I know most of us feel depressed and would like to die but there is one or two things that are stopping us.
Lets talk about this?
>hurting family, I would rather not hurt them, i imagined my funeral after I an hero and it made me sad.
>maybe I can find love? it wont make me happy but I at least will have done it before I die.
[Also let me know your thoughts on this 2D pill people talk about here]
dont own an original gun
because i want to encarnate an anime archetype
I get missing out anxiety in addition to all the other stuff so I'm inclined to stick around just to see what's going to happen. I just don't care for my body or my health so I'll just deteriorate and have a shorter life than others, a slow drawn out suicide in a way.
Dont originally know how
I have started doing this.
I just drink everyday now and dont care about putting on weight as I plan to KMS anyway, so why not.
If we arent burgers its much harder.....
I want to hang myself, while I suffocate, while I am OD'ing on drugs.
Biggest fear is being "saved" and becoming a retard.
Literally the only reason is that I'm too scared to do it. If there was a way to just shut it all off I'd have done it already.
>have skirted around the idea for way too long
>become a depressed fuck for a whole year trying to come to a conclussion
>firstly I do agree with myself that, as a human what I should experience before death that I haven't tried is a couple's love
>then after that, I reached the conclussion that family telling people that someone dear killed themselves would be pretty fucking crushing, so I went with just really hating life until I thought of something better
>finally, I reached to my final statement about the situation
>I'd be allowed to kill myself only when everyone else that had an affective relationship to me has died or forgotten completely about me, though I wouldn't mind if I died of natural causes before that happens
And that's how I hold off that ghost on a daily basis
Money and current circumstances, i'm going to make sure I leave as painless as possible. I don't need to suffer any more. I used to think that it would hurt my family but in reality it'd probably help.
I thought about it sometimes, but as a result, seen no point. Life for me is not a pain right now, I still have some good moments.
Yeah, although food reached a peak for me recently, I used to eat all the greasy and fattening food I wanted. But now it grosses me out out and give me back stomach pains, so I just don't eat a lot now. Drinking and doing drugs takes up most of my time.
Fuck this is feelz man.
Probably same for me but I know my mum would be devastated and she already told me that if I do it she will kill herself.
I told her once when really drunk that, I am just waiting for her to die so I can kill myself.
Adults an heroing isnt bad, liek why cant we die, we should be able to do it legally.
Yeah bro...... how much do you drink?
My tolerance has gotten high for me, I drank like half a bottle of rum and like 6 beers and didnt even feel much yesterday :(
Two reasons:
I'm too curious to see what would happen after I'm dead, how people would react, what they would say. To get around this I've spent a lot of time thinking about how to fake my death but don't have a solid method yet.
And I'm to spiteful to admit defeat, and I couldn't punish myself for the actions of others, so every time I get close I think I should not be the one to leave, they should, since I'm not the one with the problem and it is others who have disappointed me.
tldr, curiosity and spite
I do enjoy thinking about how I'd dole out my possessions though
I usually only drink hard liquor and it'll be about half a bottle when I get buzzed. But it's hard to keep track cause I usually smoke pot too when I drink to settle my stomach. My tolerance is probably lower than yours.
Politics. I live in germany and currently all of the west, including germany will have major political changes. All those leftists with their multicultural agendas are losing all their influence. I want to see what happens when the all those rightwing parties take over. Trump is a huge win for the USA, I hope we will have somebody similar here in germany.
I dont think its admitting defeat, its just stopping the pain.
hard liquor is better bro, drank beers after buzzed yesterday and the beers made me spew everywhere.
bro im right wing as well care about white race ect but really man when your a depressed suicidal NEET why care.
Like it feels retarded.
>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>
anyone have a cut off point?
like I want to die soon but when im 30 I want to die no matter what.
Do die under any circumstances is to admit defeat, even if to as insurmountable a foe as entropy.
Well at the moment I'm worried. Not just about myself. I really love music, western culture and history. Now you got all these leftists who want to erase all that, I just want to know if it will prevail.
we wont win man, we are pathetic.
we cant change shit...
man who cares if its defeat, we will die anyway.
honestly? because I care about my mom and I'm afraid of the pain
I have not yet come to terms with death. I'm not ready for whatever's next, which is most likely nothingness.
Yes true.
but what if it didnt hurt?
Like hangings seem peaceful and stuff....
i tried today and yesterday but airways closing from hanging was too painful
I got a gf, a good job, freelance side work, a challenging and fulfilling hobby, improved relationships with my estranged siblings, a good home, and I'm developing a business and funding plan to become self employed over the next three years
if I thought I could end it all and wake up on the other side with two mommy gfs that made me sit in the back seat I would blow my brains out though
yeah i feel the same way pretty much. want to be friends?
>man who cares if we will die, we will die anyway
alternatively
>man who cares if we will be defeated, we will be defeated anyway
I think you missed the point.
too scared to kill myself
I thought about doing it for the longest time but in the end nobody cares. I either sit in my room all day and do nothing or I die and do nothing, so what's the point? At least I can still watch anime and play Vidya while still alive so I'll just bide my time for now
Fear of whats after, that somehow it could be worse than this.
>[Also let me know your thoughts on this 2D pill people talk about here]
I follow it religiously.
Cant you have it so you just have blood not travel to brain, and you get passed out and die?
I'm waiting till I own a gun to kill myself. Maybe I should save up money. I don't know I wish I had someone to talk to about it.
>fear of failure more so than the pain. Having to deal with the mental repercussions of what I attempted to do as well as the potential long-term disabilities that might come out of a failed attempt.
>the grief it would bring my parents and sister.
That's about it.
Also the thought of physical dying scares me. I don't have a high tolerance for pain, why I want a gun. Either a gun or jumping. Still lame tho.
Worst thing about jumping is deciding that you have made a big mistake when you're part way down. There's no going back from there. At least with a gun there's a great chance of it being instant. Not much chance for regret.
If you're genuinely suffering and have no alternative I've heard this is good.
I'll be checking out in a few years too, I got a .45 though.
That's why I want a gun. I'm aware of the chance of surviving some how but I feel more secure with a gun. Only issue is money and NEET problems.
I haven't killed myself cause my parents are still alive
>not dousing yourself in gasoline infront of your parents and flipping them off with both hands as you turn into ash
Never gonna Sudoku user.
Honestly pain is the only reason why.
If only pentobarbital was legal/easy to get.
I am a weak-willed gutless loser.
I could make up all sorts of excuses to why I haven't done it so far, but the reality is what I have said in the first sentence.
I cant do it to my mother. it would break her.
Pray i get some sort of illness like incurable cancer. then I would do as you sugested
I'm so scared of pain. Like I have plenty of guns
and think about using them but I usually stop myself when I look at them. After watching people
shoot themselves in the head on here and gore sites sometimes they let out a yell or gargle which leads me to believe that it may actually be pretty painful.
you can talk to me on discord frop your discord
jumping sounds shit
all of us are like this bro
bro if I was aussie I would be dead if I had guns, stay strong bro
I still have hope for a good life. I believe I can go far enough in life by just acting healthy, although it's not easy for me.
Family doesn't really bother me regarding suicide, and I am not suicidal by nature. Basically, I'm piss scared of death. I cannot imagine that one day it will end, and that before that, my body will start withering out.
2d pill? cheap fucking damage control.
don't fall for the r9kuck memery, as you'll probably regret it later.
>got a bf (gay)
> to scared at the moment (slowly drinking me to death when im alone)
use to watch humans taking their life. now i don't rly care if i die i die i will try to make my life good....but will probably end by the nose
i don't like to deal with people in general but whatever. there's still plenty anime to watch and booze to drink. when i become sick or get cancer or some shit i'll jump of a bridge. till then i'll be miserable.
2D pill helps bro.
Its not a meme.
bro try find hope man
nope, one day you just ask yourself
>why am I doing this
and whatever confidence in delusion you had, crumbles
also, seeing your replies, I must say fuck off but originally, faggot
>nope, one day you just ask yourself
>why am I doing this
>he doesn't ask himself this when chasing the roast
>how to spot the not a robot
making a family and having kids is realistically the only thing worth living for. the rest is just the framework.
even a pathetic babby memer like you will understand it, you better hope it won't be too late when it happens
idiot.
>making a family and having kids is realistically the only thing worth living for.
That's a genetic goal, and not one that's just.
Your children will suffer and so will your wife having them.
As soon as they're born you've signed a document for them to be killed.
Every moment of their boredom, pain, waste producing consumption, etc is on your hands.
>idiot.
true high iq in salts
>family, i'm an only child and my parents are already mad at me for not having a gf.
>anytime i almost do it i pussy out.
Pure seething rage
>hurr durr edgy fag
No. I feel a great fire within me that I stuggle to contain. This rage is what makes me spring out of bed in the morning, what fuels my work outs, what makes me push myself to the limit.
>what are you angry about?
First, thots. Not in an Elliot Rodger style. I'm talking about one woman, my oneitis, that has consistently led me on, given me hope, crushed that hope, lifted me up, then threw me down for almost a decade. Yes, I'm that pathetic. But I've had enough. I will not let that bitch dictate my emotions and actions anymore.
Second, the destruction of my people, and the first world in general. I am a very vocal National Socialist and actively do things to raise awareness for the cause (as well as stopping the anti-nazi faggots). I am honestly revolted at the filth that has plagued my and my brothers' countries, and I'm sick of being branded a disgusting person for trying to stop this lunacy.
Get angry lads. It works
just watching sucide videos
so amazing how fast all can end if yooou have the balls
watched a russian man hanging himself
looked painful but like peace at the same time
man no clue how im gonna continue with life man
brings me a calming sick feeling watching other humasn having the balls i don't
I'm still hopeful that sex robots will become a thing in my lifetime
Loli bots are now banned, I can't even hope for robobrides now.
I won't kill myself until my parents are dead. It hurts to think of it otgerwise. Also I hope my GF will have left me and moved on. Probably in 10 years.
I'm 27
i'm not 69 years old yet
u have a gf , bro you are normie dont KYS
Want to die with honor
Honors an original spook
I legitimately love life, but i think everyone else should kill themselves
Thanks for this cute catgirl, user. This fuels my love of life.
I don't own a gun and I'd feel somewhat irresponsible.
My cat really.
I found her in an empty lot under an abandoned car seat. She's really attached to me and dislike everyone else. Apparently she meows to no end when I'm here.
She would be completly lost without me so I planned to end it by the time she dies.
I mean im drunk or id post more
wrong... dont have hate
Damn user. Which group of people do you belong too? Misy fashys back then were uberchads that could get any gf.
>had a great social life
>had gf
>life going pretty well
>hard nosedive into complete misery
>incurable mental and physical trauma
anyone else know this feel? pretty much feel like I've done everything enjoyable, and it's all downhill from here.
My reasons for living are ridley got put in smash, fallout 76 looks good,tf2 is still fun, i want to get inti genetic engineering to engineer 2 kids with my future wife and redpill them all or just instead of genetic engineer ill be a riot cop or detective
Why not at least spread your blonde uber genes at least and start a familly. I find it hard to beleive theire 5'10+ strong jawed people on r9k
Group of people? If you mean race or phenotype; anglo
If you mean organisation; won't disclose that.
Still more anime to watch and vidya to play.
Screwing up plans for my family mostly. I will die at some point, and my parents have both had people they were close to die, so I know they will get over it soon after.
...actually, I might break my mom if I did it. She cares a lot more for her children than anyone else. At least, I think. I might be wrong. Guess I'll find out (assuming there is an afterlife).
Honestly, I think it has something to do with the fact that I have no balls/no creativity. I did attempt a few times, but my autistic self couldn't do it properly.
>be me, stupid emo kid
>just want to die
>there's no high places around me and I can't find the aspirin to overdose
>decide to hang myself with belt
>tie it around wooden curtain hanging thing
>throw other end around my neck
>jump off chair
>wooden curtain thing fucking snaps
>go to bed
Someone needs to live in order to spite the people who created the circumstances leading to my being an outcast and the world being a shitty place in general. I will live as long as possible just so I can inconienence the world and make life a little bit less enjoyable for normal, happy people. I will force them to open their eyes to my pain, and the pain of others who are tossed away to benefit society.
because i think it's still slightly possible me for me to find my qt 3.14 trap waifu or amazonian femdom mommy.
I want a gun, i tried the overdose meme and tried to hang myself over the door, but I am like 5 cm too tall to hang myself at the door
I don't feel worthy of offing myself yet. It would just be too pathetic right now. I want to become a person I can stomach before I kill myself, and considering how unlikely that is I'll probably die of old age
I hate myself too much to let me die and rest.
I hate humanity so much I can't let it die, this world will suffer as long as I'm alive...
*cuts to hatred 2 dr. boogaloo logo*
Cause Im too much of a pussy to do it, Im worried about my parents and my friends.
Im hopless and sometimes I really want to do it, everything that gives me some kind of meaning hurt me later on, but I have people that care about me
My cat. My brother has told me he'd kill himself if I did. The people that treated me like shit will pretend like they knew me if I die, and a week later forget I ever existed. My best friend would probably kill himself, knowing him. If the guy that claims he loves me is actually being honest, he might be sad. I love him too much to do that. I also believe suicide will get me stuck in some sort of limbo/purgatory type deal.
tahts tough desu
Yes, clinical depression is tough. I've found things to hold on to though. Is that wrong?
My friends keep telling me not to do it
So once I get home from Texas I'm gonna go hermit mode and do it in a few weeks most likely
clinical depression, means we never will be happy.
Normies dont have real depression.
trips.
Yeah but what they say???
tehy your friends they would get your in pain
>Yeah but what they say???
>tehy your friends they would get your in pain
They straight up tell me not to kill myself. They know why I'm sad and they have no solutions for me, they dont get what I'm going through because they've never gone through anything like it
Anyone with major depressive disorder as a diagnosis has real depression, normie or not. Depressed normies at least attempt to get help instead of just circlejerking online. Treatment resistant depression is where it gets worse, which, once again, isn't exclusive to any particular group.
I mean I hope you dont but as a sucide user I get your pain it sucks
depressed since 6, always been unhappy
Normies dont have dperession as they can become rich and be happy ect
i'm not depressed, i don't wanna die, i just hate myself and want to kill myself.
As in, die fighting my enemy, preferably with some kind of melee weapon through my throat as I am too exhausted to continue. I desire to die in such a way that my ancestors will be pleased and I can ascend to the halls.
Depression doesn't have to begin at age 6 to be legitimate. More common is depression onset at the beginning of puberty, which was the case for me (age 12ish), as hormones and other brain chemicals get all mucked up. I have to remain medicated for the rest of my life, as I don't function without it. I'd assume I'm pretty normie by your standards. I've tried ~10 medications, have been in therapy for 3 years, hospitalized for suicide attempt once when I was off of my meds, and am still struggling. Being a normie has nothing to do with it, and that's a shit mindset to have, likely a result of you sitting in an echochamber of other depressed people, trying to feel special by thinking your disordered thinking is exclusive to you.
still naive enough to think that i'll do something great in life
my dog and I'm too big of a pu55y to commit
looking for some sort of honorable death. maybe the japs are right though suicide might be an honorable death compared to living dishonorably
Hey all.
>be me
>white
>5'7
>obsessed with Bruce Lee
>read all his books and practice Jeet Kune Do and his philosophy.
>very successful in life
>Black Belt in TKD and a good boxer
>full ride through collage
>feel connected to him on a certain level
Anything I can help u with? I think I could give you some good advice if you are willing to act and listen. I will also start answering questions anyway. I have never had problems with depression or suicide and have talked countless people out of it.
But you can find far more Honor in life. It's all about chasing it. Honor is more personal than anything and takes a lot of discipline. Death by your own hand is shameful.
Then you can't seek death. If you seek death then you have not fought your best and you will not make it to your ancestors.
A question for all. What makes your life so hard?
I despise people that are always happy and think it's something you can talk someone out of. Piss off.
I'm just not built to kill myself. I think the only thing that would make me genuinely do it is chronic pain.
My inability to commit suicide has actually made me more spiritual and religious because it has made me realise I'm fundamentally not a rational person because I continue to live life experiencing more pain than pleasure. If I'm not rational I can at least give up the pretence that I should only be believing in things backed by empirical evidence. That it's okay to believe in what I feel and what I experience.