I have always known there was something wrong with me but only recently I decided to stay sober so Im extremely bored and purposeless because all my talents are illegal or dangerous to myself and others.
So, how do I get to be happy as a psychopath/antisocial/whatever without using drugs or violence?
I'm not sure what substance use has to do with this either.
you haven't given us much to work with
I have no passions, im completely empty, my old life consisted of sex, bullying other people and doing copious amounts of alcohol.
Now I do none of them and feel completely bored, Like really bored. It almost hurts physically. Sorry if I cant explain but theres no other way to put it. Im just so bored and useless
ok thats better.
why did you stop doing those things?
have you dissected what about those things gave you some kind of fulfillment?
I stopped Because I started losing Uni courses and couldnt drive so I stopped working (Basically lost my job)
I have no idea, maybe the excitement?? Im obsessed with really abstract concepts of aesthetics and weird unexplainable shit like that so I always get angry when I cant express myself Maybe that was a way to blow off steam.
maybe you should search for a new hobby, something that you can put time and effort into. have you considered learning a music instrument or maybe programming? you will find something you enjoy.
I was learning japanese but its too boring
learning a new language might be too ambitious. start easier! you can also start working out. personally i can only recommend to involve music in your live. it helpes me a alot
Let me guess: shit childhood and you never over came it, right? Where are mommy and daddy?
Name said talents
Yeah I figured. I always was a music junkie and still am but I try to avoid the old music I used to listen to because it brings me back. Send me music dude, what do you listen to? I started to work out but only occasionally because my sleep schedule is fucked so I stay up like 24 hours and sleep 6-8 so im always tired but kind of energetic at the same time? idk
Yeah kinda, my useless dad just gives me with money and my mom just exists.
My talents are manipulating people, avoiding responsibility, im very good at fights, I can drink a lot, smoke a lot. Im good at sex, im good at procrastinating, memorizing useless information like conspiracy theories or medieval tortures
not very talented in a way society values But thats not what matters. I just want the same dopamine hits that alcohol, sex and drugs give but in some other way.
I have a feeling you'll like extreme (not sure if that's the right word) sports like mountain biking, rock climbing or other dangerous things to get your adrenaline going.
People have told me that before, but to be honest im not interested. seems like such a normie thing to do
Having music as hobby always draws me into the situation where I’m trying to listen as many titles as possible so I can appear as music snob in public. Too bad I went almost full hiki mode, so it makes no sense.
That happens to me too, always in my headphones. In my own world.
I dont understand your second sentence tho.
Have you been diagnosed? If not, fuck off to tumblr
Why would you want a diagnosis? doesn't it ruin your work possibilities ?
a diagnosis is just a prize for normies to feel special
I mean I have no company to show my music taste off, and from this point it makes no sense because my need for attention is my main source of motivation here.
No genuine psycho path would care enough about other people's input - especially those who have no barring on their social image/ mask- to make this post.
You might be a manipulative edge Lord,even a sociopath possibly but really now nigga - you're just a lost guy with anger issues