What was the tipping point for you, the event that turned you into a robot for good

I cant remember any specific event, it was pretty much just a quick transformation over a couple years. I dont think you want my life story, but the gist of it is that i was bullied a lot during 5th grade, and i realized just how much people didnt want to talk to me. Things only got worse through middle and high school, and i stopped trying to be normie. Ive grown accustomed to life in my shell since then, i feel better and more collected now. Im still a khv robot, just a bit more comfortable down here at rock bottom

When I realized there was no free will in my family's religion.

There really wasn't one. I've pretty much been a social outcast since day one. My parents abandoned me, so I lived with my extremely abusive grandmother. I got bullied from grade 1 all the way to highschool when I dropped out and ran away from the house in was living at. At least in leaf-land all I had to do was give my sob story to a social worker for free NEET bucks until I was 19.

I was always a robot, I just never really cared until 23 because it was then I realized that "oh shit, it's really never going to change is it?"

>they must end up as a rubbish after those days
>believing the karma meme

Middle school I was a pretty normal weird kid, got kicked out at the start of 8th grade and was a NEET for months (fucked my shit up) and then got sent to an alternative school for a few months which I liked, then summer came and I didn't know if I was going to highschool and then I did.
First day of 9th grade I couldn't look anybody in the eye anymore, I felt so weird and different like we were different species and I have never felt normal again in my entire life.

Were they calvinists?

I was always a very antisocial person and didn't really talk to any friends outside of school. While in school I didn't really care about anything but vidya and ended up getting behind on schoolwork because I didn't really understand how important school was At the time. I evenually started talking to irl friends online and socialising with them I almost went to a party with them but pussied out last minute because autism. After a few months I got kicked out of school and ended up becoming a neet shut in out of embarrassment.To this day some of my old friends try to contact me but i'm to much of a pussy to contact them back.

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ok lets see:

>spoiled
>a stacy
>behave badly

these arent the tropes of a useful human, mister

It's ok user, i would've done the same thing. Except for skipping homework.

Question for all of you:

Are robots completely emotionless, or they just have mastered control over feelings and emotions?

I became the most hated person in highschool for 4 years because of some bs rumor. No friends, only spite.

Neither. I'm ruled by my shit emotions, they constantly tear me down and force me into doing dumb illogical shit which I always regret and feel bad about later.

Non-denominational but essentially yes

They have rich parents, they are 2 of them are actually in uni now, but I think they 3rd one has indeed become rubbish.

They have become a little nicer though, probably because they are a bit older now. But I simply cannot forgive them for turning my HS years in a living nightmare. Even after all those years, it still left a mark

oh man. if i were you, i would have tried to make their life a living hell

No, not emotionless. I'm great at concealing my emotions, but they are still there.

is that illogical shit also cringy?

This is speaking

I think it's a mix I don't really feel hate towards people and if I do I just look at the bigger picture and realise how retarded hating people really is. Yet there is one emotion I really wish I could feel and is companionship i don't really think I have truly felt that feel before and I really don't dismiss it like I do with hate. So to answer you're I don't truely know maybe it's a mix between both.

So my mom, brother, and I were abused by my unemployed Dad a lot and one day me and my brother just got so sick of it all and told people at my elementary school. One thing lead to another, and my mom got sole custody of my brother and I when I was 12.
A year after the separation my school was going on a trip, and my mom got a Kodak film camera for me to take pictures with. I brought lots of pictures back, and most of them weren't very good, which lead to my mom calling me all kinds of variations of 'stupid' which made me feel like utter shit, because my mom had never called me anything of the sort while my Dad was still in the house, and he would be the one to call me such names. Over the next few years, my mom would say things like "If it weren't for your brother, I would have long died in this house" and other things that would just belittle me. Every time I would ask a question of some sort, she would mention how I was stupid and hit me with some sort of object (like a couple of glass bowls or something) and I eventually just assumed that I was completely useless and weak, and that I am just like my father (who she compared me with constantly). Now I'm just afraid of any commitment to someone in the fear that my many flaws will just make me be as terrible as my father was, and so my ideology is that I can't hurt anyone like my father has if I'm not with anyone to hurt.

Wow sorry to hear that user don't blame yourself because your parents didn't raise you correctly. they clearly had no real business raising children and they should be ashamed of themselves

blacks broke into my house and beat me up and put knife to my neck and shit.
Have not gone outside since.

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If they broke into your house, how does not leaving your house fix that? Niggers can strike at any time in any place. Especially your house. And they're black so they blend in at night. Fucking stealth niggers.

bomb niggers for confidence boost

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probably when i started just walking by myself during recess during kindergarten because i had no friends

Get guns.

Stop on over to Jow Forums, we'll get you sorted out.

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It was around 9th grade, when I noticed my life was really shit. The people I considered my friends were all fakes: nice to me when we were alone, but cucks when next to the popular kids because they knew they wouldn't get reputation by being friends with the weird one. The one girl who liked me was one of them too. In private she was sweet and cute, but that bitch turned into a violent shithead when others were around. She was also really indecisive and had some bipolar moments. Don't think she had the disorder, but I sure know she fucked me up when she acted like that.

After noticing all of this I realized that I tried to keep up with the situation for a while. I suffered a lot, but I didn't want to risk letting it get even worse. After some months however, I met this guy, J. He was the memer I needed to pull me out of the normiefest I had been living in. Since then I've had really few friends, hated most people, and stayed away from normies.

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>7th year
The other kids would have fun and deliberately leave me out of their games. At that point, I realized they hated me for being different.

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>is that illogical shit also cringy?
What the fuck do you even mean by that

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Always was a robot, since early on in elementary at least. I didn't really notice the difference between me and others until middle school. Never had a real friend until sophomore year of high school. I guess the worst part is that I prefer being alone now. I dont feel especially alive or on the same plane of existence as others because the number of weird experiences I've had have increased substantially since my childhood. Its kind of hard to tell if things are real anymore, people dont always make sense when they talk and I feel kind of like plastic at times. I'm afraid I'm going nuts. I've been getting these oddly spiritual experiences that feel like I'm leaving my body or something, like a monk meditating to ascend to some higher form. I dont know what to do or what this is.

the year I moved to another city in like 2013. Used to live in a small town where everyone knew eachother, I used to be sociable, sometimes bullied because I was a fatty but I got my shit together and lost weight, had a couple of really good friends. Then I moved to a big city, everything is bigger, everyone seems hostile, I stopped reaching out to my older friends and now I'm completely alone and incapable of forming new relationships. I hate big cities

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As someone who was a country bumpkin that moved to a large cuty to find work, I can sympathize with this.

I used to be able to say hello to people i walk past in my hometown but here people are really hostile and autistic. Theyll completely ignore you and keep walking. And the yuppies are like a different species from me.

I know right, everyone seems "expendable" when you're in a big city. Last week some dude fell from a motorcycle in front of a train station and people were just ignoring him, if that happened in my small town tens of people would've been offering aid. Well at least I don't feel bad about hating people here, that's the plus

Same here. I felt nothing when my mom passed.

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