>join the military of my counry
>everyone in my family oposses my decision of joining
>dont care. been on the verge of suicide for the past few years.
>being KIA would actually be good so i dont have to make my family go trhough pain if i suicide
>about to be shipped off to basic in the next few days
>get this song in my suggested feed in youtube
youtu.be
>song talks about a greeving mother crying over her son's death in a strangers land
>"who will burry you in a strangers land"
>"i ask myself who will burry you my son" ..." so i carried you under my hearth"
>tfw realize i was a part of my mothers body when a baby.
>tfw have never though about the implication that my mother carried me for 9 months
>tfw i have a better apreciation of my mother and her love right now.
call your mum and tell her you love her user. you never know when will it be the last time you'll speak to her again.
>tfw doubting my decision to join now.
Join the military of my counry
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Military service is not a substitute for mental health care.
k thanks no one asked
You're not even going to be deployed, you drama queen.
what country, I seriously doubt you'll see combat
actually my country is at war right now so im straight to front lines after basic.(prob)
that is the reason i joined voluntarily.
ukraine.
>thinking you owe your parents anything
top lel maybe if you asked to be born this would be true, but as is they forced you into existence and forced their "love" onto you, there's no debt there
oh shit
forget what I said
Just make sure she knows you love her. It's normal to have second thoughts about it, with death looming as a very real possibility.
Don't chicken out, though. Nothing is waiting for you in civilian life, if you go back, you'll only regret it more.
idk man
they did their best.
maybe they are not perfect.
but for some reason i feel bad if i think they will be blaming themselves if i KMS
my father would be ok. but my mother willl never recover from it. i know her.
fuck my life man
thanks annons. god speed ill make sure mother knows i appreciate her before im shipped out
Why shouldn't they blame themselves if that happens? They are at fault, what a weird thing to feel bad about. Do you think they feel bad about making you feel this guilt and conflict? That's another something you have to thank them for.
Do you really want to die for fascist western puppet poroshenko?
Your mombie selfishly forced you into existence. You out it nothing.
>Implying my mother loves me
>Implying my mother didn't bully for years, being the largest factor behind my crippled self esteem
The only thing I wonder is if I should kill myself and blame my mother so she looks bad or outlive her so I can watch her die alone and unloved.
you should stop projecting bro
my family have their flaws but they are not at fault for my demise. its my doing.
dont care about politics. i just joined because i can die easy with purpose (aka defending your land)
sorry to hear that anons. hope you overcome such sourness in your life.
maybe even find peoace with your offenders.
This too. I never asked to be born
>you should stop projecting bro
>my family have their flaws but they are not at fault for my demise. its my doing.
Did you give birth to yourself? No? Then you're not responsible for your own actions.
I'm not sour. Things are going well for me and I have a rare bf
It's just that existence is objectively worse than non-existence. Your baked in cognitive biases make it seem otherwise. Maybe you'll understand if you're ever sick/collapsed/close to death.
kill yourself vatnik
not gonna armchair philosopher you.
but i dont blame my parents for my wrongdoings.
im reponsable for my actions.
existance is pain yes.
somehow im having second thoughts about dying
maybe
maybe ill find a way out.
b ut that is to mouch to expect from me.
I wish you the best user. I know you said that you don't care about politics but you should know that you are a fighting for a just cause, what Russia has done and continues to do to your country is awful. This is just what Russia does when a country in their sphere of influence decides that they would rather pursue democracy and Western living standards than devote itself to Russia's delusions of Soviet era might, they lash out in any way they can, and Ukraine has gotten it worse than anywhere else because geography and history makes it especially vulnerable. Just know that the rest of the world is with you.
wish you all the best fellow eastern european
t. hungarian
Take with you as many russians as you can, slava and godspeed brother, may your death is swift one.
god speed user
may we drink mead in the eternal halls at some point.
you sound like an overemotional faggot user, Mothers are insanely narcissistic and selfish. Fuck her and live your life the way you want. You're an individual, not your mother's possession so stop thinking of yourself that way you pathetic piece of shit.
>Usrainian
pidoram slava
Damn dude, if I were you I would probably read some doctrine or training manuals right now. Do you know how to shoot your service rifle? Have you read about modern Russian tactics in places like War on the Rocks or Doctrine Man on Facebook? Cuz you are gonna hit the shit, the Russians have been pouring money into army infrastructure and you must outsmart them. NATO will not save your ass, America hasn't fought a conventional war for 5 decades so you gotta learn on the job. How is your running? Do you know that you only have 10 minutes to run once you see the surveillance drones before the artillery comes around? Do you know that Russian jamming forces Ukrainian troops to use unencrypted CB radios? Have you read any books about modern Russian army strategy?
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Godspeed user, if you get captured do not tell them anything under torture and do not tell them anything accidentally because of casual conversation with guards or plants in the POW camp. Die in glory and drink with the Gods in Valhalla. Or better yet study and train now so when you get there you won't die and you can write your book. Don't believe any propaganda, know your job is to fight and win.