I require someone to explain to me why my iq is 150

you're not some unrefined genius, you're just autistic

PSYCHANON COME BACK I NEED YOU MY HEART IS CRUSHING ME AND MY MIND IS POKING ME WITH A CATTLE PROD

Not mutually exclusive, although i agree with the latter half

Also relax i was meme'ing

I wouldn't worry so much about it, when I did an iq test at a psychologist I got like 140 and it still felt like absolutely nothing.
You'd think we'd be some geniuses but I honestly don't know how I'm supposed to put it to good use. I hate using a system like iq because I feel like it puts a limit on myself, even if the limit is high, it's just not how I want to see things.

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That's it i'm a 100 iq brainlet literally ucapable of focusing, keeping focused, concentrating, i feel like i'm about to cry, i got kicked out of school, i'm being sent to a rehab center against my will why is this this way what gives them the right to say to my face if i don't think friends are important they'll "make me know" i hate this

But what if i get fucking 100? Based on the way i've been artificially blowing steam up my parasitic ego's rectum i'd have a right proper way of feeling like less than nothing

why did you leave? Why does everyone leave or never really were there? Bump people come back please

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I see.

So you have been officially been diagnosed with asperger but not depression? Where you already showing symptoms of depression like extremely low mood, ruminations (intrusive repetitive negative thoughts), suicidal thoughts etc. when you were diagnosed with asperger?

What information withheld from you are you talking about?

What is your life situation at the moment? Going to school? In look for a job?

Why are you being sent to rehab?

Honestly you don't have a 150iq if you can't figure out how to fix your own life. I was in deep depressive routes and was barely functional by normal social standards but still new what my problems were and how to fix them - I was just too afraid to do that for the longest time.

Life is a series of patterns, and if you're smart you'll see them and use it to your advantage.

>So you have been officially been diagnosed with asperger but not depression?
Yes, but i may have been diagnosed with depression, who knows. I only found out about aspergers years later from my mom, granted i was a kid, but still

>extremely low mood, ruminations (intrusive repetitive negative thoughts), suicidal thoughts
Mood swings, so fucking many mood swings man. I'm partly dissasociative (as an adjective) Suicidal thoughts were more akin to ponderings or what if - scenarios. Truth is, i'm too much of a pussy to go through with them

>What information withheld from you are you talking about?
They never tell me anything. "Hey take this test" Ok i did the test, what's it for "Oh just, yknow, normal stuff" Later: UNFIT FOR LIFE, GET OUT (this is from my lens, likely non representative of reality in any way)

>What is your life situation at the moment? Going to school? In look for a job?
Still school, gotta do school. And you know the craziest part about all this? I somehow, on some level, still believe in a singer being a valid choice. I wouldn't say i'm too bad looking, elliot rodger but long hair and normal human lips. Also better eyes. He had ugly eyes. And i guess a good voice, but virtually untrained except for weekly 30 min lessons

It's the socialist utopia of finland, i don't need to know the reason

And even now i'm lying to you to garner self pity for myself. Even this introspection i did purely for attention.

If you IQ is reaky 150 u wil underwsrand dsi meesagE!

HIT DEm FOLKS AYEYHE WHIPPIN DABIN AYYE YETIN HIT DEM FOLKS AND QUAN YUH AYE HI DEM FOOC

I do see them, i really do. I see perfectly how things lead into another. Or that's what i like to tell myself. It's that i have no motivation, whatsoever, for whatsoever, including fixing my life. Why should i? It's dealt me a shit hand. It's gave me a beating when i tried to reason with it. It laughed at me when i gave up. And trust me, oh trust me i know how edgy this sounds: if society doesn't care for me - and honestly why should they care about some deadbeat kid, contributing nothing? Why should i care for it's rules or expectations? *their* rules and expectations. The good people that turned a blind eye solemnly believing they were in the right, while refusing to witness their great "achievments"

Pretty much this, OP. Do this and you'll be fine.
You sound like me, OP. You're scaring me.

user this is lewd

don't encourage him

Just give up, develop a fake waifu, and see how far you can be a NEET. You don't need society. Stick with distractions until you drop. It's not like anything is really fulfilling, at least, nothing society will give you will be fulfilling. The people who are deemed more important for any reason will always get more.

And i'll just ignore my little breakdown i had on the fucking internet, learn nothing, repress my emotions like the fucking subhuman i am and go back to my regular sick life. Fuck this

hit ,tehm fokls.

Calm down, tard. This is why no one understands you. You go on a tirade without listening and we cannot have any meaningful conversations.

Now you're gettin' it!
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davin yetin lol

But i have artistic needs my nigga, i need to write a world, if not a book. I need to make a videogame. I need to paint - yet i can't draw for shit. I need to write poetry - yet i hate reading, and the 'poetry' i shit out is unworthy of even rap, much less singing. Fuck. My dad is your stereotypical intelligent loner, he was good looking, so i'm hopefully too, i have the perfect genetics. The absolute perfect starter pack to life. Yet i'm too much of a failure to actually do anything with it

I can sorta sympathize with you in a way, I got some diagnoses when I was little (autism and shit) but was never told till later. Also dealing with a lot of depression.

That's right, fuck society, but you have a right to exist as much as anything else. Don't give up, fight some more, no matter how shit your deck is you only get one shot at this so don't fuck it up and rise above the system.

Just because you want to do shit doesn't mean you'll do shit. Haven't you ever sat in bed for hours wanting to get up before, but failing to? Motivation is something you just don't have. Deal with it.

I can, i can, i really can, but i can't focus for shit, and most importantly forget every single thing in an instant. And i'm not here to have a conversation I'm here to vent. If you want a conversation, now's a bad time, i've asked you people to talk to me only to list off my problems "i just think it's funny how" like an instagram whore.

But alright i'll try to calm down. Sorry for that. I'll... try to keep to the point. What were you saying?

>That's right, fuck society, but you have a right to exist as much as anything else. Don't give up, fight some more, no matter how shit your deck is you only get one shot at this so don't fuck it up and rise above the system.

Imagine the chaos i can cause if my little dream of a rock star pans out. Well, it's worth a shot. I guess i'll include you guys in a mental screencap should that happen.
Don't know how. But i suppose i'll try not to give up.

>Motivation is something you just don't have. Deal with it.

I don't have motivation, yes. But then again the problem isn't that it's that if i lack motivation i am physically incapable of thinking, if i'm bored i'm equaling a vegetable

at this point you're just a public spectacle but here's hoping someone takes pity and chooses to tolerate the rube goldberg machine of ego barriers you put up in favor of helping you internalize at least one important truth about life

MY NIGGGGAAAAAAAAAAA

Do you feel a strong need to always show to other people that you are intelligent (serious questions)?

Could you consider parts of your past as lightly "traumatic" (not in the real PTSD sense, just things in the past that you think strongly contributed in finding yourself in this predicament). Maybe in relation to your family making you go through tests, not telling you what they are about. You talked about mistreated for all your childhood. You mean by peers of your own family (or both)?
I would consider the experiences you talk about "traumatic", but what do you think of this?

If you agree, I suggest you go to a therapist that does EMDR (Eye movement desensitization and reprocessing), it's a CBT (cognitive behavioral therapy) technique.
Since you live in finland, it shouldn't be too expensive.

I think it might be very useful experience for you, look it up (maybe read on it beforehand).

That made me lel. I didn't understand a single word you said but that's okay. It's funny because you're right. On the other hand, when did r9k deteriorate to the point *this* is considered a public spectacle?

nneeeeeega

I had 148, but I guess from smoking weed and bashing my head against the wall it will have signiflicantly dropped.
At least I feel much better now than earlier in my live.

>Do you feel a strong need to always show to other people that you are intelligent (serious questions)?

I suppose you'd have to elaborate on this, i'm horrible at open ended anything, there's too many possible things you could mean and i don't want to list off every single one without even knowing if any of them are correct

>Could you consider parts of your past as lightly "traumatic"

I'd say so. 1st through 5th grade i was constantly either beat up by classmates for being "weird" or punished by teachers for fighting back. This was of course routine for the cunts, so they never thought about moving class. I don't think they really cared. And my mom didn't care to ask them. The only friends i had would beat me up, just more rarely than the rest. Look at me ramble. At this point i don't know if i point this out for attention, self pity or self hatred

Become a rockstar user, if that's what you wish then that's what you should do. Remember whenever you're dealing with any problem, no matter how ridiculous, there a billions of fucking solutions out there you just haven't seen them yet.

Right now I'm talking you up to motativate myself to do the impossible again. It's very important to me to keep believing that there is such a thing as hope and will defend that anytime I can as best as possible. Then and only then may I consider myself worthy of significance.

>Remember whenever you're dealing with any problem, no matter how ridiculous, there a billions of fucking solutions out there you just haven't seen them yet.
This honestly helped within aninstant a great deal.

As i said, i like singing, my teacher said for a beginner i'm very good, and after all nobody likes a normal joe celeb.

>Right now I'm talking you up to motativate myself to do the impossible again. It's very important to me to keep believing that there is such a thing as hope and will defend that anytime I can as best as possible. Then and only then may I consider myself worthy of significance.

Can you tell me? I realize i don't seem like it but i'm a semi passable motivator

The reason I mentioned EMDR is because your case reminds me of mine and others that I know of, and EMDR sessions were extremely useful. Now I'm doing much better.

>I suppose you'd have to elaborate on this, i'm horrible at open ended anything, there's too many possible things you could mean and i don't want to list off every single one without even knowing if any of them are correct
I just mean if you feel like everytime you speak to other people you have in some way signal that you are intelligent, like using a sophisticated vocabulary, or mentioning something that will make others think of you as a smart person.
Don't know if it's more clear now.
It's not too relevant so don't worry about it, I just thought I picked it up reading some of your posts.

>I'd say so. 1st through 5th grade i was constantly either beat up by classmates for being "weird" or punished by teachers for fighting back. This was of course routine for the cunts, so they never thought about moving class. I don't think they really cared. And my mom didn't care to ask them. The only friends i had would beat me up, just more rarely than the rest.
Yes definitely sounds like something I would call trauma.

>Look at me ramble. At this point i don't know if i point this out for attention, self pity or self hatred.
That's it. That's what a psychologist during a session would look for. These kinds of extremely negative self-focused judgments.
You are not rambling, and you don't seem to be doing anything "for attention" (at least not in the way you mean it).
These are pretty big events you are talking about here and keeping them to yourself is not good. It's only natural that you feel the need to talk about them with somebody else.
Have you already talked to a psychologist/psychiatrist in detail about these experiences?
I repeat, look into EMDR, it might be the first step for a better future.

What I would do is pursue the singer dream as a side thing, mainly focusing on school/standard career.
If singer doesn't work as a career you can always keep as a hobby that you value.

Just don't go all "go big or go home" is what I'm saying.

>The reason I mentioned EMDR is because your case reminds me of mine and others that I know of, and EMDR sessions were extremely useful. Now I'm doing much better.
I don't know, i do have a psychiatrist/psychotherapist/whatever, i might suggest that but idk.

>I just mean if you feel like everytime you speak to other people you have in some way signal that you are intelligent, like using a sophisticated vocabulary, or mentioning something that will make others think of you as a smart person.
Depends, not always, but sometimes, in a sense, but at least i'd like to think it's largely subconscious. Although i feel it's not only the need of approval from others but from myself too.

>Have you already talked to a psychologist/psychiatrist in detail about these experiences?
Nope, and i don't intend to unless i let my guard slip and lament like a little bitch to a psychiatrist, who'll subsequently rat me out to the feds, whatever that entails, and most importantly my mom who'll eternally pity me and deliver the "i understand you problems and will attempt to help" in a clinical, artificial way, clearly researched from the internet. Hell, not like i don't do that either. I don't want to be forced to live with someone with that amount of... her not knowing me anymore, potentially. Or the age always thinking about my issues when seeing me

>Just don't go all "go big or go home" is what I'm saying.
Fuck

Ok, uh, i suppose i've always liked.... no that can't be it. Well, i'm pre-emptively fucked. What can i say everything else is boring, and the only reason music isn't, is because i think it's in a way a novelty with near infinite variations. Hm, idk i'll try to think of something.

Stop seeing yourself as just a statistic for one, which includes things like IQ. You can do the stuff you want to do, there is always a way to, it might be just damn hard to figure out.
You won't find a lot of like minded people here, most people here have already given up on doing anything with their life and are staying stagnant. Fuck that. Do not be satisfied with mediocrity.
Probably weak coming from me considering how much I fucking hate my own situation, but I believe as long as I keep my head above water, eventually I'll find a way to beat it. That's what keeps me going, if I didn't have that mindset I'd already have killed myself, probably.

>it might be just damn hard to figure out.
The whole intelligence thing is a minefield of fuckery. There's so many factors pointing to me being more intelligent than average, and there are hella lot of factors pointing to me being an idiot. Am i smart because i lied to myself enough times to believe it? Am i just an average because i so desperately don't want to be one? Or am i really a 400 iq superhuman which nobody else in the whole world just *understands* and is *misunderstood* and boo hoo

>Do not be satisfied with mediocrity.
Don't worry, i'm not. At least in theory.

>You won't find a lot of like minded people here
While true it's a better alternative than plebshit

> I believe as long as I keep my head above water, eventually I'll find a way to beat it.
The reason i don't is because i've been consistently proven wrong, treated like a barely literate idiot by most people who held any authority over me ever, and now all of a sudden it's a "hey bud you're on your own" kind of deal

But i mean good luck with whatever you're doing or trying to do man

Point is, it doesn't matter if you're above or bellow intelligence, given enough time and effort you can do whatever you want. Don't see it as a limit to what you can do.

Trust me man this entire year as been a big "fuck you" to me. I've gone into total fucking hysteria a few times. Bad news after bad news, it just keeps coming. No idea what you're going through but I'm sure if you think things through you can find at least a tiny bit of hope.

And thanks a lot man.

pretty straightforward tabafamalam

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I don't care about iq limiting me or things like that, what i care about is being objectively weaker than other people, and there being nothing i can do about it. And the dreaded worst being relating to the "i like my friend but he's pretty dumb tho lol" posts on wherever

>if you think things through
Found one of the many first issues

But for whatever this generic comment is worth, it's a statistical miracle if everything possible goes wrong, so i suppose in a way you can consider yourself lucky either way

i'll stop with my midnight pseudo intellectualism and go to bed tho, night to you and to the thread. OP the Faggot out

it's been a nice ride, i haven't been any help but i appreciate you and hope everything will be ok