For me it's probably the fact that I have family and I don't want to be an asshole to them and make them misserable
but to be honest the temptation are still there and I'm scared that some day it will get to me and I'll probably do it without thinking straight.
all the memories and feelings will catch me off guard
How do I avoid killing myself? I need something to live for
no friends, never had a gf, no job, no values no goals or anything
Social status is not the only thing in the universe retard
poetry, mine jigga. poetry is the truth you've been searching for. real essence is written under all things, its burning with longing for its undoing. you should have known that by now.
what do you mean by this?
Are you implying that friends, compashion, sex and sense of purpose is just "social status"?
yes, that's exactly what social status is
To wait for an S2 of your favorite anime.
pretty sure those are basic human needs but ok
Weed makes me feel more patient and relaxed
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The possibility of hell
This place sucks enough
Ignore him, he just keeps forgetting that autists are a small portion of the population.
>I don't want to be an asshole to them and make them miserable
I know this sounds cold, but once youre dead - youre dead. Your consciousness is non-existant because your brain cells are not getting any energy anymore, and cant activate the neural connections that you have built up through your time on earth. You are not able to perceive, and hence unable to regret anything.
What stops me personally is the fact that I dont have access to a gun. I dont want to be a loser who kills himself through a painful method, and also risk survival that will just fuck me up even more.
I'm also afraid that what we know through modern STEM is just the tip of the iceberg of reality, but even then why would we get punished for killing ourselves? We are going to die anyways, arent we just speeding up the process?
Everything will be alright in the afterlife
just suffer through this life, it's worth what to come a million times
>You are not able to perceive, and hence unable to regret anything.
I'm dead but they're still there to suffer, it's not about me it's about them
i dont really want to die
i dont really want to live either but hey at least i can breathe and sometimes the good chemicals make me good good
what keeps me from doing it is that death is one of my greatest fears i still sometimes think about killing myself if i have done something stupid or embarrassing in front of people though
>Ignore him, he just keeps forgetting that autists are a small portion of the population.
I'm autistic but that doesn't mean that I don't have need for those things
>I'm dead but they're still there to suffer, it's not about me it's about them
Doent matter. Once youre unable to perceive theyre not there to suffer anymore. Youre dead, you cant care if youre dead.
but they do, it doesnt matter if I feel guilty they will still suffer and I wont hurt my family for my own self needs
it's called empathy
The massive amount of porn I have collected over the years.
The way I see it, this is your one shot at existence. After that you return to the void from whence you came, just like before you were born.
May as well ride it out to see what happens before endless void of nothingness swallows you forever.
Sure, they will suffer in the world, but once youve left the world youve left the world. It's not the same as disconnecting from your team in an online game and feeling like a traitor because in this case youre ltierally unable to feel like a traitor (given that there is no afterlife).
Art. It gives me a sense of participating in something greater. Makes me want to live, to go through things. Even the constant isolation and anxiety has a poetic undertone sometimes.
Anime or sexual pleasures. If not alchohol and drugs
hope that one day it will be better if i keep on
Nothing, I'm not that close to anybody in my life. Now I'm just drifting from day to day without any attachments.
The hopes of one day the Reich will return and we'll be a part of it this time
not even memeing, if I watch videos of post war germany and listen to german music from that era everything just feels so great and I feel happiness that I don't get from anything else.
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My family relies on my income in order to survive. Without me, they'd be overcome with debt.
Not a damn thing. I just don't have a reason off myself right now
Damn son, youve got some deep problems
I've learned to enjoy pain.
The pathetic hope I'll get a gf and a better job. Also family.
Because I cant let the world end like this.
Lack of access to a gun, fear of hell.
the fact that i am not a melodramatic pussy.
It's probably the most normalfaggot thing to say but I have all eternity to be dead but only 50-60 years to be alive. May as well just see how it plays out.
I don't want to make my mother cry any more. That's about it.
>I want a wife
>I want many children
>I want to see my mommy's face when she meets her first grandchild
>I don't want mommy to die before she does
>I want to be the father I never had
>I want to raise my son to become the man I was never taught to be
>I want to raise my daughter to be the prettiest and nices girl I've met
>I want to pass on myself
>I want someone beside me when I die
>I just want a damn family of my own
the thing is I'm too much of a socially inept retard to get anywhere
Fear of death, also don't want to hurt my mom.
> m-my family would be sad if I did, so I don't want to
Bullshit. Just admit that you're scared, that it's a blow to your ego to know that you're not really suicidal, so the only way solution you have left is to actually work on yourself. But you're also too lazy to work on yourself, so pretending to live for your family keeps you in the illusion where you 100% WOULD kill yourself if you had nothing holding you back without actually having to question why it's so scary to end it (you won't remember, you'll be dead) or work.
Literally just practice mindfulness
Yeah this sums up what I was gonna say. Our biological purpose
My inner strength and resilience. I'm no longer afraid of death, loneliness, or meaninglessness, and have accepted them as a natural part of the human condition. I just don't give a fuck about anything. This is a chaotic, uncaring universe, and if we are the universe experiencing itself, why not treat it the same way?
I wish you would kill yourself desu
very true, "muh family" is a terrible reason and normally just veiled cowardice.
My bf is the only thing stopping me from killing myself
He's helped me so much ever since I met him, if he does break up with me I'd kill myself since Im nothing without him
I like to imagine that one day I'll disestablish democracy in America, become dictator, take over Europe, and then live out the 1488 lifestyle.
I'm unironically catholic and we're not allowed to kill ourselves. Comfy as fuck to be honest.
this
I envy men who manage to had teenage relationships and built a family once they became adults
I'm happy for them but I still envy them
>cuckolic
>not protestant
The possibility that my life won't always be shit and I won't always be alone. If nothing has changed by the time I turn 30 I'll kill myself.
>protestant
I like history and theology and latin chanting. I don't like American grandparents singing Jesus Christ is my nigga to try and appeal to young people and make a mockery of the religion.
>I don't like American grandparents singing Jesus Christ is my nigga to try and appeal to young people and make a mockery of the religion.
That's the jews work
They're split up now, actually. Both their twitter/instagram/whatever pages don't mention a spouse, and their pictures don't show the other. I wish I knew the names
>all the other 5000 versions of protestantism except mine are the jews work. It has nothing to do with the fact we decided everyone can interpret the bible themselves and are all equally (un)valid and throw away thousands of years of philosophy and structure
Lmaoing at protestants
>They're split up now
proof please, I want an end to this
how do you know if you don't even know their names?
TELL ME ALREADY PLEASE
The chance of moving out of my Shithole country. Death to America
ha! found it myself faggot
closeronline.co.uk
hoyl shit she grew up to be such a roastie slut, just look at her
I feel so bad for the guy, imagine if this was your high school sweetheart