When i was 16 my girlfriend broke with me and confessed she had cheated on me. We here both virgins and we swore we'd have our first time in midsummer. I cried for an entire day, so much I puked every single drop in my stomach, to the point the only thing that came out was yellow bile. I didn't eat for 2 weeks and lost 40 lbs and dIdn't speak to anyone for nearly 2 months. I felt like I every single strand of tissue in my body was being ripped apart and felt my heart hardening. I changed completely after that.
I used to be a happy and fun-loving kid until middle school. While other kids were going through puberty and actually looking their age if not older, I still looked like a scrawny, extremely short child. Even though I would have been 12 or 13 at the time, people mistook me for being 9 or 10. I was treated like shit for it until I left the school, and it fucked with me for some time.
Same. I didnt go through puberty until I was 16. It completely ruined my life.
Benjamin Allen
I was a weirdo through high school by choice but I tried to change when I turned 18. I already browsed Jow Forums then. I got a cute gf at 19 and when i was about to fuck her i couldnt get hard. This happened several times. I did manage to fuck some below average girl eventually by using viagra but I was already traumatized, drinking daily, having lost all friends and a college dropout. The whole not getting hard thing kinda snowballed into my whole life getting fucked.
Sebastian Martinez
I was a late bloomer and was made fun of. I was unknowingly black pilled before I even got into that shit
John Morris
I grew up in a shithole town where I was always ignored, mocked or bullied up until my mid-teens. I would go for years without having any friends or even colleagues. The few people who "befriended" me (or so I thought) ended up hurting me the most. When I had to go somewhere else for high school I found out most people aren't actually this shitty but I'm still mentally scarred and convinced people are plotting to fuck me over behind my back.
Juan Thompson
I developed more insane pychosis and realized I cant be not weird. Only you people can make me laugh and give me a feeling of home. Weirdly enough since I started to act like Im on Jow Forums in real life and just dont give much of a fuck I became more interested in stuff and people got more interested in me.
Jordan Fisher
I think it all changed for me in year 5 but I'm not sure why. Just two years before that, in year 3, my teacher said I was top of the class, but I've failed each and every single year afterwards. I think some causes may be when I started playing the 360 and I wasted a lot of time on that. Or maybe it was puberty and I developed anxiety. I'm not sure exactly.
Aaron Perry
Im about to be 19 and my voice still sounds like im 14 at fucking best but ive went through about every other aspect of puberty
Gavin Phillips
when i was 11 or 12 i found out my dad was using my computer to cheat on my mom by finding gay men to fuck on craigslist. he still had his email logged in and i looked through and saw 3+ years worth of emails of this happening. told my mom, she confronted him and shit just spiraled down from there. my mom couldn't financially move out on her own and take me with her so we had to stay with my dad for many many years in the same home. he never knew i was the that found out about his escapades. i had a slew of medical problems during that time involving major surgery for my back and other seriously disheartening shit which i'm surprised i didn't kill myself from having to deal with all of it. was always locked in my room, ignoring my dad's knock on my door before asking "hey user, bud, do you want anything from the store? they have a new flavor gatorade you might like", i'll be silent and he'd walk away and leave. barely saying hi if i mistakenly ran into him on the rare occasion i had left my room. almost not acknowledging his existence in his own home, he knew he deserved it. he's lucky i didn't put a bullet through his fucking brain for putting me and my mom through all that shit. but fastforward today, in a comfy apartment with my mom away from that toxic piece of shit. still struggling but we're gonna make it. we have to. told my mom that i can't even say his name without getting into a fit of rage, and that she'd need to tell my dad the truth on how she really found out he was cheating. they met up, she explained to him how i found everything out, told my mom about it, how he's dead to me and i never want to ever speak to or hear from him again. she told me he was floundering on the floor like a little bitch, crying and screaming he knew he fucked up our lives and that he's sorry and doesn't blame me for wanting him dead. i'm 23 now and just writing this fills me with anger you wouldn't believe. feels good to let it out.
Brody Murphy
My puberty started sometime in early high school, and my face started changing not too long afterwards. I grew five inches by the start of freshman year, and am still growing right now. I had a huge wave of acne in my sophomore year, but it cleared up towards the end of it. Once that happened, I started receiving compliments and positive ratings on my face, but the damage had already been done. If anything, it made me angry because I knew that if these people would have met me just a few years earlier, they would have made fun of me like others in the past. I'm starting college very soon, so I'm not sure what to expect. I'd imagine it to be the same as my last two years of high school, but hopefully I'll be left alone.
I was just different probably more a failed normie than robot, i just was never normal. and i've been alone most of the time, compared to others it isn't so bad
Jeremiah Harris
>had a gf >had a gf at 16 cyborg at the absolute worst. more likely just a normalfag.
i was a lot like you OP, first gf left me for another guy and lost her virginity to him. it took me a lot of time but 5 years later I'm over it. just want you to know that it can get better desu
Juan Carter
I still have mild acne, am no manlett but was short beginning of high school
Luke Scott
Jow Forums is full of normalfags these days
Lucas Howard
Yup, I feel you. I was 4'11" at the age of 13 or 14. Ultra-manlet tier.
Either I've seen you before or this is a copypasta.
Nicholas Morgan
i stopped talking to everyone i knew irl (except my parents) a few years ago but i don't want to be totally isolated from the outside world so i use anonymous imageboards to chat with people and express me thoughts or feelings.
Josiah Jenkins
I only really started growing up there at like 15-16
Lincoln Cox
At least with school some of the kids will go back to whatever they do now. the discord spammers will slow down a bit.
Henry Torres
you've seen me before probably. it's therapeutic for me so i don't do anything stupid.
Colton Bell
But was 5" until then
Noah Bennett
I dont even know if I went through the full puberty. I still barely have any body hair despite being 26. People mistaken me for 18-19 all the time. Im obviously a biological failure, also have huge gyno tits and a small 4.6 inch dick with small testicles.
It is obviously not normal to not go through puberty until 16. I did not have a single pubic hair until that age. I wish my parents had taken me to a doctor and gotten me t-shots so I developed at a normal age like a normal man. But now I will be this beta weakened failure of a man until I die.
Angel Scott
Well, my life is fucked for most part and it's all my fault. Shit went real bad at grade 2 and well deserved.
Ayden Clark
>Post the reason you're a robot. real autism
Samuel Hughes
Oh damn I just accidentally bumped a normalfag thread Sorry robots
Sebastian Smith
to be a robot you have to be fucked form day one or age 4-onward. You are a failed normie.
Nolan Anderson
I got molested at age 4 I was people shy at age 4
Noah Hall
i aint buying it normie. Thers plenty of "shy" and "socially anxious" people who do normie things.
do you like being alone?
James Perry
Started getting depressed as a kid, when the popular ones were bullying me; thinking things like why I should have born to just suffer, why I have to live an human life and not just the life of a bird or something. Then act normal for like 4 years to fit in. Then I get a strong depression from seeing that my life didn't make any sense and I hate everyone. By that time I was sweating all day in big amounts because of anxiety and a year later when I was even more depressed (I have discovered serious literature and I was spending all day reading and thinking of what's the meaning of this world, what means to be human, why everyone is so fucked and evil...) I started to loss hair due to depresion. I hated every aspect of my life and I was out of highschool for a time. Then, the next year I became a NEET, and that's mostly it.
I isolated myself in high school and dropped contact with all of my friends. That was 11 years ago now. I cant use mic online to talk to people because of social anxiety, I have never had a job, I took me until I was 25 to even dare going outside, before that all I ever did was go to the same store that was 100 feet away from the apartment.
Never Had a gf, never been kissed, never had sex.
William Evans
At least you had a gf, OP. Better than most of us.
Jacob Richardson
>gf at 16 >robot Fuck off to reddit. You are a failed normie t. 25 yo kissless, hugless virgin
Sebastian Reed
jesus fucking christ dude. i used to be a normie but it just like vanished
Cooper Gray
I have been a robot all my life, the physical and verbally bullying traumatized me and i have always been a social retard i'm just incompatibel with people and couple that with clinical depression, i lost all the will to live nothing interests me anymore the only thing i have is anime, music and video games but even those got boring. There hasn't been a day where i don't think about suicide.
You could have just ignored it. It might have been beneficial to you. Why didn't you forgive him? He didn't try to hurt you
Charles Bennett
there's not much to it. never liked the people around me, they weren't "interesting" enough for me to care, so I isolated myself and I ended up with nobody liking me then came here because I found the people here worth taking to
Henry Carter
>Post the reason you're a robot. >When i was 16 my girlfriend Stopped reading there. Kill yourself normalnigger. You will never understand what it means to be a robot. And the reason for that is that you don't even want to know. You never have and never will belong here.
Mason Sanders
>when I was 16 my girlfriend am I lucky for being in a mudslime school that forbade eye contact with members of the opposite gender?
Jacob James
At 10 my father left us, shit until the neck,had to grow up fast,pratically took his place for 3 years.Family problems bullied really badly in middle school,high school was complete dogshit. At the end of middle school my dog that was pratically my best friend,that i had since i was 6,died from poisoning,my attachment brought me down at every loss My ex gf wich was the person i dedicated my life to,left me so scarred that for an entire day i just cried,and for 4 kept watching movies and i couldnt get up,and get to the kitchen with out collapsing 3 times in tears on the floor,i am still affected to this day and i have continuos painful flashbacks about her.
But other than day my day was alright how are you doing robots?
When I was 14 I came here just as a summerfag and I got hooked. This place isn't heaven, but it ain't hell either. It sure as shit has helped me through some rough times: e.g. all my friends getting mates and me being the lonely fag because I spent too much time on my not neet hobbies (urban exploration, airsoft, cycling). It also is a pretty good way kill time and need for irl human interaction.
Alexander Jenkins
absolutely this, OP is normie scum and should fuck off permanently
Daniel Rivera
Don't know really I've always been lonely since middle school and I graduated from High School with 0 friends and now in college I only talk with other people when its needed (teamwork and that kind of shit)
Matthew Clark
istp with bipolar/anxiety
Nolan Watson
I was just born hideously ugly. I never stood a chance.
Levi Davis
People used to laugh at me all the time in the streets when I was a kid. One cunt in my class even said that she would kill herself if she looked like me, this happened when I was 8.
Nicholas James
>he fell for the vagina jew
In nature females have no loyalty. what makes you think they are going to be loyal as humans?
my father is a sociopath and I am very ugly and also poor
Owen Bell
there really wasn't a turning point. my life from the moment it began was already fucked. abusive dad and a cold heartless bitch of a mother. i was lonely, my brothers were junkies growing up. they divorced when i was 2, mother had countless asshole boyfriends. i had to sleep on the couch when i was 5 just so my mom could fuck her boyfriends in her bedroom. my brothers and her boyfriends would always get physical and we'd be caling the cops every now and then. moved to foreign country, couldn't speak the language. then moved in with my father after developing anger issues. i was 12 at the time and he beat the living fuck out of me every day. lived in small white town. got bullied because everyone thought i was chinese and gay. soon developed social anxiety. moved back, couldn't eat, slept for 3 months.
>tfw haven't been outside my house in 7 years im 20 now.
>passionate interests and hobbies cause people to perceive me as either "eccentric" or "smart in an intimidating way" >massive and deep-rooted family issues that caused me to lose my trust in everyone >a complete inability to gain anybody I consider a real friend >a complete inability to get a girlfriend despite being involved with many "cool" things and activities >generally just bad luck, as if nothing I try to achieve works out and I am simply predetermined to a fate of mediocrity
Killed whatever confidence I ever had growing up. My I'm just sleeping in a bed if my own depression.
Jayden Campbell
Not that user, but is a failed normie someone who failed to become a normie or simply someone who was once a normie but ended up falling to pseudo-robot status?
Jace Watson
>girlfriend You are not a robot
Grayson Barnes
French black guy here. While my big brother who's fit was popular as fuck, me, fatty, grew up being bullied/victimized since middle school because I was cringy/socially innept/not acting "black enough", it affected me but not at the point to make me think about suicide because I still managed to have friends, they were less cringier than me, still cringe thought but I wasn't alone.
It's when our family moved to a new town when I was about to start my last year at middle school that I was fully affected by being victimized, I had no friends, I was still socially inept so I was labelled as cringe (can't discuss about normies shit like football/soccer because I hate it, said many cringy shits because of how socially inept I am, never had any experience with women neither (even now), cannot act "black"...etc) I was often mocked, slapped at the back of my head, my height is 5.7" but I wasn't mentally able to face them. Middle school was hell to me, I felt like a trash everyday I was in a classroom. After middle school, I tried to lose weight, managed to lose 15kg in 2month, was almost as fit as my brother (who stopped school at that time to become a cook) but my first year in highschool was still crap, even fit, I was still socially akward and I was in the same class than the 6 peoples who bullied me, so I was already done, they stopped bullied me physically though because I made it clear that I will respond back this time but still trashed verbally with others behind my back, many cringy moments (like that time when the classroom was full, I had to sit aside a girl, she immediately screamed and asked to the teacher if she can change seats, she did). That's when I stopped caring anymore, when I became a robot I think. My grades aren't bad, currently studying law but I still don't know what to do with my life, I have no goals/dream jobs or anything like that.
Kayden Ramirez
Watch this poor people, one of them is trying to convince the other that he's special and definitely not a normalfag and the other one is trying to put rules of what being a robot is, get off underage fags
Carson Lopez
>abused by family >always been ugly >try to make friends with literally anyone at school >they think I'm a creep >get a complex about desiring attention and validation >want to ruin everyone who is having fun without me >get assaulted by housemate >get roofied in club that housemates wanted me to go to for like the first time >move >crippling anxiety, dont go outside anymore >always paranoid >still extremely narcissistic but nobody to love me and can't find any genuine friends
>think I am friends with someone >ignored in everything not relating to school, always exist on the edge of friend groups >"friends" eventually stop pretending to care entirely >internalize the problem, now anxious about everything related to social relationships and have 0 self esteem
Ian Roberts
I was antisocial when I was 3 already, my mom told me I would actively avoid social contact with the others, even though nobody rejected me. Maybe I'm just born that way.
I don't even know. I had a few bad things in life (bullying, parents divorced, etc) but I didn't want to talk to people even when I was young. It just feels like I was born with a missing gear and can't activate whatever it is that normies can to make them motivated and sociable.
Failure to Thrive isn't your fault, brobot. It sounds like you've been through a lot. I'm happy you've come this far. I hope life gets better for you.
Gavin Smith
Sent you a friendship petition yesterday. I asked about your feelings. You barely answer.
I am sorry, but it is hard to get help if you don't even try.
Jonathan Russell
Daddy wasnt present in my life and mama was abusive. I escaped reality by playing computer games. That lasted from 13 to 27. Now I am 28 trying to make friends and live a somewhat normal life.
John Nguyen
im just kinda weird
Michael Harris
I didn't even grow in height after 14 years old, I'm still a 5'9 turbomanlet and even my confirmation suit from back then still fits perfectly
It wasn't a bad height to be in 8th grade though and I had some friends and was a bully, they all ghosted me after 1st stage graduation at 15 and I have no idea why
Jackson Wood
I'm literally death inside since I know my own existence. Nothing more.
Immense self-hatred and a need to get out some of the stuff I've been dealing with internally.
It doesn't help in the slightest, but it's kind of enjoyable so.
Jeremiah Rivera
Immense self-hatred and a need to get out some of the stuff I've been dealing with internally.
It doesn't help in the slightest, but it's kind of enjoyable.
Jordan Diaz
At least we have each other mexibro :)
Gabriel Morgan
Then I wish you good luck. But seriously, if you don't try to go outside and socialise a little bit it is going to be hard. Just surround yourself with nice people that share your own interests.
Jackson Flores
> when i was 2 my parents divorced leaving me with extreme attachement problems with my mom i only saw her on weekends >moved to 3 different schools during elementary leaving me with social anxiety to makes new friends and such >homeschooled 3 years cuz of it making me not have much contact with friends >so lonely i tried to get an online gf that inevitably cheated on me giving me trust issues >picky eater so i only ate one meal a day making me a skelebro >i have my dad's anger issues >havent truly cried in years because of the many things >short thats all that comes off the top of my head
Because I've always been a robot since birth. When I was a year old I got a seizure that fucked me up for good. In other words, I became a late bloomer in everything from speech to puberty. I was born as an only child so I was lonely most of the time throughout my childhood. This type of lonliness I endured caused me to be content with being alone. The problem is that it stunted me socially for good. I crave for social interaction but the moment I get the chance to interact I suddenly hate people. I never really was popular at school or was ever a social butterfly. I had a couple of friends but that's about it. The awkardness I have from being in isolation for so much makes it a lot difficult to become truly close to people, especially women.
Also a lot of you sound like normalshits including you Fuck off
oh yeah and how could i forget my brother always doing shit like opening the car door on the high way threatening to jump out and screaming all the time. also would let me use his laptop then rip it away from me 5 minutes later
Lincoln Thompson
was also only on the weekend so i had more issues including my mom
Charles Richardson
do you live alone now? are you NEET?
Dominic Sanchez
acted overly camp as a joke in first year of secondary school, no one understood it was a joke, got bullied for it then became recluse and spent literally all my time on Jow Forums, became incredibly violent minded because of all the gore threads n shit, only way to not say all the ultraviolent stuff on my mind was not talking almost all the time, so didnt make one friend and spent all the time thinking of the most satisfying ways to tourture my classmates
Ian Perry
>became incredibly violent minded because of all the gore threads n shit,
saved for future cringe threads
Ian Rogers
unless your dad hit you or your mom, you're way more fucked up than he is. he clearly loves you lmao, fuck you user
Carter Ward
Going on 22. Never had a Gf Before in my life.
Easton Lewis
I used to be Chad and now i don't really care about sex anymore. I used to get laid all the time to the point where my male friends low key hated me because I was fucking all the girls they were interested in. Then one day I just woke up and stopped caring about going out or talking to people or having sex ,not sure what happened at all.
Gabriel Hernandez
Been socially inept since kindergarten. Always been ugly. More in love with cartoon characters than real women. Never know what it was like to date anyone. Must suck I imagine
Noah Sullivan
Parents got divorced when I was 10. I ended moving with my dad. He's an awkward introverted robot like me
Honestly it was pretty chill living with my dad for the rest of my childhood although we barely spoke to each other. Every friday he would bring take out food and bring a movie from Blockbuster like Braveheart but throughout the week the house was dead silence because he worked a lot. He didn't have family members or friends living in the country so during holidays it was pretty much just me and him. Sometimes we wouldn't even celebrate holidays, we would be busy minding our own business. I would be busy shitposting on Encyclopedia Dramatica while he would be upstairs watching a documentary on the Roman Empire.
Bentley Hughes
Both me and my brother are robots because we weren't raised properly. Our parents just couldn't show any love and affection. Mom had untreated hyperthyroidism which turned her into a cold bitch, she hit us all the time. Dad was just indifferent, he would come home from work and just chill for the rest of the day, never spent time with us. When I was 14 he got transfered and we had to move to another town. Left all my childhood friends and never saw them again. Left a qt that would have been my gf. Left a whole life and went to a place where everyone seemed to hate me and I could only hang out with the dorks. All this made me an affection seeking mess with abandonment issues. I loathe loneliness but at the same time I don't know how to love and how to be loved. I scare everyone away with clinginess and sentimentality, properties of a frikkin female. Funny thing is I have forgiven my parents. I can see the sadness in their eyes when they realise how they destroyed our lives.
Lucas Kelly
what he did was shitty but it wasn't worth disowning him over it. he did nothing that directly affected you and he still loves you. you need to make amends, he obviously regrets his actions and has learned, once again i know he did something really shitty but it's been 11 years and i think it's time to reconnect and bring him back into your life.
Luis Hill
Damn, brutal OP. I'm a robot bc manlet pajeet with small dick
Dominic Parker
All throughout grade school got my heart broken.Had a huge crush on a girl in middle school,she was fucking beutiful to me her personality was amazing. Find out brother started dating her,find out her personality is absolute shit.Brothers friends tell her I like her,she calls me ugly I front of the entire class. They laugh,laugh with them on the verge of crying. Grades started dropping and so did my self esteem,felt like absolute shit and still do.Felt worse when my mother scolded me.Tried to kill myself once,pussied out. I couldnt even express how shitty I felt to my family. I still like girls,I'm just completely uninterested in a relationship while wanting love at the same time,it hurts so much.
Migrated and had to spend 2 years in "special immigrant school" with fucks from Afghanistan who never went to school. I feel like screaming "BUT I DID REALLY WELL IN MY HOMELAND!! HERE!! LOOK AT ALL MY GRADES!!!" but nobody would listen
Joseph Evans
always been an extremely skinny kid with anxiety/depression issues and always figured i'll never do anything or fuck any woman also went to band class in middle school bc all my friends said it'd be fun and got constantly bullied for being shit at my instrument, combined with wanting to be away from ppl irl and never being able to work up the guts to ask anyone out or engage anyone in a conversation first, first heard about Jow Forums abt a year ago and began to lurk /b/ as that was the first board i'd heard about later on found r9k and made a home here, it's probably just fueling me being an introvert but in a weird way i like it and like the community
Josiah Reyes
Used to think I was a fembot, now I realize people on this site have serious issues and i don't.
Gabriel Russell
Parents divorced, I was left living with my grandmother for two years. I realized if my own parents could be this selfish that the real world really didn't give a fuck, and we're all using each other to some extent. I've been too numb for normal relationships ever since.
Caleb Barnes
Girls rated me the least attractive boy in the class and spoke the list out loudly in front of everyone. I was like 12 at the time and the little confidence and self esteem i had was crushed forever. Most recently i failed uni and all my few friends left me.
Dylan King
dad didnt ever want me and mom was in and out of jail on drug charges so i never had a place, while all my siblings grew up once my dad got his shit together and my mom went through programs and basically they all had a better childhood in quite a few ways than me which made me resent them very early, then when i got into middleschool, my few friends from elementary isolated me and during halloween when i was 11 and 12 i would always get ditched by my friends who would then return later with a ton of other kids to come jump me and steal the little candy i had. highschool was shit and i never talked to anybody and never had any friends. basically everything was shit and this whole post is all over the place
Parker Hernandez
In highschool my older brother (who was just 2 years older than me and was loved by everyone while no one knew I existed) died. He was my only friend. I was then known as "that kid who's brother overdosed" for the rest of my highschool years. That shit really fucked me up. No girl wanted to fuck a dude with that emotional baggage
