We're going to die soon, but al/ck/ will never die

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holy shit

I don't drink very often. I think it's the bad quality of sleep. My blood tests were healthy.

I'm bothered every single time I see S7 get mentioned ever since I found out it's 75% neutral spirits

Hey

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Is the pain down in your central back just above your pelvis spreading out to your sciatic nerves on either side? If it's generalized in your upper back, it's likely nephritis.

Do you feel it in your knees? Do your feet get numb?

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idk what that means but i sure wasn't expecting a quality drink for that price haha. i know it isn't great

seriously?

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I was drinking full handles on my days off for months on end, and it started to catch up to me. Haven't drank in a week, and didn't really have withdrawals. I'm gonna see how I feel after a month of no drinking, and then see if I can ease back into normal people amounts. Wish me luck brehs.

Pick a normal amount and don't pass it. You can either go teatotal or moderate. Depends on your personality.

Not that poster but sometimes my feet tingle. Also I haven’t had a good solid bowel movement in weeks.

I went to the store and bought a pound of ground beef and a packet of ground italian sausage, mixed them together, cooked them, and then ate all of it. I just started throwing up now. I haven't ever done anything like this before, I have no idea what I was thinking. I didn't even enjoy it. Why did this happen? What's wrong with me? I'm just drinking water now, since I was vomiting.

Water shit or nothing?

No. My feet don't get numb. Just my lower back hurts a bit.

Stop now. You're boxing your kidneys with booze. It's like when people poison their kidneys with opium or whatever, even salt.

Stop it. Don't take in sodium or potassium or booze etc.

Or you can drink yourself to death. I'm not judging. I've essentially drank myself to death.

Not him, but my sides ache. Thought it was from switching to an office job and having shitty posture, but now I'm starting to get concerned.

Opium doesn't cause kidney failure and salt and potassium are essential nutrients

Stop talking out of your ass

Drink lots of water. Don't take any drugs while you drink. Your kidneys are a filter. If you give them a bunch of shit, they end up breaking down and dying.

Back pain is either back pain, or kidney failure.

just got a 6 pack of sours lads
pretty yummy
im usually an APA guy but this is a nice change
reminds me of those really sour lollies i used to buy when i was a kid

Go take some potassium chloride then. Bubye you stupid dipshit.

Well goddammit, guess that diet of blow and percocet ain't helpin'

Here you go, asshole.

kidney.org/blog/kidney-cars/kidneys-and-pain-killers

I've always wondered why you dirtbags don't kill yourselves because you can't exist in the real world, but hey.. I'm just wondering.

Where'd you go, you fecal human?

Watery shits.

Enjoy your back pain, you fucking pederast.

Honestly, that can be a lot of things. And probably better than worse. Tell me exactly where you feel your numbness and pain.

Do you get "shooting pains"?

genessee ice. i have been drinking lesss since the threads were removed. i like our communial suffering

bump for being back

Almost a week without booze. I feel good about it this time lads.

Any weird pains?

No. I sweat like a pig and I can't sleep well at all though.

No none of that. Just my feet tingle sometimes and my lower back hurts after a long bender.

Shiraz..I'm cutting fat for next summer, its winter in Australia. I'm 34 and want to tap 21 year olds lads, which is impossible if you're a bit tubby

That's endocrinological I assume. And also, people suck.. Sweating is fine, pain is not.

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So you think drinking has nothing to do with my symptoms?

Are you kidding, no. Sweating is just you having shit in your body. The level of shit determines how much you're killing your organs.

Could be withdrawls. Having trouble sleeping is also a symptom

Has anyone explained Nephritis to you? That's your little alveoli dying so that they can't remove those chemicals into your piss.

Ihaven't been drinking that much in the past year. I'm a bad drunk which is why I'm going sober. Still, it takes about two weeks for me to start sleeping properly again. I'm looking forward to it.

Drink a lot of water, if you're a drug addict, just drink water. Or your liver will die and certainly you kidneys will die

>withdrawls

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>I'm 34 and want to tap 21 year olds lads, which is impossible if you're a bit tubby

poofter detected.

50% (100proof) SKOL Vodka + cranberry juice

Besides that just hoping this goes well.
Blew my last bit of cash on some dip, vodka, juice, gas.

Going to hang out and live in this house until I run out of food to cook.
An enjoyable couple weeks of cooking and improvising.

Sweats, shaking, shivers, insomnia, audio and/or visual hallucinations and zero appetite are pretty common symptoms when you withdraw. You wont get all of them depending on much your body depends on the bottle.

>I feel good about it this time lads.
Confirmed for withdraws.

What said and a magnesium supplement can help you with sleep if you dont feel like downing sleeping pills.

Godspeed bro, wish you well.

Woke up and told my self the six of the American piss water was it for the day...welp that went along with 2 40's and I'm staring down at what would be the last of half a liter of vodka.

Amazing skills of deduction, Sherlock

The butt hurt is strong in this one.

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unironically kys faggot mods

I haven't drank in almost six months but ngl I'm really considering it tonight mates. Anyone got a real reason not to?

If you drink tonight, will you wake up tomorrow not feeling guilty? Honest question, if you can say yes without bargaining with your self and not feel guilty about it in the next morning then go for it. If not, is it worth ~6 months not drinking?

I'll feel like shit tomorrow if I drink tonight. I know this full well.

none whatsoever. Go ahead and get wasted.

Anything you want to talk about user? Why do you want to drink tonight?

Oh and I ain't no preacher man, I've lived in the bottle.

I used to be a drunk, I'd come home from work and drink a 12-pack of beer on a nightly basis, on weekends I'd drink vodka and apple juice. Digression, but I'm a bit embarrassed sometimes that I used to have a drinking problem but know nothing about mixed drinks or even alcohol brands.

A combination of circumstances convinced me to get sober, I can elaborate on those if you want to. I guess I'll greentext why I want to get drunk tonight.

> be me, one month ago
> meditating every day, eating well, sleep poorly but working on it
> been sober five months, gotten my life together
> decide I'm ready to ask for a promotion at work
> get said promotion
> confidence on the rise
> one night have to work with an actual autist who's been there four years and never been promoted.
> shift's eight hours long, within half an hour he spergs out, calls me a "wannabe supervisor" basically says he's not gonna recognize my authority
> can't afford to send him home because I'd be alone for three hours in a sports bar kitchen on a fucking saturday night
> imo should have just tanked it but I digress
> end up having massive anxiety attack, thinking I'm gonna lose my position and this autist will get it
> he's walking around telling people to do shit they either would have done on their own or I would have eventually told them to do, so I can't get mad at him, but it's undermining my authority and making the anxiety worse
> all I could do not to have a fucking panic attack on shift, make it through
> general manager was there, exacerbating this further
> few days later see him at work again
> says "you and I are going to have some fun in the coming weeks"
> I say how
> "with the competition. I talked to the GM, she said I'm in the trial too now, we're competing"
> next few days before I can talk to the GM I'm a fucking nervous wreck, barely keep my shit together on shift, I have no idea what's going on
> finally talk to her, we're not competing but he is on supervisor trial

Drinking a whiskey distilled from an irish ale.

contd.
> spend next few weeks dealing with this actual autist who doesn't respect my authority and takes any opportunity to undermine me in ways I can't get mad about
> assume that any mistake I make will be reported to management
> assume he's trying to sabatoge me
> paranoia off the charts
> anxiety off the charts
> confidence completely annihilated
> trial's over, going to see the GM tomorrow if I still qualify
> If this autist ends up becoming my boss I need to quit

I'm just so fucking exhausted, I haven't been meditating, I've barely been eating, when I eat I eat shit, I don't sleep anymore, and I'm just tired, I want the anxiety to go away, I want the exhaustion to go away, I want the uncertainty to go away, I don't want this fucking job but I can't back down now, I feel like a month ago I was inches from getting everything I wanted and I've bungled it all, I just want to feel at ease and safe again, I'm tired of being in fighting mode 24-fucking-7.

NGL Hearing this song for the first time tonight came fucking close to being the straw that breaks the camel's back, I'm fucking lucky everything within walking distance of my house is closed.

youtube.com/watch?v=oIscL-Bjsq4

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Just some shitty uv vodka. Friend bought it but never ended up drinking it. Lonely depressed drunk nigga hours here.

Dont fuck it up user, we believe in you

oh jesus thank god I found you bastards, I was losing hope. Fuck the mods that expelled us from our homeland.

Can I ask serious question here? Were you ever diagnosed with or might have thought you had a learning disability. I'm not joking, the correlation between addiction and learning disabilities are pretty high.

Also that song was pretty dope.

I used to exclusively drink stolichnaya, but at $30 a bottle I couldnt afford it.

Then I discovered finlandia. $15 a bottle and I feel like it has more flavors

> learning disability

I've never been diagnosed with anything. You could make an argument I have ADD but not a much better argument than for anyone else around. I'm awkward socially and not great with confrontation but I'm not autistic in the literal sense of the word.

> addiction
I'll freely admit I'm an addict, when I'm not on the booze I'm drinking coffee, playing scratch tickets, and watching porn.

It is dope. Makes me tempted to actually finally sit down and watch Evangelion. I almost watched Welcome to the NHK towards the end of my last drinking spell, I think my decision not to was a sort of make-or-break moment in my life.

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JW. Your post about your anxiety with the job and the drinking and that song really resonated with parts of my own life.

>I'm awkward socially
No shit faggot, you're on Jow Forums :)

But in all seriousness, you know its best to see your GM tomorrow not smelling like a bar and lazy eyed. If you have to quit, chalk it up to life happening man.

> you know its best to see your GM tomorrow not smelling like a bar and lazy eyed

Ain't that the goddamned truth lmfao.

> really resonated with parts of my own life

If you're open to sharing, I'm always happy to meet a kindred spirit on this site. I'm always open to blogposting some more too, this website has probably saved me from suicide a few times.

> chalk it up to life happening man
Fuck, a feel not many people know is hearing exactly what you need to hear... and knowing that it's exactly what the person you were a month ago would have told you.

Life runs in waves, as I say. When on the crest, everything's efortless, moving forward. I'm in a trough, nothing but cold ocean, thank you for reminding me this is just a ride.

youtube.com/watch?v=KgzQuE1pR1w

I'll be lurking this thread all night, feel free to ask me anything. Pic of Lorde because I don't wannt the captcha to expire :)

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bump

lorde is pretty great

>Pic of Lorde
That aint Lorde, this is Lorde

>If you're open to sharing
Diagnosed with dyslexia in grade school. In high school I was told I couldn't do well in college. That was my first 'fuck you, challenge accepted' moment. 1 BA, 1 BS and half way through my MS later my dad died. I have a family history of alcoholism, a learning disability and a live changing event about 5 months out of getting married...I hit the bottle and I hit it hard. If you run through the statistics of why addicts are addicts,I would have been an outlier if I hadn't become an addict.

Anyways, my now wife gave me the second 'fuck you, challenge accepted' moment. Not in a literal sense but I'd rather be around her than a bottle. It's been 10 years now and not only still with me for some reason but she gets naked in front of me. Call me what ever, but I'm happy.

If you slip, you slip homie. No judgment. Maybe some people really have hit rock bottom, but for me its always been the 'fuck you, challenge accepted' moments.

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6oz of black velvet and chasing with some diet root beer.

Hopefully not going to go over calorie today. That should be about 400ish? I got about 500 left now. Not sure if I want to cook something or just eat a couple protein bars instead.

> fuck you, challenge accepted moments

I know what you mean by this. I've been trying to reconjure that energy lately but I just fucking can't there's no spark.

I'm proud of you, getting clean and finding a woman. I'm trying to get there myself, now I have proof positive it can be done.

Through high school I was consistently an underachiever, I always fell short of the goals I set for myself, in every regard, I felt terrible as a result. This persisted into college, it was a contributing factor in driving me back to alcohol, into driving me partway to suicide. My fuck you moment came from realizing I was going to fail an accounting class unless I pulled 90% on the final. I finally snapped and decided I was going to do that.

And I did. I remember that I managed to beat liquor, that I've beaten longer odds than this before. It's just hard to feel like I'm the same guy who did it sometimes.

youtube.com/watch?v=DJ-grAoireo

For whatever reason when I watch this video I always feel like everything will be alright in the end.

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