I am just curious: is any one of you here on Jow Forums a bigger loser than me?
>am turning 30 years old this year >male >am currently living in Los Angeles, CA >dropped out of high school at 17, back in 2006 >the only "education" that I've received since then has mainly been Wikipedia and Khan Academy >have been essentially unemployed for over a decade >have only had one "real" job: a mall cop job for a single month, back in 2011 >have not had any "real" friends since 1997 >have not had any "internet friends" since 2009 >have never had a girlfriend >virgin >have only ever kissed one girl: a stripper in Mexico, back in 2006 >spend all day playing video games even though video games do very little if anything for me anymore >am currently living with my "retired", single, hard-working, 72-year-old mother >have been officially diagnosed by an actual psychologist as having three different disorders: major depressive disorder, social anxiety disorder, and generalized anxiety disorder >have been officially diagnosed by an actual psychiatrist as having attention deficit hyperactivity disorder >diagnosed with four different disorders that nobody in my family nor anybody else in the world seems to believe are "real" >am currently being prescribed an antipsychotic (Abilify), an antidepressant (Remeron), and a psychostimulant (Adderall), none of which seem to do all that much for me anymore >being prescribed medications to treat disorders that nobody seems to believe are real >have now become 30+ pounds overweight thanks to Abilify >the psychologist who diagnosed me has been ignoring my e-mails and phone calls since March of 2017 >the psychologist's subordinate (my third and most recent psychotherapist) told me last month to stop trying to contact her or else she would take legal actions against me
I am already in possession of a real firearm alongside several rounds of ammunition just to make sure that my brain matter gets properly nuked when the time comes.
Ryder Morales
This is almost me except I'm 28 and never been diagnosed with any mental health condition other than some generic depression. I've now spent more time as a neet than what I have spent in all those years of doing school but time feels so much faster now. It's too late I keep telling myself, I still don't know what career path to take and I have been obsessed with achievements in games. That doesn't give me much satisfaction anymore.
Logan Turner
I'm legitimately scared of turning 30 because I've missed out on so many experiences. I really don't see any reason to live into my 30s. 40s is definitely game over.... you're an old creepy loser tier age.
Dominic Green
I'm 30, never employed, khv, live with my grandma, high school dropout, and have spent about 1/3rd of my life in prison. I still shit and pissed my pants well in to my teens, and while I have substance abuse issues, they're all related to meme drugs like inhalants and robotussin.
Connor Baker
How do you afford to eat?
Zachary Jenkins
10 years in jail...how did you not go insane?
Cameron Garcia
>am turning 31 years old this year >girl (male) >am currently living in Los Santos >dropped out of high school at 16, back in 2005 >the only "education" that I've received since then has mainly been Jow Forums >have been essentially unemployed for over a decade + 1 year >have never had one "real" job >have not had any "real" friends >have not had any "internet friends" >have never had a friend >KHHV >have only ever seen one girl: a Mexico, back in 2005 >spend all day playing board games even though board games do very little if anything for me anymore >am currently living with my "retired", single, hard-working, 73-year-old mother (female) >have been officially diagnosed by an actual psychologist as having four different disorders: major depressive disorder, social anxiety disorder, and generalized anxiety disorder, and mega anxiety disorder >have been officially diagnosed by 2 actual psychiatrist as having super attention deficit hyperactivity disorder >diagnosed with five different disorders that nobody in my family nor anybody else in the world seems to believe are "real" >am currently being prescribed an antipsychotic (Abilify), an antidepressant (Remeron), and a psychostimulant (Adderall), and dimethyltryptamine none of which seem to do all that much for me anymore >being prescribed medications to treat disorders that nobody seems to believe are real >have now become 31+ pounds overweight thanks to food >the "real" psychologist who diagnosed me has been ignoring my e-mails and phone calls since February of 2016 >the "real" psychologist's "real" subordinate (my fourth and most recent psychotherapist) told me last month to stop trying to contact her or else she would take legal actions against me
Looks like I'm worse off so you can't complain anymore.
Cameron Russell
Mexicos are pretty hot. My favorite one is the OG United States of Mexico.
Daniel Bennett
You 30 year old losers still have a chance at life. Your youth is over but your life is far from over, don't give up.
I'm female, not fat, and not ugly And my personality is so unpleasant that I have never had sex No one has ever been able to put up with me long enough even to pump and dump me I must be a nightmare
Liam Ortiz
Jfc how hard is it not to be a bitch?
Aiden Lewis
I thought it was just a faze, but I think this is just what I am now when I've asked why though, they usually they say it's because I'm too depressing, not rude some people say I'm extremely mean though
Landon Jackson
>when did you start taking all those drugs?
I first started taking psychoactive drugs (as prescribed to me by my psychiatrists) back in 2013.
>Why don't your therapists want to talk to you?
I've had three psychotherapists so far.
The first one I guess doesn't want to talk to me anymore because she isn't getting paid to talk to me anymore. I only went to see that first psychotherapist just one time back in 2014 when I still had Kaiser Permanente as my medical insurance.
My second psychotherapist... somewhat similar situation, except I was paying her directly out of my own wallet rather than with my insurance. I stopped seeing that second one back in 2016 because she didn't really seem all that good (she was a "cheap" psychotherapist, only charged about $55 per hour).
My third psychotherapist doesn't want to talk to me because... uhhhh... I, uh, congratulated her for getting married, I guess. It must've freaked her out that I looked her up on the internet (I run background checks on all of my doctors) and found out that she got married recently.
Jaxon Cook
>, and not ugly This is where you're wrong.
Daniel Peterson
What difference would that make? I can't get laid on easymode I am the biggest loser here, the why really doesn't matter
Ryan Hughes
do you get autism bux from the state? Sounds like you might qualify, I'm no expert though.
you could propably get free psych shit too. State paid for sessions I mean. Have you look into that stuff?
Changing topics, in my amateur opinion you need a goal. Something to work towards. Something you can be proud of and give you confidence. Something you can start small and in your room. Have you thought about learning how to code? or perhaps writing? learning a new language? Let's brain storm, what is something that you wouldn't hate doing? What do you like?
also >I, uh, congratulated her for getting married, I guess. It must've freaked her out that I looked her up on the internet
this would only freak some one out (that you looked them up online) if they were already freaked out by you. Why was she concerned with you in the first place?
Oliver Lee
if you have kissed a girl or obtained a job for any length of time (as you claim in your post), by normie criteria you are already less of a loser than a significant percentage of this board.
Also, fuck off
Jason Hernandez
I'll pay you $5 per 10mg of addy
Christian Nguyen
You should find out when she's getting married and buy her a wedding gift to get her to talk to you!
Grayson Green
Because he's a 30 year old overweight male virgin living with his mother, and she was probably the only other female he had regular interactions with. Her fight or flight obviously went up every session, this ain't rocket science.
This seems impossible. I'd fuck your brains out regardless of your personality, as long as you're semi-attractive. The same could be said for most men.
You're either really fucking ugly, or you're not a woman at all.
Jaxon Price
>do you get autism bux from the state?
I am pretty sure that I am at least mildly autistic, but, no, I have not been formally diagnosed with autism. I did some research, called a few places, and found out that to be officially evaluated for autism would cost me around $5200. I definitely can not afford that right now.
>you could propably get free psych shit too. State paid for sessions I mean. Have you look into that stuff?
I find it very difficult to get free stuff from the government since my family is using my name and social security number for the illegitimate, morally dubious business of my older brother.
>Changing topics, in my amateur opinion you need a goal. Something to work towards. Something you can be proud of and give you confidence. Something you can start small and in your room. Have you thought about learning how to code? or perhaps writing? learning a new language?
Lately I have been considering writing an autobiography, but I do not think that my life is interesting enough for people to want to read about it. I currently spend a lot of time making some contributions to history-related articles on Wikipedia.
>this would only freak some one out (that you looked them up online) if they were already freaked out by you. Why was she concerned with you in the first place?
I am maybe about 95% certain that she was flirting with me during those six sessions that I had with her back in March of last year. I figured that maybe she was scared that I might blackmail her somehow, like maybe threaten to tell her husband or something.
She already got married back in September of last year.
Wyatt Robinson
Guess I'll take really fucking ugly then, Alex Doesn't really matter why in the end, though No matter what the reason, it's a friday night and I'm alone in my mom's garage posting on Jow Forums
Evan James
Ok, let us see. Your medication does not work. So just do not take it anymore. Video games do not do anything anymore. So stop playing them. You do not have a job. At this point your resume will look absurd. My suggestion: Find entry level jobs. Do not apply online, just go straight into the store and tell them you desperately need a job to support your old mother, no questions asked. Tell them straight in the face you fucked up in the past and you are ashamed to talk about it, but you are willing to work hard and as good as you can. You will have to face a lot of rejection but at this point your life is so fucked you might as well try out all possibilities there are left to save it. Make sure you are clean, smell good, your clothes are clean and fit well. Also get a haircut. There are tons of resources online if you are an autist and do not know how this is done. I wish you the best of luck. Just do it faggot! Once you have work, make sure your life revolves around it. This means you are there on time, you only leave when everything is done and you generally present yourself like in your job interview. After all this is your last hope at getting a normal life. So do not fuck up.
Aiden Cox
you get to live in LA? lucckyy im stuck on the east coast like a bitch :(
Aiden Walker
>it's a friday night and I'm alone in my mom's garage posting on Jow Forums In the garage? Doesn't it get cold in there? Like nipples hard enough to cut diamond cold?
Xavier Collins
When my parents realized I was never going to move out, my stepdad finished the inside of the garage, so I have heat, a/c, dry wall, all that it's actually pretty nice
Jeremiah Jones
>mfw no cutie garage gf
Oliver Rogers
It wasn't consecutive. >Age 17 Residential burglary, served 3 years >Age 21 Meth Manufacturing, served 5 years >Age 27 Theft, criminal destruction of property, parole violation, did another two years.
Post pics so we can determine if it is really your character.
Hunter Cook
>post your probably ugly mug on Jow Forums for all of Jow Forums to ridicule whether you're ugly or not I'm horrible, not retarded
Jaxson Fisher
Did you see the thread where femanon posted her sliz asking if people thought it was ugly? They were ruthless.
Ryder Wood
Why would we ridicule you, we are all in the same boat. You do not have to be ashamed of being uggo, not much you can do about it.
Leo Hughes
see and literally any other thread with a camwhoring face show-er
no
Jeremiah Wood
I guess you will never get a honest opinion then.
Ian Cooper
I mean I already have, like I said The resounding answer is "You are miserable to be around"
Aaron Gomez
>people are honest
Parker Jackson
fair I feel like "ugly" would be easier to say than "you as a human being are impossible to like," though
Joseph Baker
No. Original cyka bled
Austin Martin
What has been your medication history for your MDD/GAD/SAD? You should go through the following before calling it quits: - Phenelzine (gold standard med for social anxiety)/ Tranylcypromine - Ketamine - Magic Mushrooms - Buprenorphine - rTMS - Deep Brain Stimulation - ECT
Your current medications suck is your problem. Adderall is not sustainable. Aripiprazole and mirtazapine are garbage.
Sebastian Sanchez
29 year old NEET virgin aspie in Los Angeles leeching off 71 year old widow mother here, nice to know I'm not the biggest loser on this website in my area. I'd offer to be your IRL friend but you probably smell, would be a downer, and crazy clingy.
Liam Richardson
>I find it very difficult to get free stuff from the government since my family is using my name and social security number for the illegitimate, morally dubious business of my older brother.
damn bro, you got dealt a rough hand.
regardless, you seem to enjoy writing and as far as I can tell you are good at it. If you search hard enough I'm sure you can find a way to improve your situation with this. Maybe find ways to write history essays online for college kids, that kind of shady shit. Or history blogging. The perfect job isn't going to fall into your lap, you may need to deal with people, but i think it's an avenue worth pursuing
but what to i know im just some idiot on the internet
Dominic Nguyen
>be me, turned 50 three months ago >cis straight male, Europe >have only ever kissed one girl in 1997, that is, 21 years ago (most of you robots weren't even born) >currently 50 and virgin, can't drive >never had a job for more than 3 years, mostly because fuckin' longlasting economic crisis >unemployed since 2014 because firm went bankrupt and noone would want a ~50yo systems engineer when you can get a 20yo faggot for half the money >not even minimum wage, because fuckin' 20yo fagets are healthier than me (aka they're willing to work twice the hours for half the wage and don't get tired after regular hours) >now living with parents >mom is 79, dad is 85, both have serious health problems due to age, cigarettes, and other stuff >groceries: we rely on a neighbor with a car, or a small grocery 10min on foot (mom can't walk for more than 10mins) >living in a 500sqft house in contryside >lucky: a train station is 40 minutes on foot, and it only takes 50 minutes to get to a decent city, thus if I had to take a 9-5 job, I'd have to wake up at 6am and get back home at 8pm >dad's retirement savings are almost zeroed out, we've got no debts but can't tell how much time it will last; house value is literally zero because noone would buy this wrecked shithole >we have a 1000sqft garden with a few citrus fruits trees, that's good because I can fake I'm doing something (spend 30 mins/day there, so that noone can say I waste all of my time watching anime) >in less than 20 years Euro currency destroyed our assets, our life, our jobs (basically Euro was the new name for Deutsche Mark: if you're not German, it destroyed your eurocountry) >fucking niggers everywhere, thanks to the cuckpolicy of cuckleaders
Xavier Myers
see you at Midnight Mass service!
>tfw no Christian mentally healthy virgin fembot willing to date me
well, once you lose your virginity, your attractiveness will drop to below zero.
virginity is not an illness. also, you don't want to regret for life that Random Penis Attached To A Random Dude Who Pumped'n'Dumped Me Back In The Day
okay great awesome no one has ever loved me either they never will
Benjamin Phillips
I love you user. I'm curious what makes your personality so shitty
Chase Thomas
I'm usually told that I'm too sad or morbid, I've also been told that I'm extremely mean
Justin Watson
Same bruh. People are just pussies desu.
Adrian Ross
>Meth manufacturing Nice
Xavier Davis
you know what? you sound quite like a girl. real girls actually go whining around "hurr durr noone loves me, noone will ever love me".
maybe 9/10 and 10/10 gurrls won't whine, yet they're exactly things people only wants to use, they will never experience real love.
yet, being unattractive means two things: - you are already attracting a bunch of dudes fetishizing every single one of your so-called defects;
- if any dude keeps approaching you even if you stated you'll preserve virginity for marriage, then you can be sure he totally loves you.
The only reason a girl whines about "muh unrequited love" shit, is when she feels entitled to the richest Chad out there.
I used to date a Cthulhu lard monster, a literal 0/10, because I loved her bizarre personality. That happened because my first teen crush was just like her but turned me down.
Eventually the lard ass golem started flirting with an Uber faggot driver, and eventually kissed him. In public. In a place where everyone knew I was dating her. Thus I instantly dumped her and blocked her. She eventually married that faggot.
