I don't even deserve anything good. I deserve nothing but misery and pain

I don't even deserve anything good. I deserve nothing but misery and pain.
I'll just have to accept it.

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I think because of timezones it's day 8 right? Ah, why am I still counting. Maybe it's just fun to remind you of that silly thought you had. You'll always be a total puppet to your emotions.

>You'll always be a total puppet to your emotions.
No, I can still do it if I want. I just need to disassociate even further.

No you can't. Go ahead and try. You'll never overcome tfw no bf. I guess you'll just have to accept it and figure out how to get a bf. But you'll never not want one.

>accept it and figure out how to get a bf
The best I can get is some hookup. If only I were actually cute or at least passable...

>You will never summon jeanne and win a hgw
Why live?

It's okay, I'll still be here to bully you every day even if you're a hon!

Why don't you bully someone else?
I deserve some compassion.

You don't deserve anything. At any rate, you don't really want compassion, that's boring. You find bullying much more fun, evidenced by the higher (You) rates it yields.

>You find bullying much more fun, evidenced by the higher (You) rates it yields.
No, that's just your imagination.

It's definitely true. Perhaps I should start keeping a tally. But that would just be noise/lies/etc, right? Anyway I only bully you because I love you.

The world doesn't owe you anything, not even pain. Saying this is the same as saying "I deserve nothing but bughattis and yachts"

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>Anyway I only bully you because I love you.
If you actually liked me, you would date me.

Sorry Jannu but I'm not the Chad of your dreams. Or else I wouldn't be talking to you every day.

I think I've told you that I DON'T need Chad!

You told me you didn't need a bf before and look how that turned out. I'm afraid I can't take your word for it, because your desires always betray your good intentions..

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Okay, okay, okay, I admit that I DO need a bf. I'll admit anything you want.
But my previous crushes were as far from Chad as it gets.

Tell me about them in detail please. I'd be very interested to know.

"i owe myself nothing but pain"

What's there to tell? One was a friend of mine, a really nice sweet and caring guy with somewhat weird interests, he was straight, but I made him rethink that.
We did a lot of stuff together, and I just really enjoyed spending time with him. There were no kinks or anything involved, I loved him for his personality.
We were just friends initially, but at some point we got close, like *too* close and it just happened.
I bet you were expecting some story about Chad, but eh, I'm telling the truth here, my friends were almost always nerds/weebs/etc, there were no Chads. A lot of them were annoying autists, but some were really nice.

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>he was straight, but I made him rethink that.
That's uh, kind of hot.

But is this that one internet relationship you had? Didn't it end poorly or something?

Yeah, it is. I'm kinda flattered that you remember so much about me!
It kinda did, but not because he "was not Chad enough" or something, it ended because of unrelated reasons (e.g. he blackmailed me and that really made me rethink a lot about him).

>I'm kinda flattered that you remember so much about me!
Whatever.
>he blackmailed me and that really made me rethink a lot about him
Ah, the classic roastie sob story: he was such a great guy at first, and then he turned out to be abusive after all. I bet he was just Chaddish all along and that's why you liked him!

>Whatever.
That means a lot to me!
>I bet he was just Chaddish all along and that's why you liked him!
Nope. He looked and acted like your typical nice guy (he was actually nice though, at least up until a certain point).

>That means a lot to me!
Well you're not making me "rethink" anything so forget it.
>he was actually nice though
Just like I always am to you?

>Well you're not making me "rethink" anything so forget it.
Okay, guess I'm just gonna cry myself to sleep tonight again.
>Just like I always am to you?
No, you are just bullying me and making me feel like shit.

>Okay, guess I'm just gonna cry myself to sleep tonight again.
Well, I didn't want to bully you THAT much. I always respond to your threads and remember things about you at least.

You know how to pick the words that hurt the most, that's for sure.

I'm sorry, I don't want to hurt you like that ;_;
I just like to give you some gentle bullies from time to time..

No, I can clearly tell you are one of those people who like to subtly push people to suicide because it's "fun and epic".
My school bullies who left me with a huge psychological trauma were also doing a lot of things for "fun".
I guess enjoy it while it lasts.

I'm sorry, I don't want to do that at all. I won't bully you any more.

Being a slave to your emotions is weak, and no one should try to be weak.

Happiness and sadness is nothing but chemicals in your brain. Life is too short to be controlled by these chemicals.

Oh, of course you weren't. I mean you weren't bullying me in the first place, you were nice to me all along!
Seriously, you can have "fun" at my expense all you want, I'm so used to it that it became a part of my life.

I have to go to bed now but I'm sorry again. I'm really not out to get you or anything, I don't want you to feel bad. Sorry.

Force yourself to get up and do something. Laying around depressed doesn't help, and once you start doing something, you start forgetting that you were depressed. At least for the time being.

>I don't even deserve anything good. I deserve nothing but misery and pain.
>I'll just have to accept it.
have you accepted it?

>Force yourself to get up and do something. Laying around depressed doesn't help
do what though