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I'm fucking sick of myself. I wish I had the courage to kill myself because I am tired of going through everyday and failing and disappointing myself every fucking day

Manufacturing I see. Good industry. Whats your specific role if you don't mind me asking?

qualityis as much as i would say only 2 plants out here too easy to track me down

Ive only started this new job and it feels like im already going through the motions. Nothing interesting going on in my life

Just finished A Confederacy of Dunces and just ordered The Sailor who Lost Grace with the Sea

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Im a kid trying to find wys to make my ideas and inventions known to people so more and more can like the stuff I do and eventually I can really profit off my ideas in a honest way for the most part. Im stuck in a party where I am the quiet loner once again. It's my cousins party too

I'm sorry user. I don't know you or your situation, but I don't think you should bash yourself. I don't think anyone in the world always lives up to the expectations they set for themselves.

Ah, gotcha, say no more

Whats the job user?

You sound like a real fiction fiend. Have you ever considered writing?

What types of ideas and inventions?

How are you doing user, and thank you for this thread. The rare threads like this and my pup are some of the few things that stop me from ending it

Glad I could help user, and thank you for asking. I'm doing ok - I'm about to graduate college so I have a lot going on. The job search is tough and the market is competitive where I live, but I love my field enough that its worth the frustration. Grad school is definitely in the future, but maybe not right away

Ive tried, but I dont know enough about hunan interaction to make good dialogue, not to mention Im just bad at writing.

I smell like baby oil for some reason, I will take a shower sooner then maybe wank, maybe or just look at images of pretty girls before sleep

I don't know much about good writing either, especially not fiction, but maybe you just haven't found something that inspires you enough to really go for it even if it does turn out badly. After all, practice can't hurt. What gets you really excited?

Sounds like a plan. Did you maybe put on some lotion or something that smells like baby oil?

Thats cool, what did you get your degree in?

should I go to College? I'm kind of a brainlet, but my grandparents are paying for it and I'm tired of menial jobs

I did some stuff with alt hist a long time ago, that stuff was pretty okay.

Mathematical Economics. I want to specialize in food, water and natural resource economics. Really fascinating stuff, plus if I ever make some kind of breakthrough it has the potential to help a bunch of people

I think its a good idea user. Statistically speaking your life will be much easier if you have a degree even if you are a brainlet. Its unfortunate, but true

We'll I'm not gonna tell them here but it wanted to create a cool website (dad forced and helped me out to code one once) that millions or more will like a very of tier comics series people will like and even maybe an invention that can make things easier for people or something cool tht can't e used for evil. Btw I think I scared my cousins gf for being SLIGHTLY interested in her personality (she seemed different from all these cruel woman out here) and now that just further proved my theory that women are just naturally repelled by me.

Yeah these threads are places where I can just type my thoughts and ideas out tht I can't talk to people irl about because I don't and won't trust people with this info

Hey Jow Forums I got a question, I'm heading to a concert in like half an hour and will probably arrive like 10 minutes past doors open, and the show starts about an hour after that.
You guys think that's fine for General Admission if I don't give a fuck about getting in the front few rows?

What time period/location?

Details, man, what exactly did you say to her?

Depends on the size of the event imo. if the concert was sold out the line is probably gonna be long as fuck. who are you going to see?

For the first time in my life I now realize what I need to do. Ive got a clear head. For the last few nights ive gone to my special retreat to let go, its one of the most beautiful places ive been in my life. And I can choose to go there whenever I like. It's atop a high hill that looks over my small Midwest town. It's just so beautiful, I can't explain it. I feel so relaxed at this spot. Last time I was there does were running around into the forest nearby, they were comforting to have as company. After a loud day at work I have to look forward to a quiet relaxing evening. It's almost like I'm having intimate time with God or the universe. It's so surreal. I just go and watch my small town connected to a busy highway through my flyover state and think about everyone doing stuff down there. The street atop the hill is actually the most busiest street in town. Main Street (though not officially) and I sit at the northernmost beginning of this road. I'll just sit in my car and relax listening to the radio dreaming about what could have been. It's odd though because it's such a beautiful and peaceful place yet so far I'm the only one that goes up there to enjoy it. I would think that young couples would go up there for a romantic look over the town.The town is so alive and I look straight down Main Street into the horizon down south. I've got a small handgun that needs the laser sight adjusted now, something I need to do when I go out there next time. I also need to start practicing with them more frequently. My diet is mediocre. I've ate pop tarts and my moms homemade cookies today. I've watched porn and done my business today as well. So I don't feel good anymore or at least as much as I used too. My so called friends have abandoned me. I wonder what this summer will bring? Will I be ready when fall comes along this year? For now I'll enjoy this time that I have left, and try my best to become what I've always wanted others to see me as.

This is where heaven meets earth. I can be myself out here and down there they can be themselves. The night consumes both of us as we go our separate ways...

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No, my sweat just smells like that today, probably due to the oilily diet.

>Depends on the size of the event imo. if the concert was sold out the line is probably gonna be long as fuck. who are you going to see?
Flatbush Zombies in Vancouver, it's sold out but the venue isn't huge. I've been to the place before and I remember doors open being really chill, I just sort of fucked around on my phone until it started.
Though I ask because this time the difference between doors open and the show is like an hour, but back then it was something like 3.

Do you have a plan for this summer? If not you should take the time to explore these feelings you're having and figure them out, maybe plan these retreats more often.

I feel that. Sometimes my BO smells like burger grease for some reason.

If thats the case then even if it is super crowded you'll probably have time to get to a good spot in 50 minutes

BTW everyone, just to switch things up and foster discussion, I'm gonna ask a question every now and then.

First question:

If you could only live in one type of place, which would you chose, and why? Your answer could be a particular location, such as a city or region or country, or a tpye of environment, like a boreal forest vs. a more temperate climate. Your answer could also be a type of living space, like an apartment vs. a house. How would you spend your time in your dream home?

I introduced myself and she didn't even seem to hate me. I was observing her and immediately her woman senses toggled and knew I wasn't a chad or a normie (I am not a wuss or anything I just am shy when it comes to girls) annnnd then she asked my cuzzo if she could move away from me in a very secretive and polite way. I wanna die dude it's very frustrating that these woman let all the normie douches look at them but guys like me who don't have all the confidence but are not betas just get slammed in the fucking face. Rrgggggghhh ok ok. Now I'm just ranting uhhhhhhhhhhh I think I am going on Jow Forums too much

My fiends have also abandoned me and what makes t worse is that I spent stupid amounts of time trying to make a lot f them when I was younger. It's harder than ever to et new friends, everyone is either a jerk, normie or I forgot about them. Also nice spot you have there I have a spot in school where I sit everyday an whenever people try going to where I go everyone just screws off or runs away. I really like having spots no one goes to because it's like a free private area

Really shy in real life and online, can't utter a single phrase when in an unfamiliar group of people

How do you cope with this?

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Nothing feels good anymore

not food

not jerking off

nothing

only smoking weed and doing exercise thats all

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I honestly can't describe how much this picture infuriates me. Someone about a teenage cunt being pretentious enough to say 'well' when ok or alright would suffice. Then going on to ask about 'brain damage' like she knows what that even entails. Combined with the stupid derpy chipmunk face, post-weeb animu tripping bawls eyes, completely inexpressive face, bikini that has to match her retarded hair color, shitty lens flare filter even though the art is supposed to be minimal, god no wonder I've avoided this media. I can't believe this shit got so big.

Boreal Forest setting sounds like an idyllic image of tranquility to me. Cold environments with a constant overcasted atmosphere have a sense of ethereal mysticism attached to it.

Do you think its possible you might be reading too far into her actions user? Jow Forums can really affect how you see your social interactions. If you think you're on it too much, you probably are.

I used to just go on walks, and strike up conversations with strangers whenever the opportunity presented, even if it was just ordering coffee from a cashier. It sucked, but gradually I gave less and less of a fuck about talking to strangers. You may want to consider it.

That sounds hard, user, but at the very least you have something to look forward to every day. Not everyone has the discipline to enjoy exercise like that. Why do you like to exercise?

Yeah sorry, it was the closest thing to a nude that i have on my hard drive, and sometimes thats the only thing that gets people to click on the thread around here.

Agreed. I love all seasons and all types of biomes, but I've always felt a particular sense of cozy with northern forests. Just as long as I'm not exposed to the elements all the time, cause being cold and wet fucking sucks.

Technically in the future, but the world faced apocalypse through nuclear fire and disease in the 60s. Differing from Fallout, nations still existed, although they were corrupt and backwards. Europe is feudal, the USSR has a posadist problem, and America is a military junta that only has rule of law in a few places. The rest is anarchy filled with communists or secessionists.
I made one page of world building involving an artillery strike on a seccesionist hideout.

Fuck man I know the girls I creeped out are down there and I can't make them like me back now even if I tried. I sent them lewd sexual messages and pictures of myself to them on snapchat and they both rejected me. I've been following one and I left a flower on her car which freaked her out. I messaged the other one to check out my gun page on Instagram, and they saw it and are scared of me even more now. I self sabotaged myself from the start and I didn't even want to. I guess I got mad at them since they both rejected me. I don't know what to do with myself anymore. Fuck those whores, they're prom is tomorrow and I bet they're going to enjoy it. I wish I could do high school all over again instead of being such an autistic fuck, yet here I am being one still. Good luck guys don't do the same shit I did.

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Don't get lonely often. Pretty Chad irl. When I do I drink. Very lonely tonight. Very sad tonight. R9K is a comfy place to some degree. Thanks anons.

People keep thinking I'm smart, respectable, and trustworthy, but I'm actually a drunk with ADHD. So not only do I not comprehend because I am likely not sober when not at work, I am not even capable of listening 50% of the time.

I'm just feeling bad because I'm binge drinking for the first time in about a month of being sensible and moderate. I'm going to get lectured by my nurse/psychiatrist because I literally cannot lie. Also, I agreed to meet coworkers at the park for some sports thing tomorrow, and I am going to be feeling really fucking awful, guaranteed. They are alright foreign guys who haven't realized what a weird freak I am.

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Why exactly does that type of future appeal to you?

Trust me man, life is much, much longer than high school. But as a tip for the future, never send lewd messages unless you are absolutely positive people want them, and never bring up guns with people who you aren't sure are into them.

glad to be of service user

Its hard to keep up a facade. Are you super locked in when it comes to this sports thing? If you really think that it'll make a bad impression if you come hung over, you could just make up a lie and say that you have to deal with some sort of plumbing issue or that you felt ill

I love grimdark scenarios.

I'm just trynna save up about $1200 for one of these
>Roland V-Synth 2.0 (2003)

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As of right now though, just got done downloading Gal Gun 2 on my switch at college, bc apartment internet sucks

Nah dude. I think I saw right through her actions. Girls think of me as a creep when In reality I'm just shy and it's one of those moments again and I THINK I can see right through this incident.

Nah, I don't think it will make too bad of an impression. It's already obvious I have "trouble with sleep" (i.e. too depressed to go to work sometimes). It just seems like a rare chance to get out of the house, and for some reason I feel the need to drink tonight.

>Love
I think there should be a distinction between head over heels love and the kind that grows with time through companionship. Like in the movies usually the dude will fall in love at first sight, but movies usually only take place over a short amount of time. That kind of love will never last, and more likely than not the love will go unrequited.

I'm done eating my feelings. If she doesn't want to date me I can't be friends. I can't constantly remind myself that she's not interested, it is literally killing me.

porn isn't cutting it-I only watch anal sex preferably with condoms and it's just not rough enough

i agree i love companionate love i just reallg hope my current relationship turns out to be that companionate love that LASTS u kno fuck.
dude i eat my fee fees all the time, it sucks!!!!
i gained 20 lbs this year :(
quit the porn youre cuckig your mind

i am currently waiting for my boyfriend to pick me up to go hang w his friends but it has been half an hour already. i just feel like giving up.

I literally have no options but watch porn, I live in the suburb and don't have money to park downtown

I've been there. Remember that women don't distinguish between "creep" and "low status beta" - much as you don't much care if that insect on your chicken tikka masala is poisonous, either way they don't want that bug (us) in their life.
I get it. I might feel insulted, but that's just life as a male.
The part I don't like is when they callously treat me like dirt in public. And, thereby, send cues to the rest of the crowd that I am scum.

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besides, I hooked up with a girl the night after an afternoon I watched and jacked off to porn

The thing is is that I'm not trash. I haven't killed, cheated on anyone or even beat someone up before yet I am exiled no matter what I do. I have always been left out of most groups and parties but now I'm left out of girls. Terrific. Maybe it's just the loneliness and sadness taking me over. I don't know what else to do with my time rn by spend time on here. I gotta say it's quite damn comfy in here! What can we do about this??

Kill yourseIf normi3.

>my current relationship
So the current r9k helper turns out to be a normalfag. Nothing new under the sun.

Everyday I'm becoming more and more aware of how dumb I am. And I mean that in a literal sense, I'm actually not smart in the slightest. Seeing other people get things so much quicker than me in class and in tutor sessions, it's so fucking painful knowing I need to work twice as hard and probably can't do as good as them. The fact that I've had to retake courses doesn't help either, I feel like I don't even want to get to know other people because I'll be ashamed by how incompetent I am. There's even basic life skills I have no idea how to do like cooking something that isn't prepackaged frozen shit. Even though I'm 21 years old I feel like I have the mental capacity and life experience of a fucking 11 year old. Maybe I should just kill myself, it's impossible to catch up with how far behind my life has fallen.

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