GIOYC / Get It Off Your Chest

C, I miss you.

I had sex for the first time at 23 last week. Hold your applause, cause it didnt go very well. My dumbass shows up to her place after being invited to her dorm "for drinks" thinking it was just going to be that. We sit there and talk for two hours and I get pretty buzzed. Eventually, she brings me over to her bed and starts making out with me. Before long she says "you wanna fuck?".

Fast forward like five minutes later and I'm having a full blown anxiety attack on her bed. Shivering, can't move, or even talk coherently. She'd rode me for a bit, but my anxiety made me start rubber hosing and I think my dick got fucked up cause its still sore. So yeah, after I calmed down she blew me until I finally came. I went home and tried to forget about the look of pity she had as she watched me their shaking and trembling like a fucking loser. Is this what being a virgin into your twenties does to you?

I have a feeling I’m about to be stood up. It’s 30 minutes until the date and I texted to confirm he’s on his way, and he says he IS, but I’ve still got this bad feeling about it.

say honestly are those lashes fake?

yes

knew it!

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Ahhhh... why is it so hard for me to connect to people... I watch other people and they break up and get back with somebody so quickly. Some people are always dating somebody. I’m always the other woman, so if somebody confessed to me it’s usually from convenience or until they find somebody better. I can’t imagine anything different because idk what a relationship even means. I don’t have many friends either so I try to keep the ones I do. So even if I love somebody I will let them leave me if it makes them happier to be with somebody else

I’m in a constant state of anxiety and I want to end it all right now.

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I’m really depressed. I tried meds from the doctor. I tried drugs which help for a bit. I try smoking weed and I try not smoking weed. I try exercise.... still my mind feels dead and I don’t create or do anything other than go to work. I’m actually quiet bipolar but there’s like a layer of depression over it all

Darek, gtfo of my mind

I really struggle with jealousy. My friend told me that it’s all natural and human but I hate the feeling. It doesn’t make sense. Shouldn’t I be supporting of somebody I love

Guys only want to fuck me not date me. I'm 32 f this shit is getting old

Give some more details if you please. Do they not call back or something? Do you turn then down when it becomes evident they want to go directly to their apartment.

So many bad decisions

Aliens are real and they're gonna do it.

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I haven't made new friends in so long that I've forgotten how to form relationships through texting. I realized this a while back, now there's a girl who I like and I think likes me back, but I can only talk to them in person. Has bad social media experiences given me ptsd, how the fuck do I just text someone all day?

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Yall i need a bitch i can really suck the toes off of

I can't get over you.
I know there are other females out there. I could get one. I know there are girls out there that also look like you.

The thing is, those people aren't you. They aren't who I spent all that time with. I want to kiss you just one more time, man. What the fuck. I miss kissing you and being next to you. I want to tease you.

I love you. I wish I could see you.

I'm so bad at communicating. I guess I'll never have a gf.

I always but into the conversation my classmates are having a few feet away. Sometimes I overhear them and I like to chime in, but I guess they don't like that because one of them told me to stop. Feel like an idiot now and I'll have to work to fix that bad habit.
Kind of dumb, but at least I'm getting a thicker skin. Younger me would have had a mental breakdown over that.now I'm only slightly sad

Socialization burns me out.
If you don't keep up with it, or gived a mixed signal then people will drop you.
I just want to stay in my hole in the end.

Just got back from my date. The first thing he said when he saw me was, "Thanks for not catfishing me." It went downhill from there.

Guys... do not start off your dates with this line. Please.

>Thanks for not catfishing me.
Seems like that would be a compliment. Also catfishing happens a lot. Maybe he was truly relieved that you were the real deal.

Why did my husband rape me? Was it even rape? Not sure. Can't talk about it in person, but I feel it is coming to a head soon. If anything perhaps I can get some resolution. Soon.

Is a person being forgetful enough to break up with them.

I seem to have the same fucking problem with my girlfriend of a year.
>*monday night*
>”hey you wanna go out Friday”
>”yeah sure I think I have to pick up something I’ll let you know when I’ll be free”
>”ok”
>*thursday night*
>”hey so what time for tmrw”
>”for what?”

She forgets all the time. It’s fucking annoying. To the point that I’m excited to see her tmrw and she just forgot. How do I not take that as an insult.

I know he meant it as a compliment, and I understood the spirit it was said in. But it felt kind of backhanded, and in his initial messages, there was a lot of "wow you're not like other girls/I'm not like other guys" signalling, but I decided to give him a chance anyway. It felt like that was a continuation of that.

Instead of just saying, "You look great" or "wow, you look very nice!" he made it about how I didn't catfish him like [other people]. There was other stuff he said throughout the date that rubbed me wrong and definitely stuff that solidified my decision not to have a second date, but that opening line felt like a neon sign of what was to come.

Gotta get my head in the game bro. No sleep til I'm satisfied.

fuck you! Fuck you! FUCK YOU! And fuck my anxiety over you! Leave me alone!!!! Go back to fucking Florida!!!!!!!!! I DON’T WANT YOU!!!!!!!

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Betty?

They fuck me or I give a bj or something and all goes well, but then they always go on and on about their ex girlfriend that they just conviniently broke up with earlier. They even ask for my # but I become ghosted afterward. I never push anything, like I'm good with being fuck buddies but guess not. I guess it's just me.

HEE HEE TEE HEE I HAVE A PEE PEE

HEEE HEEE HEEE PEE PEE PEE

I HAVE A PEE PEE! I HAVE A PEE PEE!

*farts on your cumstick*

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Tfw you just changed timelines and everything feels like 2013 now

Ok time to make moves. No more indecision at least until I've gotten where I'm going. I know what I wanna do, it's just a question of doing it now.

post address so I can send hitmen to shoot your kneecaps if you don't do whatever it is you're supposed to be doing

I know that feel right now. Feels damn good

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Almost feels Christmas y but it's making me a little nervous

The spark is dead. You used to treat me like I was someone you cared about, but now I’m just an inconvenience. Your libido died, and despite my best efforts, nothing has revived it. I’m there for you when no one else would be, but you aren’t there for me even when it would be easy. I’m dead inside.

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This is what it feels liek

My entirely family is broken apart and one gets along. Whenever I point this out, they all the point fingers at each other without looking within themselves. It’s less like having a family and more like having three friends that don’t even know each other and always demand to hang out at different times.

I tried to help my boyfriend today with something I have more experienced in and he got really snappy and accused me of being condescending and talking to him like he’s retarded. I just wanted to help. As far as I could tell I was just being really monotone with my directions. There was no inflection of superiority in my voice.

Just think of them as kids anonette

Bozo the Dunce is gonna send you memes and funny videos while you’re obviously spending your time talking to Stacy and waiting for her to reply back. And whenever he tries to leave the shitshow he made for himself, there they go his audience dragging him back along into it, manically sending him seven messages in a row to get his attention, even though the app has been deleted. Even though he left the circus.
Every time one of his “friends” tries to gain his attention, he can’t even be flattered about it. He knows that if he leaves them on read, he’ll be the villain, and if he opens up to them about anything, he’ll be the damaged fool with fake problems. And if he entertains them, they’ll just lose interest after some time.
Meanwhile, he’ll end up like Yorick, except charmless and forgotten, not even worth someone digging up the husk that’ll be his body. His time is running out. If the poor piece of shit died today, his name wouldn’t be remembered for long. People would cope with his loss and move on with their lives, while he rots in the dirt, having to die with more regrets than his fair share.
I get to live the life I want. I get to achieve something. I am not destined to be someone else’s practical joke. And in no way am I going to allow anyone, not even myself, to take away the things that’ll make me finally fit into a mold.
I know I’m broken goods. I know little things kick me down constantly. I know I have a cluster of horrible emotions inside my mind. But I’m tired of being treated as a plaything.

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Broke up with my AP today, after being almost caught by spouse, who would likely try to take the kids and financially ruin me. AP reminded me what it is like to feel alive and love myself, and I think I helped them some ways too. I’m glad I went to see them once more and was able to express why I’m still with an abusive partner, though it doesn’t make it easier.
One thing that bothers me is how non-chalant they were about my leaving. I got emotional when they said they loved me as I walked away, I walked back in and they were about to watch TV. Like, they were just telling me what they thought I wanted to hear. I felt nothing at that point although I said I loved them back and left. Everything about them was just words, except that one time in the very beginning I tried to end things and they literally chased me down where I was to tell me not to. And we started arguing more, that was another sad thing. It lost it’s flair, it’s energy. They stopped caring and so I did too.
When my spouse walked in as they walked out the other door, I felt nothing. No relief, no sadness or anger or pleasure. Had story for AP being there, friend to back me up.

I just don’t know how to stop wanting to contact them again. It’s so difficult not to, when my spouse leaves and I’m alone, I miss the attention and affection and it just seemed like a ploy to fuck with me til I ran out of things to offer.

I wish I’d never met them. They’ll probably pull the same shit on someone else now. Which they deserve, really, but all I was told the whole time was how they ‘wanted to be with’ me and they ‘would give me space’ etc and ‘call anytime I wanted to talk.’ I’m an idiot. Should have ended it as soon as it started.

Weird beard beard weird

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That pic reminds me of a scene in Titus Andronicus

>Laquelle?
You mean which one?
Where they Tamora's two son's rape Titus's daughter Lavinia, cut her hands amd tongue off.

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Whats up man?

Where do I find loyal, feminine grils? They are barely anywhere these days. It's like they don't want to be approached.

Try practicing on like discord or something, it gets easier trust me

I don't know what you mean by that, girls are more feminine than ever. At least certainly more than in recent decades it's definitely better than the 90s when they all wore giant overalls and acted like vanilla ice or the 70s when they stopped shaving their arm pits and whatever.

And the loyal part I don't even know how/why you're surmising that when you admit that you can't approach girls.

I absolutely hate that end of summer/beginning of fall feeling. The constantly stuffy nose, how there are fewer and fewer crickets at night as they all died off or hibernate or whatever because of the cold, how I can't have my window open at night and soon most of the day because of how cold it's getting, the sun setting earlier and earlier. It's all just a reminder of that school shooting I would have been at but wasn't cause I overslept that day. It also reminds me that my birthday is coming up soon.

The bitch got a bachelor of science and now works at a payday loan place. what a joke

Sounds a little kinky but I’m down. I’m slightly ticklish.

She doesn’t care

Guy I have a crush on recently liked something tr*mp tweeted about building the wall. Dunno if he was just bookmarking the post or something or if genuinely supports *****.
He has very white skin and dark black hair, but he doesn’t look European because his parents are both immigrants from Argentina.

If he’s really a self hating sp*c he’s cancelled until further notice I can’t stand Jow Forums b**ners.

why is my pee pee so cloudy??

You should be glad that person even has a job. Besides which the job market for white collar unskilled labor requiring "any degree" is legendarily shitty.

Homework, dumbass. Imagine getting whacked for writing some spaghetti JavaScript

I have figured out life is too fucking retarded to kill yourself.

DDRRRRUMMFFFF

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I still believe in your eyes. I just don't care what you've done in your life.

God fuck sometimes I just want to be that guy.

I want to be the fucking asshole that just says the first thing that comes to mind and fuck the consequences. I want to yell and get pissy and not bite my fucking tongue because I know how much my words are going to cut the person I want to yell them at.

But I never fucking do because I've been on the recieving end and it hurts. It hurts bad, and I can never forget what was said.

But fucking goddamnit, sometimes I just want to scream at you that you are a fucking child throwing a fucking tantrum and you need to grow the fuck up. Can you not see how fucking hypocritical you are being? Can you not see that the same fucking traits you hate in them, you are projecting out of yourself?

You didn't try to find the good in them, you only dug in to confirm your own fears and fuel your hate.

Well fuck you. Go ahead and shoot the man for being a "killer" and then parade around singing to the world that you aren't the same

Exact

Fucking

Thing.

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>be depressed
>cling to one or two things that make me happy
>someone jabs at it
>instantly nauseous
I know it’s an overreaction but the idea of something else that makes me happy being taken away from me really kills me inside

Connie,

You're a lovely guy as far as guys go. I'm so sorry for everything, for being so good, for all the bad, for entering your life and making it heaven/hell for a few months instead of just being your friend. I wish I could feel that you cared more, you wished you did me but you know I couldn't give you 100%. And you say you tried but, you know, you stopped shaking around me and it wasn't pity in my eyes, it was admiration at your being so vulnerable with me, that's what turned me on to you so fast. I don't understand what you couldn't understand about that. I wished I was single when we met. Not that it matters now. I'm so sad to lose you. I wish I didn't wish you'd wait for me because it might be forever, and I want you to be happy.

J

It’s okay to feel bad but fuck it. Everybody has differences, and the people who mock other people are usually immature and insecure people. Once I realized this, it helped my social anxiety so much. I stopped caring so much what others thought and realized that those rude people have a lot to learn

Thank you so much user, but I feel like my feelings are mostly self-inflicted because I get too attached. I genuinely feel like if I ‘lose’ something or somebody I will never be happy again without them. I can’t blame other people for that, especially if they’re unaware.

Yeah to a certain extent I agree, but there’s also a middle ground where somebody inadvertently says something hurtful where it’s not your fault and even tho they hurt you they didn’t do it on purpose or maybe didn’t know it was a trigger

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True, yeah. Normally I’d give them a heads up but the person described themselves as an ‘active manipulator’, which makes me think they might try to reuse that information.

I'm a hopeless romantic. That means I get burned a lot, but it also means I find something worth chasing after frequently enough. I'm just going to try and use that motivational force to get out of my comfort zone and not be lazy by using these fast match dating apps that are no good anyway.

I know my time will come again. I just have to be patient. It will be like opening up an aged wine once it does happens and that's worth being patient over.

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I can't believe /an/ got mad at me for torturing moths. Fucking moths.
They go around talking about killing cats all the time but moths are what's going to get me a warning?
Fucking idiots.

You know what? And it really isn't fucking fair. I'm allowed to talk about torturing moths. I fucking love mosquitoes. I wouldn't harm a wasp or a roach. But all those fucking faggots on /an/ constantly talk shit about those three insects but yeah okay moths are so uwu cute yeah? Huh? Fucking retards. Fuck you, /an/. I'M ALLOWED TO KILL AND TORTURE AS MANY MOTHS AS I WANT. YOU FAGGOTS GO AROUND KILLING MOSQUTIOES, THEYRE FUCKING HARMLESS> THEY'RE GOOD ISNECTS. YET YOU RETARDS GO AROUND ACTING LIKE THEY'RE THE DEVIL'S SPAWN. WHAT ABOUT WASPS? THEY DONT DO SHIT YET OH NO WASPS??? GOTTA SMACK EM DOWN COZ EW THEY STING??? FUCKING ROACHES WHAT ABOUT THEM??? desu they don't talk about roaches much BUT I KNOW THERE'S A FEW FAGGOTS THERE WHO GO AROUND USING RAID TO KILL ROACHES. AND I KNOW BECAUSE IVE SEEN THREADS WHERE PEOPLE GO AROUND KILLING RATS. YOU PEOPLE ARE FUCKING DISGUSTING. MOTHS ARE NOTHING BUT EVIL. YET YOU GO AROUND KILLING INSECTS THAT DESERVE NO HARM, THEY ARE GOOD INSECTS. LIKE MOSQUITOES. FUCK YOU /AN/ A BVUNCH OF FUCKING HYPOCRITES.

Glad to see this site is dying, rest in piss retards

Politics turns my brain into hot goo. I fucking hate Gov class. Having to take it in this current day and moment probably doesn't help. Instead of learning how the government functions like what intro to gov should do, they're having us analyze court cases then give our political opinions on it. I can't take this.

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My mom was flagged for having mental health issues relating to me right after I was born. Nobody stopped her. The whole way through my life individuals and systems just enabled her abuse. Other women enabled her because "she's a mom" so they would rubber stamp any behavior she engaged in no matter how extreme. Men ignored it because they didn't want to pay attention. Institutions ignored it because they assumed that any problem at home meant that daddy was the bad guy and mommy was a poor saint. Nobody ever fucking listened. This bitch was literally flagged for mental illness and nobody ever fucking did anything.

>The motherfucker who ruined my life has hell to pay for

Whoops it was me

My friend just told me people who commit suicide are pussies and i kind of want to stop hanging out with him now.

I no friends and still a virgin, but I am working with everything I been delt with; bad teeths/underbite, acne and keloid scars. Slowly saving up money for surgery and scar revision, going to the gym to improve myself even if I have no one to really impress. I honestly just wish that with enough hardwork and dedication I can overcome the bad cards I been given in life, because this is soul crushing not bekng able to talk and smile because of bad teeths and not being able to have your shirt off because of keloid scars, not sure what I did to deserve this but I was given the "fuck you in general" in my family

I keep wondering things and having to tell myself it's okay as I don't have any friends so there's no point thinking about it. That's all I can do so i don't dwell on it and learn to cope. It won't be long until most of that is either lost or highly distorted from non-practice and misuse.
If I don't try to deal with my lingering issues I'm not going to be able to move on and be happy in some way.

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I already feel mad at myself for whining about what I can't have right now.. I need to live with what I have or I'll lose that, too.

You fucked up, played around for too long and now my wellspring has gone dry.

I'm all tapped out of love and it's a sad thing but soon you'll be forgotten.

I'm not carrying anymore and if you don't believe me then go ahead and feel the difference for yourself.

Let the next guy concern himself with you, I'm too young for this shit.

You were my angel... now I just call you nothing special.

Go fuck yourself.

I gotta stop wasting my own time. Idk what possesses me to do this to myself

Gotta get my shit together

Didn't leave enough time to study and now I gotta finish the assignments whole looking stuff up on the fly. That's pretty shitty. I can do way better work if I actually study beforehand.

How do I find anything positive about my life? Everything just annoys me

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