I'm really sad and I kind of want to die :(

I'm really sad and I kind of want to die :(

So long story short, I met with a girl from Jow Forums back in 2016, we live 5 hours away so I had to plan out a special day for us to see each other. We got super close, and when we were together we had an excellent time. Like, we would have definitely dated if we lived closer. But she was hurt by something I said (which was not bad. She dated another guy and I wasn't toooo hurt by it because I thought we would still be friends at least. Lately I've had no luck getting in contact with her at all and I'm extremely sad now. I would be so happy to just to talk to her as a friend.

It's so fucking frustrating because I know we'd get along great if we were to actually meet again. Now I'm just lonely, depressed, and hurt. I have never really been able to bounce back from this plus there were some other things in my life which made me feel even worse about this. I want to die now but I don't want to hurt my family, the elderly folk still left don't deserve to go through a youth loss in their final years.

I'm just so fucking sad, I think I'd rather have this chick back in my life than win the lottery

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>But she was hurt by something I said (which was not bad
just an excuse to move on chad

If you're going to kill yourself, at least kill yourself for yourself and not because some girl stopped talking to you.

Well this directly affects my happiness, and I feel like I've been pretty consistently unhappy because of this
Partially true perhaps. I do actually believe her but there is truth in what you're saying, she could have gave me a second chance. But the problem is really that she blew me off the face of the Earth. I almost get physically ill sometimes thinking about the cute things she said to me and knowing that I probably will never see her again.

It's a terrible feel.

I want her back so badly :(

I need her hugs again or I might die

So should I kill myself or not? I'm having trouble deciding

Help me out here guys. I need to know what I should do

Move on and forget about her.

You know how sometimes, you think about embarrassing things you did in the past and think "Oh god I was such a fucking retard". That's how you're going to feel about this. Your hormones are telling you she's important, but that will pass. You'll reach a point where it's baffling how much you thought about her. If she's willing to just cut contact with no real explanation like this, she's not worth your time. Even if you did find some way to get back in touch with her, she'd leave you in the same place further down the line. Additionally, if a woman points to one specific thing you said as the reason things went sour, don't believe it. It was a whole lot of little things, and having one specific mistake on your part to blame makes the shitty woman rationalization easier.

I totally get what you're saying, but it's been over 1.5 years and I'm still hurt

I'm 23, I'm well past the teenage hormones stage