 and feel like it fucked my ability to concentrate permanently. I also abused adderall at ages 20 to 21. Real fucked up what those doctors did to us and millions of other children.

Yup, I don't think I'll ever feel the natural satisfaction of completing a small task ever again. Even after a year, I still feel like I need to be wired on caffeine (which isn't nearly as good) to do anything that requires an attention span.

I actually started taking it without a prescription and convinced my parents and doctor that I had ADHD to get more of it. Then I abused it for about a year when I was 15, until my mom found out. Part of the brain damage can probably be attributed to weed though. I smoked almost every day from like 16-18. My memory hasn't recovered from that.

What do the points about grinding your teeth and overpronation mean?

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u shoulda studied user

sleep apnea, anxiety, or stress

oh, I see. thanks for explaining.

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Interesting, thank you.

I hope you get better bro. Been there. You can pull through.

Thank you, based germ. I think things will get back on track once I switch into a new program and get a job. Just been having a rough patch for the past six months or so.

It will get better

just stop fucking yourself up like that ik its hard, but you gotta clean up your mess.

That's a page out of a book, it's not meant to be a meme jpg. Better to be read as a scan. It's from How To Bomb the US Government.