Comfy feels thread

I don't want to die. I don't want to live. I just want to be someone else somewhere else.

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Just text her and say "hey, are we still up for tonight?"

it isn't nice knowing that the people around you usually never care about you the way you care about them. it makes it difficult to even want to interact with anyone at all. why take the risk, for such a high chance of little reward and disappointment?
i guess i think about it a lot, without really getting anywhere. but it is good that you at least have someone.

i like that gif a lot. thank you for posting it. i wish i could be somewhere like that right now.

even if you really are a bad partner, that doesn't mean you "deserve" to be hurt without any other reason. if you are this preoccupied with being a bad person and deserving of pain and suffering, you are probably more like a person who just doesn't like themselves very much. whether you accept that or not though, it's still hell trying to deal with it. i wish you luck, friend.

at a certain point, humans can get used to almost anything. it won't mean they will necessarily be happy with it, but it won't kill you at the very least. well, it might kill you, but very slowly. just be glad you do not have to experience something like this. i hope your small taste does not last too long, friend.

i think i would agree in most cases. if a person truly feels it is necessary, they have the right to make that choice in the cleanest and most dignified way possible.

if that's what you enjoy, go for it, friend. i know it's a pain to have to keep things like that so secret, but at least with that they can't take it away from you.
i have some creative aspirations, but i don't think i would ever do something like that "professionally". as annoying as it is, i wouldn't want to have that attached to me in any way if i wanted to make things that are less sexual too. you kind of have to be either-or i suppose. but good luck with your goals, friend.

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What's worse, missing out on a GF? or getting told that she's not interested. Do it, i believe in you.

Hi. Usually I bring negative feels to these threads.
Not this time. I will be comfy.
I drew this I was told it looked like a character from Undertale that was not my intention. I never played the game.
Anyway I hope you're having fun or At least enjoying something. I enjoyed drawing this. It isn't great but it took time.

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i don't have any more, do you have some?

I'd probably hate it desu but i think my self esteem is low enough to handle it. I've had him bite me and slap me before but i know he could do it way fucking harder and it already hurts a good amount

getting hit with a bat would suck though

If I had two buttons, one where I could painlessly kill myself, and one where I could painlessly kill humanity, I would pick humanity because once you're dead it's no longer your affair.
If you kill just one person suffering still exists. Continuation of our species is a fruitless prospect that only leads to more suffering.

I realized the part of the story I left out. We saw each other in a diner and after a minute of talking myself up I go sit next to her. We talk a bit, and she asks for my number, but I didn't have my phone on me. We go back to my place, I give her my number, and in my haste to get to work, forgot to get her number.
tl;dr She has my number, I don't have hers.
No, user, I'm serious. If I go up now the only thing I look like is a creep and I'm fucked either way. But what the hell, I'll report back after I hyperventilate a bit and psyche myself to go up.

im just really self destructive and kind of enjoy the process of falling apart. its freeing. but im scared to see how far i can go. i dont want to end up dismembered in a ditch somewhere.

I've finally gotten the one thing I wanted for years. I completely wiped my entire 13 year long stretch of internet shit. Pretending to be pretty and all the bullshit that happened. All my friends, relationships, gone. I have achieved it, the one thing I was 100% sure and accepted I would not get. Experience. Or enjoy. A boyfriend that is actually really awesome and my type. He likes ME of all people. Tall fat weird me. The awkward NEET trying to fit the fuck in to life. I got him, I live with him. We are happy. We have a cat, a wonderful apartment. We work together. We live so well with each other. I'm not lonely anymore. I've been alone my whole life. I hated myself. I pretended to be someone else.

But I still feel nothing. I feel numb. The anti depressants don't make it go away it just makes the sadness go away. I don't know how to deal with that. I am still so fucking empty. Even after this.

I'm going sober for a week for the first time in years, I'm barely legal but already I'm a fucking junkie. My parents made me take an acutane for my acne when I was 13 and it fucked up my brain and made have horrible side effects. I was already going to a private boarding school where the principal would target me because I wouldn't fight back like the older spoiled brats at the school who actually deserved it. I started smoking weed to cope then my family found out and ostracized me. I started drinking at 14 but was fine until the private school finally decided to kick me out 3 months away from graduation cause I was trying to break out of being a fucking robot by hanging out with these 2 girls I met who also loved drugs but they were both whores and the captain of the prep hockey team who dated one of them and was fucking another one but also cheating on his gf so the guy got jealous of me for some reason so he stole my laptop and I freaked and rated him out for cheating to his gf which the school didn't like so they kicked me out for being mentally unstable ( it might be because they also knew I defrauded one of the girls credit cards for booze cause she's part of a well know Jewish baking family but she didn't press charges). Since then I've been doing nothing with my life, I've done every street drug from cocaine to fentanyl since, saw people I cared about get sexually assaulted, been sexually assaulted, dropped out of school when I went back, stole thousands of dollars worth of alcohol from stores around where I live, sold a bunch of drugs to sustain my habbit and lived with a rapist, in barely 18, is everyone's life this fucked up

Looks like a bell to me

This. Whenever I've tried to commit suicide I feel like then isn't the right moment, but I'm not sure if I want to get to the point in which I feel like it would be the right moment.

seems like a confusing situation, friend. but the other person replying to you may be right. you could try to confront her, even if it would seem strange. but if it was just a joke or something, i suppose you at least did what you could. good luck, friend.

all i can say is that i understand the feeling. there isn't much to add, or to say to make it feel a little better in some cathartic way. it just is. i'm sorry, friend.

it looks a little like the main character. it's the shirt and the color of the hair, mostly. but i like it, regardless of your intention. i'm glad you enjoyed making it.

i think about that sometimes, and sometimes i feel like that would be the right choice. i just don't know if i would be able to be the one to do it. maybe it's just out of the simple fear of my own death, or of having that much power, but i can't help but feel unsure.

trust me, i know how good it feels. the struggle feels like it will never end. but i hope you get whatever you truly want in the end, even if it is as much destruction as you can tolerate.

this is probably one of my biggest fears. having it all and still feeling the same way. maybe there's just something else missing in your life, something you want even more. or maybe you are just doomed to feel this way until the end. hopefully it's the former. good luck, friend.

most people on here and in general haven't been through that much, no. but you know that. i don't really think someone like me could tell you anything meaningful or even helpful, but i wish you luck in all of the life you still have ahead of you, even now.

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It is not a bell.
It is a person wearing a striped sweater and a hat with a star on it.

Fuck. I didn't notice you started this thread before I did mine. Eh, I guess it's one less trap/misogyny thread and a little more socialization for people who probably need it.

Anyway, how's you schooling and life been lately?

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Date-user back. After about 10 minutes of psyching up, I managed to go up and talk to her. Apparently her parents were here until about an hour ago. She passed out forgetting to text me about it, and she said to just postpone the date until next week. I also finally got her damn number in my phone. Thanks for pushing me, anons, I legitimately never could have done it without you guys.

Thanks man, it's just my first day sober In atleast months and I'm realizing all the shit I've been through is far from norma lol I also left out that I blacked outa couple months ago and compressed one of my vertebrae 50% so I'm half an inch shorter now lol, it's legit pretty ducking funny how many times I've cheated death or arrest

I want someone to kill me or similar

antidepressants do that, make you numb.
Try going off them and asking your man to take you on a road trip somewhere beautiful and nice.

that's alright, friend. it is always better than the alternative, i think.
i suppose i have been fine, generally. not much else i'd care to say. i hope you've been doing alright.

i would try to kill you if i could, and if i knew you really wanted it. does that sound strange? i guess it doesn't really matter. but it would be interesting to see what it's like, if i could stomach it. well, i hope you can find what you desire someday, whether that is death or something that would make you want to live.

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Slowly getting better. Got a shitty wagecuck job that sucks, but it'll be nice to finally have money to pay back my mom, buy things again, and most importantly, progress in life professionally by building some websites for the experience and portfolio fodder.

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I'm drunk rn. Whats the best drink to forget her?

I've been hitting a bottle of vodka all night and vibing to depressing music. Would appreciate some music suggestions to accompany the drinks.

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>I've been hitting a bottle of vodka all night and vibing to depressing music. Would appreciate some music suggestions to accompany the drinks.
same
youtube.com/watch?v=mN4AxskpSAE

this is beautiful.

do you have any more?

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I have everything you need
youtube.com/watch?v=QUQzkZq5JfM

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here's a few songs I listen to when I'm blackout
youtu.be/0k9SjMpAxRM
youtu.be/h_j_48G2L_o
youtu.be/6xcwt9mSbYE
youtu.be/wfzoyDOXfzY
youtu.be/Gu2pVPWGYMQ
youtu.be/KUmZp8pR1uc

Ive hit a spell where I feel as a former shell of myself, nothing is fun or engaging anymore and I dont feel like me
Fuck dude

>I don't want to die. I don't want to live. I just want to be someone else somewhere else.
youtube.com/watch?v=zoANgxUuw8k

try this out
youtu.be/h3EJICKwITw

I know everything about girls

Hehe FUCK sipping, whole bottle. Yeah
But yeah I really really hate girls and stupid humans and all of that stuff. I don't like it, I don't like it one bit.

Yes very good, fucking living I'mma drown in my sorrow.

I saw that song in my recommendations before but didn't listen to it.

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dead ass. I've never been so drunk.

I just told her I loved her, shes left me on Delivered for 30 minutes now. I'll keep yall posted on what she says

Absolutely amazing song
Ten minutes, she tell me it would take ten minutes
To break my heart, oh no she didn't
Fuck livin', I'ma drown in my sorrow
Fuck givin', I'ma take not borrow

>fuck giving ima take not borrow
absolutely good

This song made me stop being racist

I act as society wants me to act when talking the first couple of times to someone. They like me, and enjoy my company, or so they say.
Then I get relaxed and bits of the true me, that cynical piece of shit with an abstract sense of humor, are revealed and at that point they just want to stop all interaction. Because I'm not like them. I'm odd. Creepy. Weird. Or autistic. Or whatever the fuck they want to call me.
I can't just put on an act forever to be accepted. It drains me.
This is the only place where I can talk to folks with similar mindsets.
In real life, all friends, church members, coworkers, family, all women my age just want to stay away from me as if I had the plague. I am all alone, bro, working one day to the next like a R O B O T.

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I wish I wasn't so angry all the time, brother.
I wish I wasn't so egotistical
But it's my fault, so it's whatever.
I'm edgy, sorry.

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I'm thinking about getting antidepressants but I'm not sure, my reasoning is they will help me feel a hell of a lot better than I do now. Thoughts?

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get in here you fucking faggots.
get off your fucking trap threads

Does anyone feel like this?
Sometimes my head gets filled with emotion. But nothing is there. I'm so sad but yet feel nothing. I feel everything yet nothing at the same time.
I want to die but I dont want to die.

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>had a friend that I talked to every day.
>We were close enough to tell each other that we were both depressed and shit.
>One day I tried to kill myself but I made a message for him the week before.
>He tries to change my mind, I didn't listen.
>I failed and went o school that morning.
>Wouldn't even look at me.
>Few weeks pass, I am still actively trying to fix our friendship
>He says that he is "pissed at my persistence"
>(well my persistence allowed me to live for a month so...)
>He's the reason I'm trying to kill myself now