Introvert

Are there any extroverted introverts here? Or is it maybe introverted extrovert? I don't know what the fuck to call it.

I go out probably 6-7 times a week alone to a bar with no friends. I like to be out among people, but I do not like to socialize. When someone starts to talk to me when I am out at a bar I feel like shrinking and leaving immediately, but I have to be out among people most of the time or I feel like killing myself.

It feels like I can't relate to anybody because this is uncommon. Tell me there are others out there like this? Robots who need to feel connected to others, but cannot handle socializing in any way, shape, or form?

I can't even handle watching a Netflix show on my own as it feels too isolated, I need to watch antenna TV to feel connected to others. It's weird. I don't know what's going on, but this has been my life the past year.

Anyone? Or maybe I just need to dip my balls in acid to feel connected to people.

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Fuck, I am alone on this aren't I?

Shit. What do I do?

I do this sometimes. I talk to people if I get the chance though. My gut feeling is that you do want to talk to people (you started this thread haven't you) and you're just afraid.

I guess, but I generally get annoyed or paranoid when people start talking to me randomly at a bar... though I feel the need to be out with other people.

Maybe it's easier to say I like to be alone, but not feel isolated? Does that make sense?

I mean, I often hate being with myself as well. Just don't try to have the conversation go anywhere is what does the trick for me, for example, if someone starts talking to me I tell myself that it'd be fine if all I say is two words and the other person gets bored, you know?

Oh yeah totally. If all else fails and someone keeps talking at me I just mention to them "I'm not much of a talker" and they get the idea. Especially if I've been super short or barely responding to them talking to me.

Seems like everything's fine then?

However, I am too much of a pussy to tell someone to stop talking to me. If they keep doing it I will go home and feel like a piece of shit to myself because I couldn't even tell one person how I really felt.

No because when I am out alone I feel like something is missing, but when someone starts talking to me I feel like everything is too much. I can't seem to find a middle ground.

You don't have to actively ask them to stop talking to you, just be an asshole

I guess that's where the introverted-ness sets in. I get majorly uncomfortable in public in those circumstances, but get suicidal when I'm alone. So it's putting up with the lesser evil.

I get referred to as "the local" to 3 bars I regular, to get an idea how much I go out.

Too many robots that just piss in bottles on the couch I guess. Figures. Just thought I'd give it a shot.

Fuck guys. Help please. Just lie to me if you have to.

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What exactly the fug is an extroverted introvert and an introverted extrovert?

sounds like something normies would invent to make them feel unique

Yep you got me.
only been using Jow Forums since '07
You got me man. HAHA good job dude.

>couch
You mean bed

I have a futon. I have no couch or bed. I have both at the same time motherfucker.

You're clearly comfortable in public. Sounds pretty normal to me.

>comfortable in public
>can't talk to anybody

Shit you a psych bro?

You're just shy. Even though you want to socialize, you can't and the only thing that leaves you not feeling isolated is at least being around people.
Don't worry, this is sane.

I guess, but I don't even have the urge to talk to people. I don't want to get to know people even if I had the ability to. I just don't want to feel isolated anymore. It's suffocating after doing that for over 10 years.

Maybe my ECT and ketamine treatments fucked up my brain in a way to feel this way. I don't know.

Sounds to me you are an extrovert with social anxiety.

>durr durr maybe these brain-altering treatments changed my brain

Sorry guys, I realize how fucking retarded this sounds now.

Just don't know how to interpret it right now. It's not a mindset I'm use to.

I might be what you call an extroverted introvert.
I really like to be alone, and if I can't be left alone from time to time I get really depressive. But with that said I go out with friends almost every weekend, and I used to go to bars alone, but I don't feel like doing that anymore.

>and I used to go to bars alone, but I don't feel like doing that anymore.

So would you say you are becoming more introverted as a result? Or are you still relying on your weekend outings to not feel miserable?

I still go out on weekends, actually when the weekend comes I feel even more restless and I really want to go out, but now I have a group of friends I go out with, even if we just drink in their garage.
Today I was pretty surprised when one of them called me to ask if I was gonna show up, that has never happened before

In before get out normie. But really I feel you dude. Despite me not wanting to socialize, it would be nice to feel wanted like that. Congrats man.

It is pretty nice that they actually called me, before I just used to show up when they talked about it on facebook

Introvert: Most comfortable by themselves, need necessary social interaction to "recharge" but too much of it is undesirable.
Extrovert: Most comfortable with others, need necessary alone time to "recharge" but too much of it is undesirable.

Take Light Yagami, social butterfly but is introverted. A great many people who are socially maladjusted are probably extroverts, including many people here if their constant moaning and bitching is any indication. Unfortunately, extroversion is the default in societies like America's so not making others' business your own or your business everyone else's is frowned upon. It's an annoyance for introverts who aren't Light Yagamis and extroverts like you who aren't like the rest.

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A thought: in Western society if a child grows up to be introverted there was a neurological or parental failure and the child is much less likely to be successful.

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Good way of putting it. Thanks for the input

Reverse avoidant, that's so neat.

Yes. I pine for a connection with others but the second I come into contact with people I feel complete disdain for them. I have this idealised version of socialising in my head that is so far removed from reality but sometimes I experience it in my dreams.

so your default position is that being introverted is a bad thing and that extroversion is the holy grail of life?

scientifically you're wrong anyway, but you're the type of person that continues this myth

>in Western society

Maybe you feel this way because you also have an idealized version of yourself? It's a lot easier to be more forgiving of others if you realize you're a piece of shit too, and that we're just trying to get through this life at the same time.

That's some Dostoevskian shit right there.
Perhaps he already sees himself as shit but that doesn't change how he feels about people in general. If you see yourself as shit, why would seeing that same shittiness reflected in others necessarily make things better? We may pity each other, which makes sense if you're a Christian or something, then all men are fallible and can be saved through faith, love, and humility. If not and you still feel this revulsion toward humanity, then preferring a world of ideals is natural.

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