How are you guys holding up today? Got something on your mind or just want to vent? Now's your chance

just checked my BMI for the first time ever
I don't like it

What are you going to do about it then?

dude I felt this way since high school like I have to put up the outgoing talkative persona just to seem normal but i'm not and I hate it my parents don't understand how I can stay home for literally weeks. I think you should just focus on saying what you actually believe and if you can't don't say anything

I guess I need to change what I eat
I try to run at least three times a week but I may need to do more than just running especially if i aint changing my diet

Don't really talk to people in person,
whenever I do, I always try to smile and fit in.
If I hear someone comment on something, I make a note on how to say it when I am getting the same question.
Pretending has gotten me pretty far in life, my parents think I am a happy, hardworking student, I even have classmates that think I love to dance, yet I have never shown it.
I don't know what to do anymore. I just want to stop having this mask on and open up to someone.
Stop being the person I am pretending to be.

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im just so fucked anons
how do I motivate myself to unfuck my shit when I know that not doing so is basically going to mean setting myself up for being anhero
I realize that I need to get my shit together and prepare for this shit but I just dont have the willpower to actually go about doing it
what the fuck is wrong with me

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I'm just tired as fuck. And spent so much money buying diapars and a new duo electronic breast pump system and video monitor and car seat. Spent over 700 today.

maybe you need a reset
I've had a reset every 4 years or so just how my life happened

set reasonable goals and once you start accomplishing them you will get confidence
start with going on walks once a day or getting your driver license or applying for jobs (not getting jobs just apply to like one a day during the week)
don't know your situation just giving examples

it's mainly exercise
i need to get a lot stronger in a very limited amount of time but I just can't find the wherewithal to actually give a damn even if I know i'm setting myself up for failure and a really shit time
even something as going outside seems so daunting to me

Had to sleep right after work because I felt so fucking bad. I've wanted to end it all for half my life and can't.

Gladly my FWB brought me homecooked food just and is staying the night :3

How? I don't even remember what I really think about stuff, all I do is pretending anyway. If I stop pretending, who am I?

Why do I exist?
Why does all of this exist?
Why is it all so confusing and complex and miserable? It all sucks so much dick and I don't know what to do, I can't take this.

fuck I'm going through the same thing
I can't give advice on that. I'm trying to run on a regular basis but I can't even do that. Maybe do pushups after waking up and before going to bed?? I could do that but I never do.
if its military related they will motivate you

yeah it is military related. ship date is approaching much quicker than I thought it would. and im still a beta weakling with a robot mindset
i just dont know where to get motivation from.

what do YOU enjoy like what makes you happy??
what are the good memories?? thats you you

>what do YOU enjoy like what makes you happy??
holy fuck
i cant even give a solid answer to this question

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dude I just got out
I'm assuming you past some physical test to get a ship date. they will train you physically and mentally just do what they say and don't be the worst. I never was the top and I was never the worst. my number 1 thing was they make a big deal out of everything but in reality its not a big deal just do the job but don't stress it. seriously don't stress it

I feel like doing nothing but doing stuff I hate makes me appreciate the stuff I like. Once I got a job I loved video games again. Now i'm not doing anything so i mope around on fish scaling forums.
you probably just need to sit and think about stuff man or go for a walk and think. I do find myself conforming to others around me too but you need a strong sense of self and I need to work on mine too

I had an appointment with a mental health professional today. I told her about all of the issues I've been going through recently and also in the past. I was honest and upfront about myself for the first time in my life and by the time I left the meeting I was sweating buckets. She told me she was considering putting me on anti-psychotic and anti-obsessive medication but she was only authorised to treat people with mild to moderate mental health issues and that the issues I've been having were moderate to severe. I've got another appointment booked with her 2 weeks from now, where she'll refer me to a professional who can help me with my issues but in the meantime I have to sit tight. I don't know how to cope with this and I've never dealt with anything like this in my life. I hope that things turn out okay but I'm scared that I'll end up being diagnosed with some serious shit that will affect the rest of my life in some really negative ways. I'm kind of at a loss and I don't know what to do. I was hoping that she would have an easy fix for my problems but it seems that a lot of my issues were just as severe as I had feared they were. She seemed kinda taken aback by what I was saying and I doubt she has ever dealt with anybody like me before, I think that she has mostly just dealt with people who have garden-variety anxiety or depression. I don't know what to do going forwards but I hope that things turn out okay.

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There is no "why" to existence user, we're all here as a result of millions of years of evolution, that's it.

Life has no inherent meaning, you must find your own.

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enjoy becoming a zombie taking those meds

First, good job on actually seeing a mental health professional. That's a huge step that a lot of people can't push themselves to take.

My advice is to just try to relax until your next appointment. I think you hit the nail on the head about her mostly having dealt only with people who have "regular" depression and I think her reaction is primarily down to her own lack of experience instead of shock or horror at your situation. Don't worry so much about the diagnosis, it's the cure that you need to focus on. I wish you the best, user.

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If that's what I have to become to stop the living hell I'm going through now then I accept that.
Thanks, seeking help was something I only did after years of trying out every other alternative and having it not work out. I'll do my best to relax going forwards.

Tbh I have no idea what the fuck I'm supposed to do.
It pains me to see people I know having fun while I'm stuck in my room playing videogames. It's not like I have much of a choice, I'm all alone, what else can I do? I just don't fucking understand how I'm supposed to get what they're getting out of life.

I'll be awful hating life and hitting myself for days then I have one day where I'm okay and it's like the past week didn't happen.

do you have fun doing that?
I do so I do it

Don't get me wrong, I love playing videogames, I just hate staying stagnant like that.
I don't want to be alone anymore, I feel so empty.

online friends who also play vidya?
thats my next step but I have to move first
idk I just hope not to feel lonely ever

I have some online friends but it just doesn't feel the same, I want some positive social interaction outside the internet for once.

thats scary bro
maybe clubs? idk I never had to make friends before

I am 24 and afraid.
All I want is a job that's not making me kms because I need to move out of my parents' house. Currently going to uni but hate it because I fell for the STEM meme. Already wasted 3 years of uni time.
Feeling pretty suicidal.
What do you robotos think? Work or uni? If work which kind of full time job makes me less suicidal?

you should have tunnel vision and focus on finishing uni

make sure you do an internship while you're in school and kiss so much ass there that they hire you after you graduate

don't give up or you're a faggot

but computer science is too hard for me.
only the math aspect is really good.
fuck, I have no motivation and I am a brainlet.

dude I just graduated with a liberal arts degree and I got a 40k job offer before I graduated

if you have to change your major to something easier then do it, you don't want to be 30 with no degree because you got discouraged from computer science

if it takes you a semester or two longer to graduate with an easier major that you'll actually finish then fucking do it, I know a chick who's making 60k with a general studies degree

get an internship and get them to like you/hire you

I really should change my major.
you motivated me a bit. thanks.
the problem is that I also need to move out of home or else I can't get my degree in a reasonable pace.

>Met gf on tinder 3 months ago
>don't want to delete our first messages so we just set our profiles to hidden.
>she goes on holiday with her friends
>location only updates when you open the app
>she's 300 miles away

Don't know what to do. I can't say anything without losing an argument about how creepy it is to be checking on her like that. And for all I know there's an innocent reason. She's talked before about rereading our old messages and showing people my pictures.

read her bio see if it changed
when she gets back I suggest you both delete the app if she doesn't then be prepared to be cheated on or just break up idk why you're even here

It's not changed but c'mon, give her a little more credit than that.