Wanna talk about something? Anything at all? I am here to listen to your fucking troubles. I live in this board now

>Care to tell what mistake that is?
Took wrong dose of medication which made me disassociate, and in the process I became so desperate I took other drugs I should not have taken. Went to the Hospital and those fuckers did nothing but say I was psychotic and poisoned me with Olanzapine.

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Is it okay to love someone who doesn't exist?

Hey, uh i need some psychological advice, am i sociopathic or just retarded?
I won't write an opening paragraph, if you care enough to respond i'll answer questions

Sounds really like shit dude, but that doesnt seem like it was something with that will affect you in the long term, doesnt it?

>am i sociopathic or just retarded
That is just retarded user, but starting is always what takes most of the efford

>Is it okay to love someone who doesn't exist?
No. I thought the idea was a good one but ended up having a kind of erotomanic phase and it just fucked me up. Don't do it user.

Why would you be sociopathic, user?

>but that doesnt seem like it was something with that will affect you in the long term, doesnt it?
I don't know m8. I have a deathly fear of cognitive impairment and I haven't felt like myself since then. I have had disassociation and derealization, coupled with some psychotic symptoms. This can really hurt the brain and I want it fucking intact. This was the year I was gonna change things up and I don't want anything to mess up with my brain.

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I've got chills. They're multiplying.

>ended up having a kind of erotomanic phase and it just fucked me up.
How long did it last? How did it fuck you up?

What's life like in the UK m8?

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Starting what, killing people? You clearly haven't done as much quora research as i have you humongous faggot, sociopaths don't kill people. Well not all sociopaths kill people. It's just that people who kill people also tend to be sociopaths. Sometimes. I don't actually know.

>Why would you be sociopathic, user?
That's an awfully open ended question to answer, i suppose i want to be and i suppose i could possibly be. (History of all sorts of.... fun stuff) Then again i could self diagnose with every possible personality disorder in the book if i stretched the answers far enough. Also i'm tired and i think i'm having a somewhat manic fit, because normally i don't write paragraphs this long based on assumption. Well i contain myself. Mostly.

Stop posting art thots, especially the ugly ones

Changed the namefag to wannabeanon, stay tuned for histrionic covert narcissism

>How long did it last?
I don't know. Around a month I guess. It just made me despair over love and made me depressed at the harsh reality of love relationships. That's about it.

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Why are you willing to be an emotional tampon for people whom are in a perpetual state of dysfunction? Hope you get something out of it I guess.

>Why are you willing to be an emotional tampon for people whom are in a perpetual state of dysfunction?
Because I need to cope with things somehow

>What's life like in the UK m8?
Never been to UK.

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Man, i was talking about starting opening paragraphs. Take a fucking chill pill.
You sound like a fucking twitter whore that is triggered over something, jeez man.

I'm tired and didn't sleep and i feel real good
>You sound like a fucking twitter whore that is triggered over something, jeez man.
I burned a moth's corpse once and wanted to put it on instagram but failed because i accidentally left a marilyn manson cd playing in the background so people would probably call me an emo, i also tried drawing a pentagram with my own blood but didn't want to knife my hand because it hurt

But why do i have moodswings this extreme? I'm nothing like this most of the time. Well not like i knew if i was. Maybe the sleep deprivation exaggerated the effects? I can already tell i'll regret posting here later. Oh well.

And it was quite funny of a situation too, mostly in retrospect

Go get a good sleep user, and focus on your work

Not yet, i already arranged a friend to come over. Well more like he arranged but i've been avoiding him for so long i'll just get this over with. I don't really appreciate people.

Also what work? What focus? I can't

>Go get a good sleep user, and focus on your work
Good sleep does very good to the mind.

Yeah but, like, guys. Come on. I'll just rather stay up and listen to 90s semi-goth bands, and go slightly insane for a short while while obsessing over a fucking mental illness. Sounds miles more interesting that... anything else, really. Also my depression and mind fog faded, just a bit, in a long time. And besides i have a friend coming over, so i can't really go to sleep.

I am wondering myself when should be the best time for me to go to fucking sleep. Fuck.
Fucking fuckity fuck fuck
I want to sleep some 12 hours tonight.
You know fucking what? The medication is really starting to take effect, I feel tons better, million times better, and not only that, I am starting to have a lot of fucking hope for the future.

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When you feel like it. I mean you know, you really shouldn't do that, but what are you gonna do about it when it happens ;)

>You know fucking what? The medication is really starting to take effect, I feel tons better, million times better, and not only that, I am starting to have a lot of fucking hope for the future.
Make it last. It won't on it's own.

>Make it last. It won't on it's own.
Oh boy oh boy oh boy oh boy. This time, I'm gonna make it count. And IT'S REALLY GONNA FUCKING COUNT, fucking believe me.

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For any bioluminescent niggers around i take no responsibility for this man's actions

What are you planning though?

I don't feel like talking to a tripfag but you can do me a favor and post more qt redheads

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Stop, my man

>What are you planning though?
I'll keep you on edge. One of these days I will fucking post a thread about it. I live in this fucking place now anyway.

>I don't feel like talking to a tripfag but you can do me a favor and post more qt redheads
Ok user.

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Cmon you can tell me what to look out for. Some specific phrase i can search up in the archives, i don't come here daily, i don't want to miss it.
Or you know, tell me now, but whatever.

I can't fucking say it until it fucking happens and I decide user. I will leave it a mystery until then. I don't think I will an hero just yet though. It will be something else.

Heh fair enough. Remember to blast some killer music though, wink wink.

Just tripfag as ricebot so i can find you later, ok? Pretty please?

>Just tripfag as ricebot so i can find you later, ok? Pretty please?
Of course m8. No problem.

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How do i want to succeed
I cant be helped because I dont want to be a better person

I don't know m8. I don't think there is actually anything to do?

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Thanks. Looking forward to the fireworks. Or whatever festivities you have planned.

Sometimes I get these erratic bursts of energy, where I have a deep desire to improve myself
I stop masturbating, eat better food, go to sleep at a good hour, get work fone on time, etc
However, the longest I can keep up with this "higher quality life" is ~10 days, then I inevitably revert to eating mayonaisse out of a jar with a knife and living mostly on disability
I suppose part of it comes a lack of disciple and self worth, but this cycle of improvement and regression been a reoccuring phenomenon in my life

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I think you should try just changing one little habit at a time and realizing that changing things takes time.

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Thats probably good advice, but its really hard to improve your life when you have nothing to lose but you can still survive easily
When people go through life they usually have enough external factors giving them purpose, things like debts, family or even just putting food on the table.
I dont have anything like that, I could easily coast through life as is and have little trouble, assuming I dont get cancer or something like that