Is anyone else losing their mind on LSD

I personally used acid for introspection and growth myself, but that didn't change the fact that it fucked me up. All of my language processors were fucked for weeks, and to this day I feel the lingering effects of what acid has done to me. It taught me CRUCIAl shit about myself, don't get me wrong. But I feel as if that for what it gave me, it took other things away.

That's what I feel almost everytime I trip... sometimes it helps me, sometimes it makes things worse...

Listen. I was a sperg locked in my room without social contact, whatsoever.
Then a trip punched me to the ego and showed me how shitty my life was... after this trip my situation was ever WORSE... because the trip got me out of the delusion that what I was living was acceptable, it showed me the truth of who I am... It was hard to overcome but I did overcome it in the end...

I just feel like... why is all this resrach into psychedelics/dissociatives banned ? It has been proven to work... why do we have to do this on our own as lab rats...
And what is the other treatment option ? SSRI medication that make you a walking corpse... If something, this trip gave me the motivation to quit the SSRI-jew and get back to dealing with my shit MYSELF

I had also been taking SSRI's, and took them a while after my three trips. They made me feel good, but it really did feel... Empty. Like a placid happiness. One that wasn't benched in anything real or grounded. Stopping them hasn't really improved anything, I feel like shit, but every once in a while, I still feel sparks of what I used to be. So I guess it did make some things better.

And for me, acid made me re-realize who I was in entirety. My whole life I had been grinding and grinding to appeal to certain people, and whenever I found someone to cling to, I worked at almost nothing except appealing to this person as much as possible. Even my art, would become about them, I'd want it to be good to impress other people, but I'd always want their validation most of all. And even without the presence of that "favorite person", I was always busy trying to appeal to people. Trying to impress them, to get approval and admiration. Acid took me back to before I had even really socialized. It stripped away all the shit fuck that I had piled atop myself for the sake of appealing to society as a whole. My self expression is still incredibly limited, and I feel like a husk of a person.

But, even this wouldn't exactly prove to be a magic bullet, because acid also... factory reset my brain. Shit ran some CC Cleaner in my head or something. And while this reminded me of my foundations as a person, it made me kind of deny the reality of my life up until that point. The thing is that I am no longer only my foundations, the thing is that, all that fuck shit that happened in between my childhood and the acid trip is STILL me. I spent months just attaching myself to what I found out during the acid trip, but now I realize how misinformed that was. Lately I've been reincorporating my memories of my past, and I'm really starting to feel them again. If it wasn't for the effects of nostalgia, all the warm and awful memories of my past would be lost to time.

Do some opiates. Great for robots. Just feel like everything is ok as you are wrapped in a warm blanket of euphoria and nothing matters

if there was a guarantee to never run out of opiates then I would do it... but that's the problem

With psychedelics I try to get some introspection and ofcourse some dank trip if possible. In the end i try to improve the shit life that I am living...

But philosophy-wise, there is no good or bad.... I mean... people talk about happiness and "true" happiness... I think that if I could get a lifetime supply of pure heroine then I wouldn't care if the happiness I am getting is "true" or not ....

I respect these philosophies... but I am also a realist... I can't go full opiate because I know that in the long term it would do more harm...

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are you harmful on acid?

i'm on acid right now and i've never felt this paranoid in my fucking life

i didn't hurt someone right if I was just walking around

If I haven't been stopped by police, I'm fine right?

Take a deep breath, close the board, get off your computer and go for a walk outside. A change of setting is very powerful on cid
Youre fine senpai

thank you, you absolute god
jesus christ

Never forget...
There is always hope, always possibility to improve

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For some people life might be hard, but we are just trying to live, to he happy...

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should I try 1P-LSD?
I'm heavily aphantasiac

Robros, let this be a lesson. Acid and other psychedelics are really strong drugs and you have to be both mentally stable and in a reasonably content emotional state in order to get much from these trips. A lot of us are too far gone for stuff like LSD and shrooms, its just a bad idea.
If you do trip hard though, stay the fuck off this board while your tripping, it will poison your thoughts far worse than when sober. And try to keep benzos on hand if things get too out of control

>Muh bad trips
You think you are cool and edgy for using le "bad trips" meme fag

Fucking faggot you think you are fancy dumb lol peep pothead nigger

>I'm cool for saying LSD and muh benzos
Newfag alert

>cool
wtf no i dont think im cool, i just dont want robots to make the same dumb mistakes i did and harm their emotional state with bad trips. I dont think the drugs ive done make me cool, thats retarded. I know damn well im a loser.
>newfag
wtf, how does anything in that post signal newfaggotry.

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thank you my friend
orignally

not right now but lsd is the best, way more relaxing than weed

>reasonably content emotional state

content like how?

>Muh fancy drug lingo
>Perkys
>Benzos
>Trips
>Le gas (weed)
>Devil's dandruff (crack)

Idk, no oustanding stress and you are at least somewhat content with who you are and where your life is headed
ffs i dont use drug words to be cool for christ sake.
>pekys
No idea what this is. Uppers? Amphetamines? Idk
>benzos
Extremely common slang, even doctors call them this soemtimes, i cant spell or pronounce the real word
>trips
Again, eveyday slang to anyone who has done a decent variety of drugs
>le gas (weed)
Never heard this b4
>devils dandruff
Idk ive never done crack or even know anyone who has

Why the fugg are you such a hardass famalam?

Hey you faghoyb I'm higj
>muh KzsF LSD

Are you the acid user?

Because I'm the other acid user.

Wat? Are you high or are you saying im high? Im just on ketamine and coming back to sobriety
I havent done acid for a while cause im not emotionally strong enough atm.
This is me: This is not me:

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>Idk, no oustanding stress and you are at least somewhat content with who you are and where your life is headed

but that's what I need LSD for, psychedelics are probably the only thing that can fix my brain

youtube.com/watch?v=S3EKEwMXmXY

Thank god
Listening to this calmed me down. feeling fine now

jesus christ acid is terrifying

Fag doing drugs does not make you le superior or deep you degenerate cuck

yeah you're right

original

No I'm wrong. I'm just an insecure fag who thinks he is edgy and unique for being "straight edge." Can you cuck me and do drugs In front of me. I have never done drugs so I have a jealously fetish
. I will cut onnyiur face and start fucking your acid tabs. You can send me anus pics over the darknet. Fuck yes user. Snort coke off my chest.

He didnt say it made him superior you insecure cuck
Im not sure what user you are but just b careful cuz some fucked up people end up like syd barrett instead of solving their issues. I had hoped the same thing but after a ton of bad trips on a bunch of psychedelics i realize its a lost cause for me at least.
Nigger what the fuck

>Nigger
Jow Forums is that way altfag

this gave me a giggle

Its ironic you fag. I despise Jow Forums. I just wanted to express my disgust with your post

i hope you're feeling okay, user

>Im not sure what user you are but just b careful cuz some fucked up people end up like syd barrett instead of solving their issues. I had hoped the same thing but after a ton of bad trips on a bunch of psychedelics i realize its a lost cause for me at least.

I'm an asexual schizoid with aphantasia and SDAM, all those things feed into each other, and there's no official treatment for any of those conditions yet. LSD might make me lose my mind? No big deal, I'll just spend the rest of my days in a hospital and it won't be any worse than my current life.

>Say nigger on Jow Forums
>People assume you're Jow Forums and tell you to leave
This place has changed.

Lol thats one way to look at it i guess. Personally id much prefer suicide to mental hospital life or my current shit life so id be afraid of losing the ability to kill myslef if i got institutuonalized