21 year old

The fact that you're talking about highschool gf shows that you still think about her

Try and forget her, things will be much simpler

I just tried to control everything about the relationship. I knew we would end before we had even left for college, but I still continued it anyways. And then this summer I did again and even let her help me out when another person really close to me died. I covered up so much and was never honest with her about what I was thinking or stuff I had done when we were away that would change her mind about me. I've stopped smoking weed and that's helped me realize all these things and a lot of my problems but this is getting exhausting. I think about this from the moment I wake up till I go to bed. It never ends, but I do well in school and people seem to enjoy me

The reason why I don't jerk off at all (even without porn) and take cold showers is because I like teaching myself discipline and how to control my insticts. And although it might very well be a placebo effect, it has helped me in my daily life on many levels. When you don't reward yourself with easy dopamine-rushes, you'll be more eager to achieve your goals to be able to get that feeling of gratification.
It might not make any sense to you atm, but I suggest you give it a go.

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>Instincts* btw

That actually sounds really good

The next step for me would be cutting vidya and social media, because I feel like they make me lazy. To date I haven't been able to do so though, but I'll keep trying...

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I cut all social media but snap. it's definitely worth it, but get ready for thoughts that come with more time to think

the fuck you people rating your lives so high
>quit school
>work shitty job, no future perspective
>no ambitions, never really had any
>"smart kid" turned out a waste of oxigen
>drink hella beer, work, play games
would still rate it 8/10 if we keep the framework of what a lowlife i am in mind

oh damn what i meant to say why are you people rating your lives so low, not high
i figure there is much more to a persons rating other than the supreficial points we use to grade our lives

OP here, I was kinda ranking my life based on potential. I know I could have done a lot better with my life so I only gave myself 6/10

How did you do it? Just leave your phone on flight mode the entire day?

I gave my life a 7,5 since I don't feel like I've accomplished all that much to date. Furthermore I would really like to find a girl that is my soulmate, because my current gf isn't.
But hey I'm happy for you man, if you're happy with your life who am I to judge?

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OP here, desu this is the worst part about not drinking/wasting all my time because I don't like thinking critically about how my life is going.

I did too. But now I'm paying the consequence for not doing so and it hurts pretty badly.

I was really depressed at the time and wanted to copy my German roommate who had his life totally in order so I just deleted it all. I tried quite a few times before, but I reached a point where I just deleted each account

This is quite motivating. I'm starting tomorrow, no more distractions. Thanks for your contribution. See you in glory, partner.

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Is this the blogpost thread?
>22
>almost done with uni
>shit major but decent grads and an internship under my belt
>realized a few months ago I've very likely waisted all my time with uni and have very different financial goals
>too late to drop
>just want all this shit to be over so I can finally get a job and buy a cheap home
>only have one friend who lives 3 hours away

I want to get on this train as well.

Godspeed you retarded robots

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Doesn't sound so bad user

Out of 10 what would you rate your life?

What are you studying?
> Want this shit to be over
Mfw I still have 8-10 years ahead before I'm a specialized MD

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Guess I left out my being an incel. 6/10 now but it'll be a 7 maybe if I get a decent job.
Poli sci. It's very easy and a total meme but if I did anything more difficult I'd have probably dropped out.

>2.77 gpa
I give your life a 3/10

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>20 year old this month
>loving family although separated
>good uni
>free uni and free apartment thanks to government bux
>never worked in my life
>no gf
>never had any friends
>apathetic
>pressure to be successful by family
>still afraid of dad so I'm faking studying for something I hate

Rating it 6/10 or 7/10

Yeah, some kids have 4.0 but they're geniuses and also spend all their time studying.

I just don't have the motivation to study all the time and have my assignments perfect before I turn them in.

But I do enjoy physics, and I have a knack for it, so I'm ok with gpa.

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Stop being scared of dad and study something you enjoy and you'll hit 6/10.

>Pressure to be successful
Same here senpai, dad is a doctor and expects nothing less from me.

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>25
>unsupportive family
>community college droput
>Dead end low paying job
>khv
>no gf
>no friends

Do I stand a chance?

But user, how are you going to make it into a good grad school with a gpa like that?

>Stop being scared of dad
He's a rough guy. I think he will just destroy my computer if I become too much of a slacker (already am, but he doesn't know)

Dad's an history teacher in high school. But he's just mad, as said above, he will not hesitate to destroy my stuff if needs be. I know him. I cant imagine how tough it must be if your dad is actually succesful by universal standards and you must follow him in his path

Good question.

> graduate
> 2 years in peace corps
> either pursue education related jobs or become lab technician
> work for a couple years, make decision about grad school later
> at that point gpa won't matter as much
> don't care about grad school quality that much anyway
> mostly saying this to cope with poor gpa

When I'm at my parents' house during weekends/holidays, my dad is constantly asking me about my planning, my courses etc... It's stressing me out so hard that I enjoy staying at my dorm during weekends. Luckily he isn't as physically hostile as your dad, must me hard for you. What are you studying?

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>Graduated last year with a BS in organic chemistry
>2.65 GPA
>NEET Ever since

Science is a meme

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Yes my dad also asks me these questions. I enjoy staying at my dorms more and more too even if I have this shitty discount desktop there instead of my better one at home. But staying in the dorms during the weekend would seem fishy to him, he'd catch on pretty quick. Im studying for a law degree. I don't know what to do desu, nothing attracts me anymore, and I've never worked a day in my life so I'm like a baby. Are you the medical student?

Yes I'm the med student.
My dad bought me an appartment after my 1st year, so the pressure is even more intense now. Luckily my results are pretty good, got an average of 7/10 atm although I failed an essay twice that I need to redo next year...
Same for me regarding the pc, I only have this plebtop with me. Good to hear you're motivated!

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Not motivated at all lol, I have literally nothing in my mind for my future. Probably gonna fail this year at some point, see if I can enroll somewhere else, govt makes it easy here to get to uni for free. But at least you got good results, I mean you still have something you want to get, an ideal you want to attain rigt?

How come you're not motivated?
Yeah I do want to become a doctor, but I hate the competitive individualist culture amongst students here. And I know I'll be stuck in this environment for years to come.
Thinking about moving out of Western Europe when I've finished my studies...

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I'm apathetic. Nothing really interests me anymore. Even getting to start watching a movie is a chore although I enjoy movies. really the only thing I can do with interest is online vidya. I used to dream big a few years ago, its no more. Where do you study?

Don't like spreading personal info on the chan, but I'm happy to engage in further conversation via discord. My tag is Doshmeister#9424. Studying in the Benelux is all I want to say here.

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Ah nevermind then. Also for a quick second I thought you were a poster from a general on Jow Forums. But I suppose that's also something you'd mind giving. Anyway, I hope you get your degree. You've got good grades, so you can pass. That's at least one thing user.

I used to do this but my self discipline went to shit a few months ago. I was on half a year of nofap, getting in shape, keeping myself in line, all that good shit. Fuck man.

Thanks for your kind words. I don't really use Jow Forums so that wasn't me. All the best for you and I hope you'll find a way in life!

It's never too late to get back into the grind!
Just get your mindset back and get at it.

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This was a worthwhile conversation. Fare well, user. And thanks to you too!

If you ever need someone to talk to, you know where to find me on discord. See you at the top!

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>smug about 2.77
What did he mean by this

>2.77
>that's a whole 1.5 points better than 1.27
>seems good to me desu senpai

please be less cozy, some of us are suffering