>woke up at 4am
>went pee
>woke up again around 9:30am
>rolled out of bed onto floor and sat for ~15 minutes
>grabbed couple pieces of beef jerky out of grocery bag next to bed
>breakfast.wmv
>feeling super depressed
>disillusioned over how bad my health has gotten
>no willpower to do anything about it
>after having this thought, immediately go outside for a cigarette
>bad smokers cough (15 years)
>back inside to sit and stare at bumble/tinder, porn, news, etc
>getting close to see my recruiter time
>recently lost job
>no education or marketable skills outside customer service
>shit self esteem
>no gf since last broke up with me over my sedentarism, too pathetic to put up a fight
>go to take a shower to get ready for recruiter
>cue surreal moment
>see myself naked in the mirror
>like I see another person
>i am disgusted
>almost physically ill that I have let myself become this ~400 pound mass of gelatin, wobbling in the reflection
>takes some effort of will to move on
>singing in the rain.jpg
>go back out for another cigarette
>discover my pack is empty
>still disgusted with myself
>decide there to stop smoking
Fat Sack
>say goodbye to buddy who works late shift
>his gf asks before she also leaves if I wanna join her at the gym later
>god no
>know I will be staring at youtube or a video game instead
>regardless will not actually be doing anything, just staring
>do that a lot lately
>decide fuck it im not doing anything important and tell her sure I'll join her
>go to recruiter, nothing appealing
>didn't expect anything good, but still
>decide to take their interviewing class later in the week before picking a job to interview for
>go home
>its hot
>no clothes other than sweat gear I never wear because I'm embarrased to be a fat guy in sweatpants
>too lazy for laundry, put on sweatpants
>home alone, time for porn
>2hrs later realize I haven't eaten yet
>wash up
>went to grocery yesterday on a whim and stocked up on relatively fresh foods
>nothing premade
>can't bother to actually cook
>grab some chips and water
>stopped drinking suger drinks outright a while back because started to get headaches when I didn't drink them
>stare at a jar of prerolls on my desk
>realize there are a couple spliffs in there and flush them
>can't bring myself to stop weed as well
>3 days sober, remember I'm going to the gym later
>heard somewhere sativa is good before a workout
>idgaf if its true, I need excuses
>burn .5g by myself in the span of half an hour
>turn on kitchen nightmares
>LOL curse words with an accent
>love watching other people berated, am that shitty
>start to feel guilty over it
>buddy's gf comes home and asks if I'm ready to go to the gym
>its just the local apartment gym
>currently dressed in shorts, thick socks, loose fat guy shirt, mismatched loafers
>no real workout gear
>loafers uncomfortable to be "active" in
>remembered google's average walking speed on maps to be 2.8mph
>take over treadmill
>set speed to 2.8 with 2.8 incline
>it matches
>immedaitely feel he strain on my lungs and calves
>decided to go for 2.8 miles
>how hard could it be
>eventually get used to motion and speed
>breathing stabilizes
>see roommate's gf (K) is jogging or running at three times the speed I am
>increase speed to 3.5 and incline to 3.0
>decide to take photo/video on treadmill as personal diary
>hopefully it motivates me in the future
>starting to be hard to breath again
>keep at it
>sweating profusely down my face
>I'm just fucking WALKING
>get to 1.5 mile and take another video to show how awful I look
>hoping when I can do it easier in the future it will motivate me to not get to that point again
>others come into gym
>some hindi speaking couple and the dude reeks
>takes the machine next to me
>now have to put up with his smell
>getting really hard to breath now
>feeling incredibly hot
>airplane-sweating-pilot.jpg
>really thirsty, forgot water
>start to feel physically ill
>weird
>push through it anyways
>get to 2.01 miles and can't take it anymore
>shamefully slap the pause button
>get off machine and start to wipe it down
>remember I need to take a picture of stats, machine resets as I do so
>can't log distance and time to motivate me to beat later
>fuck
>take long-ass drink at water fountain
>have K take photo of my disgusting sweaty body before walking home
>take shower
>can't stop feeling hot and sweaty even in freezing water
>realize my mother had been trying to call
>forgot my grandmother just passed a few days ago and I have to fly down there
>fat guy on an airplane, great
>sit and talk, light another joint
>still haven't really eaten anything
>decide to fall into my browsing trap again with the goal of reading/watching fitness stories
>stumble across Jow Forums
Keep going bro
>K is making me go to the store on saturday to buy shoes
>I never buy myself things
>I wear things til they disintegrate
>need new shoes
>still not looking forward to it
>finally cook some chicken breasts and steam broccoli in microwave
>god do I want a cigarette
not much else to tell, just felt like sharing
Just finally got to the point that while I was saying "i don't care" I realized I really had stopped caring.
We'll see what happens when I wake up tomorrow.
forgot the bad picture of chicken and frozen broccoli
interesting blog post
You need to lift weights to really lose weight.
Do not relapse, and you will make it. All you need is determination. Your path is the right one. This is what you were born for.
I write as a hobby, when I'm high I tend to post like this
My family and I have pretty thick/heavy frames to start with, I'm not a real big fan of showing muscle but I may work on that once I'm able to walk without feeling like dying
Mostly scared about smoking. Been smoking for 15-17 years. I'm lazy enough to just eat what is provided and since K is on a health kick right now I don't think diet will be too difficult if I can actually motivate myself to eat/eat properly. Willpower is something I'm in short supply of though
Fuck the smoking. Handle things once at a time if you're missing so much will power. Know your limits.
Hang in there brom8 we gonna make it.
I aint even a fatso and im in a similar mental state to yours. I think we are just fucking bored out of our minds.
Just kys desu. Stop fishing for attention. Just kys.
>mfw pathetic fucks like you come here every other weeks with some sob story about how they see the light now and will turn it all around
SPOILER: YOU'LL FAIL
Thats about what I expect to happen, yeah
>My family and I have pretty thick/heavy frames to start with, I'm not a real big fan of showing muscle
Lift. Weights. Now.
If you're really a sedentary tub of lard like you described yourself, you're going to have very little muscle under all of that fat. This means two things:
1. The amount of energy your body burns is going to be lower because you have less muscle. Making weightloss harder.
2. Once you lose the fat you will still look like shit and have a shit tonne of loose skin draped over your now skinnyfat body like a curtain.
Just. Lift.
You will put on muscle as you lose fat since you are a beginner and also a fat fuck.
And don't give up brah. We're all gonna make it.
KEEP GOING BITCH.
literally, do not stop.
Start reading books too btw, keep off the internet.
Add in some walking here and there you’ll be good to go.
Fuck smoking tobacco
Fuck eating over processed food
Fuck being out of shape.
Stay motivated, stay true.
You got this senpai.
Dude, the hardest part is getting started. You’ve already made some choices for the better. Just cut the fucking smoking out man. Then gradually introduce things into your diet. You’ll make it, we all will make it.
You're doing all of the right things.
Cook meals. Go for walks. No more sugar.
I take my roommate's dog for walks when I'm feeling bored. Was thinking of getting my own dog. I wonder if dog walking services pay well.
was feeling loafty on the gym tonight user
thanks for the motivation
Failure is a big part of life
Thats what keep some
of us going
To be better than what we were before as failures
We’re all gonna make it brah
You’re no failure
You’re just in a state of failure
good luck
You took the first steps, man. You're on your way! Keep at it; we're behind you 100%. There are threads with diet & exercise tips specifically for fat people trying to lose a significant amount of weight can be found here daily.
You have the resources. Stay driven; stay motivated. Remember why you started - why you're doing this. Embrace the discomfort & better yourself. Good luck.
Fast until you are literally dying of starvation, which will never happen because people don't have the will to fast let alone starve themselves
There’s nothing wrong with like 3 cigs a day. I do cigarettes like I do fasting. No cigarettes till I get home from work at 4pm. I immediately have one. Then I have another after dinner. And another before bed. It’s taken me years to get to that level of discipline though. Many times I quit for months at a time, but for this past year, this method as I described seems the most realistic at least for me.
Dog walking doesn't exactly pay well if you're not in a fairly decently sized city, but it much larger towns it should definitely beat minwage. Add in the amount you'd save on not constantly stuffing your face and less on average for health insurance, and you're saving a lot. At the very least, it's good supplemental income during your weekends off your day job and a reason to get out.
dude, reading this was so motivating. i don't know who you are and probably never will but i want you to know that I'm proud of you, you fought temptation and chose to make good decisions.
better yourself, better your world, and never stop. also lurk moar, it'll help
what the fuck? you had a gf even when you were pushing 400lbs?
godamnit bloatmode IS legit
I use a trick with myself to make sure I go to the gym when I'm supposed to, maybe you can use it for yourself when you start slipping back into shitty slob mode again.
I make a promise with myself:
>You need to go to the gym, you don't have to work hard there, just show up
>Show up, change into the gym clothes, then you're allowed to walk right out, guilt free
>You are allowed to do this and I won't guilt you later about it, because fuck it, we tried, it wasn't a good day to do it, but I showed up and knew for a fact when I got there that I just wasn't in it, and that's perfectly alright.
So I show up to the gym with this intent of walking in and leaving immediately after going to the locker room and changing, but by the time I walk through the doors, my head is in it, being in that atmosphere, I want to workout. The hardest part about going to the gym is showing up, it sounds like a pain in the ass sometimes, but it's better to just fucking do it. Also, took me years to realize, just fucking go in the morning, you will just be more successful that way. It's way easier to postpone it all day and then be tired from your day and make excuses why you can't - also, the after work crowd is the busiest time, it fucking sucks. It feels really nice to just wake up, grab your shit and go to the gym and have it out of the way for the rest of the day. You're free to do what you want after work now (whenever you get a job). It also sets your mindset for food for the remainder of the day. You're much less likely to eat like shit if you know it's just going to fuck up all that hard work you did in the morning. Also, shower at the gym, it's just another one of those small things that makes it less of a pain in the ass in your day. It doesn't drag your gym time out into hours - like you don't have to drive 15 mins back home and shower and get ready and waste another hour, you leave the gym ready for your day and it just feels good.
Dark and tropey as fuck story behind that. Lets just say it was doomed from the start regardless, but I definitely did nothing to try and prevent it
Can't really afford a gym right now due to the lack of employment but if I manage to keep myself motivated enough to keep with it long enough to afford it I will keep that in mind. Currently just using the apartment complex one which has a couple treadmills, elliptical, a bike and some of those little one hand dumbell things
this is very true
that was me, just got back. Wasn't feeling it at all today but went anyway and ended up going hard because why not, I'm already there.
Showing up is really the hardest part.
>gatekeeping fitness
ok retard