Alright robots feels thread ill start
>be me
>like15 at the time
>sophomore in high school
>in band
>be beta
>like it was really bad
>I was terrified of girls
>I had no idea how to flirt or talk to them without coming off as creepy
>life sucked
>it made me really fucking depressed
>like listen to emo music and wear sweaters depressed
>I have a friend
>let's call him James
>James is a chad
>6'2 180" and has a thicc Latina gf
>one of my best friends
>we've known each other since middle school
We both play tuba btw. Fuck you if you play anything else
>get suicidal
>this is really unnatural for me
>I'm usually happy and upbeat and willing to do just about anything to make you laugh.
>it scared me how depressed I was
>I talked to James about it
>I told him how I wanted to fucking end it and never see anyone again.
>he laughs
>he tells me that I'm too fucking good of a person to do something as fucking retarded as kill myself
Verbatim
>he asks me what my issue is
>tell him it's the no gf
>he laughs and says he can help me be less beta
>I agree to take his help ofc
>He slowly teaches me the way of the chad.
>I learn how to (kinda) talk to girls
>he also teaches me to run my social media better
>and then
>out of fucking no where
>an angel fell into my life.
Cont.?
Feels thread man
Bumping cuz I'm curious as to how badly you get fucked up
Play sousa in uni rn would give anything to go back but unfortunately thats not how it works
glad to see another bando in this thread once a tuba player always a tuba player
Go on
Alright I will.
>There is a girl in guard that I've known of for a little bit.
>her name is Bella.
>she's 7/10 5'2 skinny white girl
>she had a cute butt and small tits
>and her face
>oh my god
>super sleek and angular face with a smile that would stun
>and her eyes man
>oh my god her eyes
>I would get lost in them and rediscover who I was before I found myself
>anyways
>I was talking to James and I told him basically I would attempt to try for Bella
>he's like do it pussy
>so I did
>I really thought nothing of it at the time.
>she actually responded so that was a good sign. That usually didn't happen
>we got really close over the next few days.
>like we would text for hours and hours upon end and lose all concept of time
>start hanging out irl more.
We had band classes together but never really hang out before. It was towards the end of the year so we weren't doing anything
>Eventually her friends start asking if I was crushing on her
>uh duh
>she was interested is so many different things
>we had so many common interests like music and vidya and things we enjoyed doing
>plus she was stunning
>her friends told ,e that she liked me too
>this was news to me
>a girl had never liked me before.
>what the fuck
>basically just said ok and walked away in shock
>the next day I grow some balls and ask her out on a date
>she said yes
>holy fuck
>I did it
>I got a girl
>we started getting really close with each other
>basically did nothing but hang out with each other for the next 5days.
>it was towards the end of the year so we would skip class together and shit and cuddle and whatnot and talk
>being the band nerds we were we listened to musicals together
Inb4 gayfag
>we decided our first real date should be a picnic
>we walked to a nearby grocery store and got food and then walked to a park nearby to eat and shit.
>it was great.
>I had the time of my life
>we made it official after that
>I finally had a gf
>it was amazing.
Cont? Comment is too long
>playing tuba in high school band
My nigga right here
Please continue in an original fashion
Continuing anyway fuck you
>I'm throwing a party at my house
>nothing much
>just a few friends and Bella
>everyone comes over have a good wholesome time
>everyone except Bella leaves
>were cuddled up on my couch watching the office
>out of fucking nowhere
>I blurt out
>like a fucking nigger
I love you
>8days after I asked her out
>she looks me dead in the eyes.
>fuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfu
I love you too
>nigga what
>holy shit
>uh ok
>that went well
>fast forward a month
>can't drive.
>ask friend if he can drive Bella and I to mcdonalds after a band practice
>he says yeah
>we get in the back and sit next to each other
>friend makes a joke like don't be getting any head back there haha
>Bella laughs and says
Don't worry. I'm asexual
>what
>Nani
>how
>fuuuuuck dude
>it would explain why she got so uncomfortable whenever I tried to make a move
>by make a move I mean fucking kiss her
>figured that she just needed to be coaxed into it.
>I'm a little pissed.
>I try talking to her about it and I end up getting shut down.
>whatever.
>she said that maybe she'll warm up to the idea of kissing and that was good enough for me.
>we are still close
>we still have each other
>and that's what really counts right?
>right?
>female
>im asexual
Aka im saving myself for chad.
Actually you'd be surprised. Turns out it was legitimate
I don bleeb it
She's pretty enough to get with Chas but hasnt. I'm continuing.
>it's hard to describe in words how much I love her
>it's just I see her
>and every fiber of my being is filled with boiling ecstasy
>I float when I with her
>I just HNGGGGG man
>anyways her bday is coming up
>I gotta be the good wholesomebf.png
>look at Pinterest for ideas
>end up hand making her a 52 reasons I love u And some candy I know she loves.
>She loves it
>proud of myself
>still no smooch tho
>whatever
Just so y'all know from this point on it goes downhill, so Pt.2 now ig
>just turned 16
>Got my license
>boppin in my moms minivan
>imthefuckingshit.wav
>Bella lives like 30 mins away for whatever reason
>it's weird but I don't question it.
>my mom doesn't want me driving all the way to Bella's yet for dates cuz I'm a new driver
Also I'm a Florida fag and driving is a bitch
>so we decide to meet halfway and she'll get in my car and we'll go ice skating
>should be a fun day
>she's supposed to meet me at 10.
>it's 10.
>no Bella
>wait 15 minutes
>no Bella
>wait another 15.
>my phone goes off
>hey babe good morning
>I'm like you were supposed to be here 30 mins ago
>she basically just goes whatever and cancels the date
>I was pissed.
>we hadn't seen each other in like a month cuz summer and I was looking forward to this.
>ooooooo I was mad.
>didn't talk to her for a couple days
>but she made no attempt to contact me either.
This should've been my first clue but I was stupid so whatever
>Birthday party a week later
>she shows up
>remember that super wholesome gift I got her
>she shows up with like. 2 dollar store boxes of candy.
Warning number 2
>I said thank you anyways
>and I love you
>cuz no matter what she did
>i always loved her with everything in me
Will cont
get to the part where she dumps you
Continuing
>At this point school has started again
>were hanging out more and going out whenever we can
>fridays we have football games
>we start the year off hanging out every Friday
>later on though she starts making more excuses not to hang out
>I feel like I'm doing something wrong and I don't know what to do
>I eventually swallow my pride and talk to her about it
Hey babe I think there might be something legitimately wrong with our relationship. Can we try to fix it please? I love you (abridged)
There's nothing wrong (verbatim)
>eventually I start getting on edge
>this isn't fun anymore
>this isn't the Bella I remember
>the one that would laugh at all my jokes
>who always texted back
>who made an effort to see me
>who gave back to me what I gave to her
>she had changed
>she wasn't willing to compromise on anything
>especially the kissing
>James is saying that I should try to make it as romantic as possible and go for it
>agree
>have another party at my house
>we sneak out to my backyard to stargaze
>were looking at the stars and dancing to our own little songs together in a way I can't describe
>it was magical
>I looked her in the eyes and said
I love you
And I leaned in
>she pushed me away
What the hell? You brought me out here just to make out with me?
>what no,
>I was just
>I just wanted a kiss man
>it was fucking romantic and we were having a good time.
>she went from warm and loving and bubbly to cold and distant in a second.
>I couldn't believe it
>she called her mom and went home
>I was beyond mad
>I was upset and disappointed and betrayed almost
>how could his woman
>who I worshipped
>not love me back
>after saying I love you so many times
>the feeling that followed immeadiatly after this can only be described as pure utter heartbreak
>how could this bond we had just vanish like that
>how
>How
>HOW
>...
>I had no choice
>I did something that until very recently I regretted
>I broke up with her
cont.
Faggot you thought. anyway here's the last part. I got cut off last post
>there were no more I love yous
>no more hand holding
>no more cuddling
>no more impromptu duets
>it was over
>I felt like a part of me died that day
>my first love gone
>and I felt like it was all my fault.
>I fell into a downward spiral of depression
>my grades suffered
>I got into multiple fights.
>I dropped out of high school senior year to pursue my new hobbies of drugs and booze
>eventually tho I pulled ,y shit together and whatnot and got my G.E.D
>going to community college now
Yeah that's about it for my feels train. Feel free to ask questions ig. I feel better about it now so I'll be able to explain it better if some parts are rushed or confusing. I just had to get it out.
So youre still a khv after all that
Nope. Ending up fucking a whore in my Prius. So not a virgin
Include me in screencap leddit
me too please jabronis
You should pick up music again, it is one of the easiest ways to get a group of likeminded friends and a gf in college
I wish you good luck on your future endeavors and to put this all behind you
>swiping on okcupid
>match with some single mom a year younger than me
>she's a solid 5/10 like me and her son isn't half-nigger
>ignores my messages
why did she even swipe right on me I'm so desperate for sex & companionship I'm about to go on a virgin rage killing spree on stacies
Thanks for the feels ;-;