25+ general

>Third day. Is this normal?
How many kidneys do you have.

if you dont want to be a homewrecker, find a different friend. you can tell yourself that all you want, but in the end, thats what youll end up being.

t. wrecked a few homes

Male/female friendships don't work if there's a strong attraction on one side. But your feelings could pass. If she's supportive of you, you could gain a good friend. But if she doesn't do anything to help you, then that's no friendship.

I'm about to fucking snap

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2. Normally I drink a lot of water. But I didn't on that day, because I fell asleep too soon, and just wasn't thirsty. And today I don't feel as bad as other 2 days. I've had liver disease before (not alcohol), and my current symptoms are nowhere near as bad as back then. I think I'll be okay.

You have high histamine, that's explain why you sleep better on weed cause it lower the levels of histamine.
Consider histamine determination blood test to know how things are in your system.

I may as well post this here rather than Jow Forums.

I'm 27 and I've got job interviews on Tuesday and as part of them I have to choose where I want to work. If it goes well enough and I get ranked highly I'll get my top pick, and I'm told there's a reasonably high chance of that happening from all my seniors; I'm not sure I believe them as much as they believe themselves though. I currently work in a unit about 100miles from where I live and I stay there during the week and come home on most weekends and I've been doing this for the last 2 years.

I have basically two choices. One is to move back home where all my family live and get the perks of living at home without running up any debt/mortgage but have professional training which varies from being totally shit to being alright with fairly decent senior job progression. The other is the stay where I am and permenantly move there where the training is consistently considered better and senior job progression is about the same but obviously it will involve mortgage/debt/shit etc.

I couldn't give a fuck about social life or anything like that, I'm KHV and intend to stay that way. My main aim is to get through all my mandatory training and get a senior position as quick as possible without spending shitload of cash, I think career progression is probably better where I am now but obviously staying at home is way cheaper and infinitely more convenient.

What would you do?

But they don't seem to understand how low they are in the social ladder and yet they want to go down further.

>27
>get part time retail job because parents make me
>realize i can not interact with other people at fucking all
>i talk really fucking nerdy and don't know how to vibe and always seem nervous/jittery as fuck
>literally want to kill myself after 5 days realizing how painfully socially inept i am
>can't even listen t music now because i feel no connection to humans now.

end me

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That sucks bro, I know the feeling! You interact with people all day but dont feel like a person... You got a friend in me user.

>I couldn't give a fuck about social life or anything like that, I'm KHV and intend to stay that way. My main aim is to get through all my mandatory training and get a senior position as quick as possible without spending shitload of cash, I think career progression is probably better where I am now but obviously staying at home is way cheaper and infinitely more convenient.

I don't think you'll get to a senior position quickly without spending money. You're probably better off staying where you are rather than go home. But if the money is a more important deal then go home with family.

thanks bro

i started feeling this way around 10th grade.....it wasn't always like this

i have to now realize that was over a decade ago now.

i'm also ugly and 5'8" and a brainlet in normal adult situations so not seeing much left to do on earth except drink

Just turned 26. Finishing sophomore year of college, working too much at the same.

Still KV, but I don't really care. I feel pretty neutral and blank most of the time these days. Very little depression, very little excite. I have noticed I am very sensitive to negative emotionality and can succumb to anxiety very easily. Just hearing my mom and stepdad argue will start to wear on my mental health almost instantly. Sends to a bad place. Similar, but much less sever being around my co-workers who are constantly complaining and shit-talking each other behind their back.

I go full-on panic when ever anything goes wrong. It does, however, subside quickly enough. After an hour or day at most. But getting one less than stellar mark on an assignment, seeing a phone call or email from the school office of financial aid, government, etc, starts to send me into a panic immediately. I go from zero to overdrive. I guess too many times having been fucked with and had my life almost ruined or set back completely by these events. Maybe drink less coffee. I don't know. Need more money. Need more time.

Here's a question for you lads. I have been mulling it over the last 1.5 years nonstop and I cannot come to a conclusion. What do I plan for after graduation? Do I seek a job in my field immediately? I will be 28, I am frightened of being so far behind starting my career. Or, do I put it off even longer and go to a PhD program? It means 6 more years of low income, student life, etc, but it I can start in industry at much higher position and it greatly raises the ceiling I can rise to. And there's always a career in academics if it seems comfy enough, but I can't tell if academics would be a comfy life or totally toxic.

Any oldbots have any experience in this? I am in STEM, for what it's worth. Physics and mathematics specifically.

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My online crush is deliberately spending less and less time with me until she'll finally ghost me. I can feel it approaching and I'm panicking.

I just want to die already.

ghost her first and make her chase

literally your only option though im 99% sure you wont do that

I know. I won't. She doesn't care enough about me to do it anyway. It really hurts.

>My online crush
You know that shit ain't real?

Yeah, I know some people thatbare perpetually like this and its not good but you can over come it, go full time and then learn another department.

Oof that happened to me in second life, fell in love with a Dutch girl and she disappeared one day.... What a year.

The absolute minimum length of time it will take me is 7 years to get to a position senior enough where I can't be promoted any higher, which is the eventual aim for everyone in my job (after that it becomes managerial and about how's head of the department etc. but they are all the same job position in terms of seniority technically). It just feels like it's more hassle than my lazy arse would like to put up with but I think I will probably stay where I am because training opportunity is allegedly a little better. No guarantee but allegedly anyway.

I feel like I used to be how you are describing yourself until I stopped giving a fuck about everything (and I really mean that rather than saying it in the unhelpful way people try to give people with anxiety advice) and that was an active decision which I made when I was around 23 or so. As for jobs, I chose my degree because I knew I'd walk into a job when it was over and that was my aim; to start work as soon as possible and get through the training treadmill and end up the boss after 10 or so years. I'd say if you are comfy living the way you are and don't want to be some sort of high rolling baller with several expensive cars and huge mansions and shit then academics is a reasonable choice, and I don't mean that in a deragatory way, I don't want that kind of lifestyle myself and I know other people also don't. I will say with how everythind is going in the wider job market, I don't think getting a job at 28 or later will make such a dramatic difference to getting a job earlier.

i just got home form work and i smoked a bowl and had moms homemade pasta and chicken, eat my fucknig DICK GHOLE!!!!

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Which part do you think isn't real?

I'm going to be moving to a different state in like a month to take on a new job. I'll get to be a cnc field service technician, and I'll get to drive around from shop to shop, fixing shit. It's going to be fun.

What's going on, user?

>Do I seek a job in my field immediately?
Yes, no meme. You can pursue your PhD while working, this whole "hurrr I'm a college student I can't hold a job" line is lazy shit for brainlets.

Other than teaching, what are you pursuing a PhD in Phys/Math for? Any employer hiring STEM graduates often takes you with a bachelor's, with the understanding that to get certain promotions you'll need to take a few career-specific classes and get a Master's. Most people pursue this education while employed, it's much easier and you're earning money rather than spending it. Many workplaces will have specific Master's programs for you, like a Master's in Military Aviation Technology or Resource Actuarial Science, that will do you much more good than "Physics."

I wouldn't recommend teaching, even with every summer off it's just a retarded normie job and you have to deal with lil shits every day. It just sounds like a horrible job to me, as far as career choices. Hell, I'd way rather be even a highschool or elementary teacher than a university professor.

The relationship part, if even the person behind the screenname is real.

>26
>high school was a disaster
>college wasn't much better
>kissless virgin until 22
>massive student loan debt coming out of college
>land a good internship that pays
>work my ass off, convert to a full time job
>salary position with benefits
>been there 4 years, got raises and bonuses each year
>fell in love and moved in with a hot latina
>play to buy a house together in a year

things really turned around for me in my mid 20s. i'm actually having the time of my life these days and i feel like i'm years away from hitting my prime.

keep your head up, anons. if i made it, so can you.

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>latina
B U I L D
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Seriously though, how do you expect to explain to your kids why their shitty mixed-race goblina genes are an acceptable tradeoff for their father being able to get his weewee touched maybe once or twice a month?

I am not doing very well, anons. My depression and anxiety is worse than ever before. I am having an existential crisis. I work full time and while I am at work I feel somewhat "normal", which is from 6AM-2:30PM. After work when I get home I start feeling very tired and drained. I feel no joy from anything. I just don't feel good. I am feeling that anxious scared feeling as I type this. Nothing truly matters and we are all alone. I want to cry, I want to be comforted. To be told that this will all pass and one day I will feel relief from this suffering. I need help.

I might take 1mg clonazepam which I RARELY take except for emergencies. Just so I can find some relief from this anxious end of the world feeling for the evening/night. What do I even do at this point?

How do Americans just "get" jobs? Here, it's hard to even get a retail job. Even if you have a good resume, a degree, and experience, 3 things I don't even have, there are no available positions.

>Latina
La atrocidad de el 56%

There is no relationship though, I said crush.
Tell me more about it please.

Low quality posts. Take it elsewhere.

>There is no relationship though, I said crush.
Oh, then there wasn't anything of substance anyway. Redirect your efforts to something more tangible.

Stopped my psycho therapy after 4 months, it was a waste of time anyways.
I don't feel any progress or a change of mind.
Would have stopped going a lot earlier if it hadn't been covered by the health care insurance.

I am 32 soon and I am unwilling to change my ways, the NEET life is the best option out of the ones I have.

Take your guac-goblin partner elsewhere first, user.

They won't leave man. They're are latent homosexuals anyway. That's part of the reason why that trap shit happened.

>be me 2006in teen second life
>meet girl from Netherlands
>always hang out after school
>trade pictures and emails
>she likes me and I like her
>MSN all the time
>enlist in military
>she sends me letters everyday in Basic from Europe
>go to A-school
>get huge 20 day block leave
>go to Netherlands
>hang out with girl, intimate
>go back to America
>get ghosted
>she met a guy in Germany.

I'll be 28 in june with nothing to show for. I was happy to get hired three years ago in a small IT business, but right now it feels like a monumental waste of my time. My life feels like a waste of time. Nothing excites me. If i was passionate about something i could still pursue it but i haven't been in a long time.
Used to paint minis, bought several sets. Year later still unpacked. I was learning 3d, still install new maya every year, only to waste disk space.
I have this pain inside me, this panic to do something right now but when i try to figure it out, i'm drawing a blank.
I don't even want to win the fucking lotto anymore, at this point available solutions seem to be of lead variety.

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Have you been neet before? It's not as comfortable as it seems.

I really like her though. I thought she liked me too, at least as someone to talk and play with. Fuck everything.

At least you two met, that's something. How long did it last, it seems like a few years?

I have been a NEET for about 10 years now with breaks in between, enrolling at university.

Damn, same length as me. But I had no breaks. I guess I'm not strong enough to handle it lifelong.

I went to community college right after high school. I was there for 3 years, switch majors 3 times, and failed/ dropped a few classes. I somehow ended up with a decent GPA, so I was able to transfer to 4 year school. I fail/drop a shit ton of classes there and eventually drop out. I went back to CC and retook a few classes. My first semester was good, but this semester is shit. I'm failing all my classes and parents want me to go back to the 4 year school and finish my finance degree. I hate my major, I hate my classes and I hate the people here. I just can't seem to focus and get my shit together. Been in and out of school for almost 6 years now and I'm fucking depressed, stressed, and just tired of living. I do want to get a degree so I can get a better job, but holy fuck I can't even pass simple intro classes. I just feel like school isn't for me.

Also, I feel like I will be stuck working this shit job for the rest of my life. I'm getting too old for this shit. I'm 25 and I know some people think thats young, but I know its not that young. I'm tired of going into my job. I'm tired of fucking working with all these damn druggy high school dropouts. I tell these little shit head kids to learn from my mistakes, but nope! They just laugh about it and act like mommy and daddy will continue to spoil them even when they get older. I really want to find a new place to work, but since I've only worked at low paying food jobs, I just feel like that's the only thing I'll be able to do well in.

I hate seeing people I went to school with. Everyone I went to high school with is finishing up with their degrees, starting their new jobs, getting married, having kids, buying homes, and going on vacation. And all I'm doing is fucking up in life.

Sorry for the long ass faggy blog. I had to get that off my chest.

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>from bumfuck nowhere
>moved to city I thought would be nice
>it's pretty boring and somewhat small, nothing to do and nowhere to go
>signed a lease for a nice apartment I thought was close to downtown
>actually an inconvenient distance, hour and a half walk to downtown through a really boring area for half of it, only 15/20 mins by bike though
>regret not getting an apartment right downtown (but then the hobo problem would be at my doorstep...) so I could go on interesting nightwalks (current area is so boring it's not even worth it to leave apartment)
>friend works for company in a large city, one of the top 10 global cities
>sort of offered to help me get a job there
>currently unemployed, do have qualifications for his job, and it is work I would like to do
>not sure if I really could get a job in his company because they have no offices in my city at all, I'd have to fly to an interview with them
>don't like his city because of the weather but it is inarguably a much more interesting place than here
What do? Am I being stubborn? Should I just apply and go if I land it? The weather in that city sucks and it's got some other issues as well, but it is large and interesting at least. There are other perks to living there as well.

Feels like a great depression is coming again.
I spent the winter actively trying to get someone through online stuff, turns out noone likes me, didnt even have one conversation. And now, good weather is out, and all i see is normie lovers all over the place. Im pretty upset.

>apply for a gazillion entry level lab jobs
>finally get an invite to interview
>suddenly realise I've forgotten everything I learnt at university and I now must wing-it through an interview with three (3) IRL humans

My weekend is gonna consist of dredging out my old immunology textbooks and trying to shovel some of this crap back into my brain.

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Two years from start to finish, at least I got there

Badly user. Can't wait to try therapy, it's my last chance at having a life.
Otherwise, see you all on the other side.

I never had interviews, but friends say its often not about the knowledge but to see if the guy is a wacko or not. Well. Since you are here, you are one.
You will do great.

Therapy is a meme, it doesn't help anyone. Never has, never will. Talking to someone can help, but only if the person actually cares or can convincingly pretend to care, neither can happen with any existing therapists (for logical, legal, educational and incentive reasons). Therapists are even worse for robots because they singlehandedly cement the concept that no normalfag wants to even try to comprehend your situation, let alone help, even if they're paid to do just that.

>hurrrrrr it didn't work for me so it won't work for anyone else

Just because you're harming people on purpose while trying to wring as much money from them as possible doesn't mean other people like me aren't trying to help people actually get better instead of being scammed by your kind.

At least he's a psychiatrist and I'll be able to get some meds to take the pain away,

>see a friend just got promoted on linkedin
>instant depression hits

I just don't get it. I was the one who helped all these guys in college. Some of them couldn't figure out right from left and I would help them. Now they got prestigious jobs and i'm still a loser somehow. This world is so tilted against me. I made a pact with myself that if I reach 30 and still haven't got myself together i'm going to just suicide but right now i'm feeling like it might be time to consider moving it down.

I'm like the girl watching all her friends get married except its with jobs and life success while I have nothing.

Well, if you are a student worth a damn then you are paid to complete your PhD. Generally tuition is waived and you get a position as a teaching/research assistant which provides housing and sometimes meal plans as well as monthly stipend. It isn't much, but it's not taking out loans to finish your education.

I live in a great area for STEM, there are contractors and government labs every which way. CIA, FBI, DoD, NSA, NASA, Airforce, Navy is all in my backyard. If I'm not working for them directly then chances are they would be issuing the grants to my department in academics. They hire bachelor's, to be sure, and they will send you back for your master's, but they do also hire fresh PhDs to work as scientists (and getting the scientist/physicist title/position is much better than something like an engineer. You're on a whole other pay scale.)

Going in with a Bachelor's with no intention of getting a higher degree is a mistake, I think. Generally you cannot get upper level security clearances without a master's at minimum. I'm just very reluctant to have to "go back to school" again. Having had 6 years between high school and college has been rough. Don't really want to do it again. I don't know, I just go back and forth.

>28 (almost 29)
>live in a medium/small town
>boss is very outgoing and active in the community as a small business owner
>takes me along to events
>tonights event I was alone because he had a sick kid to deal with
>I stood around for 30 seconds watching everyone talking and mingling
>I snuck out the back door and went home

why do I actively not want to meet people

Checked. Well, user, at least you have a steady job that I assume pays well. You can always get more certifications and do online classes to get more education, and then move to a bigger company, if you feel like it. Realistically, what do you actually want? Conversely, what do you not want?

Also, interested in having a study partner for Maya to go through tutorials with? I did a Zbrush series abd now I want to do Maya, as I was apparently supposed to do that one first. I like to do 3d printing and metal casting, so I'm learning how to make custom models so I can eventually make really cool statues.

Anyone lurking the crystal cafe thread? I really don't understand the thought process of making Jow Forums gayer than it already is.

I feel ya. I would have probably left too.

You are not pretentious maybe. Perhaps you like a different atmosphere. Or you just feel you have no reason to start conversations with strangers.

26 here.

I'm finally about to graduate in december, after ~6 years of school. It doesn't feel good. I don't know what to do when I'm not in school. I've been working at least 1 job since 2011 but without schooling, I just feel like I'm making no progress in my life.

I've got a huge crush on a woman and I'm not sure if she really likes me or not. We've been seeing each other a lot recently but I don't know what it means. I think i'm going to ask her out soon but I'm prepared for that to fail

Hope you all are doing well. Thanks for giving me a place to talk. I don't really get along very well with most of my friends.

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>I made a pact with myself that if I reach 30
>suicide
I did that too. Less than two years left.

I was the same way. Always got top scores on every test in every subject. Didn't/couldn't do homework a lot and it dragged my grades down but still a respectable GPA. Now everyone else has a good job (probably, I don't look for fear of it) and I'm unemployed and barely worked at all in my field. It's just so unfair. It's the worst. Jobs don't go to the smartest person, they go to whoever can bullshit the best, and that's reality. No point in being bitter about it. I was studying soccer when the game would really be basketball. What I should do is learn basketball, but for now I'm just tired. I'm so very tired.

There's no such thing in my country. Everyone gets the exact same stipend, no free housing is ever provided, RA or TA work is something you do if you have no choice because money is tight (not something you ever want to do willingly), and if you gain extra money through grants or internships, different departments deal with this differently (for example, some departments require that you keep only half of what you gain that way, and the rest goes to the department; others reduce your stipend based on what you make e.g. if stipend is 25k/y and you make 30k, you get no stipend from them so a total of 30k instead of 55k).
The stipend basically always covers scholarship, but barely covers scholarship + price of food, and could never cover housing.

What is it with normies and loud music? All the time. With that loud lower sound, base or whatever, that vibrates and penetrates everything else. Even if I blast my own music that base of their wub wub normie shit will cut through it. Why do they think we all want to hear their garbage music?
Thank god my apartment has enforced quiet hours, otherwise I wouldn't have chosen to live here at all. I want to kill them all, why, why? Just stop. I have to listen to their shit when I'm trying to lurk and be depressed and cry myself to sleep or drink myself to stupor. And all I can hear and feel through my whole body is WUB WUB WUBUWUBUBUWB WUB WUB WUB
They shouldn't even be allowed to sell speakers that go that loud. Ban guns and all other shit and this bullshit is fine and dandy? BAN ASSAULT NOISE NAO WEAPONS OF MASS ANNOYANCE

My man I'm felling nice and today was pretty good. I met up with my friend after work, who lives in a homeless shelter, took him to the doc to get his script and I got a bunch of percs and xanax in exchange and then we chilled for a few hours drank a few beers, its nice having a real person to talk to about anything really. Now I'm in my room smoking a joint.
But my dear user there used to be a time about 7--9 years back when I was basically a dope fiend and Ive done rehab multiple times along with a sober living home for men. I ended up with a little over 2 years clean time from everything before I relapsed again; but today the most I do is smoke a lot and take these pills when I get them once a month.
I can say that for me and most other addicts is that when your trying to quit no matter what your brain is gunna be going a million plus mph and sleeping for a few hours is a gift from god. But please DON'T FUCKING GIVE UP it does get better I promise, after 1 month clean you will fell so much better and clear headed. Good luck user maybe one day I can quit everything again.

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>got myself so depressed and upset that I gave myself a headache
Great.

Riddle me this, whats going on.

There was a girl at my workplace, she had a slight disability with her eyes, otherwise a 10. Sometimes she asks me to do stuff only i have access to, like once a month. Every time we chat a little while i do said stuff, usually no more than 5 minutes. Then i never see her again until the next month or so. At this point in life i have given up pursuing relationships so i didnt think any of it.

Colleagues say i should go for her. She leaves for a different workplace then colleagues say she liked me. Which pisses me right off since they didnt even know her. Im not a signal master but i can tell there were no signals.

So what the fuck?

Im asking since i saw her on tinder.

About originally what?

My half-normie online best friend for over a decade, who I've met irl, has his LDR-gf over for the week and suddenly it's like I don't exist anymore. I tried jokingly telling her, in a public discord conversation, to tell him he's a cunt for not talking to me. Half an hour later, he messages me that he's recharging the phone, then doesn't come back for an hour, despite saying he'd be back in 10.
I ended up ignoring him when he finally tried striking up a conversation, because it felt like he was just pity-chatting with the lonely soon-to-be-wizard from another country, while he's rolling in vagina.

Well I have let my health get so bad I don't have the energy to stand in the shower anymore and baths are a big effort as well so I smell pretty fucking bad.
I feel like I'm past the point of no return now.

halfway through 25
I've gone two months without drinking finally.
Been NEET for 3 years.
I thought not drinking was going to bring back motivation but I'm pretty content staring at the ceiling most nights.

Dont be a dick. Enjoy the remaining friendship you have left since your boy will be gone soon.

This happend to me, a best friend i had for 15 years dissapeared over a 2 year period after he found a gf. I dont blame him tho, his gf is a psycho control bitch. Last time we met he (our friendship) was not the same.

Hoes before bros i guess.

Sound like you want his dick more than anything.

Get the job, it will change your life.

Money woes mostly.

Stop trying to drag him down. also stop being a fag, no one likes fags

>I smoke way too much going on 10 years now
>Quit pot a year ago which is cool
>Drink 6 beers a day so fucking up my liver but never get drunk so friends and family tell me it not an issue
>Work shit low wage job that people with a certification get paid 3x more for
>Constantly think about the future of the white race suddenly and feel hopeless about it
>Just turned 25 last month

I'm laying here with qt3.14 tiny gf of 5 years watching tv and shitposting on 4chinz tho.. honestly I'm happy though. Money doesn't buy happiness anons, it's the little things

i just walked out of my job for break and never went back. couldn't deal with the people anymore

why do you care about your age?
maybe you should start worrying about your situation when you're 40, but 25 is very young so i dont get what the issue is

I feel like such a late bloomer trying to catch up in every facet of life even at the age of 29. The only thing I have going for me is a job that pays $192k. Complete virgin (have had to handhold/handshake, hug, and kiss on cheek for work ty euros (don't tell me that doesn't count fuck you)) taking evening classes at community college to try and complete a 2-yr degree but really actually trying to make up for the experiences I missed out on and hoping to meet women as damaged as me. Can't drive, can't cook, can't do taxes, always self conscious about my bad fitting clothes, fucked up face, manlet, etc. All I do is work, go to class, go home and fund patreons and commission hentai translations, and then go to sleep. I only masturbate maybe once every 2 weeks now too. What even is life.

>$192k
>can't do taxes
not a great combo. shell out for tax accountant

This has been a bad week. I've started drinking my own urine.

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>Drink 6 beers a day
>happy
ok

You're similar to me. I got to my 30s as a virgin without any friends, socially inept, live as a recluse but have money to spent. I hired girls to give girlfriend experience to build up social game. I'm also hoping to meet a girl similar to me.

>run semi-successful business that is contingent on my work
>zero hustle
>take forever to do basic things
>months to get back to an email

I don't get why i have to be so slow

where were you working user?

I can attest to this. Therapists are basically just faith healers. Therapy only really works on people who already have faith that therapy will work. So therapy can be just as effective as anything else, whether it be: talking to clergymen, prayer, meditation, homeopathy, Santeria, Voodoo, herbs, placebos, etc. What therapists basically do is just a fancy type of brainwashing. They teach their patients to self-deceive. They teach their patients to believe more in their own delusions of grandeur, their fantasies.

Is it basically impossible to get a gf if you are awkward, introverted, and below 7/10?

no 25+ thread? might as well post this here then
>28yo friendless virgin NEET
>never had a gf, never had a paying job
>emotionally abused by narcissistic dad/bullied at school lead to extreme social anxiety/depression/low self esteem/distrust in people/ see many people as overlycritical assholes like my dad
>have been able to talk to girls/other guys but always feel too uncomfortable for it ever to go past a minor bit of chatting
>always feel uncomfortable leaving the house
>in therapy for anxiety/depressiun
>have a degree i'm not using
>still live at home with my dad who is oblivious to the fact that he is a complete narcissist and failed as a parent
>still bitter at dad

on the plus side

> i'm moving out the moment i find fulltime work
> I have a degree in a pretty secure field (nursing)
>i have some inheritance money in my bank
> i barely care about being a virgin, i only care cause other people make a big deal out of it and use it as a reason to make fun of people (men especially)
>feel like i'm pretty normal, it;s just my anxiety get in the way
>i don't want to kill myself over any of this

travel to asia