Why cant i just end it all?

>Be me
>24
>no job
>Never had a relationship
>Got kicked out from house months ago
>Lived 2 week on streets
>Decide to go home
>Theres a basement, which has a tiny window
>Go in
>Now i forgot to mention, this hole is the only entry point. The basement havent been used for decades and is completely sealed off (No door, anything. just the little window)
>When parents werent home, i "broke" in
>We always left a window open, because my parents were retarded and often forgot the keys
>Found an old internet cable
>Connect it to never checked router
>Make hole in a now sealed off vent which led to basement
>Have internet
Now im here. I've been trying to commit suicide but i always pussy out saying "it will probably get better" but it wont.
Why am i like this.

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U have 3 options
1: man the fuck up and kys

2: man the fuck up and get s soul sucking Job at McDonald/gamestop/Walmart/etc

3: live as a goblin underneath your parents home

Good luck user

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Don't kill yourself alone, dedicate your life to something, become a religious creature, or maybe just go out and be a beggar, roam the streets and see your city!

Go with the goblin route and fuck with them. See how long you can go without them realizing you live there and they start getting spooked. When they find out you're there say you're actually a ghost.

This is exactly what I'd do and have done similar. Fuck I did it to a neighbor not my own parents

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Sounds good. I might try the job and goblin thing at once

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post made me want to cry.

I hate when this happens, a young man totally kicked out of the game of life on the bottom of the social hierarchy with nothing.

what can be done?

Sounds good user
Could u post a pic of ur living space i wanna see if its comfy

don't procrastinate on this, your suffering will only get worse when you have a job, it's never over little roachie

Good plan user. You might be able to make it a pretty good situation as long as you're careful. At least until your parents die or move out.

I have tryed to make on to legitimate my post. However i still coudnt manage to make the lights work (I think the wireing is fucked, and i have no idea how to wire stuff with electricity) And its 2am currently. If my post lives until morning then i can (or if people are interested, i can just make a followup tomorrow). Im sorry to dissappoint, have every right to call my post fake if you want to.
I can tell you thou, its really shit. Its a basement which havent been cleaned like ever. when i got in it was the most disgusting place. The smell of rain and shit makeing the basement walls have this stench, there was rats in a hole, everthing was and still dusty as fuck. But hey, im not on the streets

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Nothing, we are surplus humans anyway.
There is no need for us.

Is ok user I hope you have a blanket though

apply for welfare and shit user
if you have no income and no home you're eligible for a lot of benefits
become a nigger

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Dont u need to have worked before to be able to get welfare

Why did your scum parents kick you out?
What the fuck?
Were you looking for a job/going to school?

Are you now?

no
you've got the nigger part down already user, too lazy to even google how to get free money, I believe in you

I coudnt make a picture, but i thought this really awful paint thing might help to imagine. The bottom and top right outlets are not working.And the one im sitting at is shit aswell, if i put a distributor in it and connect my phone charger and laptop at once it shuts the electricity down, and have to wait for parents to turn it on again. Also im not american, i live in middle eu and have no welfare or benefits here for living like a hobo.

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Im retarded and forgot to include. here it is
also original lelellelele

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What the other user said.
Were born to die and lose.

Only black single mothers get welfare in America.
Op ain't getting shit.

Well at least its Summer so it wont be too cold most of the time

What kind of education do u have

I finished software engineer university 1 year ago, basically before i got kicked out. Never had the opportunity to work, had trouble getting jobs i got kicked out from home for being "Nothing but a moneyvoid" After that i didnt had a chance, not haveing the freshest look (no suit or anything) played a big part.

how do you eat with no money? do you sneak food when parents are out?

your parents are shit btw. you should use the internet to search for the nearest government center to try and ask for housing help or welfare or someg all it takes is a phone call or visit. If your life gets better and you still want to die, then you should go talk to someone

>has degree
fuck off fag. You're choosing to lose.

So there aren't any lights? Are you living the in the dark down there? What are you eating?

Also if there's no real "entrance" to the basement, what is in the boxes? Could be a bunch of little treasures desu

I cannot let my parents notice me, so i dont sneak for food. I scavenge trash for food mostly, or try to beg on the street.

Well them i guess youll need to work slavewage Jobs until you can afford a place to was yourself and a suit before you can apply for anything you were actually educated for. Do you have some sort of employment service? They normal also help in Situations like this

*afford a place to wash yourself...

I woudnt turn them on anyway, not to alert anyone. And yes, i sit in complete darkness, covering myself with a blanket not to let out my laptop's bright screen out. I checked the boxes also, nothing exciting or life changeing. Bunch of old shit, i found a blanket and 2 pillow but that was about it. Mostly just junk
About food, check latest reply

Go to a youth shelter and start from there get government monies

If you think you are literally at the point of suicide tell me one fucking reason why you wouldn't try dealing or using drugs. Go ahead, one reason.

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I saw the reply after I posted. Thanks for answering. I'm sorry bro, this is a really shitty hand you've been dealt. What part of the country do you live in? Assuming you're a burger.

You've got a good degree and I think you should start applying for jobs with your internet. Use Indeed to send off applications. Do you have any place you could go to freshen up before an interview so you don't end up smelling like a mildewed goblin?

If you want someone to look over your resume before you start using it, let me know. I'll give you my discord and we can chat about it... i hope things start turning around for you

I dont have an appeal for drugs. Even if i live like a hobo, useing drugs would just worsen everything, Yes i do know its controversy but dying isnt the first option. Tryed like 3 times, but i kept failing it so i kinda gave up, If i have a breakdown will try again. Also i would try dealing, but have 0 connections
I have tryed contacting them, and i got a half assed "well, we cant provide you with anything but check back later"

I wash myself whenever i can, smelling like shit triggers me. Its mostly about clothes, i dont own a suit or anything nice. And washing clothes is really hard.

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Could you ask your parents for some good clothes and a shower if you told them it was for a Job application?

Also this will be my final post for now. Its really late and im starting to fall asleep.
I will try to send job applications out more, and i be sure to keep everything in mind.
And i might make a followup post tomorrow about my "room".
Thanks everyone for the tips, i hope things will turn out fine so i wont regret not dying.

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Tbh you have a software engineering degree, and if you find a job with a younger start-uppy company, you won't even need to wear a suit or anything to the interview. Just find some nice clothes at a thrift shop.

That's great you keep yourself clean at least, it's easy to just give up on that or not even notice you smell. But just get a pair of nice pants and a semi-casual too like a polo, and you'll be good for a lot of developer interviews.

Cause Fallout 76 hasn't been released

Sign up with the Military, join the infantry and get wasted by some sand niggers. Die honourably.

Or be a hobo and travel the country via trains. Ive always wanted to do the latter, but im actually happy so i havent. Yet

If I was in the exact same situation as you,

I would ask my aunt if i can live with her.

If she refused (i don't think would, because she hates my mother, so i just have to mention that i hate my mother too), then i'd really have to panic..

guess i'd commit suicide then

I lived like a semi-goblin for a few years before I finally got the chance to turn my life around, so I kinda know what you're going through.
Don't give up just yet, it can get better.
It did for me, so it can for you too.
Godspeed.

Not him, but having a degree hasn't helped me find a job either (computer science).
The only companies that have considered hiring me offered a salary of 24,000 a year and i basically said that's too low, how am i supposed to survive with that?
any company that offers a real wage has refused to even invite me to a job interview