This...I know that feel all too well
How do soldiers overcome their fear of death?
Just be yourself.
I’m not afraid of dying, but I’m afraid of dying the wrong way. I don’t want anyone to have to clean up after my mess or question my sanity. I would unironically rather take a bullet in a war zone with my home pristine and abject of scrutiny than I would die alone in a shithole one bedroom apartment with a trashcan full of beer.
I nearly broke down in tears at the sight of sick and dying kids but okay, go ahead and call me a Nazi.
By remembering the meaning of life.
Knowing my jewish overlords will profit yet another day.
Can't speak for combat, but having been in sketchy situations myself...here is my take.
What people have said is true. You aren't thinking about things. You are doing what your training taught you. Train enough and it's like muscle memory. It's like clarity because your mind is focused on processing all of the information you have been taught on how to deal with the situation you are in. It's the same whenever I'm on a critical call and saving someones life or if it's a ripping structure fire, once your body hits a certain level of "holy fuck" and you get that adrenaline dump, you just switch into a different person. I feel more focused, situational awareness + tunnel vision at the same time. It's a weird/great feeling. Death is the farthest thing from your mind, you resort to the basics.
Evola, Metaphysics of War
>"vita est militia super terram" (life is military [duty] on Earth)
If you take life as a mission (transcending humanity and achieving divinity) and not an end in itself, then you will be able to relativize and minimize everything.
Kurt Eggers, "live bravely and die courageously"
Death is just the cherry on the top of life, if you live bravely then you also have to die of a death that is befitting to who you are. Death is not just the end, but the apex of one's life.
Just noticed the involuntary Reddit spacing, someone kill me