Hey user! Tell me about whatever's on your mind, aside from a hat. I'd love to hear about it

i want to hug my friends

i want to play videogames with them

i want to play guitar and sing in front of people

i dont want responsibilities

i want to cuddle

i want a pure gf but i'm not worth it

i want to take those egocentric thoughts out of me

i want to be thin

i want to sleep

>im actually autistic, and im slowly developing psychosis on top of that. I've been diagnosed with major depressive disorder for over a decade now, and it's never gotten better
I can relate user. I've been diagnosed with ASD, MDD, and psychosis (they argued whether it was depressive psychosis or schizoaffective). Even though I disagree with the diagnoses O can at least relate some. It's never improved for me much too. I know I can't talk you out of it if you're set in your ways, but please know you aren't alone. I mean it when I say I love you, people care about you. There's no arguing with suicide, but I can try to empathize with you. I really do wish you the best friend. I'll pray for you.
>I start my third year at uni tomorrow and I'm really scared
Good luck user, I'm rooting for you. I'm no good at making friends and reclusive myself, so I know it can be hard. You can do it! You aren't destined to repeat yourself this year. Really try this year if you can user, we all want you to be happy. Reclusiveness is easier for a lot of us, but you aren't resigned to listen to your introvertedness if you don't want to. It's going to be ok user.
It's ok to want things out of life user, and I'm a firm believer you can achieve them. Start with one goaland autistically try over and over again until you get what you want. You have enough dreams that you're bound to have at least some fulfilled. Godspeed and good luck user, you deserve happiness just as much as anyone else. Never let anyone tell you otherwise. You are a good person with noble aspirations. Don't talk yourself down and get some rest if you need it friend!

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I hate how much I like Konosuba. I just started and got through the first season today. I wanted to give it one episode, then two, then, by the third I was laughing out loud.

I don't like it because it's self-serving. There was one episode where this adversary to the main character was another high school student who had died prematurely. He was otherwise charming and heroic, but when he talked to the women on Kazuma's team, they all thought he was weird and wanted to punch him in the face. Kazuma does everything right, beats him up, and takes his sword. Beyond that, I don't like the dumbed down women always being the other. Nobody has a backstory, but everyone who isn't the MC is a little unhinged. Therefore, you either self-insert as the hikiNEET MC or you just don't at all.

Otherwise, I love that nobody has a backstory. Kazuma dies and gets transported to a parallel world in 10 minutes and then you're good to go. I like just jumping right into the happening with little reason ala OPM. I like the lewding - when Kazuma first learns how to use a steal spell, who steals a couple pairs of panties. To expand, I like the RPG elements but how they're not taken too seriously. It's what I wish the book The Land Founding was. TLF falls short for me because exposition takes a back seat to gameplay elements. Even if exposition in Konosuba is attack-cabbage harvesting and getting into debt, it is more enjoyable than learning about the effects of the game's reputation system on mercantile pricing. It's funny, lewd fantasy and I cherish how the author takes the RPG tropes and adds his own unashamed and unabashed vision on top of it.

In conclusion, it deserves more seasons than Naruto ever got. I will watch until they defeat the Demon King.

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Yeah, they say a lot about how we feel. Demons is something a bit specific, do you have addictions or bad actors in your life that could be represented as demons? Now that you mention it I can't remember a dream of this kind where someone else was trying to prevent bad things happening to me. Most of the time it's my own wrongdoing, incompetence or weakness. Maybe that man standing in front of the tracks is a friend or family that deeply cares about you? Man it really hit me to realize no one is ever there for me, can't say im surprised because im a bit of a dick irl but that's my own ego telling me im on my own. What's worse is when im awake I tell myself there are people there for me. Guess I was just fooling myself but yeah this is the mind speaking in honesty.

I'm gonna rip everyone and everything out of my life. Tried to be normal, gave it a fair go and all that but it's just not for me.

I move tomorrow from an abusive place and the shitstain I live with attacked me on a shitfit.

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I'm going to try and find work again tomorrow but, I am feeling extremely bleak about it.
My dad insists I become a nurse and he's being a cunt about it. I don't want to be a nurse. I have years of working in warehouses and I graduated trade school but, there won't be a job until next summer.
Everything feels hopeless.

Konosuba is great. Megu is my favorite. I have almost no files of her on this device, though. I really like how the characters all take turns being brilliant and they all have their fair share of flops. It makes them really human, and I like the comfy aspect that creates. It's a really enjoyable show though, for sure. I'm glad you like it too!
>do you have addictions or bad actors in your life that could be represented as demons?
There are actual demons that attack me day and night. They prick me with invisible needles and watch me from the shadows. I try not to complain about it much.
>Maybe that man standing in front of the tracks is a friend or family that deeply cares about you?
I he was a slim old man, unlike anyone O know IRL. He appeared very wise and prophetic though. I don't want to say he symbolized God himself, but he resembled him.
>Man it really hit me to realize no one is ever there for me
I'm really sorry about that user, I hope you can find some people who are really looking out for you. It's nice to experience.
Game over then. Thanks for trying your hand at a normal life user, I hope you can find true happiness outside of one. You never know until you really try.
I'm glad you're leaving a terrible environment like that. Is it family? SO? Don't want to say? Either way good luck in the future. I'm rooting for you.
That sounds rough user. Pressure from parents is a lot. I hope it doesn't weigh too much on you. I'm sure you'll figure out your vocation. This time of uncertainty has to be the roughest spot, just ride it out. I really hope you find success.

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Family and thanks user.
Getting punched by a shierking woman is not fun.

Not OP but was it your mom, user? Also what country?

i hate my family.
but, without them i'd be homeless.
hence finding so much hinges on finding work.
It feels like i don't have a future worth having.
I'm probably going to die homeless in the street in a couple of years. fuck life.

can i say it in a vocaroo, yui poster? i dont feel like typing it out

No it's my aunt and I'm from mexico

I want to talk to a qt. Bus germanon here. I really think i could have a chance with her. I want to get out

>Getting punched by a shierking woman is not fun.
I agree lol. It always sucks when that happens. Thankfully Mom is usually pretty tame for me. I'm really sorry about your family user, but I'm glad you're getting a fresh start free from that stress soon.
I'm reliant on family as well. It's definitely not a good feeling to be dependent on them. If they get sick of me I'm homeless, and if I'm homeless I can't see myself not dead. I really home you don't get into a situation like that and can get a great job. If you end up homeless and I am too we shpuld hang out though and be hobo buddies! Sounds like a fun adventure.
I would love to hear your story and your voice user, go ahead!

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Talk to her then! Your charisma and good looks are bound to make her fall in love woth you. Don't even think twice about talking to her, talk to her like she's been your wife for 20 years, because she will if she is good enough for you.

>Konosuba

I like what you mentioned about being brilliant and flopping. You WANT them to succeed. You pray that their next mission gets them out of debt. You pray that the random teleportation of the destroyer's core doesn't hurt anybody. It subverts your expectations because you still get the sense of anxiety for the MCs success, but it's never tied to the MCs strength vs his opponent's. It's debt, living situations, and existential dread about your goals and friends.

I'd also like to mention that I have written a couple novels concerning low fantasy worlds, one of which has a loser MC traversing the astral plane to get there. What I try to do for women is to give them a dimension of thought. They don't even need a backstory to show some sort of intellectual competency that the MC doesn't possess. For example, right when Kazuma and Aqua get to the stables as a new home, Aqua could have cleaned up the poop, decorated the walls, and had some sort of quip about how Kazuma better spoil her for all eternity for doing so. It would have been 5 minutes of exposition that showed Aqua as being capable of thought beyond instinctual grunting.

I don't know that there is a compromise with regards to being self-serving between my style and the author who goes "I believe in true gender equality, so I would beat the shit out of women." It's stylistically different to have an MC with a "perfect" philosophy because I'm obsessed with intellectual rivalry. Imagine if Kazuma's experiences made him grow to regret ever being hikki. It would be so entirely different than what the show was going for. I don't like it, but I'm not going to try and shame the anime for not catering to my specific, shonen-cliche, taste of how an MC ought to fit into the world; that's why I write my own novels too.

thank you, yui poster
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Thanks, she apparently knows me since kindergarten so 20 years could be possible

I wish I had an actual close friend. From 4th grade to senior year, basically my only friend was a guy who I would talk about video games and shit with. I could never confide in him about my hoplessness.

I've been homeless before in another city.
It could be a lot of fun.
It sounds great.
>dumpster diving.
>wandering aimlessly.
>watching sunsets/
>watch people pass by.
>watching the world pass by.
>sleeping in shifts so we don't get murdered.

Does anyone else feel like the user on the other side of the screen is someone you know in real life? Sometimes the coincidences are too big to ignore.

Fuck I think I'm being watched.

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>tfw don't know what to do with life, which means that I'm stuck being a NEET at my dad's shitty apartment for the near future

Everything I think about doing eventually makes me too scared or depressed to actually go through with, like moving to a new city, getting an apartment here, or moving to another country all together. It all seems insane, and yet these are the only paths I feel like are left for me to take.
Growing up, I always thought I would go to uni, graduate, get a job, move out with the help of my parents, and live happily ever after. The problem is that none of that happened, and now everything seems "wrong" because it's not what I've prepared all of my life for. I don't know how to accept my circumstances and just do what I'm supposed to.
To make matters worse, I have literally no one to talk about this shit with, because my parents are shit human beings.

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The whole point of Aqua, especially in the beginning of the story, is that she's paradoxically a gifted God while simultaneously beong absolutely useless for Kazuma. It's supposed to be silly. Your gripes are perfectly valid, but when I watch anime I put my brain on 30% and tend not to care about that sort of stuff too much. It's really cool that you're written fantasy novels user, have you finished or published them anywhere? Sounds really awesome. I can barely finish a sonnet.
>Imagine if Kazuma's experiences made him grow to regret ever being hikki.
I interpreted the cage Aqua won't leave as him regretting his life on Earth. You could emphasize themes like that in your own works more though, it sounds intriguing.
Aristotle talks a bit about this idea. A savant can be the best at anything, he spends his entire life honing those skills at the expense of others. He says the vortuous man should knlw hlw to play the flute, but not too well. You will probably not be the next Mozart, but why do you want to? Being a good man is so much more important than being the best at one thing. You're a little bit behind, but not by a lifetime. The longer you regret this time wasted, the less time you have to amend things. Do what you find important, no need to lock your life behind 1000 shifts. Starving artists are often happier than fed cashiers. If you aspire for greatness, reach. Most people don't even live independently until 22, you have a great life ahead of you. All you need to do is look for it. Mediocrity is your current path, change it or accept it. You'll destroy yourself without choosing. Both are ok. Accept risk or minimize it. It's your wonderful life up ahead, you can go on red or 32 black. Really up to you.
It is possible, you'll nail it, then her

>Aristotle talks a bit about this idea. A savant can be the best at anything, he spends his entire life honing those skills at the expense of others. He says the vortuous man should knlw hlw to play the flute, but not too well. You will probably not be the next Mozart, but why do you want to? Being a good man is so much more important than being the best at one thing. You're a little bit behind, but not by a lifetime. The longer you regret this time wasted, the less time you have to amend things. Do what you find important, no need to lock your life behind 1000 shifts. Starving artists are often happier than fed cashiers. If you aspire for greatness, reach. Most people don't even live independently until 22, you have a great life ahead of you. All you need to do is look for it. Mediocrity is your current path, change it or accept it. You'll destroy yourself without choosing. Both are ok. Accept risk or minimize it. It's your wonderful life up ahead, you can go on red or 32 black. Really up to you.
these words have honestly awoken something in me. i dont know what, but something. im going to save this and think about it. thank you, user.

Frends are great. I had only one too. It's always possible to find some, and when you fond one you find 20 half the time. Opening up is really special, you'll find someone great to do that with. Try to make a friend however you can and see where it goes.
It does sound a little fun. The homeless areas are like a different world, I liked walking through the slummiest slums sometimes to meet the people. I look homeless myself so they left me alone usually.
Hey! I recognize you. You're that guy!
I get that way too user, it can be scary but it's unlikely to be real.
F for Terry
I know that feeling user. Things seem pointless or scary, it's a terrible state to be in. The beautiful thing about life is there is no plan, it's like an adventure game. When your plan doesn't work click everything everywhere until you can continue. You're stuck on a hard puzzle right now, but try applying the things you have in a new way to break out. You've softlocked yourself in real life, and need to bug fix. You can continue, it always seems like There's no solution when It's right in front of you. Take things one step at a time and you'll get where you want to be, even if you can't envision that place now.
Glad I didn't type it all for nothing at least :) good luck user

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>Konosuba

I always see this meme about Aqua being useless. It seemed to me that from the moment she begs an old man for the guild entry fee to her destroying the barrier on the destroyer, Aqua was perhaps the most useful party member on the team, but that's an aside. Konosuba is absolutely silly - sillier than I could write and I wouldn't want it to be otherwise.

I haven't published my novels because a professional editor would be uncomfortably expensive. They're also both single installments of what I hope to turn into trilogies. When I can episodically release them, I would be more serious about publishing. One of the puzzles that I'm trying to piece together recently is the moral arc my loser form Earth goes on. My original intention was to have him be an asshole for asshole's sake right up until his fight with the ancient evil and he asks "who cares about this world? Fuck it!" After letting the idea stew, I think I want him to fall in love with the world. I think I want it to read more like the Hobbit than a Seinfeld episode where they learn nothing but destroy the ancient evil by being super edgy.

I think too much and it's hurting my mental health

>Hey! I recognize you.
D-don't play around with that user, I'm being serious here.

>it can be scary but it's unlikely to be real.
But if it turns out to be real then the consequences can be pretty bad, imagine feeding your enemy with an entire list of your plans and strategies. If it turns out to be real I can't believe that nigger manlet faggot is here now, fucking turbofailednormalfag should NOT be here. My paranoia is perfectly warranted.

>F for Terry
H-he's alive user, no proofs yet though every moment of silence increases the possibilities of it being real. I'd be extremely sad if it turns out to be real. Fucking glowing niggers.

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I feel like whenever I feel like taking a risk and doing something, I realize that if I run out of money, I'm fucking dead. Don't know what will happen then. If I had a safety net, I would be more willing to take wacky risks and have an adventure.

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I picked up Hataraki Man today and loved it. Pretty obscure noitamina show about japanese work culture in the eyes of a workaholic magazine editor. Really dig it so far, it's got that sense of 2000's comfy to it I can't get enough of.

where does one even find an affordable place in mexico? im from sonora and cant find anything affordable that isnt 2hrs away from downtown or riddled with narcos

been thinking of moving to the capital for a while but heard lots of bad stories about capitalinos

Move to small towns, thats the where the cheap stuff is.
>bad stories about capitalinos
Most of them are true, chilangos are something else

The thing about Aqua is a lot of the stuff she does is pointless or backfires. That pops up more often in S2 though. I really wish you the best with the novels it sounds like you have a really cool dream to make reality. Your ideas are really put together too. I hope you keep pursuing writing.
Same here, same everywhere. Sorry user, those anxieties and neuroses about life really are stressful. I hope you find peace.
Sorry for pulling your leg user, I do know what you mean though. I really don't have anything to hide though, even my brother knows my avatar I post with on here. Try to relax about that of you can, it will eat at you faster than someone recognizing you would.
>H-he's alive user
I hope so.
I'm no authority on success, just throwing in my 2 bits. I hope you can figure out what works and find the success you desire. There's always risk in life, if you want to move on you have to accept some.
Yeah I haven't heard of it. I'll try to remember to check it out when I get home. Sounds really cool though, Japanese corporate culture is a mystery to me, but always talked about.

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You just made me remember that I want my own Mio

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I really like a girl, who is my age, a little shorter than me, her birthday is the day before mine, she is really nice, funny, and cute, loves vidya and tv, but she recently got out of a relationship with a guy, and is now a full on lesbian, and it hurts to think about, because I think we would be really great together, but she just isn't attracted to me.

It's not that I'm not her type, I'm not her gender.

I hate it I hate it I hate it.

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Mio a big cute. CUTE. Hope you own one soon.
Getting cucked by carpet munchers has to really suck user, I'm sorry. The next level play is to pretend to be gay so the perfect straight girl inevitably gets a crush on you and you sweep her off her feet. Kidding. I'm sorry though user, unrequited love is the most common illness in history. The perfect girl who deserves a guy like you will find you one day, and you'll make each other happier than you can possibly imagine now. Plenty of fish in the sea, and many will be your type.

>Mio a big cute. CUTE. Hope you own one soon
Nah, too good for me.

Thank you, that makes me feel slightly better.

Still sad about it though, I really like her, if only she could just go back to being straight, y'know?

I want to get diagnosed by a doctor because I'm pretty sure I have something wrong with me mentally, but I also don't because I live with my mom and I don't want her to acknowledge it because whenever I show any weakness she starts trying to make things too easy for me. I don't like it

Can I know what state you're from, user?

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Tamaulipas

>Nah, too good for me.
Wrong. user a cute. CUTE. Hope Mio owns you soon, or a 3d imitation of her anyways. You deserve everything you can love.
I completely understand user. It might be a phase yet of you really have severe oneitis, but try to broaden your prospects. Most of the time lipstick lesbians are an orgasm away from being bisexual. Regardless, the perfect girl will find you if you keep looking and trying.
Yeah, I understand that. A lot of times people use diagnoses as excuses for poor behavior. I respect your personal responsibility user. In my humble opinion most diagnoses only serve a purpose if you have little to no self-awareness. You'll make it through this user, if a diagnosis will help you then pursue it.

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>I really don't have anything to hide though
Must feel pretty good, but are you sure of that? I mean if you knew your parents, your shrink, or something that you watched your back around was lurking here would you still have nothing to hide?

There's stuff that sometimes one needs to share or get advice for and there's no better place for that than imageboards. For the best advice you have to be specific, and specific often means letting out semi-personal stuff, or things that if someone else were to read they would think hey I know this guy (enemy) in real life. The chances are slim but non zero, and then you have to watch carefully what you write. It's stressing to feel watched all the time, as if being watched by literal cia brony niggers wasn't bad enough.

You're on mental chess mode all day, not a lot of room for error. You're probably right about overstressing about it being more harmful than outright confirming it though, even if "it" knew I browse here not a lot would change but damn it feels bad to confirm your paranoia.

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Living is not a solution to lifes problems, but neither is dying. I cannot reconcile the problem of temporary pleasure because it seems inherent. The removal of that pleasure a denial of life, which is not better then death. But death is not a solution, and neither is life. If life is what we make it and the solution is up to me then how is it a problem that can be solved? If its only a problem because I see it as such then is it not a problem because of this? Then how is life what I make it?
And if life isnt what I make it then there is still no solution either way.
Is the acceptance of a lack of a solution to the inherent problem of life inherent within itself? Why would life be a problem if it had no solution.

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I can't put down the ciggs.
That tabbaco jew will be the death of me.

I don't expect my brother to use Jow Forums at all, he's Chad. I just trust him to not tell parents anything too sensitive. He found a razor I taped under my desk and threw it away, but he didn't rat me out. I just don't expect him to read most of my posts, and I'm hiding only a few things total in life. I just have more important things to be worried about, I don't know. I see what you mean though.
Life's not a puzzle with a solution, it's a canvas. A blank canvas is not a solution, but any configuration you paint is not THE solution either. In the end you and hopefully God are the only real judges.
>Why would life be a problem if it had no solution.
Life isn't a problem It's simply a state. Make or unmake as you please, then be made and unmade just like your works. Ashes to ashes, dust to dust. That's all that really comes of it. Come in and out with a clean conscience and you did your job amazingly. That's my outlook on mortality.
Addiction is hard, never smoked myself though. I hope you can kick it before things get worse. Have you tried patches? I heard those can work for people. You'll be able to stop user, I believe in you. You're stronger than a tiny paper mouth dildo.

How can life be a canvas if it is already painted? Even in the way that you would be able to control the aspects of this metaphorical canvas its still controlled by things that have nothing to do with your intentions.
If life is a blank slate why would I want what I dont want? Why are there things inherent in me? Life is inherent, so how can it be a blank canvas?
I dont think morality has anything to do with it.

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They say the maquilas are still good enough paying jobs, a buddy of mine moved there without a degree a few years ago and made enough to live by himself. Im sick of my house life too, do you think I can make it there or is it too late for me? the other option for quick jobs is tijuana but fuck that degenerate shithole

I want to say that Nevada is fucked unless your rich.
That could be true for anywhere though.

Just had a good three hour self-pity session after waking up, which is why I am here. I wish I was in a better mood because normally Yui warms my heart. It is also my 21st birthday so I am going to try and buy some alcohol now. I wish I could just have the house to myself for a day so I could drink and watch anime, but my parents are constantly around.

I presuppose will, because the self is meaningless without it. There are smarter people than me who study this, just my outlook on it. You hit a logical gridlock without some axioms. There are limits to what you can do on a canvas, life isn't exclusively free expression. It does allow some though. What you make of a little is a lot.
Something got you mad about Nevada user? What happened? I'm still here. Think most places suck without some money, especially in cities.
Happy 21st user! Here's a catgirl Azusa with a Yui as my gift, their powers of cute combined will get rid of your melancholy! I'm sorry you're so sad on your special day and you can't be alone when you want to, but please know plenty of anons and I care about you. Lots of love, please cheer up some of you can.

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>Happy 21st user!
Thank you. I know these are mostly empty words, but it was still very nice to hear this from someone.

I promise those words aren't empty. If I could make my day bad to make your birthday good, I would. Please start feeling better, since I can't actually do that, don't tell anyone . I really hope you can be a little cheerier today user, please try to. You deserve to be happy, especially today.

I am not too sad, do not worry. I am upset that apparently you cannot sell alcohol after 2am. Looks like I will have to google the laws to find out when I can buy it later today (it is early in the morning here.) btw I cannot use contractions because iPhone apostrophes are non-ASCII.

Same, ever since I got a job and stopped worrying about running out of cash I've been smoking up to 1 and half packs per day, before it was 1/2 at most.

Been thinking of getting snus to get the nicotine as cleanly as possible without carbon monoxide because it makes me sleepy at times.

Don't worry the tabbaco jew is not the worst jew, the carbonated and electric jews are way worse, oh and the porn jew.

>tiny paper mouth dildo
Wwhat did you just call one of my greatest pleasures?

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I've been under this mistaken conditioned idea that everyone has their own version of my waifu's character, and they nurture and show that through what they say and draw (usually sex with other characters), giving it validity as a version of her, a path that's as valid as my own, except that less people validate my version. I was afraid of confusing people by talking like the true her is the one I know, and thought that giving everyone else's shallow ideas the same level of value and validity would help me in some way I can't figure out. All of their ideas are shit and dumb, though. Only I know who she is, and any other version of her isn't real or worth anything. The art just has potential to feel like the real her and help me nurture that. I felt significantly better, after thinking about this.

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Please be careful with alcohol user. I'm glad you aren't sad but please use caution.
>Wwhat did you just call one of my greatest pleasures?
Sorry. Wasn't trying to be mean. Please accept my apology. I didn't want to seriously minimize something. My bad.
That's a nice thought, and true. Best girl is part creation by an artist, part reception by an otaku. No waifu is truly the same. That is sound reasoning.

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>caution
I've never liked drinking large amounts because it just makes me feel sick. On the other hand, I really wish I could be buzzed 24/7 because it makes me so much happier and more easy-going. Got on PC so I can use contractions now.

i found someone that only writes nonconsensual porn of my waifu a few nights ago
what they put up tonight has me feeling delightfully tense and on edge

Currently in bed next to my girlfriend. She's asleep. Been dating for a month and I really like her and enjoy her company. I struggle with the fact that I have girls who are by all means more physically attractive then her, but her personality is something that I have never come by, and for that very reason I never want to lose her.

I made a POF account on a whim just to look at the other profiles and I've accidentally seemed to have gotten a girl interested in me. She's not my type but we've already swapped numbers and pics. I don't know what to do, she is the first girl to call me handsome and cute but I don't want to get into a relationship with someone I don't feel anything for just because she was nice to me.

REMINDER

Yui waifu-ism is only the second level of waifu after the basic Rei/Asuka, which is only a tiny bit above the level of you're average beginner-mode Naruto-tier slut.

Sorry, I just worry for anons when they talk about drinking. My parents are severe severe alcoholics and it makes me really sad, so I get protective of anons because I don't want the same thing to happen to them. A lot of the time SSRIs can minimize anxiety, try those before alcohol of you have anxiety that isn't panic disorder.
It's not possible to rape your wife, she has to give consent. Part of marriage vows. Enjoy your smut user, and have a good day!
That's really cool. It makes me hopeful when I hear about people putting character before looks. You have a wise set of priorities, every girl is ugly by 40 but their heart and smile never age a day (metaphorically). I really do wish you two the best, you sound like a really cute couple.
If you don't feel anything for her it's probably smart to not pursue things. Sorry there wasn't any chemistry between you two. I hope you meet your special someone soon.
Yui is not my waifu. I usually post with megumin but neither is she. A waifu seems like heartbreak. All the Keions are cute, I just have more pics of Yui than anyone on phone.

wow user, you're so cool because you're infatuated with more obscure Japanese cartoon girls!

>If you don't feel anything for her it's probably smart to not pursue things. Sorry there wasn't any chemistry between you two. I hope you meet your special someone soon.

Should I just meet up with her once? I'd be a dickhead not to give her a chance at least.

you have it all wrong, user. they're the one doing the rape.

wow user, i'm sorry i triggered you by reminding you that you're waifu a shit

If you're tying popularity in reality to how cucked the lover is, that's a silly mindset. K-On! fans don't have any guys in the show's universe to be insecure over, and most of the art will be nice, as a result, unless the artist just really wants to draw hardcore stuff specifically or be an edgy cunt. If someone falls in love with a girl from this series, they have a pretty desirable starting point for it all. Mine is less popular, but with how that leaves less sweet art and a larger portion of her art being her doing stuff with other guys from the series, because artists don't think of her as someone real people love in that way, I envy the situation of those who's girl has better waifu status and more kind art because of it.

>My parents are severe severe alcoholics
I see where you're coming from. I'm sorry to hear that user. My mom is a pretty minor alcoholic I guess.
>SSRIs
No way, I'm scared that drugs will mess up my brain, and I would never ever admit that I have a problem to anyone. I'm not even sure myself if I do.
Yui is beautiful, shut up.

thats not what i'm tying. i'm tying
you're waifu
and
a shiiiiiit
because you're waivus a shit

Post your superior waifu then. Yui isn't even my waifu btw. We're just dating.

>Should I just meet up with her once? I'd be a dickhead not to give her a chance at least.
I'd say why not? Most you lose is 20 bucks and 2 hours, most you gain is a family. Maybe you can't connect with people over the computer like real life, there's a lot of potential good from just one date. Plus it's probably courteous of you exchanged pics.
Wait he's cucking you of your waifu? I thought you were self inserting as the nonconsensual guy. I can't say I understand that, but I'm glad you're enjoying yourself doing it.
>No way, I'm scared that drugs will mess up my brain
Nothing is better than SSRIs but those are better than alcohol. It really does make you stupid and crazy, remember that it's a drug too that people use to mask their problems.
What is bad about her? Not her fans, her character. You're probably just trolling but I've seen this attitude before in earnest.

>dates AND has a waifu
you fucking sicken me.

I don't have a waifu. I don't know if marriage is for me honestly.

>promoting hookup culture
D I S G U S T I N G

>has a waifu
>doesn't have OC children with her yet
Waiting for your wife's son to come along without becoming a father?

>projecting this hard
I have beautiful OC children and a slightly age-advanced version of my lovely waifu all in my OC light novel I'm writing as well as in the process of finding someone to commission a family portrait of us.
go back to your degenerate animu hookup culture, swine.

oh from earlier nevada is too hot and there's no jobs here.
It's all the same shit.
people are super transient and there's no hope for anything to get better.

>unironically recommending SSRIs over alcohol
Jesus what the fuck is your problem? Those things are literal brain killers, I suppose if you want to permanently fry your dopamine and reward circuits it's fine to recommend them but that user would be miles better taking alcohol first before SSRIs. As harmful as alcohol is it's still better. Avoid benzos at all costs too as those fry your brain plasticity and memory.

Try shrooms instead. Pretty harmless and non addictive.

Sorry user, I'm not a huge fan of Nevada either. Sucks to live in a place you hate
>Those things are literal brain killers,
I don't like them either but you're overplaying them a little. They don't do that much dude, and I've been on all of those psych drugs. SSRIs don't even make you feel that different day to day, tricyclics and MAOIs are kind of extreme but still not brain friers.
>I suppose if you want to permanently fry your dopamine and reward circuits
With a serotogenic drug? They don't even affect dopamine receptors. Alcohol on the other hand completely fries dopamine and serotonin and makes you never quite as happy as you once were coming out of alcoholism.
>that user would be miles better taking alcohol first before SSRIs. As harmful as alcohol is it's still better.
Can you show me depression remission rates with daily alcohol consumption and compare them to antidepressants like SSRIs? I hate psych drugs more than anyone, more than you could imagine, bit because I do I know how they work. Never done shrooms but they seem pretty benign by the sounds of it, I'll agree. Just please don't spread info on things you're uninformed about, especially when it could get a good person hooked on alcohol.

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Today I dreamt of having a great day with a girl, I've never felt so attached to someone in real life

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That sounds really nice. Good dreams are really nice when they come. You'll find a person to attach to in real life just like that one day user, there are no emotions unique to dreams. Keep on looking for her and you'll have that great day.

Bitch hats are everything for the likes of me
I am a true soldier

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been put through hell recently by someone. I depended on them, they made promises, and they kept letting me down. I had no choice but to keep giving them chances, but they just kept hurting me. they pushed me to complete mental collapse and I've returned to being depressed. before this I was mostly fine, making positive changes. I relied on them because no one can really go it alone. they've been a toxic presence in my life for years, there poor choices hurting me and filling me with the same toxicity, nurturing the worst traits in me. the other day I was talking to them. they said our relationship needs a change, and that we should be nicer to each other. my brains immune system immediately kicked in, and I responded with an acutely serious "FUCK YOU". if I were to accept this would be social contract, I would be getting the short end of the stick. she'd get absolution, and i'd be stuck in the dysfunctional state her mistreatment has left me in. I feel she will never properly pay for what she put me through, and there's no way in hell I was gonna swallow her conditions like a pathetic loser. my self-esteem is low enough. she claims she's ready to change, but shows no remorse for her actions. she has washed her hands of her misdeeds, but I can't simply quit being traumatized and wounded. it's gonna take more time than I can spare to get back on track. months, even years I may never get back. it pisses me off because before this bullshit I was perfectly fine, depression free. I can't accept her lies, I can't validate her empty words, I reject her conditions. I need to stand up for myself, assert myself, reject bullshit, and try to reclaim my lost self esteem and confidence. I want to fix my life, and be a good person. I don't want the bitterness she's sown in me to continue to change me into a worse person. maybe one day i'll let her try to makeup for the wrong she's committed, but for now i'm gonna seek outside help, better support, because i'm sick of depression.

I need to quit Jow Forums again. i'm going to quit.

Someone asked me to imagine a person that I love smiling, and I couldn't think of anyone. Really puts things into perspective.

Tampico-Madero-Altamira is a good zone to work and live.
You should give it a try user, apartments can be pretty cheap.

i want to be taller
i want to be so much taller

i want to kill myself everyday holy shit
everyone around me is so damn tall

im so damn ugly
ugliest piece of shit in my state

im so damn stupid

i just want to die

For the first time in a while I have nothing to stress over and instead of enjoying myself my mind is trying to find anything I can start worrying about. Fuck anxiety.