Let's talk about our childhood sexual experiences, and how we turned out

Something else:

When I was 15 my doctor molested me. It was under the auspices of "examination" but he would seriously try to get me hard every time. It was extremely uncomfortable and not even remotely arousing. Once he told me to avoid masturbating for a few days before my appointment so he could "make sure it was developing properly".

I have a condition that requires semi-regular doctor visits, so it happened maybe 10 times over a couple years. When he retired a bunch of stories came out about him being inappropriate with boys.

I've never told anyone about it 15 years later.

I've never met a doctor whose not an asshole in some way or the other.

How old is the kid? Does he/she know that you're the father?

She's 8 now and does know I'm the father. She's too young though to understand the circumstances of how she was made though. At some point she's going to be old enough to put 2 and 2 together and realize that there's something wrong with how old I had to be, and that's going to be an interesting conversation.

Do you have any paternal feelings for her? Is the mother cool with you parenting her?

This. Holy shit I am sorry user

>>but i suck on her tits A LOT
>>like more than i sucked on my mama's tits
Fucking hell man

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It's gay shit
>be 7 or so
>cousin is same age
>every time there is a family meetup or we're at each other's homes we do various sexual things
>various things i remember at different points
>kiss his tits
>touch dicks
>put my face in his bum
>put his dick in my mouth (didn't think to suck it lel)
>touched tounges but he didn't like it much
I wish I could remember it more so I could fap to it better.

>>kiss his tits
Is it weird for a man to enjoy someone playing with and kissing their tits?
Cause i certainly do.

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Damn I wouldn't mind doing this with my cousin..

>Friend and i are taking a walk in the night
>Begin telling him I'd fuck him if he kept telling me to go fuck myself
>Friend says okay
>What.Jpg
>Go with it because horny teen
>End up getting groped by him
>Conflicted but say fuck it
>Fuck him in the ass and now I'm stuck with him 15 years because i have no other friends
Also
>Tried raping another friend of mine when i was a preteen because he urged me to but i was too rough and he backed down

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>>Fuck him in the ass and now I'm stuck with him 15 years because i have no other friends
Do you still fug? Are there no emotions involved?

Yes but I actually have a kink for it. Maybe because of what happened. Then again I'm gay but still find straight tit sucking to be hot too so idk

It's a primal feeling.

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I'm her father but I'm not really her dad. I wouldn't mind being there for her but I don't get to be around her enough. When I am though I do enjoy it. Her mother is ok with me visiting but I don't think she wants me around more than that. She doesn't mind if there's ever a chance for me to play dad though if our daughter has need of one for life experience. I hope that continues as she gets older, I'd hate her to turn into a slut because she didn't have a dad/male role model in her life.

I sincerely hope it all goes well for both of you user. You've been through a lot.

We pretty much only meet to smoke and fuck, we are still friends but it's kinda akward

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I think I've shared this story before but mostly only because I don't want to talk about it with anyone irl and also because you fucks always shit all over me for not having a dick and it makes me feel nice inside. No idea why.
>BeM
>15
>parents split up 8 years ago after brother died
>dad took to drinking and hard drugs, got really aggressive and after he whacked my face mother demanded a divorce
>still have the scar.jpeg
>mother got custody because... hard drugs
>years pass
>live with mother almost exclusively for this time, sometimes when she breaks down I get sent to a friend's house for a week or so.
>out of nowhere, Dad contacts us
>he wants to see me again
>mother freaks out
>"you can't go, he's a fucking psychopath"
>calm her the fuck down
at this point I should probably explain my Mother and I live in Northern France and my Dad lives in Scotland (actually he could be fucking anywhere right now) but for he sake of the story he does.
>Mother gets all sobby and goes to stay with her friend
>I ask her friend if I can see my Dad
I don't really know why I wanted to so bad, I just guess having a stoner parent appealed more than a crying parent.
>friend is uncertain
>talks to mother
>two days of arguing
>eventually they agree
>"she has a right to see her father".gif
>pack stuff into a suitcase, wear nice dress, do up hair
>take train to the channel tunnel, take train across the channel, take a final train to scotland
>leave train station
>drunk guy on street
>really shitfaced
>really REALLY shitfaced
>vomiting everywhere shitfaced
>"off to get deflowered at your prom, love?"
>ironic
>find address
>house doesn't look like a crack den
>ring doorbell
>wait a few minutes
>it's pretty cold out, and I've got bare shoulders in the dress
>some woman answers the door
>very obviously a heroin addict
>you know the look
>go to say "sorry wrong house" but Dad appears
>shit
>"hey anonette, you look so grown-up! Come in!"
cont.

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>living room
>maybe six or seven other people in the room
>all very obviously doing drugs
>probably crack or meth, at the time I couldn't really tell from what was on the table
>Dad is in a hurry to get me upstairs
>"this is your room, just uh, wait inside and I'll come up in a moment"
>room is nice, small bed and bookshelf
>he actually has some of my older stuff, no idea where he got it from
>wait
>hour
>two hours
>about to get up and check downstairs when the door opens
>who the fuck is this guy
>is in his 30s, long hair, tattoos, skinny as fuck
>meth
>sits on bed with me
>nervous.png
>offers me his meth pipe
>"um, no thanks"
>shrugs
>takes a hit, has this small lighter that he uses
>moves closer
>hand touch
>"you're pretty"
>slides over
>boob touch
>try to shift away, he grabs my leg and holds me
>reaches down, hand under dress
>more boob touch
>kind of desperate now
>wriggle but he's pretty strong
>I didn't think drug users were this strong
>hand moves down, in underwear
>touch on vag
>fucking christ
>he starts kissing my neck and rubbing me, trying to slide a finger in but I keep shifting
>shout for my dad
>he hisses at me and takes out his lighter
>f.uck
>burns my arm
>scream
>Dad comes in
>tells guy to fuck off
>guy tells my dad to fuck off
>dad pulls a fucking utility knife on him
>a fucking utility knife
>am I watching the apartment scene in scarface
>dad attacks the dude and he falls over
>crack pipe shatters
>glass everywhere
>get pushed over
>dress is not good for maneuvering
>glass in hands, glass in knees, blood running down arms
>my dad fucking jumps on this guy
>cuts him the fuck up
>the guy starts screaming and he shoves my dad off him, getting to his feet and running out
>stare at Dad
> knife in one hand, eyes wild
>I must look fucking bizarre, covered in blood, burned, eyes wild
>he hugs me
>"I'm so sorry anonette"
>start crying like a little bitch
>Dad goes downstairs, clears everyone out
>takes glass out of my hands and knees
/end

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19 now, two suicide attempts(and permanently scarred wrists), a short bout of anorexia, and 100% volcel.
in my dad's defense we actually had a really nice time after that incident, and I didn't see him use any drugs while I was there.
I haven't seen him in a few years now.

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>be like 7 or 8
>move into a new neighborhood and make friends with this girl
>we'd watch TV or play tag with each other when together
>both our parents get stuck with work so mom drops both of us off at my grandparents house
>grandma loves that I made a friend and grandpa doesn't really care
>we go into one of the rooms and watch TV like always
>Can't remember if it was one of those teen dramas on Nickelodeon or something but we saw people kiss on TV and she wanted to try it
>push our lips together to try and kiss
>she wants to do it again
>we do and later end up making out with her on top
>grandma calls us for dinner so we stop and go have food and later get picked up to go home
>for the next few years until she moves away we do kissing or making out when alone, even ended up touching and sniffing her butt and seeing and kissing her pussy somehow but she never gets my cock

The funny thing is that a few years ago I was able to see her again when mom and I went on vacation and she's just so normal too me like she forgot all of that.
Even told me that if I had feeling for her I should just stop.

Two of my best friends have severe daddy issues. It's really fucked up when your family sucks. My condolences.

>Even told me that if I had feeling for her I should just stop.
Well, you were 8 years old. To a normie that's a lifetime ago, it's the fucking robots that live in memory lane.

Thanks, I'm not used to sympathy for the situation. The few people I've been truthful always treat it like a big fat nothing including mom. Like I said, it's hard when the person who caused you the upset and pain is the one who is the most sorry and sympathetic. And pretty much the only one like that.

>be me
>8/9 years old
>polish stepdad who up to this point was more loving & caring than my bio mother, atleast as i remember.
>rubbed my dick through my clothes often, whenever my mum wasn't around and it was late basically. it happened quite a few times.
>he asked if i enjoyed it one day.
>i said no
>he said sorry, make sure not to tell anyone and it'll never happen again
>time passes (not sure how long i was a fuckng kid)
>wake up one day aftr nightmare
>storms too, my *living* nightmare.
>he hasn't done anything for a while
>i get in my parents' bed, mum goes back to sleep.
>i'm still awake, he reaches underneath my pj's and touches my dick, plays with it, asks if ilike it
>i say no, ask if i can go back to my bed
>he takes me to my bed, asks me why im shivering --- ????? what the fuck is he autistic
>the fucker literally stands at my door and stares at me as i go to sleep
>i wake up again
>i feel something and i open my eyes
>he quickly withdraws his hand from under my quilt and leaves the room
>fuck.

i bottled it up for years until he got done on child porn charges (and molesting another child). i can't help but think i could've stopped it if i told the police earlier.

>fuck, dude.

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You're way better off than the people who get abandoned by their molester.

Yeah, I can't deny that. I'm not trying to say my situation is the worst though, obviously most cases are going to be worse than mine.

So she actually had sex with you? Was she nice about it? How many times did it take?

Yes actual sex. For the most part she was nice and caring and encouraging/supportive about it, but that didn't really help much with the consequences of it. She made me feel ok with her but it messed me up towards other women. It took 5 months of trying and she'd have us do it several times for the days around when she was ovulating.

That's a pretty long time. Did things stay quiet and awkward the entire time?

Well she was 35 so go figure why it took as long. It was uncomfortable like that the first few times but once I got used to it, it was more normal between us. It was never like passionate hot love making but it wasn't me being all rigid and scared and her having to move and show me what to do.

What did you both feel like when she finally did get pregnant?

She was incredibly happy and relieved, and weirdly affectionate towards me. I felt, I dunno. She'd already talked a lot with me before about what the situation was, what we were doing and what was going to happen. So I knew it was going to happen. I mostly felt glad for her I guess but I was too young at the time to be able to step back and think "Holy shit I'm going to have a kid and I'm still just a kid." that didn't come until after when she had the baby and I got to see and hold it and stuff. There was a baby there that I made, it was mine, another life. I didn't get the full scope at the time but I knew it was a big deal and felt scared honestly.

Be my gf fembot I'm 19 too

Thats some thirsty boy

How often did she meet with you after she got pregnant? I'm guessing she never tried to get any more sex out of you at least.

Its what we call polish sausage

Like once or twice a month, I'd see her with my mom or some other reason. For the last few weeks though we basically moved in with her in preparation for the delivery and so mom could drive her to the hospital when it happened. There was never any sex again but like I said she was pretty affectionate. Especially at the end when we were living together.

The relationship between your mother and this woman who is her boss is something I can not even begin to imagine.

Like work friends, basically. I still don't know what compelled my mom to suggest me when her boss talked about her man troubles and wanting kids though.

>I still don't know what compelled my mom to suggest me when her boss talked about her man troubles and wanting kids though.
With the way you say the woman acted, it's surprising that she didn't try to explain that part to you.

All I got was that she said how she'd tried with men for years and had no luck but could trust me to do it.

That is to say I think the idea was, according to her, that she'd tried relationships before and they never worked out. So if she only wanted kids at that point then why bother trying for a relationship again which probably wouldn't work and may not even get her a kid, when my mom made me available without needing to bother with looking for a relationship.

That can't really be all there is to it unless she had some weird reason for not using a sperm bank.

I'm sure it's not the only reason that's just what she told me more or less. Maybe because I was immediately available? Maybe she was a pedo? No idea for sure, only what I was told.

If she was so nice and affectionate, why do you think you're mentally scarred? I'm sure it would've been weird to me, but it's been my dream since I was like 13-14 to fuck an older woman. Your situation would've been a gift from God.

I think because being so suddenly and forcefully thrust into my own sexuality which I didn't know or understand before. Also because those first times were scary and uncomfortable to me. I don't think I'm some mentally broken wreck but I do have intimacy issues and I suppose trust.

Of course the situation could have been worse and there's people that had and have it much worse than me. This is just my own situation and problems.

He said it's because his mom was so cold about the whole thing.

That too, maybe if I had some support at the time I wouldn't have ended up with the hang ups. But I was shoved into the situation blind and had to try and understand and cope with it on my own.

Plus the first time was actually traumatic.

I understand, she forcefully took your innocence so that would fuck up anybody. I guess I can't really think about it being bad for me because I grew up around niggers with overtly blatant sexuality. For that reason, I had pretty much zero innocence by around age 10. Can't really be scarred if my innocence is already taken.

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Prepare yourselves, fellas

When I was 6, I first jacked off to a scene in the movie "Monkey Bone" where the lead actor had a dream sequence consisting of him being stuck in the ground and trampled by bikini-clad women. That night, I humped my blanket until it hurt my penis, and had to relieve myself several times, my parents none the wiser of my new desire to fugg. I now am conditioned to where I cannot sleep well if I don't hump my blankie while in bed. It's bad.

Of course, things got worse. At age 8, my parents gave me a computer, but quickly stripped it away after I came across an ad for one of those "Amateur Sluts In Your Area" websites and was caught touching myself to it. My mom lectured me, but it was to no avail, because at age 10 I got the Internet Channel on my Wii and started going to Juggworld, YouPorn, and, of course, Jow Forums.

I took a break from the Internet when I feel into a deep dark depression after 6th grade, which was brought about by my growing porn addiction, finding the 3guys1hammer video, and, surprisingly enough, reading the "Suicide Mouse" creepypasta. I was a wreck, and my parents had no clue at all what do with me. I would supposedly cry at random times during the school day and have my parents come to pick me up, but I barely recollect these incidents, they were so bad.

Fast forward to 9th grade, where I regained happiness, got into a LDR, and my porn addiction is back, now with Futanaria being my website of choice. I was super into ERP, and it got so bad that my mom caught me sexting a girl and, again, lectured me. Oh, if only she knew how bad things would get.

Now, at age 20, I have every fetish, masturbate daily, and have only had sex once with a girl as depraved and fucked up as me.

Porn fucked me. It is the SOLE reason for me being the way I am today. I am a husk of who i am because of tits

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Did you ever masturbate before that? What did she do with you immediately after having sex the first time?

Nope, didn't even know what it was. I later found out but the only way my mom knew I even could nut at all was my sheets from a wet dream which I also had no clue what was up with. The first time, after I was feeling bad about it she sat together with me and talked it over, said it was ok and gave me some support. It didn't really help all that much though because she was the one that did it to me basically.

Did she try to explain things to you before doing it? If she didn't realize that you didn't know, then she kind of made things worse unintentionally.

Well before there was sex she wanted to see for herself if I actually could nut so before any first time she forcefully gave me a handjob. I say force, she didn't give me a choice and I even struggled against it because I was scared but she held onto me and forced it till it was done. I actually cried from that.

When we did get around to sex itself she did try to explain things to me beforehand but that didn't really help compared to actually doing it and feeling/experiencing it.

>BE me 4 years old my sisters played with me a lot
> they put make up on me and treat me like i am girl
> one day we play roleplay of a family me and my other sister where mom and dad and we died i think so we had to go under the bed
> we close to each other
> next thing i remeber we were kissing for some reason i don't remember why other sisters find out both are angry except one
> the one that wasn't angry and the one i kissed started to play with me sexually
> this keeps going for years
> i am pretty sure i had sex both of them especially with the one I kissed
> parents find out the two sisters are forced to leave with other family
> it doesn't end their I remember other family members go after me for sexual desires
>surprisingly they where all females dunno if that is lucky or there is a whole part of my mother family that are pedos or something
> to this day no idea why I keep getting sexually used
>parents isolated me from my sisters because of what they did
the affect of the whole thing really made me a sexually deviant and used to be being used I actually dream about being used by woman or be used by men I am to used to sex bot you think I'll be ok in the future also i don't have ages because as a child I really didn't try to remember people names and age, I do that to this day oh also this whole sexual fiasco didn't end until a few years ago but its done now

>before any first time she forcefully gave me a handjob.
Did she just assume that you knew what she was doing though? Also, did she start out more forceful and change her attitude over time?

I played doctor with my sister. She giggled and told me it tickled when I licked her vag, so I would do this a lot. She had a bush and tits. I was about 7, she was about 12.

We haven't mentioned it since but surprise surprise I'm into incest now.

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>bush and tits
>12
what a freak

The handjob, no she pretty much did it out of the blue and physically overpowered me to force it. The thing is that she seemed surprised after at my reaction to her doing it and seemed really sorry, and said she thought that I knew already. I guess she assumed that fapping was something I did or knew already but she didn't bother to check first. That was the only time she was ever forceful with anything, however the way she and mom pressured me I also didn't feel like I could refuse. Plus how she treated me that first time I felt like she could force it if I refused. She at least made an effort to explain and make sure I understood the sex (in theory) before she had us do it though.

It sounds like that one thing is the keystone of the whole trauma. If she didn't force you there, could you have seen yourself going along with everything much more willingly? And the times you had sex, did she always have you just lay down while she did everything?

>I think I remember jacking off the first time, though it was when I was 14 and to pony porn.
kek please be larp

i remember trying to look for that shit couldn't find it
but now I see it occasionally

god he made ou a faggot. it is completely true all of you are raped degenerates

my first jack was in 5th grade, it was to no porn
then i found porn
my fetishes have only got worse and now i cant get it up to normal women any more, only really extreme fetishes or furry/pony porn and hentai

Might be the case. I'm sure with enough patience, care and time she could have eased me into it to be ok and doing it all willingly. The thing is though it wasn't I was not emotionally ready but I wasn't even in the mindset of thinking about or being into girls, they were still icky to me and had cooties. I don't know how she could have caught my mind up with my body. Besides she was on the clock and trying to get a baby asap so patience wasn't her thing.

For the sex, it was almost always missionary but she still did some of the work for that at times. She wasn't fat or anything but just all around bigger than me because at 12 I was pretty small so her riding me didn't really work.

Not into cartoons at all. but it sound weird your 1st fap is already degenerate

;( have you talked to someone in a professional capacity in order to work issues through?

how do you think this has affected you in your life?

how you holding up user?
what that's crazy mate, almost so crazy that i don't believe it but i wouldn't put it beyond humanity to have such characters

the fact that the boss wanted a fooking 12 year old and your mom was okay with it. wtf.

first fap was to regular stuff

do you only have mental illness because of that rape attempt and drug head junkie father? Or have more things happend in your life that caused it? Also I apologize if it sounds mean but why didn't you actually kill yourself? People who attempt suicide 2 times obviously don't REALLY want to die. I get that the past shapes us and our way of thinking but please try not to let it get to you too much if it does (doubt it helps). Why didn't you take more pills for example? Why did you get caught? Why did you slice your wrists and not die? Was your goal not to die from wrist bleeding but to suffer or something?

That just seems like bad luck then. You weren't the right 12 year old for that situation. That mindset at that age in 2010 was probably very rare.

Yeah I wonder how rare. I've talked about this here before and most said how they'd love to be in the same situation.

I said above, I don't know what the real reason for sure the boss did it. But mom was after a promotion I think so that's why she was ok with. Hell she was the one to suggest it and set it up.

men can't be raped, in the ass they can.

in fact because you made this up you never nor will you ever father a child
i'm not going to.

>be me
>be 7-8
>walk home from school with friend
>talk about cuties in our class and women in general
>decide to, no meme, "practice for girls"
>there's a long row of bushes along the path into our neighborhood
>duck into the bushes, take all our clothes off
>assume the bottom position, he puts his penis up my ass
>do this a few more times
>move away

I'm heavily repressed when it comes to sexual relations. I don't even like discussing sex unless there's anonymity, but I live in California, so I'm surrounded by disgusting people whose lives are consumed by it and who will discuss it in detail at any given opportunity.

>I've talked about this here before and most said how they'd love to be in the same situation.
To be honest, I'd want to be in that situation just so I could have a cute daughter for basically no effort.

did it feel good or he didn't hit your prostrate

are you hispanic? you must be, they rarely do that shit in the united states

wait could you give me examples of this bullshit

Mfw there could be 10 year olds among us

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you think they be scared of this happening to them

you don't exist you never did

was 10 when i first went on Jow Forums, now I'm 20, dropped out of high school, haven't left my room for 4 months, mom took all my life savings this year (around 8K but she can't pay it back because she never has any money left and she gives me food and shelter). she's going to take my computer away soon because I'm addicted it and its ruining my life. unless I get out of my room and find a job.

soon stupid bitch. you're the only person left that keeps me from doing it.

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>Be me
>Walking dogs at local park with gf, her parents, and two girls that were adopted by gf's parents.
>Girls age's are 15 and 17
>Gf's parents are lagging behind because they are tired.
>Gf is with them walking the dogs.
>I'm further up the trail with the two girls because they asked me to show them the way.
>I'm a little ahead of the youngest girl.
>I look at the ground when I walk so I couldn't see the tree that had ripped away from the trail and had fell into the river.
>At least a 20 foot drop.
>I stopped dead in my tracks.
>Youngest girl came bounding up full speed towards the cliff, she couldn't see the danger ahead.
>I instinctively reached out with my right arm to stop her from falling in.
>I caught her before she stepped out into the drop.
>We both stood there for a second looking into the damage caused by the downed tree.
>It was only a moment later I realized I had accidentally grabbed her right boob when I reached out to stop her from falling in.
>We stood there for a solid 10 seconds with my hand on her boob staring into the sink hole.
>I tore my hand away and I pointed to a safer alternate path.
>By the time we got moving everyone else caught up.
>Mfw when she didn't say anything about it.
>Mfw nobody saw it happen.
>Mfw the girl and her sister are moving away next week.
>Mfw this poor 15 year old white girl got her boob grabbed for the first time by a 20 year old black guy.
>Mfw it was soft as fuck.

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I'm European by birth.
It didn't feel good.

I was 13 when I came for the time. My sister was 16 and was in my room playing vidya with me. She fell asleep and I noticed how fat her ass was. I started to slowly rub it before slowly pulling down her sweat pants. I then started beating my dick right over. I busted a HUGE fucking nut in my underwear. That was probably the greatest night of my life.

Are you the funny breed of black guy?

Not sure if this counts but

>mom leaves to go on a trip and get stuck with dad for a weekend
>Dad leaves for a while, I just pick up my books to study since my exams were coming up
>he comes back with this girl she's 18 and a senior, I was a junior and 15
>he tells me she'll be staying with us for the weekend didn't mention the reason why just told me to be nice
>I introduce myself to her and ask her if we can study together
>we go over Math and Biology together she gets impressed by how smart I was with both
>she asks me if I like her
>ordinarily I'd say as a friend but something took over me and I said I wanted to be with her
>she gets shocked and asks if I can handle her
>don't know how I did it but I end up making out with her and feeling her tits.
>stop when dad comes in to check on us
>dad shows her the room she'll be staying in
>it was late so I go to sleep in my room, was hard about that encounter
>next day she's eager to see me and we hang around each other for breakfast
>dad leaves to pick us up lunch
>take the moment to make out with her, feel up her back and ass and even take off her pants to show her shaved pussy
>take out dick but she gets nervous since I'm younger than her and she leaves
>be blueballed but somehow get her into more making out
>even got her to rub her tits against my dick
>dad comes back and we eat lunch and she goes away into her room
>I watch TV because I needed a break from all the heat
>she comes back
>asks me how much I want her
>she later drops a condom on my lap and asks me to follow her to the bathroom

1/2

Well to be strictly specific I'm biracial (black/white mix) but what do you mean by "funny" exactly?

I dont know what happened when i was little but once i turned 13 i wanted to hump everything. I could never get a bf bcus i was fat and ugly but also my parents were super religious.
I was unbearably horny until i was old enough to buy a vibrator. I mean, i would wake up from sex dreams creaming my pants. Then i lost weight and guys wanted to have sex with me but i was still dealing with being an ex fatty and was too shy to talk to guys. So i just masturbated a lot. It got out of control. I can masturbate for hours and have. I'm on medicine for it now so it's not so bad but i still fantasize about fucking almost every adult male i see.