I'm 29 years old. I live in my parents basement. I have zero friends, and have basically had zero friends my entire life. I was morbidly obese in school, which lead to me being bullied, but I have since lost 160 lbs and am no longer fat (but my naked body is a disgusting mess of loose skin and stretch marks). Obviously I have never had sex. I have never had a girlfriend. I never kissed, let alone held hands with a woman. I have never even had a conversation with a woman. I am balding and extremely ugly. I have social retardation. My family has a family history of schizophrenia and I am worried about starting to develop it, though I don't hear any voices thankfully (I am extremely paranoid though). I cannot get a minimum wage job. Almost every interview plays out the same way, I can see the visible disappointment and disgust on the interviewers face when they first see me. The worst part is the places that I have had many interviews at, and they remember that they interviewed me before and didn't even bother to send me a rejection email. For example I had 6 interviews at the local movie theatre (over many years) before I gave up, and I've had about 10 interviews split between the two local target stores over the years, all failures. The local grocery stores are also particularly bad, I've had I think 5 interviews at one of them over the years. I've applied to basically every retail store around me many times, and have had at least one failed interview at almost all of them. Nowadays the anxiety of phone calls and interviews is overbearing. I hardly can gain the motivation to apply for jobs, or pick up the phone when I do get calls.
What do I do? I have about $10000 left saved from the last time I had a job (almost 3.5 years ago). No car or license.
Kek, were you that fag in the discord VC calling me a nigger?
Ryan Cook
Ahh nvm, you're not after reading the rest of your blogpost. Best of luck.
Connor Fisher
just be glad people come here to take your job goy
Caleb Lewis
> I have zero friends, and have basically had zero friends my entire life >Obviously I have never had sex. I have never had a girlfriend. I never kissed, let alone held hands with a woman. I have never even had a conversation with a woman. >I am balding and extremely ugly. >I have social retardation. this is me except I'm 2 years younger minus the 10k saved and i've never had a job
Evan Peterson
Learn to code, you won’t have to deal with people much
Isaiah Watson
This is me except I'm not ugly, I have a job, and I fuck banging ass chicks every day of the week.
Suck it, OP.
Jonathan Davis
Give us some proof first
Asher Walker
My brother has schizophrenia and lives okay. But let me warn you, get medication for it instead of suffering with it.
Michael Allen
Storm Area 51.
Jack Rivera
youtu.be/9t5EI82M1yU Be Fat Nick dude. This man got no pussy now he gets his balls licked by three girls at once just because he’s confident. Be happy with yourself and grow. Pick up a hobby and master it through it mastering yourself.
Matthew Davis
Some still needs to be willing to employ you, no?
David Kelly
Lower your expectations, and raise them slowly as you fix what you can and accept what you can't.
You are who you are. Fate is the things you can't change, but there's still everything else.
I would like to live in basemont too but we keep wine, oil and smoked meat there
Joseph King
You can 100% get a job at a call center. Work on your conversation skills, by rote. Tough deal you got. Never give up. Never surrender.
Andrew Allen
Learn Kung Fu, get fit, become a hunter, and see the World, step by step. Be good.
Kevin Gonzalez
if you can't do anything else with your life join the military, use your money for skin surgery
John Howard
>You can 100% get a job at a call center. Even with speech impediment?
Liam Price
Fuck me, your life sucks, makes me depressed thinking about it. You need to stop wallowing in your filth and self hatred. See a psychiatrist. Shave that disgusting balding head of yours. Grow a beard. Learn how to dress nice. Get fit, work out more. And get out there and talk to people. Who gives a shit if you're nervous, nobody cares, it'll get better.
Jonathan Bailey
Share discord
Jordan Bailey
Your post is a list of negatives, this is a bad start. You must choose to focus on positives: you are young, healthy and have proven you have a degree of discipline through weight loss. You must focus all your energy on developing a skill that will make you valuable to society (this can be nearly anything) You do not need to focus on a skill that will get you rich but one that to have a sense of purpose and nothing builds self confidence like achieving competence or expertise. Focusing on getting a menial job is not inspiring and is a waste of a life. If you accept that focusing on things outwith your control is a waste of time that is a start. Your appearance and past is unchangable. The future is in your hands.
Gavin Reed
You can be a freelancer, either way you'll need to be very good at programming
Jordan Johnson
I have had a similar experience to you, and come out on the other side in my thirties. You have room and board taken care of, plus 10,000 in savings, and I bet you could get Pell grants for many quarters of education at a community college (all US citizens can get CC paid for easily). There are numerous professional/technical associates degrees that will earn you a decent income, and the government will likely pay for it. Try something in the medical field, like a radiology tech. Doesn't require intense math or science, only the basics, and you get paid 60k a year, the industry will only grow because of boomers aging.
As for schizophrenia, it normally develops before the early 20s. If you're worried about mental health now it's because you're in a shitty position and it's natural for your mental health to decline. It's seriously unlikely that you have a real problem-- only circumstantial. When your situation improves, your mental condition will improve.
Ryder Morgan
Hey, I started learning programming via phyton, what jobs can I apply to?
Mason Peterson
Maybe I'm just too paranoid, but I hate when people say that nobody cares that I'm nervous. If no one cared that I'm an ugly nervous loser then I could pass a job interview. Obviously people care, I can see the looks of disgust on their face everytime I have a job interview. People clearly do care, and hate me because I have no social skills and am nervous/paranoid.
Chase Hernandez
you play wow
Blake Ward
Bud, I’ve never been obese or ugly but I was a heroin/meth addict and lived as a NEET in my ex-gf’s attic for 3 years during my 20’s and then ended up homeless for a year or so. I now make over $100k/year as cnc machine programmer/maintainer. I have learned NX, G-code, PLC, and much much more to get where I am currently. My point is this: STOP LOOKING INTO RETAIL JOBS! Start looking into industry jobs! Even my skill-less youngest brother got a job making $35/hr cleaning asbestos. I make $41/hr base and $61.50/hr after 40 hours as a cnc programmer. I have worked at Target in the past, and many places like there. Let me tell you bud, THERE IS SO MUCH MORE THAN RETAIL. Keep in mind however that I’ve spent years in the deburr closet making $11/hr as well in the process of getting to where I am. However, its not impossible! If I can do it, YOU CAN DO IT.
Jacob Jackson
>What do I do? I have about $10000 left saved from the last time I had a job
Play the lottery. With all the bad luck you've had in your life so far, surely you've got some good luck stored up just waiting for the perfect opportunity to reveal itself. But the thing is, you have to spend it all on tickets, because if you leave even just $5 left over - that $5 will be what would have gotten you that winning ticket.
Apply for a security guard job for graveyard shift. Hardly anyone to deal with. Never have to interact with anyone but co-workers. good benefits, insurance. etc. etc. etc.
Nathaniel Moore
>if you can't do anything else with your life join the military, use your money for skin surgery, it will give you the interaction you need to build confidence and youll meet plenty of people, if you cant handle interviews and seriously spook out when talking to strangers get counseling first
Nathaniel Wilson
No, I used to play WoW when I was a teenager, and it only did awful things to my life. Never want to play it again.
Christian Edwards
how much/what type of education did you need, just curious
Juan Jones
>I have about $10000 left saved from the last time I had a job
Kek you're better off than like 60% of the country
Julian Clark
move out of home and go share a house with other people
Kevin Sanchez
I'm thinking realtor or used car salesman
Elijah Russell
It's 2019. Basically anyone can make a living out of their home. You can figure out something.
Ian Walker
See a therapist, psychologist, and/or psychiatrist (this doesn't necessarily mean any meds btw)
>inb4 muh stigma
If you want to give it your own honest no bullshit effort, then read pic related.
At least you're in the US! The min wage in Mexico is ~5.1usd/day (9-10h shift)
Henry Roberts
*this book isn't just about depression, it's about anxiety as well as a bunch of other things. It basically asks you to recognize your own illogical/destructive thinking and to challenge it
Liam Rivera
See a fucking psychiatrist asap.
Carson Hernandez
Get the skin fixed
that will be better than therapy
trust me
Botox is more successful in treating depression than SSRI because it blocks the negative expression signals in the brain
Chase Barnes
Don't bother with psychiatrists
they don't know how to deal with the gifted and you will be lumped in with some real asshole crazies
Elijah Ward
you are indeed retarded. kid just fucking learn some skill online like freelancing web shops or something and get money that way. money isnt your problem though, you need to join a fight club.
Daniel Gray
I'm schizophrenic
I would hate to be a normal thinking person, trapped in a thought prison of someone else's creation
Schizophrenia means you are too smart for the planet so God has to allow you access to spirit worlds
Ethan Murphy
Go join a monastery.
Matthew James
make money making porn art online
Jaxon Reed
Vote yang
Bentley Wright
Look I'm going to tell you some shit. Everyone chats shit about everyone, except it and move on. People care more about themselves than you so you are usually just a passing thought in their minds. If I were you join a club or sports team. Just tell the guy who runs it your nervous and they'll help you out. Speaking people is the first step to realising they are just people too. No matter how bad you have it there is always someone worse off. Just remember to be kind and grateful and people will be your bro
Hunter White
Invest some of the money
Julian Bennett
Use 8 grand to do surgery and 2 grand to live until you get another job. Become beautiful and the world will love you.
Lucas Moore
Call centres are being automated bro.
Adrian Morgan
I think your only option is to stay in that basement forever, OP Apologies if that's not what you wanted to hear.
The Genius in my Basement: Amazon.co.uk: Alexander Masters One of the greatest mathematical prodigies of the twentieth century stomps around the basement in semi-darkness, dodging between stalagmites of bus timetables and engorged plastic bags.
Jaxon Evans
classic
Grayson Roberts
He eats tinned kippers stirred into packets of Bombay Mix. Simon is exploring a theoretical puzzle so complex and critical to our understanding of the universe, that it is known as the Monster.
Alexander Stewart
You don't need friends when you have the internet, maybe it's time to think about killing yourself?
you can post on the right fucking board for starters
Jace Rogers
Have you thought of the military op
Nathaniel Rodriguez
cool life. at least you aren't in debt like an sjw college grad pleb.
Ian Morgan
Psssst hey kid ya you Chain link
Julian Wood
the no kiss no sex point could be resolved by hiring a prostitute (careful tho if you watch too much of HC porn then you dick may not get hard if you already in freaky shit)
the no job thing - maybe try apply to positions where there would be less interaction with other people (no customers) and try to make sure you dont stink or clothes are not dirty during interview. And try not to look depressed or overly enthusiastic, just more like hi, how are you doing, this? yeah sure that should not be problem for me to do, that? Yeah dont have experience with that but i feel confident that i could learn it etc.
I had also fear of phone calls, I have overcame it with doing a job where i would be on phone often with customers on daily basis, after some time it did not bother me at all, so as with everything its about practice.
No car and licence thing i guess can be tricky in USanA since you guys did not hear about this invention called bus or trains i would recommend just getting a bike.
Justin Bailey
nigga i have schizophrenia and it's awesome the only time I don't like it is when I think i'm stuck tripping 24/7 and that I have to jog more during my dreams
Logan Cox
Temp agency. Wear appropriate clothing. Reserve yourself to a life of loneliness.
