that's alright, friend. i hope you feel at least a little bit better now.
i get the feeling. though if you're anything like me, you'd be surprised at just how much longer you can keep going like this despite how unbearable it may feel. it's not easy to change something, even in the worst situation, it seems. i'm not really sure what you mean by "magic", whether it's in a sort of "i hope something really great and mysterious randomly happens to me and pulls me out of this neverending hellfire i've found myself burning in" way, or something else.
either way, friend, i wish you luck in figuring out what you need to change, and changing it. be careful.
it most likely wasn't your fault, friend. sometimes people just won't like you for one dumb reason or another, or maybe they will just get "bored" of you if you aren't "interesting" enough. there are plenty of possibilities, but the truth is you usually won't know the answer, and it usually isn't even worth wondering. all you can do is move on. i know it hurts, but it happens to all of us. well, some of us, here at least.
13 is a rough age to start something like that man. i understand the friend thing though, of course. but there's plenty you can do even when you don't have friends. i know that isn't really the problem, but it helps me sometimes to at least to focus on other issues whenever i get really lonely. i hope things get better for you friend, good luck.
honestly, i want to believe this is just some kind of bait post and i'm being stupid for replying but it almost seems sort of genuine in a way. perhaps that's just my own naivety, but even if you are being genuine, it confuses me that you would be asking for help in a place like this. there's nothing i can really tell you or relate to here, but good luck, i guess?
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