Confession thread

I love both of you and im gonna stay with you until one of you eventually dumps me. Im sorry.

I pressured a grill into doing voyeuristic actions for a large group, filmed it, and shared video around my town. Her father hanged himself.

I feel responsible.

I've been on Jow Forums since 2013 and I am still in the same boat as I was then.

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I actually want to kill the stupid faggots who rev their motorcycles and cars on my street.
This is a residential neighborhood in a dead fuckin area of the Midwest. Who the fuck are they going zoomy zoomy for? I guarantee it's high schoolers, so fuck them, some of us have work tomorrow.
Swear to God, I'm laying road spikes out on the street next to my apartment soon. They can get fucked.

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Couldn't you just sell their house and live off that when they die?

Well, both of them are in retarded amounts of debt, so even if I sell their houses it'll probably cover just about what they owe. Even if there is something left over, I have no skills at all, and again, live in the middle of nowhere with no way to support myself or get myself back on my feet.

I hate my laziness so damn much, it's all my fault, everything is my fault, I got such cool opportunities and yet I was too damn lazy. If I had some balls I would be in this situation

Im a disgusting balding motherfucker. I have feminine ass face and its fucking gay. I'm an absolute hideous beast but I can't tell anyone. When I was in highschool I used to tell people who I felt close too. After I told things just got fucking weird, I couldnt be myself anymore and I became all passive and just felt like an outcast.

I had (have) a female friend from highschool where our relationship was fucking ruined. She's sort of a feminist but grew up with the biggest btard brother and tends to be very reasonable (theyre best friends). I told her this and how I feel inadequate around women, how i feel like many women dismiss me because of my appearance (which I said I don't really blame them).

Things got weird with her too... but even worse. Next thing I know some mutual friends started saying I hate women (i have never even implied this around him). Then I start noticing that she rips on incels around me all the time.

Everybody, no matter how reasonable, has that one group they hate. That makes them froth at the mouth at even the mere mention of something similar to what they believe. For a lot of us it's probably like, political lesbians or those black people that think Egypt was black and had spaceships.

For her it's Incels. I'm. Not. A. Fucking. Incel.

Now that I'm uni I have a totally different group of friends but... I just feel so betrayed. That someone I thought I knew could think so poorly of me for an insecurity. Now... I don't tell anybody about this. But it gnaws at me every fucking day but I just *know* that the minute I say anything to anyone either I'm going to feel weak for saying anything and fuck things up or they'll start thinking I'm sort of self pitying incel and avoid me like the plague.

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I'm a natural born wageslave, I would gladly provide for a few parasite NEETs for no particular reason. I have no other purpose in life.

I'm new to being in relationships, so I'm really inexperienced. So maybe this is because of that, but your past doesn't really matter to me. I know and understand why you're sorry, and you did do me wrong, but I honestly feel like that's my fault. I really love you and I'm sorry I'm not able to be better.

I thought I'd let you know that people who aren't bothered by what you believe do actually exist... though it comes from emotional detachment from the real world.

I plan to fuck shit up someday to pay the world back for being so faggoty.

When I was underage and in foster care we'd molest each other also.

Ciara is the best waifu.

What do you mean by this? pls calrify

come be the wagie to my neet. bonnie and clyde, leopold and loeb, whatever you like

Tattoo near and on your pits. Shits fucked

Don't be friends with women, period. I have one female friend at 35 years old. The only other women I might sort of consider friends are the significant other of my actual male friends. The one chick friend I have was a fluke and I kept her cause we get along so well without any sexual tension. 99.9% of the time that shit never fucking works, women and men can't be fucking friends.

I'm scared because I don't think my life is going to go anywhere.

Voyeuristic action ? Like exhibitionism ?

Only if you shower me with praise for my good work and let me cook meals for you.

Okay fess up which one of you smart Alec's make this?

www.reddit.com/r/greenvswhite

???

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Yea no I'm not being like that dude. I'm sorry you feel this way man; but its not that grim and I have other female friends who are cool.

Thanks for trying to help tho.

yes, but only if you work hard for me and do your best, user

That isn't how I feel bud, that is reality. It doesn't fucking work, you think being friends with women is good but at best you can get one as an acquaintance. If you ever tell them your weaknesses or show signs of it, they will eat you alive like any other woman. Half the reason being friends with them is tense and awful, the other half being the sexual tension. My one female friend who I can literally share a bed with without it being sexual has made it very clear to me how women are and you can't fucking open up without losing their respect, period. Don't ever drop your defense around women, if you actually are close to a woman, they will let you know they lose respect for that shit, it came up in conversation with that chick before and she admitted she loses respect for a man easy depending on what he does. DON'T FALL FOR IT.

I have no idea what to do anymore. Im so fucking lonely and I know there arent any steps I can take to fix myself at this point. All of my friends abandon me. I want to die.

I've been a loner all my life and I don't know how to treat people.
I tried to change last year and reach out to make a friendship, or being more open with others or anything so I could improve and have a better life.
Due to that, I quit from my last job because I couldn't stand other people's passive-aggresive bullshit. Met once again the only person i could call a "friend" from highschool and ghosted him because he's doing great and I can't stop thinking about how i dropped college when I speak with him.
Got a new dead-end job that makes me feel like shit every morning, I barely speak with anyone around me, I feel I have no drive to do anything with my life, but at least now I fully embrace what kind of failure I am and how there's no sense in changing it.
I've been a loner, and will always be.

Why arn't there any steps you can take?

I was a college lax player graduated recently and fucked over 40 girls but never had any relationship so ill be alone forever and its completely my fault

Just curious, how old are you?

Not everyone gets fulfilment out of their career. I would bet that most don't since most jobs arn't idyllic.

But it's moments like these, when your ego is gone and you just hate yourself that you can really rebuild. Is it gonna work the first time? Probably not. Is it gonna work ever? Maybe not, but it's worth a shot. I remember feeling like you do... I just want to let you know there is another side.

Well... you've got your foot in the door. Or vagina. I don't see how this equates to being alone forever.

Probably because porking some random whores mindlessly is rather lonely.

I require everyone to watch anime with me once a week too... hope it's not too much to ask... literally my raison d'etre...

I'm sure it is. I just don't see how this means you're going to be alone. Whats stopping you from porking a whore with half a brain. And then porking a slut with a brain. And then finally porking a woman.

Having sex with random women mindlessly tends to be easier than actually having one want to be with you. You can be a fuck meat without being relationship material.

Flirted with another girl a little bit even though I have the most loyal girl on the planet.

The worst thing is that the other girl was a huge thottie.

I feel really remorseful.

Flirting is normal, people do it all the time and there is nothing wrong with it as long as you aren't crossing the line.

I can relate, if I had a friend I wouldn't even feel the need to masturbate

Almost 30.
And I'm feeling better now that i'm not trying to shove bullshit inside my head.
Yes, I've missed a lot of things, and, mostly, pushed a lot of people away from me, but it doesn't matter, and I'm not me without those flaws. It's just that I don't take that next step.
I feel like taking a sport or doing something different as a source of income; even getting back into college despite debt and my age. But I say 'Fuck it' to those things once i get back home and get into bed.
Maybe it's a matter of time, and in some years things will clear out. But, for now, i'm fine in this limbo of loneliness.

I was crossing the line mate :(

I was flirting with the thought that she would send nudes or some shit. I just try to inflate my ego at this point.

the person that I was dating said no to marriage and i feel great

" I'm not me without those flaws." You probably know this is a not a great way of thinking so I'm not gonna lecture you about it.

Well I'm glad you're saying that you're at least okay where you are for now. Gl user.

That's primarily one of the influences to stay away from me.

It's too corrosive and painful to deal with. I just want to be able to observe everything peacefully and not have to care about any emotional influences it may impart on me.

I don't even recognize myself anymore. Every day just feels like an endless chore with no clear purpose or objective. I feel so out of place no matter where I am or who I'm with. My doctor put me on Lexapro and I feel like a zombie, carrying on conversations or reading a book seem like excruciatingly difficult tasks now.

My girlfriend's a bitch. She constantly belittles me and my interests, but I'm too afraid to be alone. I don't have anything in common with my friends anymore, we just talk about the same shit over and over like we have been for years now. Nothing seems like it's worth the fucking effort anymore.

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I REALLY LIKE MY FRIEND AND I CAN'T TELL IF SHE LIKES ME BACK OR NOT
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I like buffalo wings

I think I'm becoming sexually attracted to a 15 year-old at the point it may turn into predation, the age gap isn't really a big problem because I'm 19 but I kinda feel bad for feeling something like this considering:
a)This girl is one of my friend's sister.
b)This can escaleted into something worse like sexual harrasment.
c) It isn't the first time it happens and I'm afraid of turning into a pedophile at some point.

Pretty much same here. Different execution, but same reasons.
I'm really fed up with my life, I wasted way too much time on stupid shit, thus I can't get a better job, because I'm useless as I don't qualify to do pretty much anything. I'm 30 and KHV, Even if I get a better job, retake studies, stop drinking, doing workouts, and even stop being a KHV (even if I had to pay for that) while I would feel better for a while, it's just not the same as if I did all that stuff like...10 years ago.
I feel that I'm beyond salvation.

you don't "turn" into a pedophile. Leave that girl alone. Seek help.

Quit being a faggot, it is a 4 year difference, christ.

I hate myself. There is nothing I can do to change or lessen the hate I have for myself. I tried, but I can't do it because this is exactly what I prayed for, an excuse to be alone.

i WANT TO GET HACIENTA LOOT BUT I FEEL LIKE JUST PLAYING VIDEO GAMES LALL SUMMER BUT ALL MY FRIENDS SEEM TO BE DOING BETTER THAN ME AND I FEEL VERY VERY INSECURE ABOUT MYSELF. iHATE THIS FEELING I HAVE AND I AM ALSO RESISTING MANY URGES RIGHT NOW!

but is it the good kind of anime?

Not worth it man. It's only a 4 year age difference, but it could fuck up your relationship with your sister or get you in legal trouble depending on where you live.

I find it hard to believe that you can't control yourself. As long as you can be attracted to women your age as well you'll be fine. There was a girl I knew when I was in high school and she was in gr 9 when I was in grade 12. She had a huge crush on me and she looked kind of childish. I hated her at the time. Then one day when I was in 1st year uni I passed by her in my home town and we talked. She was awkward as fuck and a total sperg but I wanted to bust her open. She invited me to her house and all i could think about was nutting inside her.

It got to the point where I actively went for walks around the time the highschool got cut out so I could maybe talk to her.... it was fucked.

So why did I say all this?
a) its a confession thread
b) I think most men feel this way and here I am and I can still be a normal functional person who can be attracted to people my age as well.

Just do yourself a favour and *never* talk about it irl.

Thank you man.

It isn't that I can't controll myself, it's just that this is something which I can't really talk with anybody irl so I just get stuck with it, I am aware it's a really trivial matter compared to many stuff people here seem to get into, but sharing any though about something that bugs me here with people that don't know me or care about me is helpful for me.

Even if I know lots of people and spend a considerably amount of time them I'm sure they aren't worthy of any confidence, so an anonymous internet board is the best I have.

I hit a parked car today while on my lunch. I freaked out and so I left. I tried to go back to leave a note but they were gone.

Fuck feelsbadman I want to fucking die.

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>your sister

Wut?

this seems so common i don't know why you're stressing, unless you did it near a camera or something.

I'm a flat out alcoholic and on occasion when im black out drunk I punch things.
I did slap one person that I know of while I was black out drunk.
But generally I just punch walls and furniture.
I'm 90% sure its a family related thing since my mom would beat me while she was black out drunk.
I feel incredibly shitty about my behavior when I get that bad.
It's not everytime. Maybe a quarter of the times I get drunk that happens.
I'm scared of ever getting into a meaningful relationship and ruining it with my violent drunk behavior.
Generally as a person im really calm. But I suppose I do push back that anger quiet well from years of holding it back.
>Today
>Woke up today to go to a evolution with work
>Still fucking drunk from the half a bottle of 47% rum I downed
>Hands hurt
>my keyboard was broken
>My hand was bloody
>Wall had blood on it
>My other hand has bruised knuckles
>My room mate wasn't in the room at all
omfg did I flip out with my room mate in the room. Holy fuck.
I want to stop drinking. But theres no one I can turn to due to my work making a major deal of shit like this.
So like all my problems I'm holding it in and trying to figure it out on my own.

I hated babies and kids ever since I was one, I still hate them now. They're ugly, wretched snots that make the loudest screams and are generally gross with all of the shitting and drool. Even when they're happy I just cringe on the inside
No amount of convincing from people and having be told I'm not normal will change my mind, I know that I am more than happy to not have them in my life

I have espoused myself as one of those people who think interracial relationships are disgusting for years, yet I recently started dating a black/Puerto Rican girl and I'm falling in love with her.

Took too long to tell one of my closest friends my feelings for her she got played by a "buddy" of mine and has't been interested in dating since then

hey
if you dont nut in her
someone else will

i should have said something when i saw you in the gym, i knew what i wanted to say but chickened out

Misread as sister's friend. Not worth fucking up a friendship either.

You arent legally responsible for your parents debt. Unless youre in some horrid shithole anyways

I quit weed this week but still haven't thrown my stash out, I know if I smoke once i'll start wasting my fucking life again but fuck dude what do I even do with my free time

Unless user's inheritance laws are weird the estate will be sold to cover the debt, and user will inherit whatever remains. If the estate is worth 1 mil and the debt is 2 mil, he won't have to cover the remaining 1 mil, but nor will he be left with anything to live off.

IM AN UNDERAGED ALCHOLIC !
And i killed my friends romantic relationship with a lie.

I don't find most of the robot/incel rhetoric very convincing, but I don't question it when I see it.

Gas the Jews, incel uprising now

i cant seem to stay happy, i dont have a good reason to not be and im not like, sad, and im not depressed ( i think) idk

>have eating disorder as a child
>doesn't eat mostly anything; was a picky eater
>Parents couldn't take me to Disney world because of money problems
>Mom would tell me that would one day to Disney World If I ate right for once. Didn't fucking matter since they didn't even have the money.
>as much as I wanted to I couldn't
>She must have thought it was a choice
>I really wanted to
>now I'm some bitter asshole who thinks it's edgy to hate Disney
Fuck now I'm sad. I'm such a fucking failure.

I want to hold a warm female and feel her flesh as she snuggles me

My only sin is that my conscience does not accuse me of anything.

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Drugs used to be my only hobby, now all I do is work, I don't even have time to do anything fun anymore. Cant use anything hard because I have to work the next morning so I just smoke weed instead. Tried going to work stoned and just felt even shittier about my job.

i had sex with my best friends sister once and i also had an intimate relationship with my other friends gf, she initiated it though so i dont know where im supposed to stand on it. im a fucking whore and didnt even realize it.

Duuuuude tell me about it. Recently I've been doing it so much that first the first time I feel it's starting to take a toll on several aspects of my health.

I constantly bullied a kid all through high school i.e. pushing him into lockers, calling him a faggot and just being extremely mean and malicious to him. He committed suicide in our senior year and i was in his letter.

I feel horrible and i don't know how i can carry on living knowing that i'm partly the reason he did it. It's been 8 years since and im still not past it. Im a horrible person and i dont want to live anymore

I spent most of my adulthood trolling people online rather then living my life.
I'm at a point in my life where I realize that I have failed miserably and am in every way a lowlife.

My only escape is porn and the net to be honest. But I'm sick of porn and I just want to be free of it and not feel like I've lost anything anymore.

I'm having one of those days where I can't really brain too well, but I have to take care of a lot of rodents.

Most days I think I didn't wake up from the operation, or fought my way back from death.
I think I actually died and this is hell.

I also know the truth about Jow Forums, yet I still come here.

I hate myself so fucking much bro. You don't understand. I just don't want to live anymore it hurts it hurts a lot.

I'm scared of what the future holds. I want to be able to achieve my goals and dreams but I doubt my self every day. I think my family will think I'm stupid for what I want to do. I just want to play guitar, make music, paint, maybe even write. I know it's all so childish and foolish but I'd rather stand for what I want to pursue than live a hollow life in a job I hate surrounded by people I despise.

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are you a KHV or no?

Today i look a guy to the face and lied like a piece of shit. Im a coward. I feel like shit and for the last month my life was fucking hell. From the outside i look like the most happy guy on earth, but i just want to fucking die.

>I also know the truth about Jow Forums, yet I still come here

I want to know, please tell me.

I want to leave my family alone i want to cut them off and never contact them again. But every time i think about it every time i try to forget move on and focus on me not them. I get drawn back into helping them.

I just want to move on

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i miss i miss you i miss you i miss you i miss you i miss you i miss you i miss you i miss you i miss you i miss you i miss you i love you

i kinda want to know what it's like to rape someone

me too, my good man. me too.

The only way I can face challenges or hard work in life is by using meth.

My film autism is super annoying but I have to believe that I can do something with it.

Otherwise I wasted a super large period of my life doing fuck-all.

I want to break up with my girlfriend so i can fuck dudes

Fucking kek nice quads.

I've thought about breaking up with my girlfriend every so often, but moreso because my life is more complicated with her.

I go out more, keep being exposed to shit I don't end up enjoying or liking, and it's really stressful dealing with her emotions at times.

The perks are the good sex every now and then, in addition to when she helps out every now and then.