What's the worst thing that ever happened to you? What made you into the robot you are today?

Being ugly.

My life was ok as long as appearance didn't really matter (elementary school).

Then once puberty hit it all went down the shitter

It's a pretty simple story actually
>be me
>ignored and treated like shit by women
>ignored and treated like shit by potential friends
>grew up trusting no one
>still be me, no friends, no gf, khv and beyond salvation
They all treated me like a robot and this is what I have become.

ITT:

>hurr people didn't worship me
>must've been because I was ugly
>not because I was a shitty person

Real robots are born, not made.

>Decide to fist the pineapple
instead of fucking the pineapple

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>birth mother abandoned me
>dad married psycho cunt with two retard daughters
>she stopped doing my laundry for me when I was nine years old
>made me go to school with the soles falling off of my shoes
>fed me just as much food in the twelfth grade as the third grade (bowl of cereal for breakfast, ramen or nothing for lunch, bowl of spaghetti or something equally cheap for dinner)
>grounded me for anything less than A, never let me go play with friends even when I was "ungrounded"
>decided that I wasn't old enough for deoderant until sophomore year of high school
>blamed me for every wrong thing my stepsisters did, such as throwing used toilet paper in the trash can and stealing food from the kitchen
>chased off every girl that I ever brought over

The list is endless. I don't deserve this.

>Father died when i was 6
>Got shot in the head by a criminal
>Rised by a single mother
>Moved from town to town every 2 to 3 years
>Never talked much, this led me to be isolated from the other kids
>Never got bullied though, perhaps I was too quiet for the to notice me
>Mom sometimes told me I was too cold for a child
>Mom tried dating a few boyfriends
>None of the relationships lasted
>Never liked seeing her trying to replace my dad
>I love her with all my strength
>She has done so much for me and my brother

Can't point the exact moment I have become a robot or if I can even be considered a robot.

YOU ABSOLUTE RETARD! You know pineapples contain acid and bromalein which digest your own flesh hence it can hurt your mouth a little to eat? You'll be walking around with a burned dick for a week, maybe worse.

>You'll be walking around with a burned dick for a week, maybe worse.
Implying that's not my fetish

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You're obviously not in touch with what the pineapples do. The fist forms? No?

>be me
>2012ish
>get amazing gf.
>together all the time
>amazing sex, constantly
>deep convos, she's very smart
>vacations with families, vacations alone
>gets along with all my friends and I with hers
>have party at her house one night
>playing rainbow six Vegas 2 split screen terrorist hunt with friend
>decide we are hungry
>I'm drunk so he drives us to McDonald's
>get back
>most people passed out
>can't find gf
>search house
>move towards back room and see her naked closing a hallway door
>go through door and see her running upstairs
>closes bedroom door
>bust it open and find her and best friend naked
>cont?

>i had an amazing gf and fucked her all the time
>I'm a ROBOT just like you guys!
A true robot hasn't even had a gf let touched a girl you normshit. You think breaking up with a slut is bad, you would kys if you were 25+ and still a virgin. Fuck you.

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I feels sorry for you user hope you're doing ok but atleast you aren't a virgin like us you should consider that a plus

You're not a robot, failed normie maybe. But continue, who cares.

Ya, you are right. The difference is this girl fell into my lap. I lived with some friends and a party house and just hit it off with her because I happened to leave my computer and bedroom for a drink. If it wasn't for her I'd be a 26 year old virgin. I'm not saying that makes me more of a robot, but I'm saying I have 0 change of getting a woman on my own. The stars aligned that day, but was bittersweet. I'll finish my story.

>best friend is a lot more in shape than me. I'm not fat but I'm skinny with no muscle. Scrawny if you will. Friend is jacked, black belt in karate, good job, good looking etc.
>they ran up to avoid me
>punch friend in face and call gf whore
>drive home drunk and have breakdown
>begs for weeks to take her back
>friend begs me not to leave her, they were both drunk
>feel numb, take her back
>depressed
>1 week later she says we need to break up
>now I'm begging for her back
>cut ties with her and best friend
>friend group is split now and they start dating
>2 weeks ago on Facebook messenger, ex best friend messages me
>hey user, just wanted to let you know, things are getting serious with her and I. We moved in together and are talking about marriage.
>great, I'm still not over her
>continue reading his message
>so I go on a 2 week trip, come home and she tells me she's banging a 37 year old bartender she works with. She's in love and leaving me for him. She just moved out. Thought you might wanna know this
>I'm not gonna lie guys. This felt good.
>he wants to grab drinks with me
>remember the years of good times we had. He was a brother to me
>told him he should kill himself for getting cucked by someone so pathetic.
>he's telling mutual friends he would do anything to be cool with me again

Still trying to figure out how I'm gonna play it. I really don't miss him anymore, I'm over it, but I also miss seeing friends and not having to worry if he's there or not.

Getting homeschooled. My sister had a friend who did it, talked our parents into it, and I wanted to do it because stupid 13-year-old me was just hearing "you don't have to go to school anymore." My final day at school people I didn't even know were coming up to me in the hall and telling me they'd miss me.

Shit dude that sucks. Get a better at reading girls she sounds like and turbo roastie. I can't tell you how to deal with your friend. I can understand that feeling of wanting a friend back but he's fucked up really bad by fucking your girl. Maybe try talking to him a bit and see how much the anger from the whole situation comes back. You could also just forget about him and he'll probably learn his lesson better.

A girl who on ironically looks like Lexi Belle made me fall in love with her and then she cheated on me at the most vulnerable point of my life causing me to trust nobody forevermore

I did. I asked him how his life was and he responded and I was enraged. Nothing will make it go away. As for her, she showed no signs of doing something like this. He told me she was saying she planned on doing it for a while, but apparantly she told this new guy the same. She's been hopping guy to guy since she was 16. Just weird that she stays in a relationship for 3 years and isn't just a slut like every other girl. If he didn't date her, we could have been friends. It was when he started doing that, that I became super depressed and reclusive towards friends and family.

was poor and fed fast food almost everyday
mom was over 400 pounds and a major bitch
never allowed to visit friends I met at school or have them over
got depressed and into drugs later in highschool
parents sent me to a mental hospital on a psych evaluation hold
after I got out I stopped caring and was eventually arrested for drug possession
the cops prison guards and judge were major assholes
jail sucked so bad I was starving all day and was afraid to leave my cell
couple other prisoners were really cool and kind of made friends with me but I just kept quiet and laid in bed all day

I out now on probation but I hate everything and just want to be left alone

Sorry to hear user. Tried joining a support group? I'm sure they exist for ex cons.

Also was the rape threat in prison as real as it is on tv or the movies?

There is no great big event that led me to be where I am today. It is simply that my life has been an endless story of mediocrity and failure.

>Get diagnosed with bipolar type 2 at 15 after years of misdiagnoses.
>Become 23
>Finally life back on track, trying to finish high school after years of mental illness and drugs.
>Get drivers license
>Mom asks me to drive her to the dentist in the nearby city
>on the way back we talk about my childhood
>"we didn't plan you, you destroyed my life and career"
>silence the rest of the drive home.

Unless this was in a joking way, your mom's a cunt

It wasn't and it totally destroyed me and still messes with my head.

I'm not good with people I just want to be left alone
I can see some support group trying to force me onto a program or judge me or something

I don't think rape stuff is a real threat but maybe it depends which jail/prison and level
people kept close to their race and there wasn't many problems. They told me all the unwritten rules right when I got there and the consequences and I just tried not to have many interactions.
I had one black friend and he was a nerdy dude who used to drive a school bus, we talked about rollercoasters and amusement parks around the country that we wanted to go to

Do you have a good relationship with your parents? Talk to your mother. Tell her you didn't ask to be born, but it happened. Tell her how much comments like that fuck with you. Do I sound cliche? Maybe, but ask yourself, do you want a comment like that dictating your happiness? And if they act cold towards you or don't seem to realize or own up to their hurtful comments, look into moving out on your own and starting your own life without then. You control your own happiness. If there are people impeding on that, you need to cut then out.

>fat, ugly, autistic kid
>only years later realize that people are uncomfortable with my presence
>16 years old, decide to stop eating shit and actually get in shape
>try to better myself socially
>get close to a girl who seems interested in me
>end up falling in love with her
>confess to her, she rejects me
>get mad and develop some kind of hatred towards her (and women in general)
>social interaction with other people often leads to the same thing
>realize that my shit personality will never let me find happiness

And here we are

Go no contact when you can

Look at it this way. You can continue being a loner who's unhappy with his life, you can kill yourself, or you can TRY to make a positive change. Whether that's going to a support group or just leaving your house once a day. Put something in your daily routine and try talking to someone. Maybe they will judge you at a support group, but at this point, do you really give a shit. You might take something useful away from it, or even make a friend you can relate to. People are in those groups for a reason and you might realize when you get there that a lot of other people are feeling exactly like you are. Consider it user, for yourself and well being.

Also go to some of those amusement parks. Keep in touch with your black nerdy friend. Write him a letter and attach a pic of you at one of the parks you discussed

Getting bullied for years because of shit I couldn't control and when I tried to defend myself stuff only got worse.
Things started improve when I started playing around people instead of against them, but it still sucks and I think about it everyday.

>Do you have a good relationship with your parents?
I do not. I attend monthly psychiatrist meetings and bi monthly shrink meetings. Over the last couple of years they've tried to convince me to bring them but i keep brushing it off. I honestly just want them at a distance, i'm beyond fucked up and i'd rather keep being like this because i'm somewhat functional currently.

I will eventually. I'm 25 and hopefully i'm gonna get my high school diploma next month. I just hope that this opens up to new opportunities for me.

What were you bullied for user

Good for you. Steps in the right direction.

My parents did the bare minimum of raising a child. It turns out that with your parents show zero affection to you. You have a problem showing affection to other people.

My head had a weird pointy shape when I was younger and I had slight speech impediment, so people made fun of that.

We also moved a couple times, I was always the one person who wasn't there when friendships were formed so I was an easy target to pick on.

It's hard being the new kid, especially if you have literally anything to be mocked for. I'm sorry you had to deal with that user. Point is (sorry no pun intended) you're out of school now. Most people out of high school know better than to make fun of somebody for a physical trait.

I actually had friends when I was young
In elementary I wasn't the most popular kid but I had a lot of good friends
In High school it was still pretty okay hand full of good friends, a girlfriend she was great, (she was also into gaming and we shared a lot of interests)
When I turned 18 it all went downhill

Got arrested for punching a cop in the face (I was drunk and he said something about my mother, atleast I think he did, she died when I was young)
Spend a couple days in jail, got a criminal record, I was doing a work-school college (don't know how to explain it best)
They dropped me because they couldn't place me with a criminal record
After a while my Gf broke up with me,
My stephmom left after 7 years of being with my father.
Most of my friends I never see anymore
My dog died
My cat died

and here we are.
I had it all, I lost it all.

So now you rebuild. You will come out stronger having been to the bottom. I've been there user. It's possible to come back

Thanks I hope so, but I'm psychologically tired.
I have 0 motivation to keep going, I don't have something to look out to.
regardless I still have hope, that If I do my best I can make some thing right again.

Well you have the right mindset, which most people don't and it's the hardest thing to get level. Set goals for yourself. Tell yourself "I wanna save up and travel here and find some chicks to flirt with."

Finding motivations is tough, but if you set a goal and hype it up for yourself or play with the idea of doing something new and out if character, you might find some.

Haha I appreciate the thought, but I'm not in a condition to start finding some chicks and flirt with them.
I'm jobless and in less than a year I will be homeless unless I can find a place.

Other priorities... for now.

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Ok that's fair. I meant just flirt with chicks for sport, not to lead anywhere. It's amazing what doing something out of your norm brings out in you. I wish you luck with the job and home though. You do seem to have your mind and priorities straight which is more than most can say. Good luck user.

Thanks user!
Might just follow your advice, hopefully I won't get slapped too much in the face, jk.

>I got cucked really hard.
>Got depression.
>Lost all interest
>Lost hope
>joined Jow Forums
>got rid of depression

>>remember the years of good times we had. He was a brother to me
>>told him he should kill himself for getting cucked by someone so pathetic.

Lmao. Thanks for the laugh man.

Tbh dunno what I'd do in your position. He literally only came back to you when the girl went. What does he even think he could say that wouldn't get an insta-punch in the face?

How did you get cucked?

>poor and fed fast food almost everyday
>poor
>fast food everyday

Hmmmmmmmm

Exactly. The worst part is, a lot of my friends are siding with him saying it's ridiculous I won't accept his apology and be bros again. I just spent the last 3 years hating him and hoping he'd die, now I'm supposed to just go back to the old days? Not happening. I cringe thinking about how pathetic and helpless I acted when it all went down. I will never be cool with him or show that weakness again. I think even he is surprised I'm not just being cool with him again. I've changed a lot since he knew me, and I want him to realize I'm not a fucking pushover anymore.

Here goes
>Have a bunch friends as a kid, literally kids fighting over me, thinking im cool because I have a Gameboy or some shit
>School is easy as shit, I'm far ahead all the other kids, I even skipped a grade.
>Enter middle school
>Realize that people don't automatically want to be your friend anymore, have no social skills since it was always the other kids that would approach me before.
>Realize that school isn't automatic anymore, I can still get away with being smart but I constantly get scolded by teachers for not doing homework.
>I stop going to school, I'm scared of teachers and dont see the value in social relationships. Spend my time inside playing games and having recently discovered porn, masturbate all day, telling myself that I'll be able to fuck a girl once I get older.
>High school starts, I start to enter the cyborg zone, I can no longer properly interact with other humans due to all the time I spent secluded in my room in middle school.
>I start getting shit grades since I literally missed 3years of school.
>Have an absolute phobia of girls due to all the porn I consumed and the importance I give to them.
>Depression starts, and start acting like a dick towards everyone to avoid any form of rejection.
>Now have a job in IT, I think I can still turn myself around because I still feel a part of normie in me, there are still times where I can be completely normal and even extroverted but they are getting rarer and rarer

Also, friend is 25 muscular and fit with good job and fighting skills. New 37 year old bartender is a 250 pound ginger with a wonk eye. Girl in question is 23 and pretty good looking. She fattened up while with friend but she's losing it slowly. Prob around 140 or 150 now. I just don't see how she picks her guys. Scrawny me to my friend makes sense but this new one just doesn't lol

falling in love, (while feeling 80% she loves me back) but am too BETA TO DO ANYTHING ABOUT IT

it's going to be a long year lads

Even if you didn't bear a grudge anymore, once a friendship goes through this sort of thing it's better to let go of it for good. There's no way you'll ever become bros like before.

>got chucked by another man
>lots of depression
>bad self esteem
>antisocial behavior
>all of my friends left me because of something that happened one night
>masturbation addiction

what do you do in it

I want to put a pineapple inside your virgin butthole.

Excuse me I meant cucked. Sorry lads I'm phoneposting today. Computer broke.

Gotta tell us about that one night

A-And then..?

>Sudden explosion of channeling energy
>Hand transforms into a fist

>Be raped
>Force to suck the cock of the mugger
>He decided to fuck me at gun point.
>Have the authorities not take it seriously because I came
>Made me feel broken

I'm a male by the way

Holy shit, I've wanted to have a one week nofap streak for ages! Are you telling me pineapples will finally make this possible?

Death would've been preferable

Im really sorry you went through that user. I hope you can overcome your trauma. You didn't do anything wrong. It wasn't your fault.

Therapy bro. Go talk to someone. Cops are shitheads. Really sorry You had to go through that shit, if true.

Nothing other than genetics makes you. Your parents are both introverted and slightly autistic, but not as much, you got double introversion and double autism in your genes, which turned into mental illness through interactions (or lack of them) with other people through your formative years. Now we're fucked.

Well, my sophompre year of high school I was at my friends house playing some poker with about 5 other guys when my old stepdad showed up to the house to visit the hosts parents. I have a permanent restraining order against the guy because he beat me and my mom when I was a child. I let my mom know and she called the police. I left because the guy scared me, and gave me persistent anxiety issues throughout my teenage life. Anyways, the cops showed up and my friends drunk dad (who was also a current state legislator) came outside and started yelling at the cops and got himself arrested. He lost his job. Anyways, my old stepdad got arrested too for violating the protection order. My friends haven't said anything to me since then. I've tried to say something about it for the past couple of years and try to apologize. I never got a response. They were my only group of friends. I'm 18 now and about to graduate. I have a few acquaintances that I hang out with at school but that's about it.

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I cannot wait to read another slew of
>when I was 12 a girl laughed near me and that is why I drink acetone
Stories

Worst thing physically that happened to me was in junior high school

>Was pushed down the stairs at the end of the school day
>Multiple fractures in my left arm and a skull fracture
>Was kept in artificial coma for 2 weeks because of brain swelling
>Missed nearly 3 months of school
>Police investigation was started about the whole thing
>Since there were no cameras and no witnesses the case was eventually dropped

Never heard anyone bragg about pushing down the stairs so I guess they got scared that they ended hurting me that bad. Didn't lessen the bullying when I eventually went back and I had to repeat a grade.

just do meth or a shitload of adderall with nothing to do. you'll jack off for 18 hours and not be able to touch your dick in anger for 2 weeks

Really sorry to hear user. If it helps, it wasn't your fault. I doubt your friends will see past the bullshit to realize that but it's true.

That fucking sucks. I had something similar happen to me amongst the other things. It was during a school trip and I had to keep a broken hand for two days because lol we can't afford to suspend the trip to bring you to the hospital

my parents didn't even sue and I'm still angry for it

I wanna knock them the fuck out for you user. So sorry this happened to you. Hold you head up dude. High school is rough, but once you're out, bullying tends to die down. Plus the people who bullied you are probably pathetic normie pencil pushers.

>weird fat kid kid at school that cried when he got frustrated
>no freinds
>smoked weed in high school, some freinds
>sell weed, suddenly many freinds and some confidence in social situations
>get into oxys
>get into heroin
>start shooting heroin
>freind shoots himself in the face infront of me
>start shooting coke and eating xanax
>overdose a bunch of times
>wreck a car and end up on judge judy
>go to jail for 1.5yrs over 3.5yr span because i can't get clean and finish parole
>get out of jail and no hard drugs anymore but crippling depression. get on suboxone therapy
>live with my dad and fix cars at my house
>get a job i like at a service station
>they get slow and start calling me into work (very bad trigger for my depression)
>stop picking up the phone when they calland get really depressed for a year
>get a job at a used car dealer doing electrical repair which i really enjoy
>get my liscense back finally
>lasts a year, they get slow and start trying to keep me on call
>i stop picking up my phone and get depressed again

>28
>no job
>live with my fucking dad
>sit around and do dabs and watch twitch every day unless somebody wants me to fix their car

The short version my parents kicked me out in a weird way when I was 16. Which lead for me to be groomed by older man and pretty have an immoral teen life.

So true, my fellow norman. Looks do nothing for you in life, everyone who is alone must be a bad person because theyre alone haha simply ebin

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What makes you depressed when you get that call for work? You say you enjoy the jobs so I'm just tryingn to understand.

hey im a crack and heroin addict too. i miss shooting coke. which judge judy were you on? Ive had a few friends kill themselves in front of me too. sorry man.

like, i'll be scheduled to work but not actually get called to come in unless it's busy. end up only working like 8-15 hours week but being expected to be available 40+hrs. so i'd be just at home stressing out wether i'm gonna be able to work today or not. the worst possible thing for my mental wellbeing is to be idle without anything productive to do\\

i was on the actual judge judy show in LA. they pay the settlement when you lose, so the car i crashed got paid for and i got like 800$ total from appearance fees and per diem as well as flights hotel for 4 days and taxi vouchers being provided

>be me
>born in Syria to two iraki parents
>father wasn't present at birth because I was unexpected
>schizophrenic mother decides I was caused by sorcery
>hands me over to her equally insane mother
>soon enough the whole village deems me as a sorcery baby
>got barely cared for outside of living expenses
>nobody wants to talk to me
>school there was super harsh and I used to get hit by the teachers and kids
>decide that outside of school I want to be home all day playing PS2
>disappointedfather.jpg
>father becomes abusive of me and mother
>mother decides she'll flee to Sweden
>takes me and my two sisters and goes to Sweden
>in Sweden
>I have to interact with people
>shit.jpg
>i have no clue what people do and how to act like one
>get severely bullied for the next 4 for my robot/lizerad person behavior
>I finally manage to look human enough
>realize humans have nothing to offer
>realize I'm a schizoid
>realize I'm at a heavy risk of developing schizophrenia and become the thing that made me what I am today

so are you clean yet? howd you do it? im in a relationship with another user and im thinking about killing her then myself instead of slogging thru this shit every day. hehe

What the fuck, you involuntarily came while sucking nigger dick? Were you jerking off at the same time? Fuck out of here with that shit.

>im thinking about killing her then myself
why kill her, that's not cool dude
leave her be, only take your own life

youtube.com/watch?v=MVonzmLw1G4

i'm semi-clean now- i still smoke weed and do dabs regularly and i'm still on suboxone. down to around 3mg a day from like 24. been on it almost 3 years now, and i don't think i'd have made it otherwise. it let me basically put my whole addiction thing on pause for a while so i can get my life stable. i'm still depressed and sit around the house all the time but atleast i'm not runnin the streets shootin speedballs and hiding under parked vehicles while the bells ring.

subs are fucking expensive though if no insurance. i pay like 320$ total a month for dr visits and prescription (generics) but i used to have insurance for that, and later got the meds free for a year through this "here to help" program they do.

one thing i've been doing right is investing what disposable income i do have in tools. i got out of jail 2.5 yrs ago with not even a single 10mm socket. i have a pretty good collection of name-brand stuff including a snap-on scanner that was $5k new

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Thanks user. I appreciate it
>original comment
>attempt number 2

itd be a mercy killing u dum dum

nice office m8. keep it up things can only get better

can you explain a little more exactly what happened? pls

and in terms of "how" i basically just got super tired of the hassle inherent to the game and after starting and stopping short term and getting sick every single time something in my brain clicked that the cost/benefit just isn't worth it. dope is super fucking awesome feeling but the consequences i got from using far outstripped the benefits. i went to jail shortly after i figured this out and the time away made it a lot easier to stay off when i got out. i didn't actually 'need' suboxone when i got out, i gave it a shot basically so i could still do some opiates while i was on parole. seems to have been for the best though