Schizos

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Anxiety:

1) Counselling.

2) Anger processing work 3X a week (imagining the person is in front of me, and doing and saying everything I want to).

3) Swedenborgian psychology.

Depressed a while ago and cutting because I'm so edgy. Get meds and weekly visits to a psychologist. She's actually really nice and very smart. Went there for a year until she could no longer help me since I wouldn't open up. I can say that I'm much better but there are still some issues unresolved. Guess that time will fix them, hopefully.
Radiohead. Big fan.

Does being generally socially retarded count?

this is a mental HEALTH thread not a mental illness thread you absolute mong

wait what the fuck this is good! I expected some retarded death metal or some shit

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I would.

I've had bad experiences, and good experiences.

Now I've found a great counsellor.

I would strongly advise trial and error, regarding choosing a counsellor or therapist. A mistake I made was sticking for a bit with a therapist because they had a good reputation - eventually I stopped seeing them because I got sick of them jumping to conclusions, and not hearing me.

I found a great one now, who 'hears' me (meaning she listens, gathers information, and then demonstrates she heard me by making accurate inferences).

I also caution that it might be a long term, or even life long thing.

Although my anxiety has come way down since I've started therapy, and been doing emotional processing exercises, I'm still not psychologically healthy. I'm prepared that I may be in counselling for life, and would actually like couples counselling to be an integral part of any future relationship.

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I just caught that, whoops.

Yeah, I guess so. You don't need a specific mental illness to care about your mental health, do you? Even if you don't have an illness/disorder/etc, it's just as important to be mentally healthy.

If anyone ITT has any questions about mental health care, therapies, medication, etc. I would be delighted to help out. been through the ringer and came out the other side a different person, and better for it.

been on lithium, abilify and propranolol for 5+ years now, tapering off of wellbutrin and down to only 100MG a day. for treatment for bipolar type 1 and OCD.

been seeing my current psychologist on a regular basis for over 2 years, and he's starting some administrative work that has him only available once or twice a month. I'm confident that I'll be OK without seeing him regularly.

I'm doing remarkably well, so well that I've been able to quit drinking after years of heavy alcoholism WHILE going off of the antidepressant.

I love classical music but I also like listening to folk, rock, goth, electronic and alternative. Comus is my favorite band and I also really love Talking Heads and Siouxsie and the Banshees

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I am still a schizobot, and I am currently in-between listening to ASMRfu videos.
>what kind of music do you guys listen to?
If I had to quickly make a short list of what I listen to...
youtu.be/xzmaqwQ3vlI
youtu.be/qWXUG-4hm5o
youtu.be/RAiBhQ9f6cc
youtu.be/s_bO2uPJLLY
youtu.be/CZ_VFJn2kJM
youtu.be/RlxSYt9MBC8
youtu.be/FjG2J_fdFXo
...this would be it.

Better than the other shit in this thread

>therapist tells me i might be a schizoid
>he doesn't refer me on
>he forgets about me twice
>im now stuck in bureaucratic hell not able to get treatment
>even if i could my next appointment would be in 14 months

What can you even do to "fix" a schizoid? It's just a lack of interest in most social relationships.

I'm not diagnosed with anything or take medications, i'm just really fucking sad, alone and stressed, and i go to the therapist once a week (If i can even get out of bed...), am i welcome here?

Oh, and i listen to anything that i like... From vocaloid to videogames OST, from eurobeat to electroswing... I'm very casual when it comes to music

It's a personality disorder, so you live with it. Getting help to live with it is an option? The OP mentioned schizo, so I assumed personality disorders were welcome...

It goes deeper than that, though.

How do you get a therapist once a week? That's really fortunate...

>i'm just really fucking sad, alone and stressed, and i go to the therapist once a week (If i can even get out of bed...), am i welcome here?
No, fuck off, normalnigger.

personality disorders can be alleviated through behavioral therapy in rare cases. schizoids are rarely treated, like you said, because their condition rarely causes distress.

I'm curious what is experiencing that led him to a therapist in the first place

"my mixtape bring all da bois to the yard and they're like turn that shit off, i would but its better than yours"
youtube.com/watch?v=dN0czUMRMU8&index=0&list=PLwM12JUjw3zYpv6o6SR8ExOFTyLWDVYwA

I don't know, the school faculty suggested it to my mother when i was in highschool and i've been going since...
It's also really cheap compared to other therapists that i've been (At least in my country)

Oh, okay....
Yeah no, i don't give a fuck about what you say, cunt

>videogames OST
>electroswing

you seem cool user
care to be more specific about which OSTs or electroswing artists?

also there's nothing wrong with seeing a therapist regularly to maintain your mental health. you don't need a specific diagnosis to warrant support.

>Yeah no, i don't give a fuck about what you say, Well, tough shit. You don't have a problem, you're just a bitch. Get fucked, kid.

I can say I am pretty distressed. It's not the case that schizoids are always absolutely disinterested in relationships with others, but are emotionally disconnected and driven to be alone. I want to love, and to be loved. But I cannot meet people. I am filled with terror and confusion whenever I meet someone who I've tried to talk to online. I must disconnect from them after I do so. I believe I have inflicted them with something. It's like I can feel the form of an emotion, but I must intellectualise it to understand it, because I cannot really 'feel' it in a normal way, I have ruined every relationships (not necessarily romantic) because of my compulsion to be alone, but I want to love. I am scared that I can't. I am very confused and want someone to help me, but I cant trust anyone because then I think they're going to kill me.

it's a mental health thread, you don't need a clinical illness to help your mental health.

This. Assume it's a self improvement general, or something.

No, fuck off. I don't like you. You have the aura of a bitch. I can smell bitch in your heart. You're out of the pack. Fuck off.

Hey, i'm in the same boat with the occasionnal thoughts of suicide because bad nihilism and shit. I'd like to be alone but I'm never alone and can't rest (studying and living in dorms). As for music also same. Recently i've been listening to stuff like celeste's ost, ruiner's, and some infected mushroom albums (vicious delicious + legend of the black shawarma)

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It's a kid just out of highschool probably.

>You're out of the pack.
user... i am OP

What a great contribution to the thread you provided, i'm sure glad we have you around.

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That doesn't make it right. Please try to be more inclusive and understanding in future threads. We're all in this together.

Something like that, probably.
A traitor in the pack.
I know, I'm boss.

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Well, nothing really specific... I don't really know much about artists or anything... But i really enjoy Jamie Berry's work...

And OST's...
Well, it's a mixed bag, i used to really like the Undertale music when it came out until i grew out of it because i listened to it so much. Right now i mostly listen to Skullgirls's songs (Specially "Unfinished Business") and the Terraria Calamity Mod

Are you a something like a johnny neptune wannabe ? 'cause it looks like you're trying to be. (Somewhat honest question btw.)

I think you've got it mixed up. Read the original post again, slowly.
>Everybody is welcome

I don't really have the energy to kill myself, and if i had, i would probably regret just a second earlier because i'm too much of a pussy
I don't really want to be alone... But at the same time, i'm surrounded by idiots whom i literally and unirocally consider inferior to me (At least when it comes to intelect)

>people are derailing their thread themselves

>intelect
I used to be like this. Life will humble you when you find out they're incredibly capable people and you've just matured emotionally a little earlier than them, and then squandered it.

I listen to a lot of anime OSTs. Gives me nostalgia for when I first watched the respective series, usually some emotional response too as a result I think.
This is actually really good.

I was just trying to make some things clear, I didn't realize that forgetting the title would cause so many people to come in here with their own views on what kinds of people should be welcome in the thread.

>Everybody is welcome
No, this is the 'mental illness general', and I think is thread '#16' at this point. The OP is a fucking faggot that didn't put the OP in right. That they make it and don't actually have a problem, tough shit.
Fuck off, you stupid nigger. I'm just calling out a normalnigger for being normal.

You never found someone you liked talking to ? Even if you consider them "inferior" (which makes you sound like a narcistic twat btw). I mean, talking about serious shit can be cool from time to time but having a friend who you can be retarded with is cool, it also relieves a bit of stress.

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>psychiatrist told me appointment was today at 1:45
>show up at 1:50, panicked because I'm late desperately need a refill on my meds
>they tell me the appointment was actually at 1:15 and the psychiatrist can't see me
>beat myself up the whole drive home, call myself a fucking moron, retard, scumbag, slob
>get home, check my discharge sheet where the psychiatrist wrote the appointment time last week
>"Appointment Date/Time: 5/16/2018 at 1:45 pm"

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I know that they are incredibly capable and that most of them are probably better than me, i just couldn't give less of a fuck about them... They seem... "Unworthy", let's say

Curiously though, i consider myself a really shitty individual, so...

Holy fuck, I know anons don't talk astrology, but Uranus just moved and is shining through the next constellation, Taurus, and as an Aquarius, this is driving me fucking crazy.
It takes 7 years for Uranus to enter the next constellation. I've never felt more hopeless.

Didn't answer my question tho. You really sound like a watered down version of that shitposting machine if you want my honest opinion. He also seemef to have some kind of purpose instead of shitting on everyone for no reason. Well, he still shat on everyone.

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So it's disappointment, then? Maybe work on being a capable person apart from them.

My best friend, i used to talk with her a lot and i was pretty confortable around her
Now... She stopped talking to me for whatever reason... She still says that i'm her best friend and almost a brother to her, but if don't go looking for her, it's almost like i don't exist

Depression,assburger.
I'm on fluoxetine and olanzapine right now.
I'm actually listening to Igorrr.

Schizoaffective and schizotypal bot back again.

I listen to different types of music. Metal, rock, rap, ambient, EDM, Classical. Just about every kind. As long as it's good.

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>He also seemef to have some kind of purpose instead of shitting on everyone for no reason
>Didn't answer
>did answer
>state my reason
>no reason
You're literally not even trying, you nigger.

Maybe
I do what i can, but it is still not enough
It feels like i'm going nowhere
At this point, i'm seriously considerig quitting...

Sounds like narcissism combined with low self esteem, which ain't often a great combo, user.

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Any schizoids here that have followed behavioral therapy? I'm getting started soon because I don't actually want to live like this for the rest of my life, no clue what to expect.

that sucks user, i don't know what is afflicting you but i hope you can make it without the meds for a bit. i know from experience certain withdrawals can be hell. when is your next chance to get them refilled?

Same. Apparently it happens when depression and mild sociopathy mix

I didn't even know that was posible...
Like, how are those 2 things compatible?

What's it called when I've had some auditory hallucinations, and paranoid and think people want to kill me, cannot trust others, have half the schizotypal symptoms, and pretty much all the schizoid symptoms?

Yeah that's a bad spot. No one else ? Even some regular mates online would do the trick

hakuna your tatas my friends

No, we must purge the unclean.

I recently watched FLCL, bit of a mindfuck. I still don't see why people like it SO much, but I'll admit all the crazy shit and the soundtrack was good.

I really like The Pillows now, as a result.
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I dunno, they aren't ? That would explain why there's no answer and you're in a spot where every choice suck.
The brain does weird shit sometimes

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Nothing, nothing at all...
It's not because i literally look down on everyone, it's because... I don't know how to speak to people

i'm not that guy, but schizotypal typically represents one side ("positive" symptoms) of schizophrenic symptoms, schizoid typically represents the other ("negative") side.

Well, i kept it somewhat civil.

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But if you're self-aware you probably aren't schizophrenic? you could just be socially withdrawn or something

Oh hey, fantastic...
Well then, i guess i'm not supposed to do anything?

kratom will cure you robots. It's the real deal, and an herb that has been used in Thailand and other parts of SE Asia for centuries. Stockpile it before Big Pharma lobbies to have it made illegal (already is in a lot of countries/ U.S. states)

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No, he has low self esteem and he uses other people being inferior as a justification for him to be better than he know he is. Anger is an easily explanation. But there's some desperation to some sort of ego here. I get his mindset entirely.

I've been trying to get help. My understanding is that they were variations.

That's not true. You can be aware of your hallucinations and still have them.

>is disingenuous
>civil
You deserve to be strung to a cross.

depressed, it's pretty bad. probably induced by my severe social anxiety. not on meds, they make me feel worse

I like rock i guess

Do you play online games ? You should try meeting some guys on a game where you play regularly, it's online so it doesn't matter how many times you fail to socialize, it won't have any consequences anyways. I met some buddies 5 years ago through someone's online social circle because I made a shitty pun with his nickname. Stuff like that can happen as long as you're willing to try. It may take time tho.

Not true. You can be self aware about schizophrenia and the like. I am and I've had schizophrenia since I was a child.

I know these hallucinations and paranoid delusions aren't normal, but sometimes I think they're real and me thinking they're not is just thoughts being sent by the government or something.

I am aware, but sometimes I think I'm not aware. If that makes any sense

>That's not true.
Yeah, take my words with a grain of salt. I don't have it so I don't really know.

I've done kratom but you can become physically dependent on it. I would not recommend regular use, but it's nice when you get off work and just want to relax and feel /comfy/ as fuck.

>depression/social anxiety
>RATATATAT

Or go all-in with one shitty choice and hope that after the shitstorm it gets better and you've cleared a way instead of stagnating. That'd what i would do after growing some balls.

I am very unhappy fellas. Everything is worse than it used to be. I have one friend online and it seems strange.
I dunno what to do. My home life is awful. Mental hospitals are packed in my state as well so stopping my medicine won't give me a break.
Unhappiness.

tfw
aspie
depressed
social anxiety
probably bipolar, i haven't seen my psych in awhile, i want a new one but i've known her since i was 10 years old but she's a useless fucker and has done fuck all for me, but i live in a smaller place where she is pretty much my only option, that or go to a city a hour away for a appointment and also i'm terrified of new people i haven't left my house for 2 months now, got off SSRIs because it did nothing for me, infact made me feel worse overall i was on max dosage for a few months and i swear i'm going insane or something because i keep hearing shit like Sirens or whenever i yell my dads name i hear him call back faintly even if he isn't there, but how is everyone else going?

I sorta get it. Like, there's no way you can really tell if they're real or not?

isn't it an opioid replacement for withdrawal?

I don't really get angry... Not that easily at least... I have a surprising amount of patience

ur nuts senpai

i honestly believed that ssri's fucked my brain entirely

what's your waiting list time?

don't have to be violent to be angry

Yeah, it alleviates typical opioid/opiate withdrawals but it can have withdrawals of its own. Granted it's a lot harder to become physically dependent on kratom. Especially considering past a certain point you'll just get kratom nausea.

Yes i play games... (Well, 1 game, that my laptop can barely run) ...And i try to make friends there... But i'm a really boring person and i have nothing to talk about, ever, and i'm bad so i can't coordinate to play as a team

Exactly. I think sometimes that I'm not normal and that I have strange thinking patterns but other times I think everyone other than me is under mind control and that I'm the only normal one.

I have "hallucinations" but sometimes I think that it might've been real and not in my head. Schizophrenia is hell

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That's true, it can be addictive. For some though, the relief they get is worth the addiction.

>just thoughts being sent by the government or something
Did you believe you were being watched by cameras all the time and that your parents were paid actors who would abandon you if you let them out of your sight so you would stay up all night outside of their room so that you could catch them leaving. Because I certainty didn't!

I don't need bigger balls, they already hurt from grinding on the ground so much

Good point...