Tfw you can feel yourself getting closer to the edge a little bit more every day

>tfw you can feel yourself getting closer to the edge a little bit more every day

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reply to my fucking thread, you rancid swines

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what happened? indulge me

what will happen when you reach the edge user?

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What edge are you talking about?

it literally just keeps getting worst
>nightmares every night
>hearth hurts randomly
>feel like crying all the time
>really hate myself
>feel like Im a burden to everyone
I just want to be fucking normal

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I feel like I deserve the pain though

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The same nightmare?

several recurring ones

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I got a couple like that as well. Most involve being chased and shot.

I know this feel too well. It's starting to get pretty scary.

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the big three are:
>family's face turn into weird grins and they chase/try to stab me
>friend, to whose funeral I didn't go, runs up to me, grabs me and screams into my face
>an alternative ending to when my other friend tried to commit suicide, but instead I dont manage to save him,and everyone tells me it's my fault

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I really do feel like I deserve pain, and that's what really makes me scared

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Holy shit, those sound like a twisted hellscape. Do you have an alarm set to wake you? I personally never remember a dream when I have to rise early in the morning. Only when I sleep in.

no need for an alarm when you keep jumping out of bed at 4am in cold sweat

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what style of art is this?

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dunno, here's the source anyway
gate-to-nowhere.deviantart.com/art/Ocean-of-Fire-62095570

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Ever tried to achieve lucidity while dreaming?

happens naturally towards morning, but it only makes me more anxious for some reason

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Are you about to break?

fuck, feels like it

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>no matter how many layers of blankets are around me I feel cold inside because of loneliness
>barely sleep anymore, simply can't sleep no matter how tired I am
>getting uncomfy dream whenever I can manage to sleep

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Yup, I know that feeling.

Fuck up, 'wake-up' and hallucinate some hellish shit for while. Worst is when I have visions of shapes barreling towards me after I sit upright.

living on the edge, with nothing to fall back on is basically a definition of poverty.

Talk to a therapist. Set some goals and work on them. Then things will get better. You will still feel like shit because you don't change overnight but success is the natural antidepressant remember this. We believe in you user and I hope you will feel better. However also understand that the reality is that you will never start to feel better if you don't change anything. Start by making an appointment with a therapist and talk about these issues they are serious and it will really help you. You can get out of this user. Allow yourself to be helped there is no shame in it. Good luck.

I've tried giving him multiple chances to see if what he said was true, to see that I wasn't just jumping to conclusions. He lied to me, kept telling me he loved me and I'm the first one he thinks about. Knew every button to push to get to my body and used me like a condom. Now, I know the real him. I will not rest till both of us are in the grave.

He robbed me of every not I had before meeting him. I opened to my heart and got nothing but shit in return.

He will die, I promise all of you. It won't take long.

>>no matter how many layers of blankets are around me I feel cold inside because of loneliness

Fuck this,i also get it,no matter how much you warm up there is a internal coldness,i just want to feel the warmth of another human being

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I have been a drain of people's valuable time and resources for 21 years, I don't intend to inconvenience anyone anymore, thank you
Plus, I don't want real people to know I have these problems

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do it m88

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Just gonna drag him out to my apartment. Make him think we're gonna have fun and then unload the magazine in his chest. I'll make sure that the two phones he always prioritizes over me are the way his family will get to know the REAL him; the boy fucking, cheating husband and father of 6. I could have killed him before had I not thought of the pain of his family but now I only care to end my pain.

This all might sound like a joke right now but with time I will prove it. I swear to God I will.