Mental health thread

Well god damn, look at the digits that have blessed our thread.

>"I really want to have a family so badly."
>have a pd

fucking breeders
dont have children if u cant not poison everyone around you with your own fukin dysfunction

Asperger's
Inattentative ADHD here

you're small league

I'm so smart it's crazy.

Also, I have schizophrenia.

lol you think disorganized schizophrenia is small league compared to aspergers and adhd?

It's not like my family has history of borderline personality or something. AVPD seems like the mildest of the personality disorders.

After a lifetime of dealing with anxiety I am at the breaking point. Ended up emailing a center for anxiety in my city, I don't know what will come of it but it has to be better than this.

Tell us about your disorder robot among robots.

Do not take benzos.
Just don't.
And for the love of god, if you do, do not just stop taking them, lower the dose slowly.

I did. I learned.

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>anxiety
>depression
>misophonia

its not too bad for me , ive seen worse on here

Hello, 1st time poster on these kind of threads, i am a schizoid of 26 years, been secluded for about 3 years now.

I have grown attached to someone on the internet, since it is the only way i can experience how to be a normal person, but i know that person is doing me no good because i have grown dependent on her and when we don't talk i feel worse, i have never felt like this before, is a new feeling, is the only thing i look forward everyday, but sometimes she will not talk to me for weeks.

I'm taking my medications and everything, so i don't know why i am feeling like this.
I really want nothing out of life since i have no goals or dreams, and i have accepted that i a "failure" for the normal people's eye.

I just want to know how to de-attach myself from that person? i have become too self conscious of my lack of human contact and now i think i want it, but i am not a normal person and have never been, i have never been able to connect with people, the only reason i frequent online forums and boards is because here i have no persona and i think i am talking to "myself" or robots or something like that, not real people.

Anyways, if anyones cares to read this and can help me, it would be much appreciated.

I know exactly what it feels like to get dependent on someone and feel worse when they're away, especially for weeks. I can't help you on how to detach from them.

my mom is a schzio
its so hard to handle
she just had a fight with the neighbors and bullshit that never happened. My dad isnt around to calm her down cause he works at a different place..
when i tried to leave, she yelled "police" and pulled on my shirt
She didn',t want me to leave or some shit.
Called my dad a few mins ago, he told me he will be commimg soon and in the meanwhlile i should stay quiet etc etc.

fml, no one knows she has some type of mental illness expect for me. My dad probably kknows but he is quiet about it. its whatever, i hope i will move out in a couple of months

Might want to say goodbye to them sooner rather than later, before your attachment grows even stronger and it hurts more.

Im p successfull but get depressed for no fucking reason.

Goign to see a counsleor for th first time ever. Im 29.

I have abandonment issues because of childhood trauma. Not to mention that I basically contradict myself all the time, almost as if I have a split personality, not really though. My fucking OCD is coming back too. I really want meds, but I don't know what disorder I have. I was diagnosed with clinical depression at age 8 and OCD at around 11, but I feel like might've developed something else. I feel like there's another person in my head.

avpd is torture. at least bpd's get to have tons of fun and look like the tragic heroine at the end of it all.

just took benzo's for the first time tonight, it's really helping, but I'm going to space out my dosing (low dose of valium)

Type 2 bipolar, adhd, and social anxiety. Most of my life has been shit but i drank enough for it to be alright for now. Wish I still had weed connects. I have too many digestive problems to be drinking on the regular.

Same as you my dude although I haven't been turned to any drugs yet (although I understand why you would) l. The bipolar 2 is really fucking with me lately and I've slipped into the deepest depression I've had in a long time. I think the medication they've put me on is making things worse but it's hard to tell if it's that or all the other life events going on. I've had a few suicide attempts recently which have hooked me up with some support groups but I don't really feel connected with them. I just have days where I want to sleep and cry. I hope you're getting good treatment though user, I'm sure we can both pull through eventually.

I haven't been to a psychologist of any sort so I haven't been diagnosed with anything but I know I'm not normal. Is there any way to figure it out without consulting a specialist?

Took medication for about a week but they gave severe panic attacks and made me feel nothing in between so I stopped. That was about 10 years ago. I doubt anyone will force me to go to a psychiatrist and I don't trust them enough to go on my own. I am a bizarrely functional person, officecuck, bachelors degrees friends, etc. I guess the ride will just never end.

Not really, without seeing a specialist it's pointless to have a diagnosis anyways, you won't get any help without one.

I absolutely despise the idea of someone trying to get in my head though...

>currently being evaluated
>psyche is telling me i am literal psycho and schizo
>look back on my entire life
>holy shit hes probably right

How does a psychopath live? Im nearly 28 and ive been behaving poorly since i was 18. can i even recover?

I've been waiting for these threads again. I wonder where original OP went?

Anyway, recently I've been feeling more paranoid than I usually am. I feel like someone's coming for me but I don't know who, when, how and why. It's been three days already, my whole body has been chilling, lately.

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>schizophrenia
>depression
>schizotypal personality disorder
You're a normie compared to me. Schizotypal personality disorder is the most robot thing to have

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Last time he came back from a long absence he said something about browsing altchans. I went and checked infinity chans mental illness board and the last post there was a year ago.

To elaborate, when I'm scared, my whole body chills. I feel as if someone or something is coming to kill me. I don't know what, though. I have had a few hallucinations as of late but that hasn't been scaring me as much. I think a monster or demon is searching for me

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>depresso espresso
>social anxiety
>body dysmorphic disorder
>bulimic (unsurprisingly)

Ive been refusing to get on the good' ol prozac or lexapro (escitalopra) since there's always a high chance of gaining weight, every time I take any SSRI i get nauseous and sick by the fifth day and it's unbearable. I've heard too many stories of people gaining 10 pounds or more in just 3 weeks. Never taking this chance.

I'd love to hear how it actually helped some people here, I can deal with the anxiety sometimes, extreme irritability and mood swings from the depression which has killed a lot of my friendships and relationship with parents due to fear of being labeled as various things by the people I live with, but the body and eating stuff is probably slowly killing me so I'm going for actually useful therapy this time and so far things are okay

Benzos are good for sleep and quick escapism that's about it, also good for suicide, never long term same goes for SSRI's imo
Fuck SSRIs they're too much of a "one solution to all of your problems" joke, just stop with this deceptive stuff. Once off of it bad and destructive thoughts will almost instantly come back. Yet they always seem to be the only solution

If you're functioning dude, I guess that's all that matters. I obviously recommend proper medication because you're not going to get panic attacks with all of them and it takes a while to find the right one but bipolar is much better managed through medication and proper psychotherapy (usually). I hope things work out for you though, it's tough but id say you're a pretty strong person to make it this far and still be around.

>Depressed
>Have social anxiety
>Currently having an existential crisis
Never got therapy growing up, parents claimed that it's just telling a stranger my problems and getting overpriced medicine that does nothing. The problems have gotten worse and worse through my life. I'm a self sustained shut in. I haven't felt actually happy in years.

Wondering - I am sure i have aspergers. even from a kid i remember my mom telling me that. I went to a catholic school so they wouldn't diagnose me or some shit and give me drugs and ended up not getting diagnosed at all.

Should I get diagnosed and seek treatment or kinda just do it on my own?

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>be me
>friends invite me to drink
>accept, nice way of changing routine
>drunk and having a blast with my mates
>2 decide to go home
>me and 2 other decide to go and grab a bite at 4 am
>arrive at the place
>we had a bottle of vodka in our hand and we decide to give it someone as a kind gesture
>they say they dont need it
>i take it the wrong way and begin itching
why didnt they take the bottle??
>order food and anxiety peaks because of the bottle accident
>i begin to feel everyone looking at me and i look back and give them the eye
>friend says i need to calm down because im twitching and balancing me bod back and forth and everyone is watching
>eat and leave
>drive home
>couldn't sleep because i acted like a full retard again

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Drugs won't help Asperger's they might help some comorbid illnesses like anxiety/depression etc though. Therapy might help but part of me thinks that this curse just fucks your social skills up for good and the charismatic autists are just lucky to not be as badly impaired.

Bpd here, drunk as a skunk

>The mania still hasn't let up.
I'm exhausted and full of energy. I haven't slept since yesterday-yesterday. ASMRfu, save me!
youtu.be/sf9VigYpGn4

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Paranoid schizophrenic here. Currently taking some risperdal but it doesn't really work and I don't have enough cash to pay to visit my psych again

Thinking about suicide again and if I should stream it if I actually end up doing it

bipolar schizoid here
i don't exist unless i'm manic basically
weird feels
not quite suicidal, not quite prepared to keep living

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I just crashed like a brick through a window. Might be coming up on my fifty-first (that is an exaggeration) second wind, though. I'm so fucking tired.

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godspeed anons. try some melatonin too.

Is it possible to make it in life if your brain is completely fucked?

I'm pretty sure I'm going schizo (hearing shit, feeling like I'm always watched etc) and I'm afraid of my entire life being trapped in a nuthouse.

I'm already battling severe depression, anxiety and other bullshit but now it's just getting out of hand.

Melatonin makes me angry and itch. I get pissy as shit when any sort of medication is put into my body. I know it's natural but that doesn't help. I don't like being influenced in anyway. Manic episodes just have to burn themselves out. Also, both are me. Thanks always, friend.

I am now more awake then I was before I crashed. This is great. I feel fantastic. I can't stop being happy. However, my heart feels like it's going to fucking explode.

>tfw borderline personality disorder
>tfw narcistic personality disorder
>tfw paranoid personality disorder
>tfw avoidant personality disorder
>tfw ADD
>tfw depression
>tfw pathological liar

>tfw most of my mental illnesses have allowed me to have a vibrant social life where I'm well respected and liked, but the fact that I can do that despite faking it makes me depressed

the more you think the more it hurts am i rite

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ocd/ptsd here.
As soon as I experiment something related to my trauma (bad mix of bullying and parental abuse) It turns into an obsession and get stuck in my mind for weeks/months depending on how depressed I am. Currently seeing a psy again, trying to get in contact with other people. I'm starting to feel like I can change, I even made a few friends by myself. I'm a bit less miserable, I realized that being constantly ashamed of myself wasn't rational.

Do you consult, do you follow a treatment, maybe ? The vicious circle can go on forever if you have no one around you.

>I'm taking my medications and everything
medications don't do anything for schizoids

got a stronger dose of prozac perscribed, my ED isnt getting any better with people forcing me to eat all the time. I'm so tired

>tfw no mentaIIy ill gf

depressed and anxious with ADHD and an eating disorder. i think i also have some kind of mild cognitive disability. Idk.