3 years ago after tons of panic attacks and spergs I was diagnosed with OCD that still haunts me to this day
It doesn't get better, I just get number to it. ADs didn't make it go away, friends didn't make it go away, family didn't, gf didn't, career goals didn't
I still feel the pain, I still can't sleep, I still feel like I will lose control eventually
But even if I feel only 0,001% better everyday by lifting, trying to become better and pursuing my goals, socializing and fighting my weak points, I will eventually get there
What I mean is, we are all gonna make it brahs. I don't want to be a sadkunt, and I will not let myself be a sadkunt, not anymore
im not a sadcunt or whatever, unirinically im pretty happy with life but i get anger attacks with parents, family, friends, girls when they confront me in some way
i stopped me seeing with my sister and mom because of this and now live with my greatgrandmother, i lost 90% of my family because of this but at least my friends support me and i always have a girl sooo fuck it
Brody Parker
there are some people in my life that have been with me for so long, and lately I find them to be so toxic, but I stick with them because I feel an emotional obligation,when i know I shouldnt, you have some real balls leaving toxic people behind, I aspire to do this shit one day. one day
Benjamin Thompson
I'm with you buddy. I went pretty fucking insane and dropped out of college but since then I've gotten a decent if low-paying job, /sort/ed myself ~halfway out, and hit 1.8/3/4/4. I'm here all the time, you might not know I'm the user you're talking to, but we will speak again. I'm here for you bro. We're all here for you. You're gonna make it.
Tfw depression kills my appetite and sleep schedule and makes bulking next to impossible
Ian Collins
We've got your back user, you are a good man I can tell
Josiah Sanders
I was severely depressed for around 5 years and one day it just went away. I felt like the clouds in my head disappeared and I finally saw life though a normal lense. Weird stuff
Landon White
Yes im insane. Having an eating disorder is like the only thing that gives me hope
Michael Nelson
Wholesome user
Grayson Scott
im trying to make it while also giving up hard drugs, it's going okay, I have ocd too, not like in the movies where you count shit though lol
Ayden Young
I have a schizotypal personality disorder, I know the feels. Really my only advice is understand your incompatibility with other people and keep relationships short and don’t expect anything to last.
Owen Price
your post is like meta ass fuck.
Ethan Clark
PTSD, depression, ED, night terrors, cold sweats, panic attacks, hallucinations, hypertension, hypervigilance, insomnia, anxiety. Haven't been able to even maintain a relationship with family, haven't been able to find employment, the only benefit is that I can go to the gym at 2am when it's empty and actually get a good work out in. 2 years ago I killed myself, they barely saved me after my heart stopped, couldn't even walk for a few weeks after I died.
Now, the VA has said that my condition has improved and want to take away my disability benefits. I'll have nothing left after. It may be about time again, boys. At least, I was able to get my lifts fairly high.
I've been feeling not myself lately. Actually been showering, eating, and getting out of bed. It's like I'm watching someone else go through the steps for me.
36yo here. Had depression since I was 12 and suffered a full blown psychotic breakdown when I was 33 where I spent 3 solid months in a state of psychosis. 2 years after on anti-psychotics.
Dropped about 108lbs so far, packed on a bit of muscle, depression/anxiety gone for the most part (in check at least) and confidence going through the roof.
So it's doable. I still have voices and delusional thoughts in my head but keep them all under control. Despite my issues, I perservere because I have the underlying belief that I won't get anywhere unless I take responsibility and do the work myself. Not always easy, but persistance and being in control 99% of the time helps.
Landon Davis
Can you get psychotic from depression alone?
William Williams
>I can go to the gym at 2am when it's empty and actually get a good work out in I know what you mean. People question me a lot because I only go to the gym when it's completely empty. I can't workout properly when other people are there and when they are I get weirdly worked up and angry at them for occupying the space. Even if all the things I want to use are available and they are on the other side of the gym. Shit's weird. Happens elsewhere, too. Mainly in traffic. Hyper vigilance is a thing I haven't heard of before but that describes me somewhat as well. The times when I am with other people they've pointed out my habit of compulsively checking the room/area and making sure all my belongings are with me. Anxiety, panic attacks and insomnia as well but I imagine they are pretty common on this site.
Jose Scott
adopted stoic virtues into my life & things became better I didn't read your post, but you should look into it.
Nicholas Brown
I know this feel user as much of a larp as this may sound I'm about 15 minutes away from learning whether I have brain damage or not and either way something is going to be wrong with my head and quite frankly I miss the gym a lot and I hope I get the all clear. >mfw out of all my shitty genes I used to be intelligent and now I'm a brainlet regardless
I'm as emotionally stable as a a Jenga game is physically stable. Nothing helps and I can't work out for months from stupid injury shit. How people live past their twenties without killing themselves is beyond me
Landon Torres
I used to be an extremly anxious autistic frail little boy. I had absoluly no confidence and zero friends I didn't leave my house for 2 years before I left my house to change myself. Now I'm Jow Forums, have people skills etc. I don't have anxiety anymore but now I'm just extremly lonely with no friends and depressed.
