>22 years old
>Born mixed-raced in the USA
>Realize I will never kiss a 14 year old girl in my life-span
>Missed the small window where it could've happened because leftist and Jews forced race-mixing to happen and they forced me into hell
>Now forced to participate and work when I would rather just not exist
Why even live?
I'm tired of this stupid bullshit.
I'm thinking to just get pissed off from work and abandon this earth.
I don't know either. I'm half native and I've been saving money to invest in real estate but god dammit man I really have no reason to exist.
You need to get close to people that share in your blood.
If you don't, you'll never be happy.
You have the chance.
I don't. I'm too unique to ever bump into a Puerto Rican, and I'm too weak to ever leave my parent's house, and I'm also not socialized, so I can't communicate with others in the first place.
My life is hell.
I keep thinking about Randy Stair, and I keep thinking about how miserable he would be if he was still alive, and I think how he's better off not existing.
He was 24 going on 25, and he was still a little boy. He had to work a job he hated, and he had to live a life he hated just like me.
I'm glad he's dead. I'm thinking to commit suicide in the future too.
I never want to work ever again.
There's no reason for it.
I'm always here for you user.
I'll always be.
>You need to get close to people that share in your blood.
Few problems with that...
1) I live alone in a state that has virtually no natives
2) If I'm 51% European then wouldn't I also feel out of place around true natives...?
Mexicans are half white, half ameri-indian.
Have you ever met one before?
Mine has no easy solution.
You guys do realize I don't speak a word of spanish, right? I live in the New England region
I honestly suspect that my cat of 13 years is about to die.
Me neither, but it's better to learn than live miserably and commit suicide.
Also, there are a lot of Mexicans that speak English in the USA.
Just go to Minnesota or Tennesse or California, and you'll find them there.
You don't have to work, you know. Just say fuck it to the whole thing, they cheated you so fuck them.
I don't want to live without water, internet, or power.
It looks worse than working, and it probably is.
There's no way out of it. I'm going to live for decades for no reason, and then I'm going to work-up the will to suicide and be done.
I'm going to live the NEET life one more time with my savings, and then I'm going to just do it.
I don't feel like that would accomplish much. Why not just stay where I am and continue to horde wealth in a low-tax state? It seems like the logical thing to do.
It's not like if I lived near Mexicans some brown waifu will just hop on my dick and remove all feelings of existential dread. I've been to all of those states already.
If you stay long enough, one will.
You've only got "existential dread" because your life is shit.
So earning less money while loitering around normies with better social skills will improve my life?
Only if they are your race.
And not necessarily improve, but you will get to have sex.
Yeah, no. Fuck that. I'd rather be a millionaire. Then I could hire hot young prostitutes for sex instead of some average girl who'll want me to buy her a diamond/house/wedding/car, and yearly vacations. Fuck that.
You're demonizing something you can't touch.
You're a virgin, and you don't know what it's like to have something you love.
Promiscuity doesn't = happiness, but sexual attraction = relationship
>you don't know what it's like to have something you love.
Oh I do actually. I just don't know what it's like to be loved, but I can find enjoyment in other things.
But regardless of race no girl has ever had any kind sexual attraction to me so if I want sex then prostitutes are my only option. If I want "love" then I'll watch a Disney movie or read a fiction novel.