Anyone else here extremely lonely, sad, miserable, down, depressed, hopeless, defeated, and suicidal? I feel like an outcast among outcasts and completely beat down by life. Somehow everything that happens to me just kicks me down even more, even when I'm at the lowest I could possibly be. I do nothing all day and have nothing to look forward to. My life just consists of being alone in my room all day, laying in bed, and mindlessly listening to the same 2 or 3 songs and refreshing Jow Forums and maybe one other website all day. My life is meaningless and the only thing I want to do is kill myself.
Anyone else here extremely lonely, sad, miserable, down, depressed, hopeless, defeated, and suicidal...
Anthony Richardson
Isaac Jenkins
Dude same lmao. I always assume this is how most people on here are.
I've tried talking to people online didn't help. Just causes anxiety and worries.
I often feel like I have deja vu but It's because everyday is the same. I'm not sure how to improve things honestly. Though if I did I doubt I would do it. I have no motivation I always go the path of least resistance.
I assume this just ends with bullet in muh brain. Right now it's just hour to hour until that day.
Gabriel Bailey
I used to live like that. Then I went to navy school and my life changed. For three months I was a half functional person, but then after a fristrated suicide attempt and an alcohol addiction I'm back to where I belong.
I'd recommend, if my advice was of any worth, to make some radical changes. After my experience I'm back to square one and half a year older, but at least I managed to burn around 6 months of living with actual adventures, self improvement, interesting stuff and hope.
Carter Gomez
Yeah, but it somehow feels strangely exciting.
I'm not depressed but damn well miserable and I love the emotion that comes with it!
Feeling this bad sure is a unique experience, which in a way is living life to the fullest. Feeling this bad is an emotion and I have never felt this much sadness and pleasure, it feels absolutely thrilling.
Parker Powell
>mindlessly listening to the same 2/3 songs.
Dude I do that too, its just autism. Don't worry, things will get better, you just need to set yourself small achievable goals (like getting up early one day or something)
Wyatt Price
Aren't we all like that here?
Jaxson Thomas
For the past 2 years I've been getting the feeling that I'm living a fake life and that none of this is actually real. It comes and goes but it feels pretty disturbing and I don't know how to exactly describe it. I feel artificial
Carson Parker
The actual robots on this board, yes.
Jason Lee
I've listened to some Alan Watts lecture the other day, the man said "If money was no issue, what would you like to do in life?"
I don't know.
Josiah Cooper
I am long overdue.
Spiritually, mentally or call it however you want I have died a long time ago.
Now I am just dragging around this body, it's really disturbing.
Jaxson Morales
I'm 100% going to kill myself soon, so at least it'll be over with.
Sebastian Hernandez
Not really, used to be like that when I first came on here, heck I'm sure that's what suckered many in. Don't want to say that you "grow out of it" though those feeling do mellow down over time and you start cracking on with things so to speak, you either choose the path of hedonism and become self-destructive or you enter some degree of normality with a sense of traditionalism that with-holds you from the greater part of society.
Bentley Cox
you need to manufacture a crisis in your life where you don't have the opportunity or luxury to continue doing what you're doing.
>live in a foreign country
>move to a new city
you get the picture.
Jackson Ramirez
>I feel like an outcast among outcasts and completely beat down by life.
Those words resonate with me OP. I know exactly what you mean. I tried so many times to bee myself here and among other robot like places only to be exluded again and again and again. I mean I can sort of fit in while being honest in how I behave and act, but it's just merely superficial acceptance.
I wonder whether some people are able to truly "find their place" among a community or whether they're faking it. Not that I care much about it anymore, eviction threats are a powerful thing.
Jason King
>I've listened to some Alan Watts lecture the other day, the man said "If money was no issue, what would you like to do in life?"
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>I don't know.
Then you're a retard, give everything you have to me and I'll know what to do with it.
Hunter Cruz
Not him but what would you do?
Dominic Collins
Live the remainder of my life actually getting proper treatment for cancer and fixing my other medical issues, then financing 2 animated projects (and hopefully completing them before I die). If I'm still alive, work on the third, that's about how many I have left in me, don't want to get too greedy. Other than that, I would help my e-crush with her life as much as I could.
Lucas Anderson
My best advice is turn sadness into anger and start working out. If you wear yourself out physically your mind will be a lot calmer and you will also sleep better. Just pick up some physical activities like boxing or some shit and take it all out on a bag. Also don't go into the victim state of mind, try to think more with your mind than your emotions, hope I helped
Jaxon Edwards
The only guy who wants to be around me is a really annoying autist. I cant stand him. I sometimes feel bad for him though.
Joseph Sanchez
Yeah. I can't relate to anyone on here anymore because I don't have the energy or interest to spend time on the typical things like video games or whatever. Most people on this board seem to be in school or something and just have difficulty with women, not having a gf seems to be the only actual problem in their life. I don't even give a shit about women anymore. I just want to die. I wish I could meet with someone like you and we could end it all it together, I've proven to be far too much of a coward to do it on my own.
Oh, I do the same thing with repeating a handful of songs over and over as well. I think it comes down to lack of energy again; as passive of a hobby as music is, it still takes some energy to sit through an unfamiliar song until it grows on you. And I don't have that energy.
Grayson Richardson
Go on a walk around the nearest field. Enjoy the walk. Don't pretend that you aren't enjoying this walk to keep up appearances, just do it.
Literally this has been the only thing keeping me alive.