What are you guys planning to put on your suicide notes?
I've been thinking something along of the lines of "I was the asshole all along" or "I'm was an asshole, I deserved to die".
Nothing too edgy, though I admit mine is a little, It passed thankfully.
Im going to write something calling my family out for being such pieces of shit that never gave a damn about anyone except themselves and will implicitly blame them for my suicide in the letter. I dont care if they suicide out of guilt or live the rest of their lives blaming themselves and hope that they do. They have been nothing but shit to me since the start
What did they do to you user?, I had a decent family growing up and my mom was very loving.
The problem has always been me, yes people are horrible but It's not entirely their fault, I am an antisocial asshole regardless of whether or not I ment to be rude that one time or not or maybe I just tell that to myself.
Everyone seems to live a normal happy life and I'm the odd one out, the guy that hasn't ever had a friend in his life, the guy who lives a lonely and sad life, the guy that doesn't try to actually fix his problems, the guy that keeps fucking up, the guy that has emotional outbursts, the guy that acts like a fucking weirdo around other people, the guy that can't seem to control his depression and emotional disorders, I was the one with the problem all along.
If you really wanna twist the knife, take an incident where they were clearly in the wrong and call yourself an asshole over it.. they'll never get over it. For example, you could quote the time that you tried to ask her out and when she said she was busy, you were such an asshole that you didn't even ask her if another time would work or w/e. It doesn't have to be solid, it just needs to match the situation and they'll feel like shit forever. You may die now, but it'll be worth it in the end.
>what did they do to you?
Everything except the things that mattered OP but for starters
>Mom lied to my dad about being on birth control to get pregnant
>Dad wanted me aborted when he found out
>be born to a raging alcoholic BPD Mom and an emotionless autistic Dad who hated me for being born and ruining his life
>be put on SSRIs and Ritalin at the age of 6
>they have no effect because my home life is pure hell
>get taken out of school and put in a psychward for a year
And it never got better after that, my life has only gotten worse and worse. I will kill myself with fentanyl when my dog dies. I only live so that he can stay alive
But know this OP: it was never fault
Your manifesto will mean nothing. In killing yourself, you are making a statement to an uncaring world, the words you write would mean as little as the ones you spoke in life.
Hey, I went off into the wilderness to die. Don't bother looking for my body, it's how I want to die. No visitation, no funeral. Mom and Dad, don't blame yourselves, you were great parents, giving me everything a normal person wold want or need to succeed. I am just tired. Tired of life, tired of putting up a front where I enjoy living. It's not your fault. I just want to sleep. Goodbye.
This isn't really a specific thing i'd write but more of a summary. I've lost any drive to live and I've tried to find it. I've made a better me but no matter what i do i can't find happiness with anything. I feel as if I have next to no emotion and I'm devoid of feeling. I feel bad leading on people thinking I'll get better some day or be happy because life seems so neutral. I've tried to become religious but that drove me further away, I've tried but any improvement that does occur seems so fruitless.
Suicide note and a manifesto are different things, there is a difference between some one who has genuine problems with ongoing depression and some psycho with a manifesto.
I love van Gogh
>I will kill myself with fentanyl when my dog dies.
I know that feel, kind of, I can't make my mom go through that amount of pain she's the only person in my life that loves me, I can't do that to her, I'd probably kill myself regardless of if she passed away anyways, I haven't done it because of her, she genuinely loves me.
I dunno man but if any girls out there are suicidal let me smash first. I won't try to talk you out of it.
you're a forward thinker
what are you doing here, Chad?
>picking up suicidal Annies
My greatest dissapointment in life was finding out my mom didnt love me. She only wanted a captive audience to feel self important and to irreversibly shackle my sperm donor to her
lol I'm stupid enough that I don't have to be suicidal to die before I'm 30 so I don't have to worry about it.
>I will kill myself with fentanyl when my dog dies. I only live so that he can stay alive
I know that feel so well. Only reason I havent done it is because of my cats. They wouldnt understand why I left them. They get so happy to see me when I get home from work and they cuddle me all night or all day when i have a day off. Thing that sucks is theyre only 2 and 3. Maybe by the time theyre old and dying, i wont want to kill myself anymore. Cats have a long lifespan if they die naturally.
Did you get the full body spasms from the ssris and ritalin interaction? I knew a guy who did and they stuck around for years afterwards.
I am of the general opinion that suicide notes are for cowards who don't have the courage to say what they think and face the consequences of it.
My dog is 12 and I am 28. Neither of us has long to live but everyday I look towards my dog dying with dread but at the same time I know that will be last push I need to kill my self and it brings a sense of piece. He is my best friend and like a son to me so when he is gone I will have nothing left anchoring me to this world
I honestly cant remember much of those days because I tried so hard to block them out. I get frozen in place whenever I start to dive those memories so I generally try not to. They were very very bad times for me and most of what I remember is from being in crisis nurseries that my mom would abandon me at for days at a time or being thrown into the (quiet room) and left to rot. I have extreme fear of abandonement now because of that
I'd rather just be straight forward and to the point.
Also as a final wish to skip funeral/memorial service and for my sisters not to post pictures of me on social media.
I think its best if i draw the line here.
I want to truly apologize to those who ive been a burden to, and will continue to be a burden to through what ive done.
The reason for my action, if you care, was that i think that there is nothing i can do, i think is worthwhile to do, to redeem that fact that life is suffering.
Following that conlcusion i dont want to become a burden for the rest of my life.
So I think its best if i draw the line here.
I dont expect you to emphasize, i just expect you to respect my decision.
If i didnt decide to come into this world i at least want to decide to leave it.
In that meaning sorry and farewell.
-Dennis
My cat died last year, she was the last thing I was living for.
I'm waiting on a gamble to play out right now, if it crashes, I'll be gone, probably within a few days.
Are you the user with the bitch mother? Being abandoned so young does screw you up, why'd she do it? Mine just couldn't stand the world revolving around anything but her, as soon as I grew past Maunchausen-by-proxy age she was so over motherhood.
Make a game out of it.
Claim that you've been harboring a secret for years; you've been the lover of a very old and very rich gay man. Now that he is gone, you have nothing to live for, but you want his fortune to go to the person who can find it.
I'd suggest saying that he hid a lot of gold during the 1980's, and give a set of clues leading to 36.414974, -120.673641, maybe with the phrase "5 levels down; as far back as you can go".
Near those coordinates is an old flooded mercury mine; the whole site is contaminated and is fenced off as a Superfund site.
Surrounding it is a restricted access area which a person can only enter for five days in a year. The soil is almost pure asbestos. If you look at an aerial view and zoom out; all that white isn't snow.
A fun reward to end the hunt.
It's kinda difficult topic for me.
After I die, I want to be buried in the woods. No funeral. I will become food for the plants and animals.
But if I have to off myself, I'd first leave my home. I don't want to cause distress to anyone. Let them assume I'm lost or never returning. But there's no guarantee of my burial this way.
I don't want anybody here to kill themselves. I hope you find peace in life and not death.
It is possible, and a good first step would be to stop engaging with this community, it is just constantly reinforcing the horrible habit you people have of being self destructive. Life is never going to get better that way. I really, really hope none of you go through with it.
I've pretty much settled on two. Either:
"May this thousandth be my last." (maybe too edgy)
or
"Sorry to disappoint."
I'm leaning towards the latter.
Well it depends man, theres the "I killed myself because of you" the "I want to make you feel bad" and "I hate being alive and I'm very tired"
Just kill yourself far away in the woods. Animals will eat your fresh body and plants will slowly grow over and out of you.
I'm going to take a picture of myself with the rope around my neck with a big smile and a thumbs up, then print it out and sign it. And on the back I'm going to write: Dear Mom and Dad, you were both great people who tried your best, don't blame yourselves. Love always, user.
The twist is that they were both abysmal pieces of shit and my mother abandoned me when I was like, 2.
Ive caused you all so much pain, pain that you all didnt deserve. This is my punishment. I hope you all can forgive me.
I'm writing a long Nazi manifesto in order to troll the journalists. In reality, I believe nothing of what's written in it, and it's actually full of pop references - for instance a war between Merkabah and Lucifer is detailed and my distaste for the angelic side is explained in that Tyrael is a nigger. Sadly the manifesto won't be famous because I'm not interested in killing others, but one can hope. Maybe I'll an hero in a bizarre way, maybe I'll stream it, who knows.
Fucked up, my dad abandoned me and my mom around that age too, It's odd because I actually grew up with a step dad and I was told I wasn't his kid when I was 11.
It's a weird feel because I always knew he wasn't my dad even as a child, he just didn't treat me the way he would treat his kids, he would constantly berate me and beat me for the slightest thing, he didn't ever teach me anything or show me any affection like he did for his kids and grandchildren. I was basically just a gateway to pussy, he would buy me something nice and get nice with me mom.
The guy is a fucking shit head, a arrogant psychotic faggot with a giant ego, I remember being a child and hating him with a passion, he would come back from his 3 day absence drunk bullshit and fight with my mom he was in the middle of his bullshit (hitting my mom) when I tried to fight back, he threw me to the other side of the room and took his belt out and beat me to a fucking pulp.
To this day I still hate him with a passion, he stopped drinking but no amount of money will make me change my mind, he is still the same psychopath that "jokes" about killing my mom, just completely irritational bullshit again and again, every single day of my life has been the same with this man, just constantly terrified of him doing something to my mom, now he's scared of me so he keeps his dick in a vase, the issue is that he hasn't fucked off and I'm 20 now and I can't move on with my life because he's still there, I desperately want independence and move out but I simply can't let this psycho alone with my mom.
Fuck it, im not even gonna leave a note
"Thank you for all the good times. You guys gave me the perfect life but we all know from now on it's all downhill, might as well take a shortcut to the finish line"
gayyy
at least do one interesting thing before you die
stir up some shit
I'll consider it because of dubs, but I feel committing seppuku leaves quite a mess already.
Four words, nice and simple: "Fuck this, I'm out."
I will not be writing a suicide note. There is no point. I'm not going to try to milk sympathy from someone or place blame on someone for my choice.
Football season is over
notes are for fags
>too much of a pussy to even assert himself in death
I'm glad you're an hero'ing
I'll join you shortly
"Not really much I feel I should say here, I'm sorry things have come to this. Thanks for all that you have done for me."
Yes, better I act like an attention seeking emo faggot and leave a shitty letter for my "loved ones". Get on my level, normalfag.
Are there any modern suicide notes that I can read that have been published online? With suicide notes I mean manifesto's of people who wrote a book before they necked themselves. I've read the one of Elliot and Cho's but are there any normal ones that didn't go on a killing spree thus they went unnoticed? I can't seem to find one, or I'm not googling the right words.
nice digits
it's not about getting attention, you'll be dead
it's about fucking with the normalcunts who live
if you don't have any way to do that with any of your words, I guess just fold your last hand
that is the greatest freedom you could achieve. you are not beholden to your mother or father. you are your own person
Dear Mom and Dad,
Fuck you and fuck Islam. Maybe next time you won't put your precious Allah above your own fucking son. Oh wait, that's right! IM YOUR ONLY CHILD AND YOU'RE IN YOUR 50'S. HAHA.
-E.
i wish i was normal, i cannot stop these feelings. im sorry i killed the family cat an never came clean. i hate these feelings and voices. i love you but i cannot love you. - e
Most likely a note to my mother about how fucking much I hate her for ruining my life from the beginning
Context:
>be me
>be born 26 years ago
>my dad is a native American
>my mom came from France to the US when she was 15
>they got married and I was born shortly after, my brother was born when I was 3ish
>mom decided to move to France
>dad couldn't go, couldn't speak baguette and had a well paid job in the US
>they (my mom) literally decided to have "long distance marriage"
I had a fatherless (he would call us 6-7 times a month and would visit us for like 2 weeks in summer so we were still "raised" just by mom) home just because stupid whore wanted to go back to this fucking shithole country. She never gave a fuck about us, I think the only reason she left with us was alimony. I ended up being an anxious outcast