loneliness bread
>overcast morning
>no ones texted back
>spend two hours aimlessly walking downtown
>overcast day
>eat lunch at chipotle
>continue walking
>happy people with friends walk past
>overcome with loneliness and emptiness
>walk around the arcade, don't feel like playing any games
>continue walking
>think about how shitty of a person i am
>head back home
>feel completely empty
>youtube.com
Sometimes I like to sit outside and smoke when I feel lonely or upset
not healthy, but it does give you something to focus on
I smoke occasionally, I don't like the idea but the buzz helps push me over my own hills.
>loneliness bread
I really think I'll get better now that I'm really putting effort into putting myself out, but it's gonna take time, and for now it really feels like shit.
>Finally become accustomed to the loneliness
>Friend comes over to visit
>Realize how much I prefer the loneliness to social interaction
I'm a sad, sad shell of a man. I genuinely prefer the voices in my head and the company of no one than being around other people.
I've grown so used to the loneliness and isolation that even basic social interaction completely eludes me, and even I'm starting to get anxious and shit even around people I've known for years.
Should've seen this coming.
I texted a girl on tinder and asked her to hang and it took her two hours to reply and when she finally said yes I had already made other plans and now she's not replying
>back to fucking square zero
>can't get girls to reply for shit
>mfw
That scares me. I don't know if I exactly relate to you, but I certainly feel my situation is similar.
Despite my loneliness, I still find it extremely hard to introduce myself to new people, and even socialize with people I've had good interactions with in the past.
I feel like high school was the last chance to form a strong peer circle and I was too mindless to do that. Now that I'm in college (community college at that) it just really sucks.
I really hope you can find a way to rekindle your friendships, fellow robot.
being lonely seems so much better in a big city. where i'm at, if I'm lonely I can only go to Walmart and even then I have to drive.
OP here, I feel you. Even though I'm near a city it's just a mid sized college town, and I actually live quite a few miles out from the city center. The area where I live is just strip malls, farm fields, suburbs, vacant lots, and ghettos.
How's your local walmart?
The supercenter sucks. However there is a newer "Neighborhood Market" that Walmart opened that is pretty comfy.
What makes the super center so sucky?
i live in a refugee resettlement community in a rural area. The supercenter is a mix of rednecks and brown people who don't speak english.
>no one texted back
what is this feel? you text people?
>lost my phone 2 months ago
>not even stressing because the last text I received was in 2015
>manual labour job
>when doing maintenance busting my arse off I see happy couples enjoying the scenery walking around having fun
>afterwards I get to come home to nothing but escapism whilst I see people who I used to know on norman book in their happy relationships
pure suffering, why did I slip through the cracks, I'm a relatively normal guy
How do you feel? How long? And why not replace your phone?
>norman book
STOP STOP STOP STOP
That place is evil
It just showcases the greatest moments of peoples lives.
That place will legit fuck with you.
Call it quits.
I want to but what if a person comes along and messages me and I can escape from this eternal hell? Without it I have no real connection to the outside world, I'm still in one groupchat lurking and it's full of people with their girlfriends being really nice to eachother, kills me when they say that they have to go because they want to cuddle their partner.
>>no ones texted back
Normalfag