What is currently depressing about your life?

No friends, no gf, no job, no car, no post secondary education. Currently trying to land a wageslave minimum wage job so I can start saving up to get the fuck out of my parent's house but I've gotten no callbacks so far. Living at home sucks because my Dad is a piece of shit of to me and hardly ever buys food. Mom would help but can barely pay her part of the bills. Every day I have to spend at home is lonely hell. At least I have internet.

just now coming to the realization that certain things that i put off are now never going to happen.

Internet got so cheap even gypsies can afford it.
That is the only thing as a yurofag I am feeling less sad about.

hearing loss and the depersonalization that comes with it

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I tried to cure my masturbation addiction and realized I don't have anything productive to fill that time with
>already have a job
>already working out
>already know how to play two musical instruments fairly well
>already read lots of books thanks to long commute to work
>already know how to draw
>my garden is doing great
>can cook
>vidja is boring now
Made me realize I've done pretty much there's to do in life and that the only thing that feels remotely good anymore is playing with my dick while watching increasingly degenerate porn. I have no "what if"'s worth exploring left and all there's to do is to mindlessly trigger chemical reactions in my brain over and over until I die

I was supposed to get my bachelor's and start my master's this year but that won't happen because I fucked everything up

Lack of money. I got into crypto, but the market has been shitting itself and declining all year. I know it's a patient man's game, but god, I wish things would turn around already. The only thing that's consistently made me money is buying into PoWH3D.

Nothing yet I feel fucking awful. I have a good job, I have good money rolling in, I have more than enough time for vidya and all that, yet I just want to off myself.
The upside naturally is that having money removes one thing to worry about, I don't have to think twice about buying games or food which is really nice, but in the end its a small relief.

A part of me is saying that I'm lonely, but I refuse to believe that. I've been fine being alone for all my life up until point, why would it change now at the age of 26?

Human condition to feel lonely. Your genes want you to breed.

I dropped out of 12th grade TWICE. I'm 20 and won't finish high school. I'm retarded

entire thread of anons sharing their stories but no one responding

is this what r9k has become, it's been years since I've been on this board

are you a neet?

remember it could always be worse user. do you have any hobbies that you can interrupt the routine with?

please do not kill yourselves anons

do you want to talk user? I used to be in the same position and to some extent still am, we might be able to be friends

meaning isn't derived from pleasure but from responsibility -- maybe that brings some ideas to mind?

it's easy to become complacent when you're not being challenged

do you derive any satisfaction from work or hobbies?

If I fap regularly I am a degenerate

If I nofap I become a degenerate

I don't care about sex, I don't care about women, I hate women and don't want anything to do with them, but I'm literally not allowed to escape, ever, from wanting to fuck them

you're still trapped in the addiction mentality. you only think and feel that way because your dopamine receptors are fucked and that takes time and a concerted effort to recover from.

it sounds like you're fairly knowledgeable, why not spend time teaching other anons about thing you know? I know literally very little about cooking, I'd appreciate some tips

>are you a neet?
For now, but soon not anymore. What to do?

Have a job and help supply for my parents as they struggle to stay afloat. My life feels devoid of meaning and purpose, as one might expect when you have no hobbies anymore and have never had friends.

what do you mean by that? are you starting school/getting a job, or what? in my personal experience I knew what I wanted (at least for the time being, I guess) once I stopped being a neet

I'm not sure which user I'm responding to, but I'd reiterate my point about trying to find some sort of responsibility, whether through work, school, or some other well-defined community. why don't you have any hobbies anymore/why haven't you made friends?

My work life only fills so many voids and my career with what I do has taken over all other aspects. It's depressing but eventually I will find someone I have hope

What did you want? Something materialistic?

That I am socially inept, I can cope with it by distracting myself with entertainment, but it still comes back to square one. Inb4, "Find yourself people who like the same thing as you, bro".. I did and they don't stick, everyone I try to make friends with despite us laughing and having fun every time we're hanging out.. it feels like they don't see me as a friend.

The fact that I can't fix my broken PC for 3 months now, I wanna play some PC games its been ages man. Anyone better spare me with your old PC and I'll kiss your feet.

I am . I dont know why nothing brings me pleasure anymore, and I've always been a massive loner my whole life. I love speedrunning and had hope getting into a community and giving myself a new hobby would revitalize my life and lead to opportunities of friendship, but my hopes were crushed by the cruel uncaring world and its inhabitants, and now I have nothing.

that's good, it's important to remain hopeful. what career do you have such that it takes up so much time though?

I suppose it depends on how you define materialistic -- I was never really driven by money, and have always been a very frugal and ascetic-minded person. I guess I mostly want to be more knowledgeable -- not just about my career field, but about the world at large. this might not apply to you directly, since I've had a general idea about where my passions have lied since my late teens

do you know that, or is it just a feeling? I know when I started being more social I had to actively correct for my learned paranoia and asocial tendencies from being lonely for so long

I'm obviously not familiar with your experiences in speedrunning, but I'd implore you not to give up hope quite yet. what's stopping you from becoming part of that community, or rather what happened to make you feel that way?

also these fucking image captchas are awful, what has happened to Jow Forums

Read my original post , that about sums it up.

so you can't afford to purchase a functioning n64?

I'm this guy, I don't really know for sure. It's just a feeling and I'm too much of a pussy to ask for validation. I'm too afraid of rejection, and I bet they would just lie anyway to make it less awkward.

Tried 3 separate times and 2 separate game cartidges. I spent all of my expendable cash i had already.

well, you don't need to ask. actions speak louder than words, after all.

do they initiate conversations? do they ask you how you're feeling? do they invite you to things? do they listen to you or wait for their turn to speak?

if not, then they're probably not close friends. if they claim to be close friends and don't do those things, they're lying. if you don't have anyone in your life who does those things, then it's something to strive for and work towards -- you're only doing yourself a disservice by remaining paralyzed by fear and perceived discomfort

that's not to say legitimate alienation/isolation can occur in these circumstances, but I don't know your full situation obviously

are you a neet? I don't know your financial situation or how much these things cost, but if it's a material problem like that it's not like your goal of getting into speedrunning is permanently destroyed

I work in the oilfield.

Have to support mom and help pay bills. I had a few hundred dollars saved from when we had some left over and I spent it all trying to get one.

Everything seems arbitrary, even if I believe in destiny/fate or God, I am the one who must look away from how absurd and outrageous and unreasonable so many things are. I want to die so badly. Life can suck my short neet dick and nuts, I really hope I die today.

damn, I can't imagine how much more strenuous that must be. at least the pay is good, right?

that's rough user
I don't have much more to say then, except stay strong and maybe use saving up more money to try again as the proverbial carrot on a stick you need to keep going

what's wrong user

Thanks desu, but my hope has pretty much been drained. I've been going through these past weeks as an unfeeling husk getting closer to an hero. Only thing stopping me is my family and knowing what it would do to them.

the lack of motivation and discipline I continually tell myself I'll start working on tomorrow
tomorrow keeps coming and nothing keeps happening
years and years and years
it's been worse, and through medication and actual thinking I am/have improved, but still these essentially things slip my grasp consistently. I wanna blame my internet addiction but I know it's just me.

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>If I nofap I become a degenerate
that's actually one of the intentions for doing a nofap: to learn how to curb and temper all the disgusting thoughts and lusts that will inevitable build up and mutate. perseverance through that weakened state is a huge factor for actually befitting from fapping abstinence.

Too much money from my parents. I want to become more financially independent but it seems so difficult.

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At least your parents give you money. Seems like an odd thing to make someone depressed. Are you in a position in which you can't refuse their money?

>porn addiction

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