Hopes and dreams

>age
>first real job you wanted to do as kid
>where are you now?

27
Scientist
Going back to trade school soon to learn electrics and plumbing after 7 years of on-off wagecucking and NEEThood. Sorry 6 year old me :'( Probably won't ever be a scientist but I'll be working with electrical things, I think you would have liked this.

How do you guys deal with the crushing sense of failure that comes with lost youth and long forgotten ambitions? Also share your progress.

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Astronaut
FUCKING SPACE BRO

Nah I'm an operations manager for $large_multinational. Turns out I never had a chance to do the NASA thing because I ended up randomly getting cancer as a teen. All in all I'm happy (and now quite healthy) so it's all good. I'll do the Virgin Galactic thing if I make it long enough for seats to go on sale to the general public.

33 years young
Wanted to be a pro wrestler
Currently studying audio engineering & production.

Honestly, I am very very happy and grateful that I wasted so many years dicking around on Jow Forums and playing video games and also getting drunk with friends and trying out drugs when I was a teen/young adult. Had I followed through with becoming a Pro Wrestler I would either be dead or crippled or homeless or homeless and crippled. I had no idea just how shit the wrestling business was.

Same with being in a metal band like I wanted to for a while, I see these bands living the "rock star" lifestyle of being in their 40s and having to share a van with like 8 other people and haivn to sleep in that shit like a bunch of homeless people. The really lucky ones are the ones able to afford a tour bus and even that whole lifestyle of touring is a pain in the ass.

I also thought about doing MMA back when it was becoming popular in the mid 2000s. Again, another bullet I'd glad I dodged cause I'd be sitting here with enough brain damage to make me retarded.

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>getting cancer as a teen
That sucks. Do you regret not working extra hard while getting chemo so you could be one of those inspirational stories like cancer kid is valedictorian, cancer kid in MIT, cancer kid now works for NASA etc.?

Didn't need chemo actually, surgery and then some very brief focused radiotherapy because it was detected so early. Shit was cash.

I was salutatorian and went to a good university all the same, so it was a wash. I didn't really care to work at NASA per se. Just wanted to be an astronaut. Cancer kids don't get to become astronauts.

Sometimes I wish I has dumb celebrity goals like pro-wrestler/rock star instead of scientist. It's so much more achievable but I still failed...

>Cancer kids don't get to become astronauts.
;-;

I hope you get to go on one of those space flights one day.

>22
>policeman, racecar driver, everything that was for "boys to aspire to be"
>working at a warehouse for a private company that pays 16 an hour somehow

Are you working towards those old goals? Do you plan to work towards them?

I think police is very do-able.

No that doesn't really sound too weird. I don't think you need to have some specific (and likely naive) goal set decades in advance. In fact I'd wager that most people just want good health, a full belly and a roof over their heads.

A natural born NEET.

As a kid what did you want to do once you grew up if you didn't want a job? Or were you just like I'll do whatever job I get

36
Fire fighter
General tradesman and handyman (best at masonry) BUT

>will have associates in fire technology by the end of the year
>Will be getting a bachelors in forestry (wildland fire management)
>top physical shape

I guess what I'm saying is I'm still going for my childhood dream even if I took a few turns in my 20s.

28
Lawyer because my mother always says i should be a lawyer due to how i always be a smartass when argueing with her .
Now i'm a QA engineer testing for slot machines.

It's not really an ambition of mine.
After working for a few years at 3 different job now.
I realize i don't want any work/career at all.
I just hope that i can win lottery and buy a few houses so i can live rest of my life without working with the rents.

>27
>whale or fish researcher
>looking for a job in online marketing
I don't think my youth was lost. I've found my way and developed into a man that I could look up to as a kid

I said "i dont know" or "ill find a way"
Im sad that i was born an incomplete human

Nice! I'm thinking maybe I can work in a science lab as their electrician or something... maybe my dream can still be a reality...

Sounds like lawyer was a job your mom gave you rather than what you thought for yourself.

Did you want anything for yourself? Even if it was a dumb thing?

Why don't you go into electrical engineering?

while what you said is true.
There's nothing i really wanted to do.
I'm a horrible person that just want to be better than others so i can show off to them, and tell them they are wrong.
I feel like QA is more or less a great job for me because i'm telling the developers that they are wrong.
But if i can have the choice, i would choose to not have a job.
Every time.

I studied comp sci (kinda why I'm close to getting my associates and transfering for my bachelors) I have all my general ed done except for a chemistry series that will take about a year and a half

But anyways

If you're into the sciences it's really a specific kind of lifestyle that you'll either love or hate cause man there are some weirdos in there and a lot of people that go into the sciences end up being really unhappy

>looking for a job in online marketing
>developed into a man that I could look up to as a kid
Have you?

You're okay. You'll be okay.

>26
>Doctor

I got into med school and went there for a couple years, but turns out that my health problems weren't compatible with being a doctor.
I'm still working in healthcare but in a different job. It's a nice job and I enjoy helping others, I also think it's better suited for me since I have more time to spend with my family.

I'll probably work towards that eventually. Trade school for electrician work first. Baby steps.

Trade school is very different than going for engineering - it's like saying you want to be a mechanic before becoming an mechanical engineer

And there's nothing wrong with it especially if you are a hands on type of guy, but I don't think being an electrician is a step towards being an electrical engineer at all is what I'm getting at

Yeah I know it's not what 6 yr old me imagined and honestly I would probably hate it but I still want to do something close to it you know? Kinda like this user Am I doing this because of principles? Romanticism? Not being able to let go of the past when things were simpler? idk... but I sometimes feel child-me is watching over adult-me and it motivates me to try harder for him

>hands on type of guy
Yup, hence the trade school. Hmm maybe electrical engineering is not for me... what do qualifications do you need to fix up the wiring for places like CERN?

>28
>paleontologist
>am a dessmaker and I work as a seamstress
eh, I've wanted to be may things, like an artist and a clothing designer. I'm ok with this I think, but I guess my parents didn't supported my dreams and that makes me kind of sad

21
Some well paying job in finance
Doing an internship at a bank

Could be better, wish I didn't realize I wanted to do finance all along. Hopefully I can still get there with a masters or mba. I would have loved to do something creative like fashion or television but I ended up not taking the risk.

Archaeologist

Nope, not a citizen of the country I live in, I would be very losely allowed to do it, and ehh, I want to make my own company of stuff now

22
Doctor, electronic engineer, teacher or animator.
Studying Electronic Engineering. (2 semesters left to graduate.)

I like what I am studying but I fear that I won't make in the laboral world for not knowing how to offer my services on an interview.

I lived my whole life like "I can't do anything else besides studying to get my dream job".
"Having a GF? Begone THOTs, I have to study".
"Friends? Nope, study-for-test-ah".
I completely forgot about developing my "social habilites".

Now I am struggling with the feeling that all what I have done all these years
will be worthless, because all the people that balanced social life and studies will be more capable of getting a job than me.

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21
Never had any real aspirations, just phases I went through.
I flunked out of college. I have a minimum wage job. I live with my disabled mom who I help around places. I don't have any dreams. I don't have friends. I don't care enough about anything. I don't know what to do with myself.

>20
>Doctor or Pilot can't really remember
>Software developer

Can't complain, just wanted to do something cool where I got to use my head and seems I've got that

23
Inventor, similar to tony stark
Currently 23 living at home with parents, no job, told my parents im behind 2 years in university. Im actually in my first year. No job. Also balding and virgin.

26
Never had a real goal but found something i enjoyed doing towards the end of highschool. Worked in it for 6 years until the boss and schedule of it killed me enjoyment.
Currently working at a sales/customer support job for an online website.

Really feel like i could achieve more but i would need to go do a course or degree in most cases and i simply could not afford to stop working and do that. Unfortunately i also don't earn enough to even be able to really live by myself. Rent and property prices are so fucking expensive my pay would barely cover rent and expenses for a week even living as lean as i could.

19
Firefighter, austronaut or car mechanic
Car mechanic and its fucking shit
got too much money to get welfare
but i cant stand it any longer, NEET NOW

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27
Never put any thought into my future because I'm a dipshit
Currently working fulltime booking surgery at a major hospital: a miserable job with a miserable wage; but it was literally the only place that would hire me

I've spent the last 6 years since Uni in a depressive spiral in which I've alienated the few friends I had. So I have no friends, no savings, no social skills, no prospects, no hope.
I think I need to see a psychiatrist because the last week or so I've been crying myself to sleep with suicidal ideation.

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>Some well paying job in finance
You wanted that as a kid? Really?
>I would have loved to do something creative like fashion or television
Why didn't you want this as a kid?

You can't be Tony Stark but you can still be Robert Downey Jr and turn your life around :)

35
Game developer
Scientist

I didn't fail, I realized that science is way more fun than game development ever will be, and I changed my dreams accordingly. I still use all that computer knowledge so I still get to program a lot, but I'm doing biology and medicine instead of graphics and UIs.

>health problems weren’t compatible
what health problems user

Chronic disease. The treatments I have to do to live make me heavily immunocompromised, and extremely tired.
It just doesn't work for me.

Thanks. I try since the other path is nihilism

26
Dreamed to be a cardiac surgeon.
Now, I'm working as an engineer of occupational safety and health.
It was kinda like: why should I fix injuries, when I can prevent them? But it ended up for me to be a lawyer with an engineer degree, to prevent company being sued or get that inspection right.

I've done none of the things I dreamt of.

19
Game Dev
Doing absolutely nothing other than making twitch art for streamers, hoping to get noticed by my fellow peers until I buckle my fuckles down and head into IT instead.

I'm sorry 8 year old me, but at least I knew you used to love the fuck outta lego, so have a complicated as fuck version of it haha!

Based helper, Mr. Rogers would be proud of you

21
Animator
Currently in school for IT

I want to die desu

How's IT working out for you dude?

>19
>comic book artist
>going to train to work as an electrician for a big oil company
Sometimes you've just to ignore what your autistic side tells you to do and do the right thing

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28
Pop star
Thank goodness for the union

21
Always dreamed of working on a museum
Currently in my first year of trying to get a History Degree, worked my ass off on my 18s and 19s to buy everything that i wanted, so i dont regret anything desu

Yeah, I was a shy and scrawny kid and managed to come out of my shell and become physically pretty fit

>age
30
>first real job you wanted to do as kid
rockstar
>where are you now?
unemployed. I did international development work for 3 years which was really cool, got a grad degree from a really good university, and was a journalist for a little. But I've been looking for work since January, did some temp jobs, and am about to move back home because I haven't had much luck. I want to do something cool, but now it's starting to look really bad that I've been out of work for so long.

>27
>Wanted to be a Doctor
>ended up a Nurse

Eh, it's not all bad. I don't have debt and I'm still taking care of people

18
Video game dev
Entering college but I have done more to progress with animation than video game development.
I've entered several high school animation competition and I won some and lose some. Got up to state level and won 2nd place for one and got up to state for another and didn't even place top 3.
I plan to study some computer science in college so that if animation fails, I can always go with my brother and be a software engineer (unless he successfully does his dream kid job as video game designer which I highly doubt since he's a lazy guy who has not ambition to make games on his own).
I like animation better anyways and luckily my state has a handful of studios to work in.

> 26
> manga artist
> programmer/code monkey

I'd be surprised and proud that I have this job. The thing is that I'm working a contract and my networking skills suck, so I'm not sure where I'll be even a year from now. On the art front I'm actually still trying to live up to that ambition, just about done creating the website for my comic.The dream will never die, even if it's not my career.

Also grats OP for going back to school. The time will fly by and if you chose something with a decent job market (which looks like you have) you'll be so happy that you went through with it.

23
No fucking idea, something soulless like an investment banker because I was and am a sociopathic little shit who hates people and doesn't care about anything other than money
Nearly finished a computer engineering degree, will join the army as a lieutenant and probably leave to do an MBA and go into investment banking as an associate

I doubt I'll make it to 30, I'm dead inside. Nothing matters to me anymore. I don't think I have a soul. I hate humanity intensely

yeah, I have a friend who went to Ivy league college, studied actuarial sciences, and got a 3.85 GPA

He still hasn't gotten a job because hes so socially awkward.

I was pretty similar, but if you're persistent and DO eventually get in somewhere make sure you talk to everyone about career building that you can.

I realized by talking to all these people how weird my vision was, and how unrealistic I sounded when I would go into an interview thinking I wanted to solve all of the company's problems

20
In college
Wanted to be a pilot, and then astronaut
I'm studying mechanical engineering, and still have plans to get my PPL and get into Lockheed or Boeing and move to ULA. Hopefully space exploration grows to the point that I can have a turn up there in the space stations.
It's intimidating at college seeing some of these kids get paid big money to move out to LA and work at these expensive internships. I didn't even intern anywhere.

I think that I have good management skills and a strong EQ which may get me a project management job in the future. I don't think I will ever have a high enough IQ to specialize in something and be so good at it that I am chosen over my peers. I just have to learn to see the bigger picture.

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Fair. I hope you get a job you want and enjoy for some sweet sense-of-purpose gains because I don't think kids looks up adults who are unemployed.

>Also grats OP for going back to school. The time will fly by and if you chose something with a decent job market (which looks like you have) you'll be so happy that you went through with it.
Thank you ;u;

You beam positivity, I think child-you will enjoy adult-you's company even if you haven't achieved their dream yet.

23
I just wanted to find something that makes me happy
Medical school

I don't know how to feel. I'm on a good path, but I'm socially underdeveloped. I feel like I've missed out on the 20s social experience, but I guess that's the price one pays with this. I've asked women out, and went on one """date""" with this woman with some severe issues, and we cuddled a bit, but that's the extent of my romances. I have a few friends and people actually like to talk to me, but I feel disconnected and lost, and it gets a lot worse when I'm alone

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I want to fucking kill myself

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A farmer, commando, mechanical or electric engineer, programmer or something other IT, including game developer, priest, historian, geologist (roughly in that order)

Last year of high school, decided I want to be a doctor and I'm in medical school now. I still feel like going into computing or engineering would have been a better fit for me, but I'm content with medicine too. I just regret that medicine doesn't leave a whole lot of space for any creative thinking, and it gets repetitive. Plus, I'm becoming less and less interested in humans and I'd rather be developing technology. Having a whole team of extremely well-trained professionals spend sleepless nights using state of the art technology and expensive drugs to prolong the life of some random dude who is 68 and will likely die within the next 5 years anyway because he won't quit smoking and lose weight just seems like a waste, and not some noble goal.

Damn dude, I'm and I feel the same way. All this effort I see to manage meds for an 80 year old who is alone, miserable as fuck, and never going to get better. Sometimes I wish I went into comp sci and got into cyber security. ah well, we have good job security at least. I'd definitely like to work with younger folks though

>Sorry 6 year old me :'( Probably won't ever be a scientist but I'll be working with electrical things, I think you would have liked this.
Being a scientist is overrated. Trust me. More bullshit than you would think.
>age
24
>first real job you wanted to do as kid
Never knew. In middle school and highschool I was good/worked hard at Math and Science. Dreamed of working on the Large Hadron Collider in Switzerland.
>where are you now?
Graduated college with my industrial engineering degree 1.5 years ago. Got a job at a postal company as one of their entry level engineers. Pic related. Was never responsible for the mess out there but it was my job to take responsibility even though I had control over the operation. So I quit. After quitting, I moved down and I worked in pic related doing pic related for another half year to try to get tuition reimbursement for my trade school. Totaled my car because I wasn't sleeping enough. Finally got transportation and have enough money to cover my lease while I go to school.

Little me, you never wanted to be in an office and debating with other managers. You just wanted to be an airplane mechanic. Because that is a skill you show more than tell.

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>age
19

>first real job wanted to do as kid
Special Forces, mechanic, Youtuber

>what now?
Studying accounting, working in internet sales at a car dealership. Thinking about joining the military

I have no idea what I want to do. I hate accounting but if I pass the CPA exams, I'll probably have a job on the other side. Would rather major in English or Film but the only realistic career path I see would be technical writing.

I'm seriously considering doing a few years in the military to take a break from school and to have my tuition paid for if I decide to go back.

Current job is ok. New to the industry and the learning curve is exceptionally steep. I'm not making much as salary is just above minimum wage not including commission but my social skills are improving immensely so whatever.

24
A priest xD I was like 4yo. First serious thought was game dev i think.
I'm studying psychology now. If the course starts, I'll be learning electronics too. Still searching for my place in the world honestly. And scared as feck about the future xD The only thing i'm really insterested in psychology is therapy and becoming a therapist is too expensive for me, that's why I want to try electronics. I''m after IT "highschool" with a title of technician, but don't really see myself there. I was too lazy back then and I doubt that anyone would hire me in any kind of IT job with the skills I have. I was kinda good in coding, but lacked real interest in it and I suck in speaking english. I'll probably be really well qualified on paper (3 titles xD) but still I'm scared that it'll end in being NEET or something alike. Also I'm agnostic for several years now, so priest is not an option.

>23
>Idk, cycled between "cowboy" (now would be animal-sanctuary worker) and surgeon
>lost my most recent entry-level shit job because some old hag working there didn't like me and the small-business owner was friends with her, in spite of me doing my fucking best every single day and going beyond to be polite and hard-working to everyone. Fucked up my chances of going to college with FASFA money because when I was 18 I was retarded and didn't care. Overwhelmed with depression. Sort of just waiting to die.

>25
>Freelance Artist
>Liquor Store clerk + junkie

Came from a pair of drug addicts and assumed I'd be dead from a suicide attempt at 20. Didn't, so I continue on living in a perpetual spiral of jumping from job to job, hanging out with drugged up punk kids, and just wasting myself away. I could say this depresses me but it doesn't because I know I'm not the only one in this limbo. Things could be worse and I still have my artistic abilities to dwell into. Despite my own problems I just keep doing it hoping point A will lead to point B. I really don't care about having a family. I just need to get off drugs before they take old of me and I really am dead at 35.

35
Famous movie director and writer.
I constantly daydreamed about going on televised interviews.

Never got close. I had odd jobs here and there and scraped enough money to set myself up with passive income. These days i rather be an unknown spec of dust floating through time for a cosmic second.

wat u do

23
"Archeologist specializing on artifact restoration"
Working as a gene therapy research associate running experiments. Also pursuing my bachelors at night in biotechnology. DEPRESSED AS FUCK AS IM OVER WORKED AND EVERY BREAK MAKES ME FEEL SO GUILTY. I am doing such cool things in my job and studies but i just feel like i want to die. It a line of survive and succeed or death. I have no error for failure. I just feel so weak why cant i just keep my shit together and power through.

17
"Soldier"
Currently unemployed but working towards enlisting in the Marine Corps, however im a bit overweight and adjusting to this rapid lifestyle change is a bit hard as I never started working out until I realized I can actually do it. At least my family and friends support me (some are even enlisting too)

21
Defence lawyer/barrister - was heavily inspired by Rumpole as a kid
Currently finishing up an economics degree and supporting my hobbies with a part time pizza job. Learned a lot about what it's like to push yourself through a degree you hate. Shit GPA, multiple failed subjects and no internships/industry experience so I'm basically fucked.

>28
>Priest
>School psychologist
My objective behind becoming a priest was having to work only on Sundays and right now I already had four weeks of vacation and have another four weeks ahead of me, thanks to summer break. It also pays unreasonably well, considering how little I have to do (there are days on which I don't have to speak to a single student). So I came pretty close to my goal of having to work very little.

I own property. Rent out some, buy/sell others.
I don’t write, nor do i want to be famous, or make movies, haha. I like cooking and mountaineering now.

28
astronaut
living off inheritance, thinking about going back to school for fun, maybe something bio or med related

Must be nice...

Its not

31
Jet Pilot
Hell, supervisor at some hotel, trying to live another dream of wealth but all friends who 'believed' already gave up and settled down with what they have
>its the little things in life that make me happy haha
I dont know where to go from here desu

22.
I don't even know anymore.
Trying to gather some balls and fucking shoot myself in the head right now.