question for depersonalized bots
>when did you first feel dp?
>did it become permanent, if so, when?
>how did it arrive? was it a sudden change or did it sneak up on you? triggered by drug use?
i don't consider myself depersonalized at all but after an event a few months ago i've felt strange sometimes. i want to figure out if i even need to worry, so any answers to the above questions would help a lot. feel free to talk about anything here dp/dr related here as well.
what is depersonalization?
a made up mental disorder
It comes and goes and it started after my first true psychedelic experience.
I actually don't mind it.
My first memory of it was when I was around eight years old.It was late in the evening and my sister was preparing me a special dinner. I remember feeling out of place and not feeling any happiness or gratitude. Just going through the motions and trying to make sense of the situation.
I started feeling it about 5 months ago after some bad stuff happened and my boyfriend almost left me. It was very sudden and hasnt stopped since then, im starting to worry that its going to ruin my life
op here, what i felt was drug-induced too. it was weed that caused it though. during that, the description of a "glass pane" between you and the world was crazy accurate. i think i remember asking my buddy if he felt like that without even knowing about dpdr. since that exact point i've never really felt the same, vaguely different, but occasionally so wildly out of place that it scares me a little.
i've heard some people don't mind it. do you get the sensation that your skin is in a different spot or numbed, like you're under anesthesia?
>live with friend
>sleep in basement
>wake up nearly every day looking around and having no clue who the fuck i am, where I am, why I am or how I am
>takes like an hour some times for me to realize my hands and feet belong to me, this is where I live now and that I am me
>literally tried to cut my fingers off because freaked out my hands weren't really mine because I wasn't in my old room anymore
The fuck why am I like this.
don't really know what to say, that sounds pretty rough. was it always that bad or did it get progressively worse?
WINNERS DONT DO DRUGS
stay in school!!!!
I dont fucking know nigganogg. Shit comes and goes. Feels in waves, slides like doors and opens like windows. Maybe eat a glowworm or 2. Try to find peace in a hurricane. Cheesy drips.
had it for two months or so and i thought i died and was living in some temporary zone, waiting for judgement. it stopped for a while and i was paranoid that it stopping suddenly would cast me into a full-on psychotic episode which caused me to wake up depersonalized again.
it stopped again but i'm trying to be as mindful as possible to prevent it from coming back
nice
made me chuckle m8
I've had it on and off since I was a teen. First time it happened I believed my home was actually in a creek. Since then I have times where I feel like I'm dreaming and feel like I'm going to wake up any moment. When these periods hit I also feel like I'm not real and other people around me are not real.
It's an unsettling but also interesting feeling.
>tfw depressed and lonely and no bf
Make it stop, pls
err0r404_#1869
>when did you first feel dp?
while going through my first psychotic episode/ after doing acid
>did it become permanent, if so, when?
nope, but I still have days or weeks of depersonalization
>how did it arrive? was it a sudden change or did it sneak up on you? triggered by drug use?
it was triggered by drug use which also triggered psychosis, I guess it was more of a sudden change if you count doing drugs and the next day being depersonalized a quick change
nowadays, it's more feeling like I am multiple people and looking at the situation from a 3rd person viewpoint instead of the more common thinking you are yourself looking at you from a 3rd person view
also when I'm really comfortable, my hands "disappear" or like they aren't there and only come back when I move them around, they don't go numb or anything health related, they just go away as if someone else is controlling them, same with my legs and feet
It happened when I smoked weed, nothing feels real anymore. I have a tab of lsd and I am considering trying it. Maybe it will help.
I got depersonalization from acid, but we both know that acid works different for everyone
well.... I dont its my first tab. 200ug
I WISH I WAS FUCKING DEAD!!!! FUUUUUUCK!
>first dp feel
high school, my brain would just be on idle, braindead, and id see myself in third person
>permanent
no
>triggered by drug use
not my first time but recently i smoked too much weed 3 days in a row and suddenly my room became really foreign and scary to me, didnt know who i was really because all i could think about was "oh god do i have schizophrenia" and crazily looking around, scared as fuck that i was going to start seeing shit but at this weird level where i still felt calm/okay
All these faggots experience it from drug use, but I experience it naturally.
I understand. I've been stuck in a dream for years with no solace.
we're all headed down the same lonely road. we're all stuck in a box.
Pathetically enough I got depersonalization/derealization back in highschool after I quit smoking weed
>feel like I'm seeing myself in third person
>feel like I'm buzzed on weed 24/7
>so depressed and full of anxiety
>think I'm going schitzo
>got so scared and paranoid one time thinking my older brother just suddenly stopped existing cause I didn't see him all day
>yelled at my little brother making him cry and then I got paranoid and scared that he might an hero
>started tearing up
>apologized and played games with him all night to make sure he wouldnt kill himself
>hes not a suicidal person at all Idk why I was paranoid
Started meditating and it eventually went away after a couple months. Lasted like half a year for me. I still sometimes get little moments where my vision gets really bright but foggy at the same time, and get mentally foggy and distant like I'm high. Usually last about an hour or two. That's prob norm tho ive met people who say they occansionaly get that too
stop doing drugs faggots
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Does schizophrenia count??? Yes?
I used to get it every few weeks. It went away at almost the exact time I started getting migraines (which occurred at the same frequency as well) so I'm pretty sure it was related. I guess I'm glad it's gone, but it's not like migraines are really better.