>played football all throughout childhood >tall, masculine features >fit >lost my virginity early >attractive >beautiful singing voice also did musical theater
About 7 years ago I had a severe head injury. Ended my football career and I was in a coma for 21 days. After I woke up I had to relearn how to speak and walk, my entire left side was numb. I still struggle with many basic tasks, but now can live and work on my own, but for a long time it wasn't really for sure I'd ever be able to live on my ownI couldn't do that to my parents so I tried hard with physical therapy so I wouldn't burden them. I still can not speak properly, and the head injury changed my personality in many ways, mainly developing severe anxiety and paranoia. The scaring on my face has ruined my features. Just about the only thing I retained was my singing voice.
honestly a lot of the time I wish I had died in that coma, slipped into the night so I wouldn't have to endure this half existence
>So now you understand that anxiety is a struggle that some people have to live with. I always knew that, and I tried to help people who were less fortunate than me. Back when I was younger before the accident I tried to help people, mainly through theater. I felt the stage was a place people could learn to be themselves and come out of their shells. Putting on a mask of a character tells you a lot about who you are as a person.
Mostly what I miss is being able to speak and form sentences. The head injury essentially trapped me so I can think of concepts, but words escape me. It's frustrating and mostly centered around speech and not language itself.
The speech center of my brain was damaged so the normal flow of concept -> word -> sounds is interrupted and I get stuck on changing words to sounds.
Gavin Price
>I felt the stage was a place people could learn to be themselves and come out of their shells. Putting on a mask of a character tells you a lot about who you are as a person. You should have died in that coma you retarded faggot
Jackson Wood
Linebacker, was gonna get a scholarship too.
Not a NEET, worked hard to move out so I wouldn't burden my parents. I could probably get NEETbux with the amount of stuff still wrong with me, but I know my parents would ask me to come home if they ever found out I was on disability money.
Josiah Rogers
Have you ever done theater? I know it does sound odd that slipping into a character tells you about who you are. I sort of thing of it like this; we all put on masks all the time when interacting with others, these masks are fake personalities we use to hide our insecurities and fears. However putting on a mask made for you, one of a character, give you a sort of frame to compare oneself to. Having to act that out in a way that is judged by others, mainly the stage director, makes you reflect on the portrayed personality in a way just existing doesn't.
He's right though. No one cared who I was until I put on the mask.
Alexander Garcia
Underrated post, for big guys and robots alike Wasted digits on a butthurt fag who thinks all Chads across the board have no empathy or emotional intelligence.
It's the opposite for me, I was a robot and now I'm Chad. Maybe that's incorrect though, sure I could get a girlfriend but mentally I'm worse off then others here. When I got a gf and I realized that nothing changed I'm still empty... it was depressing. Now I'm back to being a NEET and I'm just an inconvenience away from offing myself.
Jaxon Russell
You never were Chad, you had one girlfriend.
Angel Barnes
You need brain stimulants. You also need to accept the bogdanoff brothers into your heart.
>honestly a lot of the time I wish I had died in that coma, slipped into the night so I wouldn't have to endure this half existence Then fucking kill yourself normie.
you were comatose and restarted life in your 20s, you are doing pretty well by braindead standards, i christen thee king tard
Jackson Robinson
I've had 6 gfs and people on /soc/ would rate me 7/10 - 9/10 from when I've posted and they have no reason to lie. I'm basically the generic Chad 6'3" white male blonde hair blue eyes and should've played sports all my life but was a shut in NEET and still am. Even though I can barely hold a conversation, get anxious and freeze up it's alright because I'm attractive and that's all dumb whores care about.
Parker Lee
good creative writing, OP, shame this kind of thing doesn't actually happen
Jack Jones
Congratulations on being able to live independently.
Nathaniel Scott
What's wrong with what OP said?
Ethan Barnes
it's obviously just a deliberately written power fantasy for loser shut-ins
chad having everything going on a downward spiral is very much a power fantasy for the reader, in the same way news about school shooters are a power fantasy
Blake Baker
Traumatic head injuries can cause all the stuff he mentioned though.
This is the gayest fucking shit I have ever read in my life.
Ian Roberts
>honestly a lot of the time I wish I had died in that coma, slipped into the night so I wouldn't have to endure this half existence thats what being a robot has always been for us since birth
Lucas Russell
Sing a song for us with your beautiful voice.
Ayden Gutierrez
It's almost like you've forgotten when the fuck you are, someone show this reddit fag the fucking door.
I'm sorry about the anons that are being dicks to you OP. I hope you can eventually recover enough to speak again.
Adrian Reed
So many fucking people here saying: >now you know what being a robot is like Most of you fucking faggots do not actually have much wrong with you and just refuse to try. Seriously, what do you have that is as bad as severe brain damage/lameness in half your body?
What do you have that is wrong with you that is as bad as being incapable of speech/lameness in half your body?
Sebastian Wright
Post face faggot
Then I'll believe you
Brandon Nguyen
It's Aniki
Jaxson Adams
Left highschool, connections faded, girlfriend od'd and my talent is gone. Now here I am, struggling to even connect with "the weird side" of the internet. Even Jow Forums can't relate with me, I'm fucked
Robert Foster
Kill yourself before I kill your kids in the next school shooting. This whiny bitch has several good years. I've had 0 good minutes. He had in his years of health what I'll never have in my life because genetically ugly, fat and born poor as dirt. Hated by all, stomped on by all frm the age of 4. Attacked racially and for physicality. I was born into the hell you fear in bible school you delusional cock-sucking son of a whore.
Juan Collins
>why though because you were a normie. The most evil being on the planet.
Kevin Kelly
>blames others for being fat and poor Ugly I will give you, but fat and poor are your own damn fault. Stop being a whiny bitch.
Na, fat cuz genetics. Fat cuz hated by everyone for other factors. Fat cuz poor you spoiled piece of shit.
Jacob Evans
I don't understand why so many people here hate Chad. Chad is, quite often, a virgin's/beta's only friend who despite knowing you are pathetic still is friends with you. Why? Chad has a perfect life, Chad has no reason to hurt others he already has everything he wants or needs. Chad is the ultimate bro who will try to get you laid and stays by your side.
If you're getting bullied or taunted my 'chad', he is not Chad; he is either Brad or just a normalfag.
t. Chad shill.
Kevin Jones
It's "scarring" user, just so you know. (I really want to crack either one of two jokes about that, but I'd feel like a bit of a bellend)
Noah Ramirez
>t. Chad shill Innacurate. You are a literal beta faggot. Go suck chad's dick, faggot.
