What is your darkest secret? Something so vile or embarassing, that you would never share irl and you always try to repress the memory of it. Share it with us, we're all anonymous here.
>best friend and me >early teenage years >tryed to persuade him in letting me fuck his ass >he was a bit younger and felt very intimidated >i didn't just asked him right ahead, i oozed my words right to the point where he got what i meant without me implying it directly >tfw when i saw his face of terror/disgust when i uttered my request >years go by, never talk about it >tfw i almost molested my friend
I used to let my cat lick the inside of my mouth when I was like 12.
Cameron Jones
but originallio why?
Ryan Bell
When I was in kindergarden we sucked each other's cocks with friends. The teacher saw us and was really shocked but didn't tell my parents. When I was 14 I massaged my sister's big tits in our swimming pool (she was 17) and this gave me a boner. She then massaged my dick but my parents cam near the pool so we stopped. We almost fucked this day, some similar events occured the same year. We hate each other but we both secretly want to fuck really bad. She will probably never do it because she said it would destroy my mom.
Logan Sullivan
>break up with a manipulative gf >have only one friend >he's an alcoholic loser like me >for whatever fucking reason she ends up seducing and dating him, he feels awful about it >they eventually break up and I see him one day walking down the road outside my house since we live close by >offer him a beer and tell him it's all good she was a bitch >we get shitfaced drunk and he was drunk to start >I live on a mountain, he goes to take a piss off the side >falls over >try to help him but he can't get up. >tells me to fuck off >I'm too drunk for this shit. Go inside and go to sleep >cops find him face down in the road the next morning >he gets permanent brain damage, doesn't remember what happened >everyone thinks I tried to kill him >lose friends because they think I'm a psycho
Worst part is I don't even care. Dumb fuck shouldn't have pissed there now I'm the villain. I wasn't cut out for friends and I plan to off myself very soon.
I used to watch my father pee until I was 12 years old. For some reason he was one of those guys that never closed the door behind him, and I would go in and look at his penis, pretending I had something to say.
Sometimes in the morning, he'd wash his dick and I was clueless as to why but obviously he had been jerking off cause he was hard, but I would still go in there and watch him wash it.
I'm not attracted to my father, I don't even have an incest fetish. But I was molested as a kid which left me with a weird obsession for penis that I didn't understand myself because I was so young when it happened.
The memory of me doing this is too awkward and embarrassing, but I wish I could ask my dad why he didn't just start closing the fucking door when his obviously freak of nature child comes in every day to look at his dick. He's a normal guy, he's not a molester or anything, and he has no idea I was molested either.
Weird, a memory I really hate and wish I could forget.
Carter Murphy
I took my dog out for a walk once when I was about 7 or 8. He starts peeing and for some reason I get on my hands and knees and drink his piss. It tasted horrible so I spit it out and stood up. Look around and through the window of my house I see my mom watching. She never said a word to her autistic child
Jose Ramirez
when I was a kid (11-12 yo), for some reason, I fucking tortured my grandparents' dog. I don't know why, but I got so much pleasure for doing so. It was just that dog that I seemed to hate. Never did anything to another animal (well, aside from eating them), and I feel awful about it nowadays.
Jonathan Turner
no zoophilia fetishes developed from that?
Also, I once pooped in my hand when I was 16. I was showering and had to poo, so I got the idea that I could poo into my hand then just throw the turd in the toilet bowl. It worked, I did it. But the second that turd landed in my hand I felt disgusted with myself and wondered what the fuck it was I really was doing.
Really made me question my sanity.
Andrew Adams
last part is relatable. I fucking hate it when people think YOU should be responsible for their safety when they're drunk as shit and blame YOU when they fuck up. I've had a similar situation. my friends and I went to the beach to drink. my mate drank seven metric tonnes of beer, so I escorted him home to our cabin where we all live. I went to bed too. for some fucking reason he woke up 10 minutes later and WENT TO SLEEP OUTSIDE AND GOT COLD.
the next day everyone told me what a terrible friend I am. what the fuck was I supposed to do? baby sit him for 8 hours so he sleeps like a normal human being? it's not like he did 10 hits of acid to need babysitting. it's fucking alcohol.
Landon Gonzalez
my parents were super overprotective and convinced me we lived in a bad neighborhood (we didn't). i developed massive anxiety issues and thought every small bump in the night or random sound was a potential home invasion.
up until 6th grade, if i ever woke up in the middle of the night, i immediately took my blankets and curled up in a ball at the foot of their bed until one of them got up for work.
David Clark
He was never the same and neither was I. We live in a fucked up world.
Landon Richardson
I don't do much degenerate stuff, or I guess inherently wrong things/things I should be ashamed of, but this is one.
I cheated on my first ever GF, it was online BUT she told her IRL friends about me. I deeply regret it, and from then on, I'm faithful to my partners and always make sure to tell them about any potential cheating.
Someone asking me for nudes, me thinking about someone, or using someone I know as masturbation material ect.
Its pretty tame I guess. but that accident defined me and its why I'm deeply monogamous now, so it was actually a good thing it happened.
Jack Nelson
i have two to share:
the first one is that when i was 19 i cheated on my last gf of two years with my ex when we first started dating, then she cheated on me before we broke up, i am now 26 and have never told her this. she got super heavy into drugs out of her own guilt (i was her first serious bf, even took her virginity) and has been doing nothing but moving around the country and getting into but abusive relationships back to back and i feel partially at fault for this
the second one was something that happened at my first job. i had dropped my glass weed pipe in the bathroom and it had shattered into a million pieces do i cleaned it up and left. a few days later one of the dishwashers gets fired because someone claims to have found a piece of a "crack pipe" in the bathroom. my boss went into her drawer and pulled out a piece of my pipe that i had missed and showed it to me, my response was "oh wow."
Samuel Reyes
what'd you do to the dog?
I used to torture fish as a child 7-12, cut their eyes out while they were alive and other vile shit. I feel really ashamed about it now and would never tell anybody about it because it makes me sound like a complete psychopath. I've never harmed any other animals since then.
What's fucked up is that it started with me feeling guilty that my dad and I were fishing in the first place, I was sad that we were disturbing the fish, taking them from their home and killing them. I guess my dad wanted me to shut up about it so he basically convinced me its okay and that they don't feel anything. So after he said that I got curious about torturing them.
He had a shot at raising me well that and he chose to enable that kind of behavior instead.
Jason Cooper
I've been pretending to be [various girls I found cute] on the internet for years. Only lately I'm getting out of that dark place and starting to appreciate myself for who I really am.
Thomas Fisher
I used to touch my cousin at night when she was sleeping. Usually just licked her feet and touched her boobs.
to this day I fear that she was awake and told everyone and everyone knows it just nobody wants to tell me because they feel bad for me for being an autistic retard
Jaxon Jackson
how old were you and how old was she? originalallel
Gavin Bennett
>What is your darkest secret? I wish to be the little girl.
Austin Brooks
I think I was 15 and she was 13. I don't remember well. I don't WANT to remember.
Aiden Walker
I shared a bed with my gran until I was 13 and we bathed together until i was 14-15ish. I also jacked off while watching her sunbathe.
Dominic Johnson
I have POCD and it's an actual fucking nightmare that caused me to spend 4 days in a psych ward. Someone please wake me up from this unending hell.
Cooper Hughes
I jerked off with my own steaming turd once. I even watched my diet beforehand to acquire a smooth paste like shit for easy masturbation. I started the shower and dropped the load, fished it out of the toilet and took into shower. I went at it like a madman and worried I got shit in my pee hole. After I came I stood there disgusted with myself, right hand covered in shut and semen. Left hand covering my mouth because I was gagging gagging
I wouldn't just give that shit for free. I'm not a commie
Nathan King
stop pretending it's hot then. you're just a greedy cunt in it for money.
your kind has ruined amateur porn. I wish we could go back to the webcam and camcorder days of amateur porn, where people didn't have money on their mind, it was just an expression of raw and real sex.
Fuck you for being part of the cancer.
Noah Foster
> be 14 years old >visiting friend >playing Need for Speed with him >we always chat about random stuff while playing >today's topic:sex >he wonders how penis tastes like > i ask him if he wants to taste mine >he agrees to only lick it once > he does > we both realize what we were doing >never mention it again
Luke Gomez
Happened one year ago.
> Be me > Work as a hometeacher 15 hours/week during my studies because life is expensive in Paris and I wanted some cash > Work for the same family during the whole week with an autistic son > Been asked to also do the dishes > Mfw I can't refuse to do this because of my rent > Spent a year doing this while teaching some autist mathematics and philosophy > Noticed a somewhat tense relation between his mom (my employer) and his dad. > My parents divorced when I was really young. But I still remember how they were to each other > Notice a lot of similarities > Don't really mind though > Until the end of the year. Autistic mom blames me for not being here during the Holidays > Tell her we didn't agree on this > Get mad and threaten me to fire me > I accept but sweet vengeance in mind > Been noticing that her husband was really insisting on who she calls, reads a message from etc. > Get his mail > Send him an anonymous mail telling him she's been fucking a coworker > Didn't hope much of it, just bet on the paranoia to do its magic > Mfw when it actually worked > Mfw when the autistic kid tells me they are getting divorced
It's less of a "give me money and I'll give you lewds" and more of a exchange for people who things for me
Jason Torres
Imagine if that had gone a different way.
Lincoln Garcia
future psychopath killers. please kill yourselves now before you harm soneone. 100% serious here please kill yourselves.
why didn't you tell your dad you were molested?
fuckin BASED
fake and gay
Ethan James
When i was 15 i used to lay on bed and then put my legs up and get my dick over my face then i jerked off so that the cum would go in my mouth. I also shoved some things in my ass like a pen and a rubber tube. Never did any of those things ever again tho.
Cooper Diaz
>why didn't you tell your dad you were molested? I did, but it wasn't until I was 15.
Kayden Murphy
damn dude that's a hella burden to shoulder
Samuel Stewart
I have two things.
Back when I and my sister were both kids, we tried fucking (obviously failed, couldn't even find the hole). Somehow I managed to convince a neighbour fat girl to try and have sex with me, she went along but obv no penetration ever happened. Not sure anyone else remembers that. I'm still a virgin, for the record, and had some severe self esteem issues and lots of crushing.
I have also fiddly-diddled my cats because I'm sexually frustrated, so I guess giving my cats handjobs using my fingertips on their tiny barbed dicks helps relieve that pressure. I don't do it anymore.
Cameron Gray
Meh, it wasn't a violent molestation. It was done by a guy that was 16 when I was like 4 or something and it was enough to fuck me up but not enough where it was traumatic. Just enough where it screwed my entire sexuality up.
He didn't fuck me, he just forced me to jerk him off and then he played with me.
Wyatt Lopez
i bet a lot of kids have that about torturing fish. i remember the first time i killed a fish and its exciting for a kid. its like wrestling. its this weird visceral experience banging it against a rock while it whips around.theyre really tough too.
that picture describes my life pretty well. I wish more people understood.
Adam Kelly
post pics of ur sister
Nicholas Rivera
I once accidentally jerked off smelling my sisters pair of bathing shorts thinking they were my cousins.
I didn't find out until like a year later that they were hers and not my cousins.
Lucas Perry
>watched my mom get raped >did nothing to help her
Kevin Miller
>be me >back when I be14 years old >English, living in Spain >best friend is Austrian kid who speaks English >he's 16 so doesn't go to school >I ditch school every day and hang around with him >always share my packed lunch that my mum made me for school with him >usually baguette with ham/cheese or whatever >find box of rat poison in parent's pub >bluey/green powder with what looks like seeds in it >take one of the packets >next day, take a few bites of sandwich and then pour rat poison powder of cream cheese and mix it in with the tinfoil the sandwich was wrapped in >pretend I'm still chewing the sandwich as I approach him >hand him the rest of it and say it's blue cheese and I don't like it very much >he eats the entire thing how_the_fuck_does_that_not_taste_like_shit.JPEG >few hours later, nothing is happening >next day, complains he's constipated >day after, still hasn't shit >week goes by, still hasn't shit, complains of hemorrhoids >becomes seriously ill and doctor prescribes super strength laxatives and cream for ass growths >he gets better
I still have no idea why I did that, he was my friend and I fed him poison just to see if it would kill him. It didn't, but I was willing to kill my friend out of curiosity. He still has no idea I did that.
I touched a little girl when I was like 12. 4-5 years later I touched my cousin. I was such a stupid kid. I've said and done so many mean things, all because I'm not normal. I'm so fuckin sorry. I deserve every bad thing that's ever happened to me.
Liam Thompson
>Bohoo 4 days Try a month
Hudson Jones
>POCD Bizarre that thing is a thing. First thing I've ever heard of it.
How common is it?
Jackson Hughes
>you're not a real whore Taking money for shit like this IS the thing that makes him a whore.
Brody Reed
When I was around 9-10, me and a couple of kids (all boys) from the neighbourhood would hang out in this new house that was still in construction. We used to jump the fence and basically go play around the construction site. There were times when we started to touch ourselves and tryed fucking eachother, but we couldn't achieve penetration cus we were really small, obviously. We would do all kind of fucked up sex games where we would play catch naked in the house or other typical childhood games, but with a sexual twist. We would tie eachother with ropes and suck eachothers dicks, and sometimes we would even pretend we're girls and dance very lascive. I think I had my first orgasm then, no ejaculation obviously but i had a hot tingling sensation when one of them stroked my willy really hard while i was lying on my back. One of them kissed me on the mouth but It disgusted me so I stoped hanging out with them. It was really fucked, i was curious as hell and let myself go but I felt extreme guilt and shame years after, i don't know why. It took me a long time to finally get over it.
Dominic Baker
I'm a total normalfag but secretly into vore
Leo Ross
>POCD holy shit I think I may have this. I never dared telling anybody but it almost drove me to complete insanity during my teenage years, and I mean that, it was a miracle I didn't end up in a psychward.
Everything about this describes me to a T. I've always known that my life will end up in suicide due to it, it got better with the years, probably because I repressed it, but it never truly left me. I can never tell anybody abut it either because its sick.
Robert Anderson
I see regular white people doing shit like this with their cats and dogs all the time.
Noah Williams
>neighbour across the street with whom I'm good friend >me, horny 17 years old >neighbour has a friendly female dog, knows me well as I used to play with her since she was a pup >neighbour goes to a long trip with his parents >they had to ask someone to feed the dog once in a while, so obviously they ask me >one day i get touchy with the dog >she gets really submissive and gets on her back >long story short, i manage to penetrate and creampie the dog
i haven't had sex with any animals after and i don't like zoophilia but in my excuse i was extremely horny back then
Jacob Gonzalez
How did you not puke afterwards? How are you not puking right now?
Jason Jones
>>i didn't just asked him right ahead, i oozed my words right to the point where he got what i meant without me implying it directly What did you say?
Joseph Sanchez
Not really a deep, dark secret but I would never tell anyone I did it. My old neighbor was a complete dick so before I moved out I collected an entire 20lb cat litter container full of pee and poured it all over the interior of his brand new car. Took a while to collect that much and the smell even gagged me. Watched the next morning as he got in his car. He looked super pissed at first but then actually started crying. Didnt Care. Fuck that guy, he made my life hell for 3 years.
Justin Wilson
I want to date my sister. I recently saw her dressed really nicely, way nicer than usual and just thought 'wow, she's gorgeous'. What really blew my mind was seeing her in a skirt and tights. She normally wears jeans or shorts, so seeing the way the tights hugged her legs and the skirt revealed just enough thigh to tease your imagination made me think how gorgeous she truly is. I'd love to take her out on a date then come home and just cuddle in bed. No sex even, just being able to cuddle and treat her right is good enough for now Original post
Dylan James
I've made out with both of my sisters before. never telling anyone i know.
Ian Gonzalez
When I was 13 I went through a super edgy phase and I would buy rats and mice from the pet shop to 'feed my snake' that I didn't have. I used to take these mice to secluded spots in the woods near my house and cut them up. No I did not dissect them there was no method to it i would just cut them up. Sometimes I would take out all of its bones other times I would drain all its blood sometimes rip off it's head. I also would keep all of these dead rats and mice in a plastic jar mixed with live ones. I'm 100% sure I'm going to hell for this so I'm trying to do all in my power during my life to counteract that.
Tyler Richardson
I didn't puke afterwards but I was really disgusted, just like when you fap to weird shit and feel bad after. I immediately took a long bath and was very paranoid weeks after about getting some disease on my dick.
Carter Morgan
Yikes your story was hard to digest; I'm amazed though that you were disgusted by it and not proud of it, or are you saying that to save face? since People on this site are proud of things they shouldn't be
Logan Lewis
It saddens me that no one wants to help people like this. I always read stories on here about psychologists dropping people who reveal this stuff, even getting reported to the police, when they haven't done anything. Even saying you want to help people like this you draw disgusted looks from people.
Joshua Sullivan
I'll never love myself because of it, I accepted that almost 10 years ago now. I will never allow anybody to get close to me due to it. I hate myself more than anybody ever could hate me.
thanks for your empathy, I wish I wasn't like this. I see no happy ending for me.
Logan Morgan
did you post about this before? story? Not for jerking purposes just curious.
Leo Barnes
>tfw I did the same thing but we ended up fucking >we got addicted to fucking, even at school >his cocklust was sometimes more aggressive than my asslust God that was the best. Shame I moved out of town.
Dominic Morales
hi baguette
Aiden Russell
got some gross fetishes
Evan Rodriguez
>I got handsy with a girl on the bus, basically sexual assault I've paid the price mentally, but I fear greater issues down the line because #metoo
>young Girl my mom used babysit saw my dick and said something about it to her parents not understanding the situation I didn't do anything, she just caught me with my pants down, fear similar repercussions
What the fuck do I do about this? It's been 3 years since #1 and 5 since #2
