Hey Jow Forums just a femanon wanting to help out some

tfw just want a needy gf to message me all the time to complement my own neediness

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but buy, not but but! Sorry.
Mmmh...I know it's hard, but I think self-improvement is a very important part of life! If you think your neediness is unattractive and not something people like, work on being less needy! Nobody's expecting you to go from 100 to 0 in a day, a month, or even a year! Small steps are all it takes. As long as you're making an effort, people can see and appreciate that!
In terms of meeting girls,
That one's a little more tricky. You gotta put yourself out there some! Try and befriend them first, don't just leap into "please date me". The best relationships bloom out of friendships!

I'm alright, just posting to say this is a nice thread.

>Tfw sipping on some beer beer and trying to figure out which .22lr rifle i want to buy

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Yeah, I can get comfy sometimes listening to Lofi hiphop and browsing the right threads, but in the end it always leaves me feeling lonely

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My only friends recently quit talking to me. They've been my only friends for 5 years now and idk what to do without them. That and regular loneliness and sadness from the everyday stress of life. Also tfw no gf to love

I have an extreme inner hatred for women to the point I want to kill them. I can act really normie IRL and am even good at being nice to women, i'm not a virgin incel I just fucking hate women because iv'e had bad experiences and even if one cares about me I can't believe or accept it emotionally.

The two girls I told I was lonely I only told because I figured I could trust them, it wasn't given back. One ghosted me and the other blocked me over a stupid meme joke.

I don't even care anymore, i'm really good at hiding the fact I hate women and I actually like it now the way they treat me because when I flip out and murder a woman one day i'll feel less remorse and empathy.

All I want is sex, I no longer care how women feel because they do not care how I feel I went to some 3/10's house the other day and felt frustrated because despite her profile basically saying she was a fucking whore she made me sit and talk boring shit with her for 3 hours so I just got up finally and left saying I was bored.

I'm a neet and I try my best to exercise and shit but I know it will never be enough because all women care about is social status and the one person I loved I fucked it up horribly and I will never ever find a person like that ever again. I don't even want to die, I just want to cause mass destruction and pain and i'm just biding my time, bottling up my anger, ect, it's not as if I don't tell people about my problems either but it doesn't matter.

All women care about is social status I could love a NEET girl but it's not the other way around. I keep all my insults and hatred to myself, giving them all fake smiles and trying my hardest to compartmentalize my feelings about my seethinh hatred for them.

I want to destroy everything I don't care how edgy it sounds. I want power and wealth so finally someone will love me and give a shit about me.

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Sounds nice~ I got a .22 mossberg plinkster 802 for my first gun, and I love it to bits~
I'd post a pic, but the filesize is too big..
Aww, lofi hiphop is really good!
Mmh, I can understand that. You need to find someone there with ya, and do things with them..Try and set up an environment that would be comfy for two people. It'd have to be a little more general, cause I'm sure you won't both like exactly the same things, but it's important both of you are happy. Find some comfy activities, too! Doesn't have to be together, but you should be in the same room. Not something like reading, where you're super engaged, but maybe sewing for one of you? A quiet, homey activity that doesn't take all their attention away.
I'm sorry to hear, I know how rough it can be when those close to you move on...Still, the important thing is that you have to move on too. You've gone your separate ways, nothing's going to change that. So, try and pick yourself up if you can, and meet some new people! Find someone interesting, talk to them about new things you never got the chance to with the old people! A good friend on Discord on your phone in your pocket can work wonders for loneliness.

Not them, but I've discarded mine a long time ago and it's been easier to accept and deal with all of the negatives in life by doing so.

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But like i said they were my only friends so i have noone to talk to

Yes im asking for girl advice on Jow Forums. Am desperate lel.

Girl I like is always hitting me and stuff but it's clear she doesn't intend to hurt me.
Tell her i like her
Says she will never like me
Small ( and incredibly cute) smile and she's blushen'
Still hits me and still says she doesn't like me

Im dunno what to do anymore. Still love her to pieces and want us to be together but she keeps shutting me down.

Girls are weird man.

I understand these things are never easy, but...
You need to meet someone who breaks through the barriers you're setting up. You've built up such a wall around yourself..You need someone genuine to break through it all. Part of that comes from you, too. You have to let them in. Be honest. Maybe not about your extreme hatred and anger, but if you're bored in a conversation, let them know before you meet up with them! Find someone you enjoy talking to. You WILL find someone else to love, I promise. But you can't go into all these encounters with the expectation of them being a horrible, vapid bitch. Give them a chance to show who they are, give them a chance to get in. You might have to be paitent a little, which can be hard, but it's needed.
That's too sad...You have to have hope in life, user. Something is coming. Things will get better.
I'm sorry, user...I'll talk to you!! I plan on doing these threads maybe once or twice a week, um...I dunno, I guess if everyone wanted I could set up a discord...

Thanks for the advice user, chilling with Lofi right now, hope I find somebody one day

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Maybe I watch too much anime, but,
Does she seem to like you? Honestly, do you think she does? Despite her hitting you and telling you she never would?

You can set up a public discord if you want but mine is asriel the god#0941 if you wanna msg me

Of course. Feel free to stop by any time, I'll be here at least once a week, with Madoka in the OP~
I'll leave you with a lofi song I've been listening to lately.
youtube.com/watch?v=XDpoBc8t6gE

W-We'll see if people want that..
Sent!

>Already have an AR, nugget, and problem solver
>Ammo isn't cheap, so can't go shooting often
>22 is cheap as all fuck
>Can probably get away with shooting it in my back yard
>Not sure if i should buy a ruger 10/22 on sale or go around to local pawn shops and find something cheaper
>Mfw the anticipation

That sounds pretty tsundere to me.
Maybe try to pry a little bit further?

Re initiate contact, maybe try to go out and do something with them.
Learning to cope with solitude isn't a bad idea either. Personally, i embrace it and prefer it.

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Yeah, i think i have a shot with her. We talk all the time and she likes hanging out.
Maybe im just wearing rose-tinted glasses though. Who knows?
( most likely cause for not loving me: just wanting to be friends. )

>Nugget
Gosh I'm so jealous
I got my .22 boltie, a 9mm handgun, and an AR
Honestly I like the 10/22. I'd definitely get one if you're looking for a semi!

Mmh, it's possible. Have you broken the touch barrier? I'm not saying try to hold her hand, but maybe touch her on the shoulder or something if it feels natural, that kind of thing.
But, yeah, she could just be being tsundere, like the other poster said. She's shy and embarassed about her feelings, so you'd definitely need to take the initiative.

The thing I am worried about most is that even if I get into a relationship again my ugly side will eventually show, iv'e had a history of violence not just from myself but from other people to.

It's hard for me to trust anyone and I often compare women to my ex. And I absolutely refuse to date anyone with mental disorders because i'm afraid if they make me angry i'm going to hurt them. I don't expect empathy, mercy, or understanding. I know that even in today's society depression is a lot more acceptable and understanding that anger and homocidal thoughts. In October I had 5 cops come to my house because I started making threats to go on a mass shooting and kill myself.

I don't tell anyone this. I have a few friends that know and they understand but because I live alone I feel extremely isolated and even when I do meet someone I trust I just feel like the woman would eventually want me to "improve" I don't think I want to sit there explaining to her why I don't want to work ect, because of people and all that. I like having my freedom.

But like anyone I still desire love and companionship but I see myself as a monster and I know one day i'm gonna lose it and end up on the news. My dad was extremely verbally and physically abusive and my mom was really neglectful and not interested in my life all that much. I take my anger out on her and i'm aware that the reason why I probably hate women are for two reasons:

1. I'm autistic as fuck, i'm not even that awkward or quiet but I always say something that scares people off no matter how normal I try to act.

2. I have a compulsive shopping addiction and maybe if I had a partner who loved me I could try and resist the urge to buy things, and I did that in the past when I had a significant other and even then it was hard.

The way I see it there's just too many people with too many needs and I keep going through a cycle of extreme rage and murderous thoughts and then feel bad about it afterward. I only eve

Alright i'll try, but i'll probably just screw it up lol.
Thanks for the help!

r feel true remorse/sadness when i'm high off weed. Even women who have accepted me I just know they'll pressure me to get a job and won't understand why. I might work if I could get into it slowly. I absolutely hate being around people and value my privacy a lot.

So I feel deep down i'll never be accepted, my 2nd ex would just abandon me for months and promise to talk and then wouldn't and the last time we talked she felt bad and needed me to talk to her so I did for like 3 fucking hours, she promised we'd talk next week and fucking didn't.

Sometimes I am so angry I can sit there stone faced, just have it seething in me and I feel so edgy and dark inside but I can't tell anyone because it will just scare normies and 4channers will just laugh at me. There's not a lot of people who have anger it's always depression so they can never understand, they don't get why iv'e gone down such a spiral and have become obsessed with status and power because all I want is attention and nobody ever gives it to me I feel like.

I just want someone to notice me, I just fucking wish I had money!!

I feel guilty and bad when I start crying and even when i'm indoors by myself I try to hold it in. Sometimes I have to coddle myself and tell myself it's ok and everything is going to be alright.

I've started on male pattern baldness and I have no idea how to style my hair now that my hairline is further up. The fuck do I do?

hey femanon can you encourage me to lift thanks

>You have to have hope in life, user. Something is coming. Things will get better.
I've been told this my entire life. When is it supposed to happen? I'm almost 30 and nothings happened yet.

The important thing is the be honest. Don't unload all at once, but don't keep that from them. A history of violence is a prickly thing, and I won't lie, it will drive some people away, but...Lying about it is no good. You feel isolated because you have these barriers, like I said. The truth can break those down. You do need to improve on yourself. If you can't handle working etc yet, that's fine, but work on improving yourself, just a little bit at a time. Small steps are all it takes. Have you considered professional help? It might be a little rude of me to say, but I honestly think you sitting down and talking these things out would be helpful. Obviously, I'm going to be here, but there's only so much I can do...
Mmh, I have a dear friend who does #1 as well. I've known him for quite some time, he's driven off a few mutual friends, but I'm not going to give up. Like with you, he's making small improvements. As long as I see that, I'm not going anywhere.
Shopping...I can understand that. Not to self-destructive levels, but I can sympathise. You can let yourself shop a little, don't try to quit cold turkey, but don't go overboard, alright?

Get into it slowly, then! Find a part time job, maybe just a six hour shift one day a week, and slowly ramp it up when you feel ready. Try to find something like nighttime security, where there's not a lot of other people?

I'm sorry, she sounds like a bad person, you deserve better. Hey, I'll be here to talk! Once or twice a week, or maybe on Discord??? Try and step away from status and power, focus on personality. Like I keep saying, take small steps to improve yourself first, then look outward. Make sure you're someone who you could see people loving before you look for a gf. I know that's a bit of a tall order...

Good luck, user!! Let me know how it goes in the next thread!

Honestly, I'd say either own it and shave your head, or wear hats! Not, like, fedoras, but some guys look really cute with baseball caps.

Go for it user, I believe in you! Six-packs are super cute~

Well...You need to put some things out, you can't just sit back. You need to look for opportunities, too. It's a golden chance where you need to be looking when it comes by.

It's not shave-your-head level receded, it's widows peak level receded. I've heard of the "Shave it and own it" meme but I'm not there yet.

Hmm...Widows peaks can be fine on their own, honestly. Not much you need to do with those.

>You need to put some things out, you can't just sit back.
But I don't know how to socialize with people. Most of the time I don't even like it.

Well, is it people you want to meet? Or do you want something else out of life?

It's very hard for me to not want power and status, ever since I was a little kid I was always doing dumb shit for attention and I can make people laugh and shit and I have always had a morbid sense of curiosity and that probably scares people away to.

I feel like everyone is my enemy, I wish I could kill people I know because I feel like people gossip and talk to much and I realize that's going to make people isolate from me further, like my dad I want to control other people. I just want control, I want power and money so people will finally notice me and someone will care about me.

I am seeing a counsellor, I have a couple good internet friends and iv'e tried dating/meeting people, it usually doesn't turn out well. I can literally talk about anything even child molestation because shit like that doesn't bother me because I can compartmentalize my emotions and i'm very logical(not smart, I just mean logical)

And iv'e been so pathetic taking back my 2nd ex all the time because it's very hard for me to feel like I can connect with other people. But whenever I feel that pain there's a masochistic part of me that wants it, I constantly have power fantasies and want people to fight me.

Iv'e had two medical conditions since I was 11, chrons disease and type 1 diabetes and the chrons has nearly killed my twice. My one IRL friend never wants to hang out with me and the other has basically turned into a fucking depressed incel that shits on me despite when I try to help him, I cleaned his shitty toilet, I cleaned his cat's shit, I cooked for him, cleaned his house, I even gave him weights to motivate him but all he fucking wants to do is be depressed and live like shit and play facebook games all day. My best friend moved away a few years ago.

I wasn't always like this. I mean I still stayed inside a lot playing games mainly to avoid my parents but back as a teenager I always had friends to hang out with and see. I have one friend but he lives too far and

I don't know what I want anymore.
I used to fantasize about have a gf that I could spend time with, but I feel to old and experienced now. I tell myself who would want someone like me.
I feel very jaded, cynical and alone.
I tend to project my feelings onto everyone around me.
I'm very insecure.
Not very motivated and completely overcome with apathy.

Originally fuck off roasty

Power and money isn't a good way to make meaningful relationships. They won't like you for who you are then, they'll like you for those two things. Compartmentalization isn't healthy..I know you've probably heard that before, but it's the truth. Try and work on lowering those barriers, if you can. You should never go back to her, there's a reason she's your ex. If you're not happy together, don't drag it out and leave yourself unable to move on.
Don't do that stuff for your friend if he's not going to appreciate it, really. Don't spend the effort. It sounds selfish, but you need to use that energy caring for yourself, that kind of thing.
Cynicism, that sort of thing...That's fine, to a point. Some people like it, find it romantic. I don't know anyone who isn't insecure. I know I keep saying it, but work on your anger, first. Try to get it to the point you can have a real conversation with a female. I mean, hey! We're talking now, so that's a step in the right direction! Just keep heading in that positive direction, and things'll get better

he's not the 4channer type and I always feel like that part of me is always going to seep out. Iv'e been kicked out of a lot of places both online and IRL and this isn't me trying to sound edgy but it's because I hate being told what to do, I hate authority and a lot of it probably stems from the powerlessness I felt around my dad abusing me. We've talked a lot of it out and were on better terms now but I still remember some of the things he said and did.

I don't expect any empathy or mercy and I feel like one day i'm either going to shoot myself in the fucking head or kill a bunch of people and then myself. I try to funnel out my anger in "healthier" ways by targeting what I deem as "bad" people.

I have fantasies about being a vigilante like in Hotline Miami and killing assholes because I feel like I have no purpose and I can't tell anyone that because I know i'll just be laughed at, they don't understand and I don't expect them to..

It's not funny, it's not funny to me and I realize it's just because I feel powerless but in the end I just see it as the universe unfolding as it should.

I can be a really caring, compassionate, and kind person, but as time has gone on and life has basically just beat the fuck out of me it's turning me into a bad person.

All I want to do is to be honest with my dark thoughts and have someone accept me with open arms and that has happened but I want it to be someone who loves me and I can love them to, and who knows maybe i'll even try and get a job like I did with my ex.

And I realize nobody is gonna give a shit until I write some 200 page manifesto before I shoot myself or someone else. Nobody gives a shit and i'm not saying i'm gonna do it now, or even tomorrow, or even a year from now but in due time I know what will happen, nobody can save me and even if they offered salvation I wouldn't take it because i'd just feel weak.

I literally talk to myself because I am the only person I ever feel comfortable around with the exception of my best friend. There's some things I would never tell another person.

I don't like putting barriers down because i'm afraid if they find out too much they'll talk and it will make me want to kill them. Most people I just see as gossiping little bitches and would probably take everything I just said here as a joke/funny/edgy.

They don't understand I don't like feeling this way. And the people I have the most empathy for are schooler shooters and stuff like that because all I wish I could do is tell them it's ok, hug them, listen, whatever they need,I just want to say I know how it feels to feel like that and that they don't need to feel that way and that it's ok.

Only someone as deranged as yourself will get that..

I just tell myself "It's ok, it's....alright." and feel a warm sinking feeling fill my chest. I try to hold back my emotions even internally. I only feel good when I can gain power over someone now. I just want control.

I also have diagnosed autism and my dad made me feel shit about having it even refering it as a "disease" I try not to think about that because I become really sad because I realize even when I can control my sperginess normies won't like certain aspects about me.

I don't even want to die, I just wish I never existed, I wish I was a normal person, I wish I was in a car crash and got brain damage and I woke up as a different person.

There is this girl that I like and I'm planning on asking her out. I had classes with her during winter quarter at my uni and we still text each other. What is the best way to ask her to be my girlfriend? Also should I ask her to be my gf on our first date?

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I started seeing women as sexual objects instead of relationships even though I desire a relationship more than sex. But I just pretend i'm more perverted and horny than I actually am because I feel like any sort of emotion i'd ever give to a woman would just come off as creepy or be rejected. Even with my ex's I was never super horny and they were hornier than me. I don't even like sending pictures of my dick.

I just want someone who won't be afraid of me and will tell me it's alright, but that's not reality, so I tell myself at least the one thing that can become a reality, the one thing I can be sure of I can get is the destruction I can cause, in a weird way it's the only sort of "belonging" I feel. I'd probably do well in a gang honestly..

Even if he's not the 4channer type, you should still -I know you're gonna hate to hear this- be yourself. If you have to have these barriers and be constantly worried that you're going to "seep out" as you put it, you can never really relax around him, right? That's good, but instead of "good" as in choosing your targets, go for "good" as in...I don't know, something creative! Try writing, try painting, try drawing...Even if you think you're no good, the important thing is using it as an outlet for your anger! Focus on your compassionate side, try to build it back up and make it your main side. It'll take a lot of time, but you need to start working on it.
Hey, you've been honest with me, I'm accepting you. It's a start, right? I know it can be hard, but if there's anything you want to tell me "you'd nbever tell another person", I'll listen. Putting down barriers IS hard. bu it's something you have to do. If they leave, they're not worth your time or anger either way, just forget about them. Let it all out to yourself at least, you have to stop bottling it up. Let it out. Cry if you need to, god knows I do when I need to. It helps, it's a release.

Start casual, IMO. Don't make it a big thing, just text her something like "Hey, I've thought you're cute for a while now, wanna grab a coffee?" Don't ask her "do you wanna be my gf", like, ever really. Just keep asking her casually. At the end of coffee, "This was a lot of fun, can we do this again sometime?" and go from there. Not specifically coffee again, but maybe ask her if she wants to see a movie, or if there's anything she'd prefer?

That's not good, obviously. Well, start with me. I'm willing to be your friend and show you all women aren't just here as objects/sex things. I'm not afraid of you, it's alright. Start small.

Why are you roleplaying as a girl? Do you get off to this, you dumb fuck? Quit messing with virgins and fuck off.

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How do i keep existing? The realization of me forever being a lonely hypocritical piece of shit is closing in and im trying to fill it with violent porn, gore threads, and vidya but i keep thinking about necking myself.

Comfy gif in return for solid advice

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I mean he's not really doing any harm.

Got it! So basically, if I keep asking her out on dates we'll eventually have an unspoken relationship?

He's giving kids false hope.

Quads of truth. BTFO'd.

Comfy gif indeed~

Don't fill it with horrible angry things like that, look to the softer side. Comfy things like that, the feeling of rain on a cold day while you're relaxing inside...Go comfort, don't go edge. Find something you want to live for. It doesn't have to be a lot, for a long time I was just living to go to a game shop on Saturdays. Find one small thing, and go for that.

>checked
I'm trying to do the opposite of harm~
Besides, it's not roleplaying, but it doesn't really matter either way

How do I change?

I've been trying to become a better person for about a month now, but I've only taken small steps, as I'm unsure how to even start taking the larger leaps.

Any thoughts?

*she also i'm My father was verbally and physically abusive to my mom and my brothers mom, my mom was 16 and my dad was 35 when I was born and I have an aunt that's younger than me, an uncle my age, a drug addicted grandmother younger than my dad and I just feel so fucked I feel like some sort of abomination that should be killed.

At the same time I am very hyper vigilant I live in the hood right now and keep baseball bats under my bed. I am a very scared person and often in confrontations i'm actually very docile/quiet but I can go from 1 to a 100 very quickly and get aggressive even if it's just in my speech I constantly fantasize and roleplay screaming,biting, and killing other people.

I know it's fucked up, I know it's wrong, but I can't help it. Iv'e had homocidal tendancies since I was 9 years old and iv'e done all the self reflecting that needs to be done. I get offended easily when people don't want to read my big chunks of text. I like it when people talk a lot and it feels more and more rare people appreciate that sort of thing.

I wouldn't even care if my girlfriend was fat because iv'e had both an attractive and "ugly" girlfriend, it's what's in their mind that matters.

I am very judgemental towards myself and others and often feel like even if I opened up people wouldn't accept me anyway so I tell myself "at least i'll have myself..at least I understand." I have friends like I said that care and understand but they live so far away..

I hate being around people but i'm so alone all the time it feels like a prison. I try to lift a bit, go on bike rides, ect, but at the end of the day i'm still doing everything alone and I just wanna meet someone who's open minded, isn't afraid, and will just love me for who I am.

I know a lot of people say this to themselves but I always feels like it won't ever happen and it's so rare when I do meet someone I like/can feel comfortable around.

Most men (I'm male) don't like sending pictures of their dick. It's (1) effort (2) stupid (3) requires trust in to whomever you send it.
I know, some dudes are exhibitionists or just get off on making others uncomfortable. But it's not as common as girls seem to think (maybe because the exhibitionists send their cocks to all the girls).

I like a girl, but we haven't talked much and I'm not confidant enough to message her and tell her I wanna talk a lot. wat do

Um... Catholicism? Srsly, confession helps.

Small steps are the key, honestly. Don't worry about starting to take larger ones, just focus on the small ones. Don't think "I need to take large ones now", just try to speed up the small ones if you can!

Well, I'm always reading em~

You need to put yourself out there, honestly. It's really scary, but try to say hi to people at game shops or wherever you go to have fun. Chitchat, try and make some friends. And be honest with them. In general, don't unload all at once. It's good you don't look for outer beauty, that's a very good trait to have.

start small! Message her and chitchat, and gradually ramp up the frequency. Don't outright say "we should take more", just make it happen.

Want to practice anywhere, safely + cheaply?

Buy a Weihrauch HW45 or Beeman P1 German spring air pistol.

I've put 2,000 .177 rounds through mine in just the last month, tagging a tiny tomato sauce can hung on a string @ 20 yds. with stunning consistency.

That pistol has a powerful recoil and excellent trigger which make it an ideal trainer. The grips are 1911 compatible, but the upper is bigger than the fire version b/c there needs to be a bit more room for the spring power plant. The weight is abou the same as a 1911 tho.

It will make a crack- shot out of anyone. 550 FPS in .177, the most fun you can have with yr pants on.

But what if she doesn't want to talk to me user?

Did she say so? Why do you think she doesn't?

Last time we talked it seemed that way, she said that she had a lot to do and couldn't talk much but I think she was just trying to spare my feelings

Try again, if she still seems that way, I'm sorry but your best bet would be to move on.

Is it worth the $$$ when I have a .22 rifle and I could just go to a range?

stop larping faggot

>femanon

You're probably a larper but whatever
I'm scared I'll be killing myself in the next few years. Ive had a difficult life and I'm afraid I'll never live up to my expectations or aspirations, and I don't want to settle for things below them despite how high I set my goals.
As much as I don't like living, I am a coward who's afraid of death.
Different types of therapy hasn't helped me or my depression and the only medicine i ever felt help is too expensive for me to afford.

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Last time I checked I wasn't
They say adulthood is changing your standards so they don't appear to have been lowered, which is definitely starting to ring true for me. I took stock and redefined what I truly wanted out of life, and I'm focusing on that. I reccomend you do the same. Get your solid groundwork, then by all means, strive towards the stars. But get that solid groundwork under you first, user.

why do you like to rp as a girl user it's kinda gay tbqh senpai

Any time I've tried to re-examine what I want it has stayed the same. I don't want to strive for love. Most of my relationships have been with pretty bad people and has left me with a disinterest towards dating.
I can't be fine with just living comfortably, as I'm aware any physical comfort is ruined by the mental pain.
The only thing I can see as an out to my past of being abused and my own self hatred is to try and achieve prestige and greatness. Not to say I'm just picking something at random, it is with a field ive found myself enjoying. But this has happened before where I'll find something I'm told I'm good at and I enjoy but I convince myself that I'm not talented and should seek another avenue.
So far ive been doing well at staving that thought off, however. At least for this field.

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Mmh. Not love, not living comfortably, anything else? Other than striving?
The obvious advice is stick with something, but you know that already, user. Other than striving, don't worry about something you want to do for the rest of your life. Find something you want to keep living for. Mine was once weekly, so I'd live for the end of the week each and every week. Find that and stick to it while you strive, and other things will naturally present themselves.

Maybe I could try to focus on self improvement.
But when class starts I have such little time for myself. And I cannot study what I'm interested in in college until 6 more months when I transfer from this community college to this (public) ivy league

Self improvement is definitely important.
I can understand not having a lot of time, just take whatever time you can find. Little things, each and every day. It's doesn't have to be some big dramatic effort.

Why can I not stop jerking it to hentai even when a girl shows interest in me, especially Tohou Reimu gets my dick hard and all I want is a girl to cosplay as reimu and let me fuck her. Even just seeing a tohou character automatically makes me wanna touch myself.

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Definitely take a break, user
Overdoing it isn't healthy. I know it's very very hard but take some time and step away from all that. Don't look up anything, don't even look at touhou characters if it's that bad. Try to NoFap!

How old are you? just curious. original originality

Twenty Two as of a couple days ago

How do I fucking beat the 4 kings in dark souls.

Where do I find a girl who could cater to my specific fetishes?

I don't remember them being that hard...It's time based, so finish em off as quick as you can so you only have to have a single fight at a time
Makse sure your Estus is as good as you can get by that point, and Flask when your HP is ~50% or below.
Also, obligatory:
Git Gud
If you JUST want a girl for festishes, look on a fetish site.

>Hey Jow Forums just a femanon
When will you fuck off?

You can shoot a lot more if you don't always need to be at a range: indoors, out your back door, in the garden, etc.

The P1/HW45 (same thing) is also available in .22, but since this is a 5.5 FPE target gun, the trajectory starts to get pronounced sub 500 FPS with the .22 pellets.

I take shots out the back door all day long in the summer, if I'm working at home and need a break.

Endless practice *does* make a difference with pistols.

OP can you add me on discord to? not looking to orbit anyone or any gay shit like that you just seem nice and easy to get along with:

nintendont64#4546

my backyard kinda sucks, I'd have to go drive out and hike somewhere to shoot.

Sent!

You can pick up used ones for half as much as new, and once you properly clean and lube it, it'll outlast you.

There's nothing to buy except pellets, or a new spring for 20 bucks every 15,000 shots or more.

Mine's on it's second spring, with over 25,000 shots fired so far.

These things don't wear out, they wear in. They become even smoother and more accurate over time.

How much are pellets, usually? I live in a pretty liberal area, so I'm not sure if I could find one used.

Even your living room is OK with these guns. There's a half-power setting.

You can try this sport for 35 bucks if you pick up a Beeman P17 - a Chinese clone of the HW40.

That's a tough polymer, steel reinforced over-lever SSP (single shot pneumatic) air pistol that shoots at a VERY quiet 415 FPS in .177, has a near-match trigger, is nearly recoilless and can be even more accurate than the HW45 (but not as fun).

But for 35 bucks it's a great way to experience what I've heard described as "small caliber joy": the ability to shoot safely, quietly and super-accurately, almost anywhere.

Air guns of all kinds are pretty fascinating technically, too. There are many types of power plants (spring, SSP, multi-pump, CO2, HPA/PCP), and a lot of interesting mechanics to explore.

Huh...I'll definitely look into it more. How silent is nearly silent? Like, compared to someone talking.

Depending on brand, perhaps $5 per 500 for cheap ones. I use JSB Exact RS, which are kind of pricey but very consistent and about $10 per 500 count tin.

Pyramyd has everything online, or AOA. Both good sources.

Ten yards is all you need. The pneumatics can be whisper quiet.

The P17 makes a quiet pop, but hits pretty hard at 400+ feet per second with an amazing consistent extreme spread of literally 1 or 2 FPS.

If you don't get a munged barrel due to bad Chinese QC (check the crown and bitch if bad - they'll just send another LOL), that P17 is silly accurate for like zero money.

A bit hard to cock for kids, though. Don't get your tits caught in it when you snap the top closed. I got my t-shirt caught a few times, had to fire off a few awkward shots.

A medium POP sound for the P17. Like a medium hand clap.

Should be a ton of utubes unless they've gone over the edge with anti-self-defense propaganda.

Huh. I'll definitely check it out a bit more, thank you both anons~ I might have some more questions later, but I think I'm good for now!

I don't usually post, but I've had so much fun with the hobby that it changed my life.

I was always pro-self-defense, but now I'm really into the sport and defending people's right to enjoy it as a sport.

There's nothing very violent about a 5 FPE pistol, but that doesn't mean its not sporty and fun AF.

This helps people understand that guns are not necessarily synonymous with extreme danger, but can actually be fairly safe and teach good habits before someone moves on to the lethal powerbof fire arms.