CONFESSIONS THREAD

two years ago i suffered a brain injury that left me in the hospital for 40 days. i got diagnosed cerebellar ataxia and will never be able to walk normally again. i used a wheelchair to get around for the better part of a year and now i use a walker like a geriatric fucklord. im a 22 year old virgin NEET. when should i kill myself?

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To continue you must die, so that you can be reborn
You're going to train your arms so hard they'll be bursting from your skin
This is the perfect excuse to skip leg day
Thank me when you reach Joe Swanson mode

Good job user

Dont ask anyvone about what you want, ask yourself.

>I pick my nose and eat it
disgusting

she's bad. i see the red flags. don'y do that to yourself

You should stop being underage.

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My gf suffers from depression, the real one not "lol I'm kinda sad today :(((". Spent all of last night talking her out of suicidal thoughts. It's heavy stuff, I feel like I'm always stepping on eggshells when she has a seriously bad day. I'm not going to bitch out though, I love her and I can handle the baggage. I just wanted to confess this moment of mental weakness, I guess.

She is an emotional leech bro, drop the attention whore and stop torturing yourself

I just now found out that you're meant to count the barbell weight when you measure your lifts

I told my friend yesterday that i can bench press 20kg as a joke but somewhat seriously to see his reaction. He replies his 5yr old brother could do that. I laughed it off. Guess who's laughing now

(You) have to be kidding me...

>There wasn't any blood, not sure if I even broke her hymen
That hymen thing is bullshit, it can break by using tampons, masturbating, biking, gymnastics, even riding a horse.

I talk myself out of working out, and into binge eating. I have no self control and being tired all the time might be a heavy factor imo

I haven't lifted in months

I only work out for the endorphin rush.

In 1965 he was sent to South Vietnam as an advisor to an Army of the Republic of Vietnam infantry regiment. He stepped on a land mine [1] during a patrol and was evacuated to the United States, where doctors at Fort Sam Houston concluded he would never walk again and began preparing his medical discharge papers. As Benavidez noted in his 1981 MOH acceptance speech, stung by the diagnosis, as well as flag burnings and media criticisms of the US military presence in Vietnam he saw on TV, he began an unsanctioned nightly training ritual in an attempt to redevelop his ability to walk. Getting out of bed at night (against doctors' orders), Benavidez would crawl using his elbows and chin to a wall near his bedside and (with the encouragement of his fellow patients, many of whom were permanently paralyzed and/or missing limbs), he would prop himself against the wall and attempt to lift himself unaided, starting by wiggling his toes, then his feet, and then eventually (after several months of excruciating practice that by his own admission often left him in tears) pushing himself up the wall with his ankles and legs.[2] After over a year of hospitalization, Benavidez walked out of the hospital in July 1966, with his wife at his side, determined to return to combat in Vietnam. Despite continuing pain from his wounds, he returned to South Vietnam in January 1968.

I don't know if this helps or hurts, but you reminded me of him.

Dyel legs are still noticeable unless you only wear shuffler pants, user

I forgot to drink my protein shake yesterday.

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or a result
>downward spiral

Textbook thot manipulation. From personal experience, stay the fuuuuck away

Over father's day weekend (fri-sun), I destroyed my diet. Over the next three days, I went HAM and got under my prior weight.
Kinda sounds like I'm masturbating, but I'm ashamed I even broke it in the first place.

>get fit
>get lit
>get gf
>gf says she's insecure around me sometimes cause I work out too much
>keep going to gym
If I get a dad-bod she's gonna say I need to work out more. It's a vicious cycle.

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I get that thing about believing I see her on the streets all the time, I thought it was only me. Going out is stressful because I get a mini heart attack every five minutes. And the worst part is that, because I roam the city scanning all the women who look like them, I end up seeing them for real. How do I get over this.

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>be fat kid, but had really great hair
>want to be twink/ androgynous because I want to be cute and get attention from both women and men
>life happens, put off actually trying to be what I want to be
>after years of poor eats, finally decide to lose weight
>down 100lbs, more to go
>as I lose weight and exercise more, I can fit in more clothes and am excited about possibilities.
>but, now that I'm losing weight and looking better, my hair is thinning and hairline is retreating
>tfw I'll work my way down to the body I wanted but I'll have to be bald/shaved by that time

I wish I knew better when I was like, 15/14. I could have been so fucking happy

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Have had depression since I was a kid. I've got nothing going for me. I'm only getting fit so I can look at the person that stares back at me from the mirror in the eyes.

I'm 30, ex fatfuck, saw my abs for the first time in my life two weeks ago... Decided it ain't worth maintaining a shredded look.. from now on will lean bulk slowly into oblivion

I pick my nose and eat it
I clench my fist and beat it
I light my torch and burn it
I am the beast I worship

I've skipped the last 3 workouts I was supposed to be having entirely. Went to the gym today, but the struggling I lifted my weights put me in despair.

>tfw small calves

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absolutely refuse to eat even remotely healthy food, if the muscle grows that's all I give a shit about. Girls are worth the two seconds it takes to man up and act confident, not the two years it takes to slim down to 5% bf with muscle loss.

>I'm fine with the jews
Not gonna make it

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I have no actual gym goals. I go 3-4 times a week and do PPL. eat what I want and drink how much I want.

the gym is just a little hobby for me. I come to Jow Forums for the shit posts

I jacked off to a picture of my oneitis who was interested in me when I was a skinny 120 pounds, now I'm 185 pounds after lifting for a year and a half ish and I can't bring myself to talk to her.

Ridiculous.

Yeah this is indeed ridiculous. What's holding you back?

I'll never be able to stop caring about women. Despite claiming otherwise, many of my daily thoughts are dedicated to sex, intimacy, and romance with women. I know this is somewhat debilitating, and yet I doubt it will ever change.

If you have a problem with jews than you're not a race realist. They have the highest average IQ.

>They have the highest average IQ.
They don't, that's just one of their many lies.

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Me too, bro. Me too.

>I'll never be able to stop caring about women. Despite claiming otherwise, many of my daily thoughts are dedicated to sex, intimacy, and romance with women. I know this is somewhat debilitating, and yet I doubt it will ever change.
Yup, same here user.

On top of that I have a really bad case of oneitis (over a year now).

I'm a seasonal lifter.
Every spring, summer and fall I lift
But I give up in the winter.
I'm forever stuck on 5x5s and stuck at intermediate strength because of my laziness

I only do cardio because I could spend 20 min on a treadmill or 20 min in traffic and still get home at the same time

>known her since we were kids
>Stop talking to her after I turned 13
>danced with her on my sisters wedding
>She'd smile at me after the wedding all the time
>looked at myself and realized I was skin and bones after dieting down from 200 pounds of fat
>Didn't follow it up because muh "insecurity"
>Haven't talked to her since even though I'm friends with her dad

Maybe I'll just ask her out before I leave the State, just to get it off my chest.

>inb4 blogpost

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love my ex fling to death.. she hates my guts. tried fighting her new guy.

dream about her every night.

have murderous thoughts about her..

all this and I have 2 functional relationships with two great girls (not as hot though)...

i think i might be some sort of socio/psychopath.

You sound like you're 17.

Go for it bro

I fapped four times in the same hour yesterday without looking at porn.

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>Maybe I'll just ask her out before I leave the State, just to get it off my chest.
Do it. If she rejects you, you'll be in another state after that anyway, so no problem.

>inb4 blogpost
Nothing wrong with that. We all need to vent and share our lives once in a while, it's perfectly normal and healthy.

i'm a 24 year old veteran with a 9/5 job now.

i'm pathetic.

You sound like a sperg bro. How can you be a 24 year old veteran and still be that edgy?

I really like redheads

Holy fuck that’s motivating

Dumb the whore, find another girl.

I only lift because i want to become the best version of myself.

I want to become the best version of myself so that one day my exgf will regret leaving me for someone else.

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i have a hairy penis and this is why im incel

i have no fuking idea why. the underside is completely hairy right to the tip. its fucked up. even after a shave it grows up faster than anywhere on my body

Similar here, except I want to spite all the girls who rejected me who even at the time were objectively below my league.

I want them to suffer and see what they could have had. Fucking hoes. Just need a smoking hot gf by my side to really stick it to them.

>I pick my nose and eat it
Based

What women say=/= what women want

>Like Jews
>Believes in reincarnation but not Catholic

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I haven't trained legs in 5 months.

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I had an amazing dream last night where I fucked my friend's amazingly hot girlfriend. (Her and I hangout sometimes and have beers, she's a shitload of fun).
I'm over my ex of 2 years... I think. At least I'm outwardly expressing interest in women I find attractive now.
Another friend's live-in GF wants me to meet her younger sister despite knowing I have every intent to smash. I feel a little weird about it DESU.

Im a skinnyfat 5'9 DYEL who enjoys curling in the squatrack and benchpress simply to get into confrontations with gymbros. Theyre never man enough to kick me off of it. What a rush.

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I have some of the worst body dysmorphia possible. My GF keeps telling me I don’t need to get bigger but when I look in the mirror I still feel small.

Don't trust your girlfriend. They're full of shit. Anyone got the pic of some guy talking about how his gf thought he was lifting for her and that he wouldn't lose his gainz if he stopped working out?

I noticed you, dont let it happen again.

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Well I’m 6’3 265lbs

What the fuck. Unless you're fat you have body dysmorphia dude.

I used to tape over my moobs in high school so I wouldn't be teased

I'm afraid to do squats because I struggle with 1pl8 and I'm self conscious about it. But for some reason, that's the only lift that makes me feel this way.

I put 2pl8 on the hipsled, and it's hard but doable.

Now here's the weird part: I put 3pl8 on the hipsled, and I honestly can't tell the difference between that and 2pl8.

What did the plates mean by this?

>What did the plates mean by this?
>squat 2.5pl8
>hard but doesn't feel like much to my muscles, just feels heavy
>squat 1.5pl8
>so hard i want to quit midway through the set
>muscles burn afterwards
>heart goes crazy
>get a pump
The pl8s have secrets m8

>I'm kind of the only pone at work who can do this so hear me out

Have some project that needs to be completed. Right now, one big task just doesn't work at all and something is missing from this huge fucking puzzle

Call other companies for a week now and discuss what I'm seeing, what info have they not provided us etc...

Nobody has any idea what I'm talking about and nothing works right now

and no, its not some simple fucking solution to this whole thing,. something is being missed and nobody is listening or providing what they dont know..

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I have sex with a chubby girl regularly because she's all I have. She gained weight because of anti depressants if that makes it better... I can barely stay hard.

Its been 13 days since I lifted. I've been doing cardio and calisthenics but no lifts . im sorry Jow Forums

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I'm not getting as strong as I should because I'm not doing deadlifts.
I'm not doing deadlifts because every time I've tried before I hurt myself, one time messing up my knees
I want to join the National Guard after I finish my degree but I'm afraid of being DQ'd and haven't spoken to a recruiter yet.
I lift to better myself, but it's all a part of this fucked up guilt complex from cheating on my gf in high school.
I have a qt gf who loves me and I'm gonna propose her but I often don't appreciate her like I should and I struggle with temptation to get with other women
I'm also /waitformarriage/ and on nofap for religious reasons, but I was a real degenerate and it's been hard to go several years no without sex, my libido is starting to feel like I'm gonna lose control
DESU I need moral gainz more than muscle gainz but I find myself more often concerned about the latter because it's tangible and accessible.
My roommates are 100% degenerate and I'm worried I'll slip and pick up cigarettes again
I should be working on a research project for this internship right now.

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I feel the need to always lift heavier than the guy next to me especially if there is a girl with him. Or use his max as my warmup. I always get really competitive, but I don't want these girls.

I deliberately push my shoulders back to make myself look even bigger when talking to dyels. I need to be the biggest, veiniest most muscular in the room

I literally cannot stop jacking off and it's problem for my gains and for my Catholic faith. Every time I get turned on its only a matter of time till I'm beating off. It's pathetic no one would suspect it in my friends
I get nudes from 4 different women on Snapchat a week, one of which is 15 (technically legal because I'm in a state where the legal age is 15) the rest are round my age (20)
I'm basically a neo nazi
I don't do leg days or carxio, but can run mile and leg press 500lbs (lel @ leglets)

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IM A FUCKING 5'8'' MANLET WITH 16 YEARS OLD FML

i hate squatting and love curling
i failed my last rep of bench yesterday but im still gonna go up 5 pounds because im dumb
i am very judgemental of fat people and smokers

>underageb&

The hymen thing is a virgin myth.

fucked some older chick that im not proud of in a dark parking lot outside the bar last night and it was super weird like literally out in the open and i couldnt do it so we eventually smash in my cramped ass truck. but i keep thinking that were on camera trying to fuck. also gyms are for fags save some money and buy the equipment at home

am i a cuck if my gf does modeling?

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I have lots potential when it comes to my face and body genetics yet I let myself go after school for years and now I’m sad because no gf etc.

yes

fuck

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Haha dead gribs

24 y/o, lost kissing virginity 2 weeks ago and in the meantime I already touched ass, titties (even licked nips, feels good) and rubbed the girl's clit. She says I make her horny. She said she wants to have sex, and I do as well, but I don't love her, at least not yet. I still love that qt angel from the gym who took my handholding virginity 3 months ago, the one I lost because I got clingy and was too pussy to make a move on. The experience I got after she left me really helped things with rhis new girl, my friends all compliment me on getting a girl who "so fucking hot" and yet I spend 50% of our time together thinking "This girl is pretty great and I'm lucky to have her" and the other 50% thinking "I wish I could get the other girl back". I just need to convince myself that that ship has sailed, but it's super hard when I have to see her 4x a week.

I don't lift and eat as often as I should.
I'm barely making gains.

i unironically hate chest day and dont like benching, but i do enjoy dips. my pec growth is suboptimal as a result but idc

Don't be stupid and go to the actual girl my man, all your thoughts about the other girl being better than the actual is just your fear getting into your head. Give yourself and the girl a chance and you might like her. The girl already likes you because she let you touch her, make a move don't be a faggot like I was with my girl, the regret of not making a move is far worse than being rejected by making one.
If I can travel in time I would do it just to beat myself for not doing a move, don't do this to yourself