25+

My dad didn't leave behind much when he died a few months ago, especially because he was terrible with money and drank away most of his savings, but I did inherit his dog. He's a strange, insecure dog, but he's great. I can't keep any closed doors around him otherwise he freaks out. For instance, I've always shut the door whenever I go to the bathroom but he'll just sit there and cry outside while scratching the door until I unlatch it.

What did he die of? Were you guys close?

Yes animals love to be in the bathroom with you for some reason

I'm 25 this year,

by the end of the year I want to move out and buy my own small apartment, I don't think my life will get any better, but it's a start.

life is getting pretty boring, I don't know what I want to do with it anymore but exist.

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>Now i have my own cat and she hates us

She hates you and your other cat cat?

Woke up about 5 hours ago and I haven't left the freaking bed yet believe it or not, it's kind of chilly so it's comfy.
I'm listening to a twitch stream and browsing r9k. Might get some corn flakes in a bit.

Complications due to tongue cancer. Went to make sure he was ready for his chemotherapy appointment and I found him dead. Was probably only dead for about 30 minutes too, because about 45 minutes earlier, he sent my mother a text saying he still loved her. Like I said, he really didn't leave much since he was terrible with money, but I did get his condo and his doggo. Getting the condo is pretty big because I quit the job I had and moved in with him since he was also legally blind, so not paying rent is huge. He didn't really need any help other than transportation until the last week of couple weeks of his life, which is basically when I had to start treating the condo (and doggo) like my own since he was too weak to do anything.

And, yeah, we were pretty close. I only lasted 2 years on my own before I moved back to our home state. He was decently old, too. Turned 71 this year. I'm the youngest of 4 and the only one that still lives in state. I'm also the least successful but got everything so I couldn't care less.

Had my semi-monthly "check if I am dead" call from only friend. Calls seem to get shorter and shorter is month (or so).

Are there any discords with older anons? This "3 posts per hour" isn't really doing anything for me.

yep, all imageboards out there are very slow.
the only exceptions are maybe Jow Forums pol and v but if you are not interested in politics or vidya than youre out of luck

Chat rooms are populated by younger kids with no lives. Also you're feeling lonely, your friend is reaching out to you, and your first idea is to look for discords??

>29 in september
>got my first job at 27
>now working comfy IT job
>got my first salary rise
>my hair started to become gray recently
My hope was that getting a job will help my mental state. But i think i was wrong. I don't hate myself anymore, but at first it was constant anxieties that i'll mess up at work or be socially awkward, and nowadays i just feel nothing. A little bit of sadness and emptiness.

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Any oldfags interested in starting a members only group? I feel we need a better containment system but also a way for others to not have to keep getting caught in the vicious system of having to put up with underage bullshit
Accepting ideas and I guess I could make a telegram group or something if there is enough interest
I'm just sick of lying to myself and thinking I really have what it takes to live a friendless life as a hermit

Could be better.

>am pretty good with kids
>getting along well with my neighbors' 8 year old daughter and her two friends
>sometimes they ask me to lift them up on my neck and walk around just like a dad would with his own daughter
>fantastic feel, really makes me want to become a pappaw and all that jazz
BUT
>am also sexually attracted to little girls
>can't become a dad ever because of these feels
Not a great feel to be honest. It tears me up. Luckily the urges are pretty mild as far as pedophiles go and I would never do something stupid to a kid, but the intrusive thoughts still kill me.

I've been thinking of going into therapy for this. Just being able to vent about it to a real counselor would be a huge relief. My country has a confidential program for non-offending pedophiles, but I still feel immense shame to actually contact them.

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enrolled in an online CS course, gonna try for the sweet sweet work at home web dev life. i probably don't need that course and it's just a form of procrastinating instead of getting a portfolio, but maybe if I ever interview somewhere it'll help

We've tried they were unironically filled with 18 year olds.

Not sure where to find friends or at least quality conversations, even online. All the places I used to love are now absolutely cancerous and a waste of time.
I'm unironically thinking about trying reddit - seems like it's possible to find good people to chat with.

>My country has a confidential program for non-offending pedophiles, but I still feel immense shame to actually contact them.
Would you rather be ashamed or thrown in prison when you inevitably decide to act on these urges (whether downloading porn online or diddling a kid)? Honestly, eat your pride for a minute and reach out to someone. It sucks at first, but just remember: people still care about you. Once you cross that line, the entire world wants you raped by a pack of niggers. Choose wisely, user.

He's not really reaching out to me per say, he's really just checking to see if I haven't killed myself (and keep his mind free from guilt).

I don't blame him, he runs in a different circle to me with a completely incompatible set of friends, plus I never have anything new to say.

>reddit
Possibly a couple of subreddits, but honestly reddit is a bizarre, echo-chamber mash of social media and Jow Forums.

He's reaching out to you. this is why i fucking hate people here, i swear to god. so many of you are failures because you want it for yourselves deep down

So what is this the only option? How did things get like this

Not that user, but whenever I meet my friend, I just end up slightly hurt.

Same desu, I'm getting tired of the edgy imageboard culture bullshit

I'm keen to it.
Set up a telergam group and post the link. I'll join. I'm sure a handful of others will.
Several people have expressed the desire for such a group.
Vet the moderators. Ban everyone who admits to being

So which one of you is this?

Lequel de vous est-ce?

>theguardian.com/lifeandstyle/2018/aug/09/stefania-rousselle-photographer-love

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Same situation here. Totally incompatible with friend's friends so we only hang out 2-3 times a month for a coffee or dinner, for no longer than a couple hours. He means well but it's killing me. I was less lonely when I had no one.

I need to finish a 50 page paper for uni until next week
I have written 1.5 pages so far
could be better

>He's reaching out to you
He's not reaching out to me, maybe from your perspective it does, but I've known him for a long enough time to know he's just making sure I haven't killed myself.

Post your telegram and I'll add you to the group

t.me/mm596

I've lost the ability to feel anything. All my attempts to date have been failures and I have no clue what to do with my life. My best friend moved away a couple of months ago so I've basically been a shut-in since then. My only social interaction is through work. Worst part is that I don't even seem to care anymore. I'm lost and have no idea how to help myself out of this hole.

You're absolutely right. I think part of me just doesn't want to face the fact that I'm a pedo, and contacting the organisation would pretty much make it official.

thats pretty much the definition of robot life, kek

Guys I turn 25 in a few months, Ill post here then.
later guise :)

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Slowly accepting that I'm supposed to be cut off the breeding pool, and to be honest it's not that bad knowing you are just being part of sexual selection. Not everyone gets to have someone to spend the rest of their life with

If anyone is interested here is the group link for telegram
t.me/joinchat/J46FpRAgpnowtYmH1CHwAg

why not discord? dsfadsf

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I would guess that discord is too "gamerish". Telegram doesn't have tons of useless features and good for the group who just want chat feature.
Too bad that my telegram account have my irl stuff because of work and i don't have another sim card.

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Do a discord, I don't really want to connect my sim card to a sadbrains group.

Telegram is for terrorists. You aren't a terrorist, are you user?

Of course i'm not a terrorist!

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It's got too much of a bad stigma and it's harder to weed out the cancer versus a telegram group where if we all know each other we can just spot the cancer quicker
It's a group so nobody will really have your info unless you want them to have it

Ah, I see. Sorry to have bothered you, clearly you are a completely well-adjusted law-abiding citizen. Go about your business, nothing to be concerned about here.

Tbh I just want a community where 2e don't have to deal with the risk of underage coming in and shutting up the place, I support the threads don't get me wrong but having a general where it's easier for us to communicate seems a lot more effective

I don't even browse Jow Forums from my phone these days.

but man... I run a discord server for R9K and I just cull all the cancer.
discord is so much easier...

>gamerish
I dont even game and I use discord all day

holy fuck you need a phone and sim?
dude real robots dont even have a phone with a sim as
>NO ONE EVER CALLS THEM
man wtf, no way im giving cunts my phone number if I had one.

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bro tahts why you make a discord server and moderate it properly,.,,, not hard

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Indeed robots, someone with the willpower for us r9ks to manage this shit on discord?

Every r9k discord I've joined is always full of tryhards artists and underage

TuM6uC
dude I have experience running servers and spotting faggots and I also know a lot of the cancer users of R9K discord.

I made this server I will set shit up.

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I know, its too much focus on drama, faggotry and stuff that i have no clue about nor care.

Thanks, i will check it out

>tfw 32

I think I'm broken in the heart. I've had roasties show interest in me and some of them were nice. One was a genuie 7/10 Stacey for some reason. I snogged a few, then one invited me over but when it was time to do the thing, I just stopped and I could not be arsed. Said something about not taking it too fast so obviously never heard anything from her anymore.
I really want a family and children but I'm just unable to relate to anyone else.

I'm 28 and finally finished uni, got a job, 40 hours a week for 50k. It's fucking terrible, I mean the work is okay and my coworkers are really nice, but man, 8 hours a day is too fucking much. I felt so terrible for being 28 and unemployed yet now I wish I had done that for longer. How the fuck am I supposed to deal with this; remember I have no friends nor sexual intercourse.

Mate I do your workweek for 22.5k and I have no friends nor sexual intercourse either.

I turn 30 in 3 months. I called off work for the whole week unpaid. I do not trust myself to drive. I have a gun and it is unloaded. My nightmares of me killing myself have gotten worse. I just want to stop time and breath but I can't. I just want help.

Talk to me user.

Why do you want to kill yourself? Do you feel like you failed?

I am one year from it. I will end myself if I can't find a bf. I find no joy being alone.

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I woke up this morning to im doing pretty bad.
why cant i ever just win the suicide lottery and peacefully die in my sleep?

if you were so thirsty you took the first job that said hi, decent chance you could do better; keep applying

>tfw 30 in 8 months
I really expected to be dead by 25
Then I thought I would be dead by 30
The realization that I'm going to die of old age because I'm too cowardly to end my life is slowly creeping in and all the overpowering anxiety that comes with it

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That's actually pretty good for a first job straight out of uni at that age

I think I'll stay with it for at least one or two years to get some experience so I have something to write in my CV. That and security, I'd like to get some savings.

Yeah, it's just that the 8 hour workday is harsh. I suppose one gets used to it, but it does feel like my life is over.

>I suppose one gets used to it, but it does feel like my life is over.
You could always be like those of us who are your age or older and don't even have a degree, much less a job
You're in a much better spot than you think

You are right, sorry for being so imposing.

you can do all of that with a better job. spend an extra month job searching before you commit to 2 years, just my opinion.

Wanting to kill myself is new to be honest. I have always been depressed. I got meds for it but the urge to throw everything away for relief has gotten stronger

I'm in a relationship. Together for 6 months. I love my partner but it doesn't help.

I thought I wasn't gonna make it past Highschool. Now here I am.

Some days I just want to sell everything and leave everyone. Try something new but I am at an age that it is impossible. Some days I want to drive my car off the road and not have my friends and family think I killed myself. I owe it to them to try another day for happiness and peace.

>I'm in a relationship.
this site is for robots so please fuck off

>decent job
>has a relationship
>has a car
>crying about an 8 hour work day

Why are you here again?

100%
desu desu desu
we smoking them anons out

>only companionship is watching twitch streams
>realize you're older than almost every streamer you watch
That was a really bad afternoon

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>thread dies sub-100 posts again
me too thanks

anyone in 18020

Should I even bother with a dating site?

I'm 26, have literally zero experience with women (true KHV), I'm finishing up a temporary job in a week and have a couple thousand in savings - not enough to live off without working but comfortable financially. I live with family.

I don't even know if I want to be in a relationship but I'd like to try it. But I also don't want to meet up with just some random chick who probably has no shared interests with me, I always hoped something, somewhere, would develop a bit more naturally.

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>decide to try messaging a match on tinder again
>she responds
>talking a bit
>start complaining about life and being a downer again

I just can't stop doing it. I am such an obnoxious person. All I want is to tell her that there's a reason why I'm boring and unintersting right now. I just wanted to have an excuse because she is too good for me already.

Man... Must be tough. Hang in there. You seem intelligent. I bet you'll figure out your purpose in life eventually. For now, kudos for being so considerate of your mom. Not everyone is like this. Many would not give a shit. That's some good shit you're pulling for your parent. Good luck, bro!

I'm starting to gain my wizard powers so its cool

I've posted this before, but who cares:
>be me
>move to NYC 4.5 years ago to try to better my life, change myself, expand my horizons, etc.
>get a job, make some 'friends'
>tthey're all boring normies, all anyone ever does is go home and watch Netflix anyway
>job pays like shit, not even interested in it
>thought if I kept working, kept "putting myself out there", it would all be worth it
>it's not. I'm going home. I'm running away back to home, away from these people, these smelly, shitty streets, this infestation of humanity
>I just signed my lease; stuck here for another whole year

One more year, anons... One year is all I have to make it. Then I can, maybe, find peaceful solitude at last. Whether I stay here and struggle, or whether I don't, I'll do nothing, be nothing - and nobody will ever care either way. Feels good man.

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Stop trying to be happy. It's a meme. You found love. That is amazing. It's also a huge responsibility, so you can't killyourself unless you want to hurt the person you love.

took some courage from sky king rich and left work 5 hours early today. at home drinking right now, playing monster hunter, i feel pretty good today.

>work 12 hr shifts 6 days a week
>no other jobs in my city I am qualified for
>making $1 over minimum wage
>this is my life for the next 40 years
>I didn't value and enjoy my teens and early 20s more

I CANNOT TAKE IT ANYMOOOOOOOOOOORE

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turned 25 last month and just remembered these threads, so here i am back on r9k

i cant believe it's been long enough that i can now post in this thread
and nothing has changed other than now i get drunk or high and fuck a hooker once in a while

WE NEED TO DO SOMETHING
SOMETHING MUST BE DONE BY US
WE MUST
DO
SOMETHING GUYS

WHAT CAN WE DO?????????

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i just got a work from home dev job

get an associates degree in cs and a great portfolio. then meet connections

>turned 25 last month
You should killed yourself

Im getting fucked up to this and saying fuck you to everything

youtube.com/watch?v=0qXmxVySMzw

i cannot accept that the world goes to the sort of people who fuck with me for no reason at all
obviously, obviously no two persons are the same, but clearly, clearly there is an us and a them here
i have developed a strong sense of identifying who is like me and who would kill me in the long run, or now - if given the chance

it's just not right
WHAT did this guy do to deserve this
nothing

he was just born different, himself

i remember this 40 year old guy, short bald but otherwise a nice person
got drunk and shared how he ever only had sex with prostitutes in his life - no love, no hookups
and cried

it's
not
right

if i finally get my degree and start making money and have FUNDS, i'll figure out how to help people i care about and feel pain for
so im not killing myself if that happens

Robots - please be grateful for your health, if nothing else.

I was assaulted a few weeks ago and had to have surgery. Just when I didn't think I could feel any worse.

Some must fail so that others may succeed